>>17302264 (cont)
>had a close female friend in my town at that time that was a quite the character.
>kind of a diva, emotionnal and crazy.
>had leucemia when she was younger and her mother beat the shit out of her when she was a child.
>hang around her because we're both edgy outcasts.
>she tells me that I have to understand she doesn't finds me attractive and...
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>>17302278 (cont)
>Traveled to Poland for studies.
>Met a cute blonde polish girl whose first word to me where "suck my dick" in my native language.
>She invite me for tea at her house, I meet her parents and we watch movies in her room
>We hugs regularly and she's pretty sexual in her behaviors.
>We spent a whole month like that.
>Learns...
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>>17302304 (cont)

I don't look at girls in the street. I never had crushes and the only girl I fell in love with was that polish girl, but only after a month or two of knowing her.

I don't really get aroused easily (working in art school and performance art help) but I fapp on a regular basis.
It doesn't feel "good". Feels more like maintenance.

Now. I can make friends easily, my family supports me even tho i don't talk to them about my problems and I know I can count on 4...
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What? If any, they love you if they bother.

>>17302248
I am stupidly picky and i always imagine people would no doubt prefer someone else and they put up with me because they have no choice. Can't handle criticism well, as a result.
Retarded, it goes further. If a person can get rid of me, i always suppose he/she is looking forward to it.
I can't appreciate love, what is wrong
Why am i such a pussy

>>17302258
Then figure out if you're really a pain in the ass. You're either an insufferable prick or have low self-esteem. I'm betting for the later.

Call her you doofus.

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>>17302251
Ain't got her number :(

>>17302255
Damn, son. Ask your friend for it.

>>17302168
What choices are "retarded" and who is your family to judge? They raised you, it's not like you just showed up one day looking for handouts.

Why don't you care about anyone? There should be some reasons you can come up with... past experiences, etc?

You appreciate life by finding what makes you happy regardless of what others think of you, and the self-identification of being a retard isn't helping your cause.

First, stop being a self-defeating pussy. You carry the burden of your errors when you should be carrying the burden of your responsabilities.

Second, get your shit together. Whatever path you originally chose, come back at it. Have a plan, write shit down and stick it everywhere. This works wonders for reminding you your goals. Since you have a family, ask them to support you on your crusade for success.

Third, don't go back to being a whiny bitch. This is the hardest part, especially when you are about to start working on something. You will have doubts,...
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>>17302284
Anon, thanks for replying.
My choices like dropping out of uni or overrating my abilities any other way lead my family to lose large sums of money for nothing. It is no less than 10000$.
I have the mindset of when i am dead i won't care anyway or something.
There are lots of things i like, but i don't feel they're enough to endure the negative feels.
I'm 20 and a horrible child, parents still clean the shit i've done and this never stops to happen.
How to grow up, how to stop...
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>>17302143
The only people I ever see having this issue are those that:

a) did not try work related programs in college
b) passed by the skin of their teeth
c) did not participate enough to get decent recommendations
d) uninterested in attending job fairs leading up to graduation

Do any of these fit your situation?

>>17302148
I didn't take work study in college, and my freshman year was riddled with C's. I ended up hitting above a 3.0 every quarter following fall quarter of sophomore year, but only did well enough to get a 3.15 cumulative. I don't believe I had strong enough connections with my professors to get recommendations from aside from my major advisor and maybe one professor who's seen me work exceptionally hard to catch up in his courses. I have gone to career fairs, but I was always struck with anxiety given...
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>>17302179
yeah, i can see how that would be a tough sale. did you take any business com classes, or know how to write your own resumes?

i'd suggest just looking online and finding jobs you like, making targeted resumes and researching the company to kill in the interview.

you could always look at master's programs, but this time going in with goal of busting ass, and securing even better recommendations... when people look at your educational history, something that always sticks out is your ability...
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>>17302139
of course not. Blaming yourself for being goodhearted is absolute nonsense.

>>17302139
my friend there needs to be more people like you. this is good, good to the point it s past normal human behavior. it is never a bad thing to value a life. and if someone tells you other wise, tell them "you convinced you not to value life... YOURS"
i had an ex one who would go so far as to save bugs. its people like yous that make the world a better place to live

You're a good person. Too many people treat life as if it is nothing sacred until death creeps close to them.

People like you see value in all life, no matter the length of its span and don't buy into the callousness that people automatically buy into. I personally save spiders and set them back outside myself.

