It's time for this robots life to come to an end. As I post this I'm going to eat 62mg of xanax, 140mg of valium and 1g+ of deralin. Within 20 minutes I should be unconscious. I will share my story although this was only the final straw not a whole picture. This all happened 2 months ago, a few of you may know who I am irl from this.
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https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=0G3_kG5FFfQ
>be 27 y/o v robot
>doing my M.D
>typical friendless loner but had a study group
>study group arrange a night out together
>they're all going
>didn't want to go but they obviously realise I'm a sperg and peer pressured me
>meeting at wannabe chads house
>arrive early because I don't like walking into crowded rooms
>wannabe chad and his 2 side kicks are already drunk as hell and smoking weed
>reject offer to smoke but start drinking
>sit quietly and watch them play cod and smoke weed for the next hour till everyone else arrives
>everyone but me is now smoking weed and chatting about bullshit
>this is awkward as fuck
>It's getting late and I'm starting to wonder if we're actually going to go out
>eventually wannabe chad declares we need to get the fuck out of here
>k. time to piss, I always piss before leaving anywhere
>come back from piss and wannabe chad is handing out blue pills
>apparently ecstasy, $20 ea
>"how many anon"
>pause
>panic attack
>4
>look down at the blue pills in my hand
>look up at him
>he's still looking at me
>everyone's looking at me
>eat them all
>instant regret, why didn't I just say 1, it tastes like what I imagine battery acid to taste and it's burning my gums
-cont
>while waiting for our ride I start freaking out
>there are so many interactions between mdma, alcohol and the other drugs I'm on (remeron and effexor) both anti depressants
>I could fucking die
>in the cab I start to feel it, flexing my jaw I feel both confident and very warm
>soon we're at a club, my first time in a club
>everyone inside looks good, the girls look amazing, my whole body feels light and the music sounds incredible
>I leave my group and wander around, getting a drink and checking out the different floors and the people on them
>after doing this for about half an hour a seemingly random guy in a group beside me turns and says "what are you looking at faggot"
>I don't know why but I dropped my drink and said "fuck all"
>he turned to his friends and snickered or something so I walked away
>suddenly I needed to shit so I headed to the bathroom
>It was fucking disgusting, piss all over the floor and a young guy sitting on the sink freaking out
>I find an empty stall and pretty much instantly unload
>while sitting I start freaking out about that guy and his friends
>they were all fucking massive
>start to regret everything again
>it isn't like I first thought at all. it's 100% stacy and 80% chad
>guys stare straight at me in what I guess is some form of social intimidation
>I didn't realise because I've been staring back like an autist
>sit thinking for maybe 20 minutes before leaving stall, deciding to find my group
>after a long search find them
>they're all fucked and wannabe chad is groping a fat girl
>sit next to one of the girls and chat to her about game of thrones
>eventually I notice the guys from earlier are going to walk by us
>this time only the one who called me a faggot, his gf and another guy
>both walking chests out like fucking inbred gorillas
>fucking rage
>I know this guy is going to do something
>stare at the main one, held slightly tilted down
>he notices me
-cont
>I stand up and pretty much scream "what the fuck are you looking, you faggot"
>my whole group turns, as does everyone in our vicinity
>he throws his glass at me as I rush him, it misses and I bitch slap him in the mouth with my glass
>it explodes but I feel nothing and he crouchs down holding his face
>his gf who was beside him went down too and put her arm up to push me away
>I perceived it as her trying to attack me so I threw my body weight forward and kneed her in the side of the head, she went limp
>later they found out she was actually 17 and had illegally entered the club
>I look at him and he's still cowering, blood pouring out of his face and now holding his eye
>one of his friends is gone and the other is screaming at me
>I feel wet on my hand so I look, it's dripping blood and has a large maybe 2 inch shard of glass stuck through it
>heart feels like it hits 300bpm
>I throw myself at his friend, slapping and slashing at him with the shard that's in my hand
>he doesn't throw a punch just tries to get away
>I feel it rip out of hand, exiting between my middle and ring finger then everything goes black
>I wake up cuffed to a hospital bed with a nurse beside me
>a random guy ko'd me from behind
>my whole body hurts
>my right arm is splinted and my hand is bandaged
To cut an already long story short I've been accused of multiple crimes but not yet charged, the judicial system is slow. My right arm was broken during the attack and I've lost almost all mobility in my middle and ring finger, I have to use my index to left click and it makes typing a major pain. I've been kicked out of medical school and I'll never be able to go back. The case has been suppressed but everyone on campus knows what I did.
The next time you're feeling down about yourself just remember you did better than me.
Where are you from? Sounds like a wild night.
