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I feel like a terrible fucking person.
If someone walked up and shot in the fucking head right now I'd feel like I deserved it.
STORY TIME!
I was driving down a road I'd been down thousands of times, going what I thought was the speed limit (rural area no signs), then I see a fucking dog chasing a god damned cat towards the road and I slam on the brakes and lay on the horn trying to swerve away from the dog and cat. The brakes on my truck are complete shit so of course I didn't stop in time and I hit the fucking cat. Now I would be fine if that's all that happened, you know, it's just a cat. But two little fucking kids were in the yard when it happened and saw the whole damn thing. When I got my truck stopped I fucking U-turned to go back and saw the cat twitching on the road with the kids screaming and crying. I will never fucking forget that. I jump out my truck and what I assume was their dad was walking up to the road so I go talk to him. Thank God he was nice as he was or else I would have fucking broke down and cried right there in the street, he told me I was going far too fast down a road with kids playing on it and I agreed with him because I just fucking killed his cat. Then he asked me if I would take it off somewhere and bury and I say yes do so.
I don't think I can ever drive that road again. I just feel so bad about it. I still can't get the kids screams out of my head.
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that is indeed shocking and unfortunate but listen man at least you stopped and didn't just drive off laughing like some people really would do in that situation.

i have cats and honestly it would be fucking devastating if one ever got hit by a car and we're all adults, so i can imagine those screams you heard...

just be glad you have a conscience and can feel empathy.
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>>17101542
You're not a terrible person, you'd be terrible if you intentionally hit the cat or didn't do anything to avoid hitting it. You did all you could, and the fact that you went back and buried it is commendable, I don't know if I would do that I'd probably freak out. It's a horrible thing to have happened but it was an accident and it doesn't make you a bad person.
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>>17101554
btw if you buried the cat did you make sure it was fully dead before burying it? i assume it got badly hurt but if it was twitching it was still alive. cats are highly intelligent and very emotional animals, maybe you aren't aware of that, but as someone with cats i don't see much difference between killing and burying alive a kid than a cat. i hope you showed some sort of respect, like apologized to the cat as you buried it. cats just wanna live out their lives healthily and happily like we do. they feel the slightest breeze on their hair, you better believe that cat felt tremendous agony being hit by your truck

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Okay, so I was bored, thought I'd do something retarded and get a handy from a hoe. I go, shes full of greed. She steals some money from me, and when I ask for it back she pulls a tazer. So I leave. I call the cops; exaggerating saying I was a tenant in another room. "She chased a few men out with a tazer (lie) and I smell weed (she had weed in her room) I think she might be a hooker I'm not sure, I just don't wanna get anyone hurt" and the cops come and bust her room. Will the cops search footage for clients? And search her phone for clients? Aka am I fucked over?
/adv/
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>>17101534
Is this some kind of metaphoric bait?
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No I had no pictures to post so I posted the Skyline. I'm seriously stressing though, becuase the bitch got arrested
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>>17101534
okay bro, cops are out of the question when you're a john with a hooker, so you've got to about this your own way.

I'd suggest you track this hoe in some way, whether it's fake emails and pictures to get her attention on craigslist, or driving around the crack neighborhoods looking for her tweaked out on a corner.

And, then it's simple, beat that fucking tricks ass.

Now, they're used to this kind of behavior, so it's important you don't feel bad because she's a woman and stop after you think you got her good, this bitch is battle hardened, and I bet she's been bullied more the same night you find her than you ever dreamed of in highschool.

So, you're going to need to get this bitch on the ground and relentlessly be kicking her in the god damn jaw, and removing any teeth she might've had left from the meth addiction before she was too poor to afford any more.

Now, here's where it gets different, you're going to find out a few different things while she's bleeding out her gums on the ground in a ripped thrift shop sun dress, and those things are

1. She's broke, you're broke by proxy of her theft, and there's nothing more you can do about that, so enjoy your revenge, grab a tall boy on your way home and maybe find a bitch to fuck, because you're going to be horny and full of yourself.

2. You get a payday to replace those bloody shit kickers you killed the warranty on, in which case you might want to put some of that aside for a higher class broad next time you feel the urge to degrade a woman with your penis & newly acquired cash.

3. She'll have some notable possessions worthwhile to steal in leau of pay. May include a firearm, as you mentioned tazer, or cell phone with contacts. Same end result as the first option, but you can get some cash or use out of the possessions.

