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Why shouldn't I improve myself r9k?
Most people don't change. We just are who we are. True change is exceedingly difficult - going against your programming.
I've read that if you force yourself to do something for three weeks it becomes a habit. Not true in my case. I always leave my shoes, wallet, keys and cell phone in random locations. I decided to force myself to always put them in the same spot. I kept it up for months. Habit now, right? Nope. Without constant effort I instantly revert to my old habit of just dropping them wherever. Even now I constantly am picking up my stuff from where I dropped it instinctively and putting it in the right spot.
Given how hard it is for me to change such minor things, how can I hope to make real improvements?
My attention span is shattered. I struggle to complete books. I go through at a pace of about one a month. Maybe less. I'm constantly getting notices on my phone, opening a new tab, etcetera. It's infuriating. My understanding of everything is superficial. I've heard about that, I've skimmed a wikipedia page about that, I've seen a YouTube video about that, etc. I don't know A LOT about anything. I haven't done anything worthwhile. I haven't built or made anything.
I've always been a lanky skeleton. I want to change that and become big and bulky. I've tried exercise and diet changes in the past. I could never keep them up.
Like I mentioned change is hard. Well, unless you use drugs. Adderall and testosterone. Adderall and work through some programming and machine learning courses. Testosterone to bulk up.
I've done some research. You don't actually need to exercise to gain muscle mass while taking a good dose of testosterone. In the paper I read, one group did exercises and placebo, another did exercises and testosterone, another just did testosterone. Exercise group gained 3 lbs of muscle a month, e+t group gained 15, and testosterone alone gained 11.
>>29556951
People don't change. "People do change!" is just a false meme.
I can't help but feel like the judicious use of drugs would make me a better person. Plus, it would be much easier than trying to change on my own.
In the past, I've held off out of fear of consequences. But now, I'm not so sure I should keep holding off.
I could find whatever the silk road equivalent is, get a PO box or something similar, pay cash for it. Have my drugs shipped to me. Maybe I'd need to figure out how to test for purity and all that.
Alternatively, I know there are "Low testosterone clinics" which are basically just gimmicks to get people prescriptions for testosterone. I could probably see therapists or psychiatrists or whoever and complain my way into an adderall prescription.
Should I?
>>29557017
That's kind of my point. My question is: Should I just use drugs to force the kind of changes I want?
>Mass killing doesnt sound too bad anymore and I could see myself doing it visually
>Hating everyone I see in public, personally counting every couple that is by me at any given time and think its fate doing this on purpose
>No friends but the ones in my head, imagine a better version of me looking down in shame at what I have become
Honestly I know im not well in the head anymore but I just want to know if im not the only one here feeling this pain.
>>29556909
I see no purpose in a mass shooting. I just don't feel as though that would solve anything. I have no motivation for it.
People in public can sense that I am a hurt, troubled person. I get looks of pity and fake-concern from women, and a few have asked me if I am alright. I am too far gone to ever go back at this point.
i go to a 30 year old female therapist regularly, she tries to tell me i'm not ugly and i want to believe her but i can't
>>29556909
only been browsing this shithole for half a year and it's completely changed me, I've come to like mass shooters and if I was wronged could see myself doing it
ITT post that one really fucked up, weirdly specific, or super embarrassing fantasy that you have
if you get dubs, a qt femanon with your fetish will become your gf
i want to hold a girls hand
>>29556903
Sometimes I fantasize about losing the ability to move my legs or having to get them amputated. Unsure why but it seems like it would be comfy
I want a girlfriend that has tentacles for arms and her legs don't work when she uses her tentacles to do anything so she falls down and I have to carry her around a lot.
How many of the seven deadly sins have you committed robots?
>Tfw all seven
>Tfw the best I can hope for is limbo, and if I am really luck purgatory.
If it makes you feel any better, there is no heaven or hell. It's all made up.
>>29556856
>being a religion cuck in 2016
>>29556856
none except possibly sloth
loads of blasphemy though
Hey robots! What have you executive-level chefs prepared for dinner? Found some stale cornchips in the kitchen cabinet in my shitty rental, but hey, better than starving on the side if the street!
>>29556852
I had a glass of milk for dinner
>>29556905
>Claiming that a beverage serves at "Dinner"
That's not how food and the human body work, faggot. You need physical substance to survive, even though "liquid diets" do exist that's usually something like soup or blending up actually food.
Milk is a fucking beverage, you don't say it was your "dinner" because it wasn't. Technically you haven't had any "dinner" because you have yet to ingest any physical substance. If you were to tell someone
>"Oh I'll have had in the last three days is water/milk/soda"
Then you haven't actually eaten anything in three days, because a beverage is not food. Jesus Christ, you're fucking retard.
>>29556852
I just finished baking some bread; I have a few avocados that are just about perfectly ripe, so I'll probably slice one or two up, pepper the slices, and eat them on fresh bread with a little drizzle of really good local olive oil.
It's simple, but it's good enough for a light dinner.
>Ctrl+f
>No bellies
>tfw no belly gf
everything in moderation my friend, we can't have too much belly now.
>>29556834
No. Moar bellies now
>>29556834
I wish it was possible to eat enough that you couldn't move. Closest I got was being so full that lifting my belly hurt my back a bit
>tfw wanna bloat with Coke and Mentos but there's no privacy here.
Post girls you'll never be able to date.