It's good on you man, don't let anyone else tell you different.

Depends on where you live sometimes, a cousin of mine (currently an uber driver) lives in LA and gets a lot of drunk, rich people that like to gamble, and usually they take him gambling and give him money and shit, then pay him a huge ass tip at the end because they're drunk as fuck and don't know what they're doing. Good luck anon

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>>17302116
I live in the same place, so maybe you can enlighten me more. Main concern would be

>are they biased against new drivers? No they check how long I have been driving for, or just driving record and when I last renewed my lisence?

>would it help to invest in a higher quality car or SUV if I plan on using it to drive rich people around and transport small deliveries?

Also, one thought that occurred to me is that if I actually go through...
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>>17302138
>are they biased against new drivers? No they check how long I have been driving for, or just driving record and when I last renewed my lisence?
I mean, all people are different, some might care, some might not. Also, I'm not too much of an Uber expert, so I can't help you on that second part, but for the most part, if you have a license and a decent amount of experience, I don't think they'll care.

>would it help to invest in a...
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Who is her?

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Post an ad looking to share a house or apartment. Get a new place, leave this current relationship. Profit.

>>17302093
his mom I'm guessing

And anon what you could do is just alpha up and tell your mom to heck off a little or some shit, either that or just deal with it, idk what to tell you man, good luck

Keeping a girls attention overseas no less for 6 months is hard to do.

Be prepared for the worst but keep doing what you're doing. Continue the skype sessions and so on and you may get somewhere.

>>17302079

I'm already prepared for whatever may happen but damnit it'd make me so fucking happy, I can't afford to see her until I move it just wouldn't work out for me, she told me to take my time but... I don't know if she was just saying that to reassure me or not all of this is just driving me insane

U better learn to keep her interested for longer unless you want the relationship to last less than 6mo.

I care about my wife, son and pet, but I dont care about anyone else. I dont consider myself a sociopath. I wont hurt nobody. I just dont care about people in general.

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>>17302051
You're probably more antisocial than anything. Is your wife the same?

>>17302038
I have a red tabby/tuxedo sleeping on my lap right now.

You cannot miss people until you are gone from them. You do likely do not have a baseline from which you know what missing people is like. You love your cat and you openly share affection with the cat, which you know at college you will be away from that.

Also, you will find very few people in life that you will not ever want to be away from. Pets are never in that category. Hope this helps.

>>17302026
What does that mean? I am already open to anal play.

>>17302025
You'd already be there if you were alpha enough. Stick to your one woman like the gay you are.

>>17302021
Seems like you just got bored of him and sex with men. You'll probably feel the same way if you constantly had sex with women and no men. Try spicing it up with another threesome

Has anyone experienced anything similar....? I know most people aren't bi. Hell, a lot of gay people don't even believe in bisexuality. I'd just like to get an idea of what is wrong with me. This has been going on for a month

>>17302030
This was another issue I hoped to address. Other females do NOT like me. I am not ugly by any means - pretty average looking. Women were all over me 2 years ago, but since we all moved on with our lives I've gotten nothing, aside from a friend's girlfriend who likes to do stuff with me occasionally. At this point, pretty girls make me nervous. I think maybe they can sense that?

What major?

If its a legit major, go to Columbia.
If its English, Philosophy or Sociology tier, BU.

Anon, no matter what anyone tells you: You are not guaranteed a job once you get out of school. Unless Columbia has strong evidence to the contray of this, it is not worth the crippling debt. Being able to graduate with a degree and not be a slave to a crippling debt is worth far more than the fancy name on the degree.

Once you're out in the work force, your merits and achievements outside of school will weigh heavier anyway. I will say this though: If Columbia has a great reputation for the major you're are trying to achieve, then it is a risk you must consider,...
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>>17302048
This is a good point, Columbia would be something of a gamble because if I find myself in debt, I'd basically be counting on the name power of Columbia to get me a good job and get me out of it.

>>17302000
Get fit. Read books. Acquire knowledge, both practical and theoretical. Try new things. Step outside your comfort zone.

>>17302012
what kind of books?

>>17302019
Classical ones, educational ones, manuals, shit you enjoy.

>>17301984
Mine goes away after a day or two.

>>17301984
Lotion.

>>17301984
keep it moisturized and don't let your clothes rub too much, maybe your'e a bit more sensitive than usual.

If a week passes, go to a doctor.