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Okay first off; I'm not some fucking hipster looking for attention. This shit was scary man! Anyway, I'm a pretty big spirituality kind of guy (In the sense of being capable of loving myself and being contempt with my surroundings not this I'm actually an alien flying through a cosmic mind nonsense Instagram bullshit) but I think I took it too far.. Well I've read up on the Pineal Gland since I was like.. 13 maybe and I just now tried it to see if it was "real". I spent three days.. Three days.. Trying to " open" my Pineal Gland and somewhere in the middle of the day on the fourth day I felt incredibly strange. This is the main part that I want to advise you guys of aswell and also receive advice because I'm starting to get a little afraid. In the moment of feeling this overwhelming "presence" about me, I started having trouble thinking.. Like actual trouble thinking about a specific topic. My mind was nitpicking and functioning like some type of tedious machinery. I felt as if I was ACTUALLY going insane. I couldn't think about a specific topic, I was dazed all throughout that week, I could barely put my sentences together properly and I started remembering memories that were LONNGG gone. Things like where I hid a toy when I was 9 and where I found it or some shit.. Man it was so scary at this point. Thing is.. I want to give it another go and see if I can relive all of it again.. Should I try it again?
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you had a petty little experience that wore off so quickly you're already here on 4chan discussing it.

protip: don't get hung up on experiences, they are all impermanent, they come and go, and normality always returns.

my advice to you is forget about third eye stuff and focus more on an intellectual study of ancient eastern religions like buddhism. sharpen your mind with thinking, don't get lost in chasing the dragon of "spiritual" experiences or you'll just turn into a hippie burnout like so many others. acquire as many books as possible and read, forget all about these experiences.

later on when you have a very firm intellectual foundation in the religion, then you can start meditating again. right now you're doing it backwards, hence your confusion. you need a firm foundation in other aspects before moving on to esoteric meditative practices, this is how it's always been in such traditions. the thing is that in internet age all the information is available at once, so the old way of making gradual progress guided by a knowledgeable master is lost and what we have is a bunch of baby's first trance type spiritual seekers rushing right into what used to be totally unknown esoterica without a strong foundation in knowledge and morality.
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>>17101478
You should try again but after it happened to me I could never feel that way by trying to feel that way. I feel like what you described comes to you when you're very lost and need guidance and also when your mind is thinking about something very important pertaining to your life.

Did you see anything? I've had my eyes closed and open during that experience, when closed it's all darkness with a huge blue dot in the middle of it, it looks like a blue eye or portal. When my eyes were opened, it was basically what I saw in the room but it looked everything was zooming in but also out?? and the same blue dot was there covering my vision until all I saw was blue with my eyes open! I freaked out and made my body move and the blue faded away. I've seen it again twice since then but only with closed eyes.
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this is some wild shit… but I'll play "Devil's (tee hee) Advocate" and ask if that glad doesn't need this kind of work to "open' it if you're a different kind of person. It just does its shit all the time. It's automatic.

maybe because youre a male, and the distance between the two globes of the brain is much wider than with females. Therefore, it's harder for your brain to make a connection with it because it's further away. In some people it's very easily obtainable because the lobe is right there.

Still, what youre doing is interesting and as long as you dont' try and contact "Captain Howdy" you're doing no harm.

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Is it weird to hang out with your best friend and his gf?

It's always my bro that's inviting me to come and hang out with them, I try not to hang out too much with both of them. Im pretty close friends with his gf as well but i can't shake the feeling that it's a bit weird even though we all have fun together.

It's even more awkward when she's drunk as fuck and starts kissing me on the cheek.
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Well, until you mentioned the kissing part, no it wouldn't be weird at all.

But now I understand. Your best friend has a cuck fetish and wants a threesome with you
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>>17101463
definitely this. i've seen this happening and been part of that dynamic countless times.

cuck fetish confirmed
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>>17101463
Lol ;^) Next time i see him ill pull out my dick

I have a female friend who I have known for many many years.

Over the years of knowing her in high school, I have gradually developed an interest in her (which is rare for me). We have similar backgrounds, but are quite different in terms of personality, complimentary even.
>Me being more intellectual and passionate, her being more simple (not negative) and diligent.
>I am not the best crying shoulder, She is not fussy in that way
>...

My best friends (even her sister) can tell that I do like her and that we would possibly make a good couple.

The deal with this girl is, that when we start talking, we can do so for a really long time. And weirdly about really insubstantial things.
>During this last skype we talked for over 20min about my braces and teeth, she shows genuine interest in such things.
But at the same time, when I start being a bit more 'flirtatious' she doesn't mirror or dismisses my attempts.
This has always been like this, even when we saw each other regularly.

