Are you doing MDMA regularly? Serotonin loss no joke, I've never been suicidal (besides the "oh, I just wish I'd never wake up" feeling that I'm sure everyone has), but the days following heavy ecstasy use I'd start contemplating ways to kill myself.

If not that, then maybe you're not as happy as you think you are? Maybe you think you're happy because these "good" things have been happening to you, and because your life seems like it's on an upward slope. But there's still probably something missing... do you...
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>>17365897
>suicidal urges haven't gone away

They don't go away. Or at least they haven't for years for me. And it's fine. I have develped a part of my personality to dismiss them instantly, because I believe that suicide is 100% against my beliefs.

>>17365905
Semi-regularly. Like once a fortnight but ill do 2-3 during the night. LSD once a month if that. I know its dangerous but fuck it i lost out on being 18 and 19 because i decided to get married young. Fucking dumb idea.

To be perfectly honest I've cared for her more than just a friend for longer than I can think. Even my ex-wife told me that she thought we would be good for each other. I think im starting to feel love again, but its only recent so time will tell.

You make sense though anon. I just...
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>>17365878
You should open your home to immigrants and let them fuck your relatives

Its the right thing to do

>>17365881
I'm sorry I called your candidate a turnip.

Can we have some actual answers?

>>17365921
I'm sorry you live in an irrelevant country

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Tell em

My nigga

Neat sentiment, but despite any accuracy it's devoid of even basic utility.

I haven't slept in 35 hours, it's 11:38 am, and I'm going to continue keeping myself awake with stimulants while drugging myself into apathy with sedatives.

>>17365879

I don't get it, are you loving yourself with that action or nah?

Yes, it's possible, but you might damage the car, someone else or their property.

Get a realistic car simulator with a clutch and drive that first

Tutorial:
>get in
>put seatbelt on
>make sure handbrake is on
>Press the clutch pedal to the bottom, and keep it there
>move the gear stick to first position
>fully press the brake pedal
>start the engine (fully rotate the key)
>disengage hand brake
>slowly disengage brake pedal (if you're...
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>>17365902
Also, to stop driving just follow the EXACT reverse order.

Leave the car with either 1st speed (if you're going up) or reverse speed engaged. (if you're going down). Don't leave it neutral unless the terrain is perfectly horizontal

>>17365851
Better to be silent than talking about useless shit

I mean, I was like you, I was worried I had nothing to say. That was because I had nothing light hearted to say and I would rather talk about something interesting.


I learned that being silent is often the way to go. Only talk when you have something important to say. At most, I have one conversation per week with my acquaintances, usually about school and to catch up. Those are for maintenance rather than winning impressions.

No, beeing serous doesnt work. If you wanna be miserable and alone for the rest of your life go and do what you do but if you want to talk with people and i assume you want that , otherwise you wouldnt post this here, listen practice the golden rule
<make an observation about a shitty think in your enviromnent,then ask shitty dump questions. After that start feeding the conversation with more questions etc. Its better with people even when you talkk about useless shit

>talking about stupid shit to evade awkward silence
It's 99% of all talks on this globe, just git gud at at repressing the void.

Also this 1% happens sometimes and changes lots for you.

needle, alcohol

Exorcist

Sanitized tweezers. Once you get it, make sure to rubbing alcohol it, dry it, add neosporin and bandaid.

Not expired, do it

Dont do drugs

Can anyone tell me if its expired?

Bump bump

Given that you frame yourself as inferior, yes, it's normal for a broken and deficient thing to panic at perceived contrast.

At such a point you might as well get down on your knees and orally pleasure Chad on the spot. Let him use your ass if he wants. Because functioning in such a way renders you slave to Chad and probably everyone else kin your environment.

Ditch this notion of weighing yourself relative to some ideal, if you aren't using it to improve. It's naive and shows you don't know how life or people work.

>>17365839
>Ditch this notion of weighing yourself
You do know that acting like nothing you say or do has any societal effect is just as stupid as assuming it has everything to do with such, yes?

>>17365910
Depends what you mean by "societal effect". Some people's impact on their environment as far as branching outcomes probably really would be trivial, with any minute differences in other people quickly reconverging to the general range they would have been had you not existed at all. The idea of a butterfly effect is quite real, but often overstated in short range magnitude.

