This is definitely a form of schzophrenia and you should see a psychiatrist. I had something similar happen. Get help.

>>16997821


Agreed

>>16997821
OP here,
Can a schizo know he's one?

No. My anxiety got worse and worse. Couldn't get out of bed. Felt like I was choking all the time.

Went to psychiatrist and am on Prozac and xanax. Life is much more tolerable now.

>>16997706

go to a therapist first and seek guidance on facing your fears.

drugs are a last result for people who are chemically fucked up.

>>16997751
How many visits until you stopped seeing them/got meds? I don't have insurance right now and am pretty poor and am depending on savings at the moment

>>16997681

hes a shitty friend if he knew you were after her.

>2 years ago

dude get over it

>i have gotten over it i just feel like ive lost apart of myself

no you havent it. at all. if two years ago you rant about it. and thats okay i guess, but seriously get over it because

>all of my smiles and optimism are gone

you are ruining two years of your life over a girl you never actually dated?

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Dude just find another girl

Get some therapy and you should be able to move on. Maybe even try group therapy where you can maybe meet someone.

I know of at least three guys suit like this happened to when they were young. Now they are 50s and 60s, never got over, single their whole life.

Don't be one of those guys.

>Date a girl who has a bf

What makes you think she wont do the same to you?

>>16997636

I'm not considering cheating. Just breaking up and try something with her but we'd have to admit our attraction for each other beforehand.

My friend always told me that if you ever got in love with two different girls to pick the second one. Because I'd you loved the other you wouldn't of done it to the first one.

>>16997504

>tried to throw myself out the window

how did you survive?

>something actually wrong iwth me

sounds like therapy might help you discover it.

>>16997520
Tried meaning i ran into the glass but it didn't break im a skinny ass motha fucka

>>16997536

lmfao, why didnt you just open the window afterwards?

therapy tho

>>16997496
First off, nice bait. But I'll reply anyway. Tell him you want him to watch you get off, and that he can't touch until you say ok. Rub your clit, stick your finger in your ass, do whatever you do when your schlicking yourself to get off. Then let him join in. Maybe he'll learn how to turn you on. Worse case you cum, maybe he gets you to cum a second time.

>>16997496

Try oral w/someone you're actually attracted to. Foreplay a necessity.

It all starts in your head. I would start watching pornography and/or erotic literature to figure out what your sexual triggers are.

Then start thinking about them when masturbating. Maybe let the guy know what they are and do some role play.

I get brain farts when it comes to writing riffs sometimes they usually come to me when I'm showering or just enjoying some free time doing nothing at all. Usually whenever it's most inconvenient to write them down, I think it's oral when you are always pushing so much music in to get something out of yourself.
>that picture triggers hard cause there's kids out there that would believe that if the date wasn't farfetched.

>>16997668
What do you mean you think it's oral?

And thanks for reply, I thought everyone was just here for the beta struggles

>>16997480
What kind of music do you normally listen to?

>>16997465
Maybe you need to find an area of chemical engineering that is interesting?
Like, I have no interest whatsoever in what most people consider to be computer science, but there are some very fascinating things about it.

Chemical engineering sounds like it'd be super fun if rather than getting into high tech stuff, you went for low tech brute force stuff. I wonder how efficient it would be to try do mining just by blasting everything with Chlorine Trifluoride?

>>16997484
Yeah, thankfully there's a lot of variety within the field, so maybe there's hope I'll be content with my career. If I had to choose this second I'd do green energy, but it's less of an interest and more out of a feeling of duty to help fix the planet, so I'm afraid I might end up unhappy.

>>16997516
Well, one specific thing in that field which is literally cool is the possibility that if you used photon upconversion to turn black body radiation into photovoltaic-usable light, then you made loads of very thin photovoltaic cells like that and layered them so they'd absorb each other's black body radiation, then you'd have a photovoltaic block which turns heat into electricity.

>>16997461
>but got the job anyway?
Damn typo.

never ever

No sorry OP

>>16997415
Oil rig

So you want a badass job that requires no qualifications, is outdoors, and pays really well?