At this stage, I just want to ask her out. But because of her ambiguous reactions, I am quite torn about how to attempt. Also because we live one hour apart now and never seem to find time to meet, I don't know how to do it.
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bumping for /adv/
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bumping for legit question
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>>17101410
>tfw her name is also Emily
I'm literally in the exact same situation buddy. Have a bump.

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This is going to be a long rant. Congratulations if you manage to read the whole thing.

In the last 200 years, we've become more technologically advanced than we've been in the entirety of our existence, and we will only continue to snowball as time goes on. The world population went from 1 billion to 6 billion. We're changing at an incredible pace. It's truly an exhilarating time to be alive, as we're on the cusp of the most powerful era of humanity. We live in a time that no other living creature on this planet has ever experienced or been able to comprehend, unlike any other era.

And with it comes the death of society as we've grown to know and love it.

Here's a thought; have you watched a genuinely entertaining, funny, or interesting commercial [it's not just commercials that are guilty of this, it's virtually all media] in the past decade? With each passing year they've become progressively more homogeneous and boring. Due to the current nature of (western especially) society, advertisers try their damn hardest to tick these boxes:

Not offensive to any race/gender/religion/identity/etc
Relevant to this era/generation

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The latter shouldn't be an issue–after all, we are more likely to enjoy media we can relate to. It has evidently worked wonderfully in the past. The problem lies within **what** is relatable. Take a look around you, and you'll realize society has become very, very boring. You'll notice everyone is glued to their phones/laptops/tablets, engaging with each other indirectly. Culture is no longer being shaped by the world around us, it's becoming homogenized and compressed into one disgusting melting pot. The future is rapidly becoming less about enjoying life, more about feeding egos. Not to mention, everyone is walking on eggshells trying to not offend one another, adopting a "live and let live" mentality. Millennials were raised with the ubiquitous notion that "everyone is unique, beautiful, special" and just as deserving of a good life as everyone else.

To illustrate my point, imagine Seinfeld–a notoriously successful sitcom–and shape the plot of an episode so that it could be relevant to this decade.
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Would you watch Seinfeld if it revolved around Jerry & friends talking about how many retweets they got, or what they saw on instagram? If Jerry started using youtube as a platform for his stand-up routine? What if Elaine met someone on tinder and they turned out to be catfishing her? What a gag, right? Ah but wait, it doesn't stop there! A new character would be introduced to the show, to add diversity. A strong, fat person of indistinguishable gender and race. But that's not diverse enough, is it? Let's add a character of every race, culture, and religion. Ensure they all get enough screen time, shove their "progressiveness" down the throats of viewers. Every episode would revolve around the same concepts and the same restrictions.

Fucking horrendous, innit? What's even more horrendous is that this is already happening.

I'm having a hard time putting this into words, if you couldn't already tell. I just want to ask you, /adv/, am I the only one that has a big fucking problem with current society?
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Hows being 17 treating you?

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Organising my travel myself for the first time. I'm going to Central Asia and it's quite expensive so I want to make sure I haven't forgotten anything.

Flight tickets
Airline specific stuff (baggage etc)
Hotel booking
Vaccines
Travel insurance

So, have I forgotten anything?
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>>17101369
How about a passport and ransom money?
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>>17101383
I've got a passport (practically everyone in my country does). I did remember that I need a visa.

I still need to find out the best place to get foreign currency from.
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>>17101395
>the best place to get foreign currency from
A currency exchange.

I am being promoted at work to a position which will allow me to move anywhere I want within the continental United States. The problem is I have no idea where I want to move. I'd like to be close to a beach and live someplace that's good to raise kids, but is more metropolitan. I have already lived in Nevada, Ohio, Iowa, Georgia, New Jersey, and Indiana and don't want to go back to any of those places. I am also not interested in deep south states like Mississippi or Alabama. Where would you live /adv/ if you could live anywhere in the states?

Here is a little about me

$150K+ annual income
Kids
More of a homebody, but like having options to do different things
I want a boat so close to the water is key (large lake or ocean)
Here are some areas I am thinking:

Carolina Coast
Florida - Tampa or West Palm Beach
California - (Not LA or San Francisco)
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>>17101341
It's so 2016 seeing someone who makes more than 150 thousand dollars a year asking advice on 4chan about where to move
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>>17101341
just gonna put out there, you said you don't want to live in the deep south but Mobile actually fits all your criteria, I've been there a few times when my ship came into port and I was really impressed by it compared to the rest of the south.