>gf and i have been going downhill for years
>have close friend who is girl, she gets closer and closer, she is a 10/10 stacy
>similar interests have fun together
>she gets closer and closer, see where this is going..., drunken fun, blah blah, always awkward next day
>don't know if i care for gf anymore, kinda indifferent, we have both damaged each other so much there is nothing left, we don't have fun with each other
>don't really think friend cares for me same way i care
>inb4 normie chad feels
And now I am truly alone.
Have you broken up with your gf yet?
If not you should.
>>28457792
Post this "10/10"
>>28457792
If you have the capability to attract girls who both seem more interesting and attractive to you, why not just leave your current girlfriend?
I can understand if she is good and loving, or if there is a genuine bond you share, but if there is truly nothing you should have broken her off a while ago.
What's the best drugs for a robot?
Weed just makes me tired. I want something that can change my perspective on life, or maybe make me more sociable, or at least make me feel happy for a bit.
>>28457767
Alcohol, come join us brother
>>28457767
Salvia Divinorum
>Absolutely no lingering effects, trip is roughly 15-30 seconds and then you're stone cold sober
>defrags your mind
>rips you out of reality and crushes your ego, but then you come back feelings more grateful for this world
>Normies hate it. even if it was a bit of a meme as DUDE LEGAL WEED LMAO back in like 2009.
>As someone who's constantly battling depression/anxiety, it made me feel better for months if not years with just a single dose.
dxm or phenibut if you want them to be legal
Pic related is what I do but Im not in the US Military, am however pretty savvy with the US Armed forces and training requirements.
Women are all whores btw.
>>28457764
>Pic related is what I do
what exactly are you "doing" in this pic
>>28457906
13F is an MOS in the US Army, sorry should have made that more obvious. Artillery Observer/Joint fires Observer/FO.
The bloke in that photo could be co-coordinating a fire mission of some description or he may be marking an LZ or maybe just establishing commons after an insertion.
But as an FO youll be calling in fire missions from Artillery, naval guns, rocket batteries or mortars and also aircraft. Aswell as doing observation and reconnaissance.
I don't want to go to college but I'd like a desk job or a job with physical work, that's not really hard. I can do all the physical labor as long as it's pretty simple. I don't know what to do honestly. All highschool I wanted to do Navy but I'm not too sure anymore after reading a bit about it. Could you shed some light on my situation?
Could you ever settle for a nonvirgin girl?
How could you possibly love her, knowing that another man's cum was on her face?
>>28457724
honest answer
why would any girl settle for me .
>implying I want any girl at all
Who else /volcel/ here?
>honest
>not bait
>genuine
>veiled black cuck bait
Help me get these suicidal thoughts away from me, /r9k/.
Dont run coward, embrace them. Let them consume every part of your being. Be one with your misery.
Might try immersing yourself in something anon, whether it be a film or a game. Escapism 101. It won't get rid of what's causing the thoughts in the first place but it will help you get your mind off of them for a time.
If you'd like to vent I'm all ears
>>28457630
Usually I try to find something good in my life, however small it can be (even good weather is enough) and then I make it big. It's not perfect but it does the trick until thing really go better.
Most people here disagree but that is fine, im not looking for friends. Let me tell you why I know the system failed me. That I should be the successful one making money but let me explain
Here is the background
>Be me 17, have 187 IQ actual genius
>Not going to graduate on time because of academic reasons about skipping/failing.
Why would such smart individual have this happen to them?
>because i was bored to death from faggot teachers and the shitty homework that i could do in my sleep and so i decide to drop out of school
alright before you judge me, you dont have a 187 IQ. Can you solve a rubix cube easily?
I don't care about Shakespear and where spain is located, it is not important and doesn't solve problems
anyway moving on
>have worked low paying jobs like pizza delivery and gas station attendant
>realized 2 years ago these jobs are fucking useless and only morons take them
>quit quickly, gf leaves me telling me i need to grow up and get a job
>LMAO
>Now almost 29, funemployed and living at home with my parents and not working just smoking weed all day
So why me you ask. What do i have that makes me "entitled"
Why? Because im too good for this garbage shit. I know im smarter than the engineers and CEOs of the world, I should be making that much money, fuck a stupid certificate it means nothing.
I should be making money right now but the system told me i needed some bullshit certificate to do it. The college bros won I guess, a piece of paper means you are qualified. It doesnt mean jack shit, my bro is retarded basically but because he has a degree he has a job but not me?
How the fuck does this make sense?
Fucking hell im pissed, one chance and the world throws me this fucked curveball. Robots like us aren't suppose to be in this shit world
I should have been taken out of school because of my IQ and put in a genius camp or something. Why the fuck doesnt this exist?