While we're at it why don't we get you a supermodel wife and a sprawling villa off in the countryside?

>>16997420
Hey, don't be a dick. Maybe I wasn't clear but I'm asking about jobs in the $12/hr range, i.e. grunt work.

continued from the previous post.. I ended up telling Pablo what happened, and asked him if she talked about it. Pablo lied to me and said "not really". You can tell when Pablo lies because his lower lip curls up. Angrily I asked "Did you know this was gonna happen?" and he said "Yes". I got mad and asked "Why didnt you tell me?" Pablo told me to fuck myself and left the diner. Anyway, 2 weeks later the Girl calls me in tears telling me she let her emotions get to her head and she said she wants a second chance. I really like this girl,...
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Her ex dumped her again and now wants you back. What do you think will happen when he wants to fuck again?

Don't fuck with basic bitches. You're being lulled in by your inexperience with women, and this isn't going to end in any way that's beneficial for you.

By the sound of it, Pablo is probably fucking her.

>>16997403

generally speaking the best approach is to slowly push romance on to her so that she has a chance to develop those feelings if she hasnt already. its not instant, which gives her a chance to see if she might feel that way.

>but howwww

good question. it tends to be specific to your current relationship. you got to start pushing a little further. do you hug? go for one. then go for a kiss on the cheek. when you go to the movies maybe dont buy her ticket, but get her candy....
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>>16997433

I definitely appreciate the reply so I'm going to try to take what I can from it without disputing everything.

That said, the slow push seems pretty impossible, given that we have a rapport and I'm not into her enough to want to spend a super long time trying to seduce her. It's kind of a "you're cute, I'm cute, we get along and like the same things" feeling.

I do think you're on the right pulse with something that has a little more weight to it, but I live...
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>>16997492

seems like a weird thing to me, to throw away a ten year relationship just to see if maybe you might be romantically or sexually compatible.

to each their own tho.

Wow, /adv/ is moving faster and faster.

>>16997386
If you want to be friends that bad again, call him and tell him you'll happily squash this cunty behavior if he agrees to do the same. I can only hope you a gems in, because guys, who are friends don't act like this.

he?
you both sound like women.

It's significantly true, but if you failed CS II then you are NOT AT ALL cut out for programming. Not even as a code monkey.
That is babby tier shit. I learned all of that on the job by accident.
that being said, getting an absolute 0 means either:
Your teacher had it out for you, and this will be obvious, so lodge a complaint
Or you didn't do your homework, didn't turn it in, didn't show up for class or tests, or were so amazingly fucking wrong with every answer that there was no partial credit to give.

Either way it doesn't sound...
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>>16997398
Had to google 'code monkey'

I'm just a bit frustrated because during the TA meetings, I was leading with questions and participation. In fact, the class agreed the TA should teach the class. During the midterm, idiots sat next to me in an attempt to copy my answers.

No one could ask questions in class because you'd get torn a new asshole by the professor and not learn anything since he'll just degrade you.

I'm going to try again. I don't have a special aptitude...
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>0
>idiots sat near you because they thought you were smart in order to cheat off of you
Some professors think cheating is a two way street. He might have thought you were an enabler and gave you a 0 for it.

Unless when he went over the test you got everything wrong.

If you're struggling in 100 level courses, you're going to find upper level courses to be impossible. I've gotten straight A's three semesters in a row and am having trouble in a CS course now. It isn't going...
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>is it wrong to have feelings for someone who has a gf

no. acting upon it is. what you are doing is a bit of a grey area. i mean its not nice, but you arent doing anything really harmful. if the girl and guy are secure in their relationship it wont matter, and if they are not it will be a growing lesson.

>>16997367
I'd call it non-verbal flirting. you're not directly hitting on these guys, but you're essentially saying the option is there if you wanna ditch this bitch

that's why these other girls mean mug you, to get your eyes on them and away from their boyfriend

>>16997369
That's the point l think if they had a strong relationship they couldn't get affected by my harmless action. But again i do know it's not nice that's why I never did anything beyond the line.