Tampa and WPB are extremely boring areas just fyi. If you're going to live in Florida live in Miami or Jacksonville. If you want to live in California but not LA/SF how about San Diego or Santa Barbara, both are very nice.
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>>17101341
Seattle, WA if you don't want snow.

Minneapolis, MN if you do.

Your metropolitan requirement is pretty shit.

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I'm a 20 year old male who has yet to have sex. I've been waiting to get married. Is it worth it ? Also does having sex with more partners make you happy?
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>>17101308
>I've been waiting to get married.
Fucking why?
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I'm 21 and lost my v card a few days ago. It was alright, but holy fuck is it over hyped.

None of your problems go away after, your life doesn't magically get better. You just stuck your dick in a girl.
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>>17101385
Knowing what you know now would you have waited for marriage?

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How to download CSGO for free

I tried https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=lV1ps_h8xGE
And It doesn't work

Any other ways of getting the game for free?
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how can you not afford a $15 game

are you 12
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>>17101271
Literally turned 18 just two moths ago

Nope, parents won't buy me anything related to "those devil games"
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>>17101282
then buy it yourself??

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I've found myself cornered in life. It's a long story but in a nutshell, I have to make a run for it with 3-5k USD, my dog, a car and whatever personal belongings I can fit in it. How long could I live with that money in the US and what would be the most efficient way to go about finding shelter or living in my car?

I know I'm omitting a lot of important info but I just wanted the thread going as soon as possible. I have roughly 3 weeks to prepare everything.
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Got some bitch pregnant huh?
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>>17101261

If you're willing to work, you can live indefinitely.

If you just sit and do nothing till your money runs out, you could last a few months.


Tips:
>head south where it's warmer

>get a bicycle so you can have free transportation

>if you live out of your car, consider getting a gym membership so you can have a place to shower

>living in a storage unit is a possibility, usually against the rules and illegal in some places (https://www.storedge.com/how-and-why-to-prevent-live-in-renters)

>subletting someone's shitty basement gives you the ability to get a library card, free internet, email, books, obvious amenities of indoor living

>buy generic and cook your own food

>painters will hire anyone who will work
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step 1. fit as few personal belongings as possible, don't take shit bc its yours take shit bc you need it.

do bring lots of clothing.

start googling tips on how to live out of your car and where to take showers when homeless. there's plenty of info online.

from there the biggest thing is to spend these 3 weeks making sure every bit of preventive maintenance and cleaning that can be done to your car is done. you want that thing running well, well stocked on oil/fluids etc and the cleanest its ever been.

if you get woken up while sleeping in your car by the cops, you want the car to look perfectly clean with no trash in it. then you can sell basically any excuse and they'll let you go on your way, assuming you aren't black tho desu

beyond the car looking as good as it can look and running as well as it can (put air in your tires etc) you ought to spend the lion's share of the next 3 wks figuring out what you are going to do after you make your run for it to add to your $3k bc that will not last you forever.

honestly this is a pretty specific set of problems that many people have written about, you don't need /adv/ just google how to eat, shower and sleep when you are living out of a car.

AND MAKE SURE YOU KNOW WHERE/HOW YOU ARE GOING TO FIND WORK. Gotta get on that shit.

some stuff you might forget (bring a tire pump, bring toiletries including a setup you can stay clean shaven with). its crucial that you be able to walk in from your car/home to a job interview and stand some chance of landing it.

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just a few weeks before we graduated college, i lost all my friends.

it sucks, watching them enjoy their farewell parties together and stuff while i'm left out. all because i pissed off one person by asking them to stop talking shit about her friends because it made me uncomfortable. i'm guessing she said some shit about me that made them not want to associate with me any more.

i don't have any high school friends because i've constantly moved around. and now i don't have any college friends because of this bull shit.

i'm so fucking mad, i don't know what to do. can you even make friends beyond this point? i feel like i'm cursed. i've always ended up friendless somehow.

i wish i could just make friends at my new job, but i work from home so i don't get to meet any one.

joining a club sounds alright, but what else can i do?
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>>17101190

sounds like you werent in the wrong (but we only hear your side of it). truth is college friends dont last. they become facebook buddies, and in the day of facebook you tend to meet up with old friends less than ebfore facebook. cuz you dont imsss them when you can just message them all the time.