Bump
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>>29556726
ya know, its sad thing to bump your post when it is only two minutes old
Any and all of them
Who here /can'tfindajob/
I've been looking for five weeks now and I've gotten five different interviews at different establishments at not ONE of them called me back, I don't know why either. I have a good track record from my other jobs, and I have a college degree but these jobs were fucking retail jobs. They weren't even corporate level/industry level jobs, I can't even get fucking rinky dink retail stores to call me back. And then they make you come in for not ONE interview but TWO and it has to be with TWO different managers, and then I call and follow up with them and they tell me
>"Oh give a few more days."
or
>"Oh we haven't really been processing applicants yet"
Fuck job hunting, I enjoy not working but at the same time I would like some spending money also my parents are driving me up the wall. I know they don't want me sitting in the house, and they know I'm looking for work but they just want me to spend the day doing something productive instead of sitting in the house all day.
I'm pretty much a NEET right now, I have no friends or social life and they know that.
>>29556670
Jesus, how fucked up do you have to be to not find a job? All you need is two functioning arms and two functioning legs and two functioning ears and you're worth paying to do shit. What the fuck is wrong with you?
>>29556748
It's not that simple, faggot. Why do you think we have a job process in this country? We still have to fill out applications and go for interviews, employers have to choose whether or not we get hired regardless of our skills. There are a myriad of reasons I might not be getting called back, for instance I know lots of other people were applying for the positions that I applied for at these retail jobs. I saw other applicants waiting for their interviews, chances are they got the job instead of me, why? I don't really know, but either way the job market is competitive, even for rinky dink retail jobs as well.
Also I have standards, for instance I refuse to work in fast food or the food service industry so some places/jobs I just simply refuse to do because my standards and morals won't allow it. Don't try to sound so conceited next time, asshole. But let me guess, you make 80k a year doing some corporate level job, right? Yeah, that's what they all say on this board, half the people are unemployed NEETS who live with their parents or off the government, the rest work in fast food or retail jobs and some of the rest probably do have nice paying jobs but a lot of them like to come on this board and tell strangers they're working for some fancy company making 80k or 100k a year.
At least I don't come on to the internet and lie to strangers about my life to raise my own self esteem and self confidence, lying to one's self is more pathetic in my eyes. There's nothing wrong with taking pride in one's work, if you're proud to work in retail or some shitty fast food job, then that's fine.
>>29556670
Have you tried temp agencies?
>That feel when you are constantly consciously aware of your own breathing
>that autistic feel when you always feel clothes on your skin
>>29556680
This. I always wear pajamas around the house because of that.
>>29556610
>tfw original posting in a meme thread
how do you politely tell someone you don't want to sleep with them without being a total fucking cunt about it?
>tfw dude is extremely grabby all the time too
pic not really related
"sorry i'm just not interested" should cut it. if he needs more than that he's probably the one being the cunt.
>>29556541
Well, he's not Chad. That's obvious enough, since women can NEVER, EVER say "no" to Chad.
You know what you tell the guy? "No". Whenever he tries to make an advance, whenever he tries to force you to have sex with him, simply refuse. Since he's not Chad, you'll be able to stand up for yourself and say "no", so do it.
>>29556541
>Stop
>Dont ever do that again
>Makes me uncomfortable
Its not fucking hard. Grow a pair you pussy.
"WOOOOOAAAAAAAAHHHHHHH!!!! AAAAAAAAYYYYYYYAAAAAHHHHH!!!! AAAAAHHHHH!" *crunch*
what did he mean by this?
CRUNCHATIZE ME CAPN'
>>29556526
Obviously he was screaming in pain, and not actually trying to express anything beyond that. How autistic are you that you can't pick up on basic social cues like this?
>>29556526
He lost the high ground.for you
ITT: Autism Gripes
>tfw your autism dials up to 11 when on the phone
>tfw have to make all appointments by email or in person because it's literally impossible for you to convey the information you need to over telephone.
quit whining dumb faggot
>>29556510
Thankfully mine isn't that bad but I have to spend a good 15-20 minutes rehearsing what I'm going to say and think of multiple responses depending on how they reply. Then I have to hype myself up enough to actually dial the number. jesus I wish I wasn't this way
>>29556654
why is it that it gets so hard to communicate over telephone
What's an effective and painless way to kill yourself?
Stone mask? besides the bullets it seemed pretty ok. just buy one on amazon
>>29556501
>>29556501
>gun
>solid opiate+sedative ODnot half a bottle of your antidepressants and a box of tylenol you fucking idiot
>partial suspension hanging with proper technique
>alcohol+sedatives in freezing temperatures
>neck on train track
>inert gas/carbon monoxide if done properlydon't try this, you'll probably fuck it up
Go to Canada or the European equivalent during the winter. Get really drunk then wander out into some snow until you fall down and fall asleep. You will die.
Do robots have regrets?
What's your ultimate regret in life?
>>29556499
There are far too many to pick just one
Not finishing my associates degree. IT WAS FUCKING COMMUNITY COLLEGE DAMNIT!!!!! and/or not joining the military after high school
Yes, but I don't wish to be specific. I have a lot.
I let one distract me for half a year and get worse and worse to the point where it became the only thing I thought about. It is not actually the most important mistake I ever made, it should never have been given the priority I gave it. It never should have been able to eat away at me as much as it did.
Too much priority went to that, but I can at least say it's off my mind. That it doesn't weigh me down anymore. Not that it's some great miracle and now everything's gonna be perfect with me living the life I always wished for or anything. But it's that kind of optimistic view where a weight is taken from you and you can at least aim to enjoy yourself.
Is his name pronounced "Peep(like the candy)", "Pee Pee", or "Peh Peh"
It's pronounced Pig Poop
Definitely Pepe. It's a real name and also their are a few memes that depend on this pronunciation.
It's peh-pay, like the soccer player.
