They used to throw snowballs at me on my way home from school :(

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>Be friends with two brothers
>Want to hang out all the time because I'm lonely
>They basically agree to meet up then hide from me and mock me
>Drop off the presents I brought them despite not being able to find them at their house with their mother
>Awkward

>>17196717
cont.
The way I see it, I'm going through a period of intense confusion about myself, my own worth and my life goals. I was happy enough for the past 5 years to be in a school environment with like-minded people to validate my worth, and a goal (getting the job I wanted) to achieve. But now that I've lost everything that was keeping me up and gained a shit ton of responsibilities instead, every unresolved issue comes back crashing. I feel like an alien. I feel like barely anyone can understand me and...
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Discovering, hobbies, trying out new things.

>>17196722
cont.
It seems I'm doing slightly better since roughly 2 months. I have a girlfriend for the first time now, she is in love with me and completely understanding of my feelings (or lack thereof). I understand the mechanisms of depression and I'm able to rationalize bad thoughts. I write my thought processes in a journal and get a better understanding of how I got there in the first place. But I still can barely get excited about anything. I hate that I have to work everyday when I wish to just rest my mind and take some off time to resolve my issues when everyone expects me to be a functioning member of society. I feel terrified that everything I do gets processed by my self-deprecating mindset and I have no genuine thoughts anymore. I feel like my GP is the only person who understands that I have clinical anhedonia and not that I'm just sad.

Which leads to my question. What's next? Should I take meds to help kickstart my mood again and work on my issues, or can I expect to get better with therapy alone? When I'm with my shrink, I fail to really make progress because I can't express how I feel unless I cry and unload my frustration, and when I do, I feel like I'm just venting the symptoms of my depression instead of trying to reach for the causes. 90% of my time I can't bring myself to talk about what actually bothers me like the body image and asexuality issues because they make me uncomfortable and I know they're not the root cause of my mental health issues. To be honest I'm just stuck and frustrated because I want my girlfriend to be with a happy person and I want to enjoy life again. Guess that's a goal worth working towards.

I know that's a lot to read, but I would have a hard time making things clearer.

Not if your man crush is David Gandy

>>17196610

He isn't.

1 real friend > 100 fake fb or club friends

Who cares what people think about it
Thise "friends" will disappear soon enough for them

>>17196573

One or two is the minimum requirement

+500 facebook friends just means you are a social whore

literally half the people on this board have no friends. don't beat yourself up over it.

>>17196525
how large is he compared to the plug you've been using?

Use plug immediately before. You gotta stretch it before having anal sex. Anal sex takes a lot of preparation, not only putting a plug up yer bum once in a while

>>17196546
I was thinking about doing that. Proposing anal sex was just a spur of the moment idea, so we didn't really have any prep time.

>>17196542
I'm not sure exactly how big it is. I had a series of 3 different size silicone plugs (I use the smallest) and a jeweled metal plug that just had one standard size that I use.

>>17196520
How?
Why?

And yes he deserves to know and he should dump you
If you cant control yourself you should've gotten drunk or even been in a relationship in the first place

Yes people make mistakes, you cheated on him and he is allowed to break up

But srlsy he was next to you and you fucked his friend..
People wonder why i have trust issues

If you're not trolling, you're literally a horrible human being that doesn't deserve happiness

>>17196520
Hahaha it's funny.

You think he's just going to dump you, but you dumped yourself.

>>17196503
societies are anti-nature. Its more egalitarian to let everyone try their hand. Not to mention survival of the fittest is relative. Plenty of fat, unhealthy indians are the forerunners of STEM academic programs. Who then is the more "fit?"

>>17196587
the best looking, most athletic people obviously.

>>17196587
how are societies anti nature? in nature, the strong rule the weak, it is exactly the same in society. not to mention the provisions of power that are a part of society

If you're not black, like me, then yeah. It's that easy. But you've got to not show desparation. It's like bargaining for a car (terrible comparison); you have to be cool about it while negotiating and talking, no matter how much you want it. As soon as you show desperation or intense desire, it's in their hands.

>>17196496
yeah it pretty much is. Women are attention sponges and will mostly follow where you lead. That's the downside, I htink you can lose respect for them when you realize they blow with the wind and don't have strong ethical codes past whatever they feel like doing - so in a word, fickle.

in which OP finally understands that "just b urself" is more than a meme

>>17196495
a doctor

>>17196499
Not an option. If it was, I wouldn't be asking
But you certainly knew this already

>>17196501
then make it an option

>>17196477
ahahahahahahahahahaha

good luck

you just lost a relationship and knocked up a bitch

I did this. I literally did the same as you.

Just ask her to have an abortion. If she is really your best friend, she will do it, and she will keep her mouth shut about it. If you live in a country where you have to pay, pay for it.

>>17196477
If she's your best friend, there's no problem here. You should be with her in the first place. If your girlfriend, who has been with you for 12 years, isn't your best friend, you shouldn't be with her. You clearly hold your best friend in better esteem. Your spouse should be your best friend. The person who has your back when no one else does.

>>17196450
To be honest if he gets far enough to see it even a hair monster is probably not gonna dissuade him. You should probably use honey wax (look it up, you can even make it at home), it'll work better, last longer, and not give you the razorburn you're describing.

if he's a fuckboi, why not keep the bush? Only shave/wax for someone who's preferences matter to you. I shaved for one guy and then after we split asked my current what he prefered; turns out its the full bush!

Like the other anon said, guys dont see hair down there and xbox 360 out of the room. At the end of the day just do what makes you feel cute though.

>>17196450
Why lose it to a guy like that?

But no we dont really care about it BUT if you want oral then yes smooth is the way to go

it's fairly normal to prefer one parent over another. Don't worry about it. Just be nice to your mom.

>>17196436
Are they divorcing? Don't feel guilty, it's their own fucking fault and they should feel guilty themselves.

It depends on their personalities and your personal relationships. It's normal to be closer to one parent.

You aren't at a loss. You know what needs to be done and said. You just don't want to tell her what's what for some reason. You should, I mean duh, her drama isn't your drama. It'll suck, but thats life. What advice are you expecting?

>>17196517
well you could advise him to get her into speed dating or show her around, get her out of the goddamn house and get her meeting new people.
one-itis for a girl only happens because they've gone fujo tier and never leave their pc's. they just need to be re-introduced to the cock carousel and the OP can resume living his life or whatever the hell he's doing

>>17196517
>>17196552
Abusive home life, horrible friends and boyfriends and just getting fucked over constantly has left her with literally no emotional stability.

She screams at you when you suggest she seeks professional help because "it makes her feel bad".

I think she's trying to get off some medication she used to be on too, so that explains a lot too.

My job is online.

>>17196366
>"You always say its online, but doing what?"

>>17196386
Coding.

>>17196361
>Is anyone like this ever gonna get saved or get better?
Maybe, but not until she takes an active role in her own recovery, and you cannot help her to do that.

>Or am I on the right track to completely sever her from my life?
I think you're on the right track. Sad to say, but too much damage has been done. This has gone toxic.

>>17196361
Being abused doesn't make you immune to being an awful human being. She sounds like a bad person.

>>17196361

She might be able to "get better" in her own way, but I don't think you can ever expect her to do the stable, monogamous, settling-down-and-raising-a-family thing. This might sound really cold, but... could you ever really see her being a good mother, with her background and her baggage? Can you see her raising kids with a healthy outlook on the world? It's not her fault, she never really had a chance, but just ask yourself what your priorities are.