anyway, if you want to make new friends its not only possible but normal. the big issue is that after college friends tend to be less reliant on each other. dont think they want to be, they just get that way from not having a forced hangout situation like dorms and classes. the following advicei will copy paste was intended for meeting girls, but it works even ebtter for friends.
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>>17101201
effort. lots and lots of effort. and also, doing what you like. going out is in no way restricted to bars and clubs, though if that is what you enjoy, by all means, go to bars and clubs.

the truest way to find chemistry is to experience your life in the most enjoyable way, and see how you match with the people who come into it. interacting with someone in a casual way shows you how you ACTUALLY get along, not how you hope to get along cuz you really want this to work cuz you need a gf.

so write down a list of all your hobbies, and find a way to externalize them. most people live at least near a city these days.

go to any and all hobby shops and ask about local events. gun shops might have hunting trips. or you can just go to a shooting range. comic book stores have game nights. or live commentary movie nights. if these shops do not host events, offer to host one through them, after all it will only lead to more money through them.

you can even go to a more casual store, lets say, a book store, and stand in your favorite aisle (lets say, horror). talk to everyone who comes by looking for a book. ask what book they are looking for. tell them what book you are looking at. try to spark a conversation abotu your favorite author. maybe take some suggestions. if you really hit it off, try to trade numbers.

its okay if it doesnt pan out. this isnt a scoring system. there is no man in a cloack in space making down on a cosmic chalkboard how many failed conversations you had. 99% of interaction is dumb. you are waiting for the 1% and enjoying talking about your favorite things with strangers until then.
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>>17101204

>but anon, going outside somewhere to find out if maybe they have an event doesnt suit my lazy lifestyle!!1!

and for those who simply cannot bring themselves to get up out of the house without a guarantee go to meetup.com and look for something of your interest. no matter what your interest it is on there in a group you can meet with. and if not, you can start your own meet up.

Now, some of you may argue that these sorts of tailored events are attended mostly by men. yes. mostly. but some women too. whats important here is you will be doing something you love, with people who love what you love, and when the right ladies come along you'll know they love it too. you will have that common ground.

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/adv/ this is really bothering me, what is the guy saying from about 0:06 to 0:15 in this song?

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=TUmA3ujkD3w

Ursus efuksiste immeamente? Ursus ef existe ime amente? I can't really make it out, probably in some other language. Halp?

BTW no this song is not on any websites that show you lyrics :(
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I'll bump this into oblivion!
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He is saying

"is op a faggot? Yes op is a faggot"
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>>17103887
Thanks

Anyone hear something different?

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About to enter the 20th year of my life.
And still waiting to fall head-over-heel in love.
I hardly ever feel attraction to random strangers of people I talk them. I see that they are hot and I would love to have sex with them, but hardly ever on an emotional level. I am not gay.

Currently at university and studying a subject which has a large female student ratio.
Most male friends (and family) who visit me envy me for the amount of hot chicks walking around my faculty.
>What the hell is wrong with you, those chicks are all so hot.

Although I agree, I fail to feel any emotional attraction to them. I would think that with over 2000 girls in my direct vicinity, I would finally feel that 'love' people are hyping so much.

People always told me that when going out regularly, meeting new people, I would soon feel that feeling.
>Just give it time.
It looks so easy when others do it.
>Meet
>Talk
>Date
>Relationship

But I am tired of waiting. I meet new people (incl. girls) all the time, by virtue of being a social guy.
>But this is eating me up inside.
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>>17101152

>still waiting

here is your problem. you arent waiting. you are expecting. a watch pot never boils and all that jazz. you DO need to live life. you claim you are but this post indicates you are not.

its okay to talk to someone you only have a casual interest in and see if it gets stronger, but dont go around looking for love per se.
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As it seems to me, you might not form deep and meaningfull relationships with people in general, easily. It seems like you think that you can fall in love "at first sight". But what happens, when you do that, is that you "fall in love" with your idea of how someone is. That's pretty dangerous and misleading.
In your case, i can see two possible reasons you haven't fallen in love yet.
>the girls you have met all didn'tnfit your criterias. That's a legit possibility
>you don't get to know them good enough, so you ASSUME, they are not what you want/need

I lean towards option two
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>>17101169
There is a certain truth to this probably.
>A frustrated man makes an impatient man.

I do go through my daily life not thinking about it and don't 'scan' my environment for 'love'. It is just that statistically (and considering that I am member of multiple student organisations, etc.) I should meet a person I feel motivated to follow up on.
I love talking to people and getting to know them. But I have found it increasingly hard to find people I really want to get-to-know.

>>17101182
As said above, I love getting to know people and what makes them tick.
>What is your passion? I can listen to people and talk to people (and have done so in the past) for hours.