Good job failure
nice pasta
either way though, I never understood this whole "bored so I couldn't do the work" meme
nigga can't even spell Shakespeare right
The internet provides a window into the lives of millions of broken men around the world. Reddit's r/ForeverAlone is an introduction to the underground world of invisible broken men. Here you'll find a digital museum of dying men, wasting away in a decentralized prison camp of their own making. But if you truly wish to gaze into the abyss, read some clippings from the 4Chan r9k forum
These men are beasts in human skin: unemployed, unloved, surviving on social assistance, family support, or inheritances; waking up every day and playing video games, masturbating, watching cartoons, and sharing their lives, such as they are, with each other on internet forums. Many will never escape. They will hide in their rooms, dying one day at a time, while the years and decades slip by. Is their fate less tragic than being roasted alive in a tank - or more?
Thesis: millions of young western men are suffering from a crisis of spirit that is morally comparable to genocide.
Their dying is less painful, but slower and more dehumanizing. By allowing this massacre to occur on their watch, Western governments are as morally culpable as Mao and Stalin. Pickaxes to the forehead, mass starvation, poisoned wells, firing squads - all these are the crude, low-tech, messy and obvious tools of 20th century genocides. Why go through the trouble of actually killing people, when you can persuade them to do it on their own?
Is it crass to compare hunger with spiritual deprivation? The end result is the same. Human life require meaning and narrative, as much as food and water. Deprive a man of food and you'll kill him; deprive a man of meaning, and you'll persuade him to kill himself.
http://www.thumotic.com/the-killing-fields-of-the-21st-century/
>These men are beasts in human skin
>tfw it clicks that you're in the lowest level of social hierarchy
that was a powerful article thanks for sharing that op
>>28457535
Pic related, the author
Help me come up with a graffiti name.
The current list
>Agent Green Sky
> Eddie Coyle
>Cut Throat Herbert
> Green Uzi
> Pat McFarner
>>28457525
Tip Top Cuck
Those are all too retardedly long for a moniker. As someone's who's dabbled in graffiti, choose a name that's fun for you to write.
the homeless cum dump
>ywn be Lisbeth from SAO, making an honorable living by being a professional qt blacksmith
Why. Even. Live?!
>SAO
Into the garbage can, says Mr. Jillette.
>ywn be SASUKE UCHIHA handing out retribution to everyone
>>28457655
>implying I won't anyway
How does /r9k/ feel about this image. I feel sad.
>>28457405
normie cringe material
I hated being a child so much I can't even tell you.
Bunch of fucking idiots acting like they were smart just because they were older than me when they were pretty much just big kids wearing adult suits
Zero power, zero ability to change my circumstances
At the mercy of pretty much everyone older/bigger than me
Yeah, fuck that.
>women are overgrown children
Stop the presses
REAL ROBOT THREAD
Only post here if you are 100% robot:
> kissless virgin
> NEET
> friendless
> obese
Again, real robots only. Normies get out REEEEEEEE
the most important thing for me is that you know you're doing it wrong but you dont know where to start to begin fixing it
Real robots are too poor to afford enough food to get obese.
>>28457399
>31 this year
>290 pound manlet
>0 friends
>virgin
>live with my grandmother
>work at a laundromat for 10 dollars/hr
Honestly pretty happy at this point. Kind of accepted my fate unlike in my 20's when I longed for a better life.
I just took this pic and I think I look pretty fresh,
do you guys think I should use this on my tinder profile?
also faces of /r9k/ thread, post em bois
>>28457276
damn that's fresh
>>28457276
YO ITS A BOUT THAT TIME
>>28457276
Is that you, Steve Harris?
Dumbest woman on the planet
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=s1H_AlQuzHg
You rage, you lose
Did you seriously get mad at this OP?
>>28457271
How is this a bad thing? I like my women stupid. They don't mind doing housework, won't bitch about 'muh feminism', won't question you about stupid shit and will suck your dick.
This should be their default intelligence. Love this broad. Would propose to out of 10.
Put ducktape across her mouth and she's like Aphrodite.
>>28457271
whos that fine ass bitch in ur pic op
At least you aren't this autistic.
>be me
>beta as fuck
>somehow get girl to invite me over to chill
>literally believe that's all we're doing
>watch movies for a while, cuddling
>all of sudden she gets naked
>oshit.mp3
>"come cuddle in bed anon"
>o fuck o fuck
>"y-yeah ok.."
>cuddling for a bit and then "when are you going to fuck me?"
>didn't bring condoms cause I didn't think I'd get this far
>"n-ca, I-I can't"
>"Well we could just have oral"
>y-yeah... Could..."
>...
>...
>silence for ten minutes
>"You should leave"
>"ok"
>mfw
General autism thread.
>be me
Why do people type this shit at the beginning of their stories? Who else would you be?
>>28457247
Could be Nietzsche, back from the dead. He is known to browse this board.
>>28457247
Because that's how they always start?