Otherwise, yes, it's incorrect to assume you're invisible. Or whatever you're trying to say. The point is...
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>>17365825
>20
>I've a profession (winery) but I dont work in it, would like to learn languages and something engineer lel
>0
>0
>I feel like shit
fuck

>>17365830

You fucked yourself up and he wasn't even trying to fuck you up.

>>17365825
26
Attorney
over 20
1
never want a husband or kids

>>17365818
To test your thoughts and beliefs - if you assume they are Human like you and you accept that your perceived truths can be factually wrong then friends would be a good way to test your perception; you could just argue with strangers, but you can also find people with similar interests (read: interests, not beliefs) and have prolonged conversations over the course of multiple meetings about topics which you wish to speak about.

These friends can introduce new things to you such as music, ideas and activities.

Thee friends can be connections for you to something you wish to access such as drugs or cheaper prices on items.

Being in a group of people you have grown to be more comfortable around can make you feel good if you do something with them. Going out in public with a group of trusted people can make you feel more safe or more confident.

These friends can possibly help you out if you are having an issue such as emotional confusion or money troubles.

I'm probably overlooking a lot of things so if I remember them, I'll come back an post them.

If you don't agree with anything I've posted, please confront me on it.

>>17365818

Basically what >>17366573 said alongside.

>help you get a job
>your friends are connected to other people
>doesn't hurt to have someone lookout for you
>you're less likely to be an autistic edgelord or at least appear so
>one of the friends can become your future gf/bf or spouse depending on...
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>>17366585
>>see things in from another's perspective

This is the one that has always interested me.

>>one of the friends can become your future gf/bf or spouse depending on how things go

This one too, I completely forgot to mention how deep and rewarding a relationship can become.

>>17365809

Why? Because if you support a guy who's on the ground, reach down and pull him up, inspire him to do greatness, he will be in-debted to you. His greatest moments in life will be a memory you share with him. That shit, right there, is "80 year old grandma & grandpa who married at 20 and are still happy together" material.

I know first hand of what it's like to build confidence all alone, without anyone's support. And sadly, that's what modern man is used to. Most guys are...
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In closing, you should aspire to build confidence in men, as opposed to seeking out those who already have it.

I guarantee your love life will improve.

Tl;dr

What are you waiting for faggot?

Why not plan put how you can make your life better, then try executing on that plan? You have nothing to lose so take risks

LIfe is short.Why you want to make it even shorter? Its a dumb thing. Its better to leave everything and go to the unknown life. Go and get experiences. Up above my friend up abbove. Try to accomplish 20 Pull ups. Then when you do that. Rething your suicide

Where do you find these girls are perhaps a better question. Online? What do you tell them your kinks are? Spanking? Obviously you'll get a lot of littles to take care of then. You seem attracted to a certain type so it is not that weird that they all end up being similar. If you are in the kink scene and attracting subs, it's not that odd that they want you to take charge or pretend to be forcing yourself onto them.

What is actually your issue? That they make you feel old? They are living out a fantasy, you're helping them, it's lust. It got nothing...
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>>17365843
Actually, yeah. Mostly tinder.
I guess my frustration comes from the fact that I've never had a vanilla relationship in my life.
It's all good fun, but maybe I should go to bars if I'm looking for someone more average in taste.

I'm also an aspie that's forced myself to communicate with people until I got it right. Maybe it's time I took a leap forward and tried actually gaming.

>>17365783
no one should be in a serious relationship until they get the fucking out of their system. Fuck you are only 24. Couple other milestones. Women get close to 30 and they go dick crazy again and again at 40. Just know if you are in a relationship they will fuck other men.

>>17365778
Move out?
If they're paying for your school then just try to deal with it and then move out.

>>17365794
It's gonna be hard to deal with it man.

I can't help you because saying"fuck off" to your mom to me is unheard of and your family sounds rather trashy. I would implore you to change your ways OP and rise above the garbage heap set before you. Stop all your degeneracy, eat healthy, read more and do well in your studies. Always be kind to your family regardless of how trashy they might be. You may consider me the understanding wise father you never had.

You cant, it will always have telemetry and send your info to Microsoft.

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