On that level I don't really have a problem.
It only feel that building that meeting people I find even mildly interesting is getting smaller.
>This is genuinely scaring me.

I do not suffer from any clinical mental illness. I am busy yes, but so are many others.

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Hi /adv/
I have no one to talk about this with. I am going to write everything down so you can see where I am fully coming from, so beware that this will be a long read. Please note that I am seeking help for my medical conditions but I live somewhere my health care system not very good so progress can take a long time.

I am not really sure where to start with all this but I guess I will just go with my background first. When I was very little I almost lost my father he had PTSD and had became disabled from the military. I had always had very bad anxiety even at a young age I would lock myself up from the world on a daily basis, my parents knew and my father knew right away because of his medical conditions. My parents chose to tell me growing up that it was normal so that I could learn how to cope with it. It is hard to explain but the best way I can explain it is for some reason I always felt extremely afraid of everything, I can even remember when I was three feeling this way and feeling like the shadows around me when walking were going to suffocate me. I did not understand my anxiety when I was little as I grew older I began to understand that it makes me over sensitive to everything around me. It probably did not help either that I had a lot of medical conditions that always sent me to the hospital as a kid, anxiety and medical conditions do not mix.

My mother did not believe in me seeking medical help because of how medication had affected my father. She told me to just work out and eat healthy which I did but nothing improved. I wanted to seek help for it around 10 years but never did in fear of upsetting my mother. When I went off to college my anxiety got so bad that it affected my medical conditions really badly, my crohns had got so bad that I was having pools of blood when I would go to the washroom. I locked myself up in my dorm for months I had enough food to last me for that long I did not go to my classes.
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When my parents came to get me after the end of the semester they could see how bad I was. I did the same for a couple of months at their house. I locked myself up and never went out of my room, the only time I would leave my room was at night when everyone was asleep I would eat. My parents sat my down and my mom told me she thinks I should seek medical help. I was so use to locking myself up that when I did the therapy it did not help because I was still locked up in my mind. Another factor was the therapist was the father of someone I went to school with his daughter bullied me so I felt uncomfortable saying anything to him. Since this therapy was run through the government I could not switch and if I did it would take me another year and a half to get someone else.

Therapy ended nothing happened, my mother told me I should give college another try but this time it would be online. I went to school for graphic design for two years and did really good at it. In this time my mother also hooked me up with this guy and we had been dating for a year and a half. My boyfriend then joined the air force. I finished my college and had no clue what to do. I started applying to jobs locally just retail jobs to get some money in while I worked on my portfolio. I had gotten so confident from my schooling that I forgot how bad my anxiety was when I was around people. First job I had was just part time at a store near me, I was very nervous. On my 2nd day I admitted to having an auditory processing disability because my manager was yelling at me calling me stupid. My manager responded saying that I should of told her during the interview that I had a disability. I quit the next day for fear of being fired. Next job I got was at an organic food store, it was very hard for me because I had to remember all the codes for each product in order to put them into the cash. I am dyslexic but did not want to admit to having a disability, I spent the next month getting yelled at.
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I quit that job because my anxiety had gotten so bad that all that was on my mind was work. I could not get my mind to rest. I was in constant fear of being yelled at for making mistakes. After a week I got another job at another place. A big warehouse store, the company benefits were really good when I got offered a job they never told me what job I was doing I was just excited that I was going to be moving forward and that I may find the right fit while I work on my portfolio for graphic design and look for a job in the field that I studied for. Got to work turns out that I was doing cleaning. I did not mind cleaning but how the other staff treated me made me feel embarrassed. I would get comments from staff saying ew do not go near me whenever I was near staff. It did not bother me that much.

One day I had to close the washroom because there was a leak I had 5 mins to clean it up and fix things up so that customers could use the washroom. Customers were waiting in line patiently and were very polite. The staff has their own washroom and one of the rude staff cut in line of all the customers and went into the customer washroom even though it was closed. My anxiety was bad but I told her that was rude and not to do that and that there are staff washrooms and to say sorry to the customers for yelling at them and being rude. She said she was coming back with a manager for harassing her so I said "okay I will explain the situation then". She never came back with manager instead she came back in the washroom she said I was harassing her because she was black. I was put off by this and said come with me to her and brought her to a manager she lied about the situation and I ended up getting in trouble. I tried really hard for it to not bother me. I was in a crowd of customers in the store and I started having a really bad anxiety attack I could not talk properly for a couple of days I was stuttering that bad.

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