>>16938589
I'd feel pretty much exactly the same way about it as you do, OP. And i wouldn't go back.
Also, what do you mean by "finally good at something worth doing"? Self-esteem issue?

It's real easy to be overly self-critical and see only one's own flaws. And er, wait, are you me?

>>16938589
>Would you just go back and try to not care since they're doing it because they're trying to help in their own way?
No, but I would explain to them that their efforts to help you had the opposite effect. You don't have to tell them about the self-harm but you should explain that you felt worse after doing a lot of these things.

>Were they wrong in sort of trying to manipulate me?
Is it wrong if the intentions were good but the...
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>>16938589
They were trying to help you out. If by "they" you mean your employer i'm surprised they didn't get rid of you.

At least you did some cool things that otherwise you couldn't have done adn it wasn't all bad since you yourself said you enjoyed them.

Yeah, people do that all of the time. Actually, I've done it before.

>>16938566
Oh! Just whatever you do, don't mix bleach and ammonia, because it will kill you.

>>16938574
I'll keep that in mind, thanks tripfriend

>mysterious
lel, if you have any sort of social media you're not.

she sounds like a bitch tho

>>16938551
There's no way she knows everything about you. Just relax and be like "oh yeah?" That's what I would have done.

She's just trying to make you feel small.

She's just fucking with you. Nobody knows everything about somebody else. What did she mean? That she can read you like an open book or that you did some fishy stuff and she knows?

>>16938527
Some people get feels on anniversaries, I guess because the date is burned into their mind, plus it's the same time of year so there are lots of reminders in the environment (weather is about the same, same holidays are occurring near that date, etc.). That's natural. Deliberately ripping old scabs off and crying about them on purpose, however, goes beyond catharsis and is just wallowing.

Who's doing this? You or someone else?

Gf does this everyone she's ever known who's died. Sad AF ask what's up 8 years today my grandad's anniversary, of him dying. Wtf.

Mother was upset today asked why 35 years to the day her mother died.

I just get on I don't torture myself every year mourning a "anniversary". I like to think occasionally of happy times with said person but why take over the death all the time?

These are just two examples a lot of people do it, either im autistic or there's some sympathy bs at work.

>>16938535
Op here I've elaborated below.

>jobs
>entertaining

if you haven't found your interest already you'll hate them both baka

Both will be boring depending on where you work. Some software companies have a lot of freedom for you to get up and leave for whatever reason as long as you're meeting your quota

>>16938525
You stare at code all day is true for the most part. But it is not boring. For me it is really a hobby, and i get paid to do it. Coding can be quite diverse. You can be making some fancy User experience, but at the sametime you can program some algorithm to determine something. Can you maybe go in detail what you expect from your job? Or specific questions about CS. Maybe I can help you.

How old are you?

>>16938584
Enjoy getting banned.

What the hell is this thread

>>16938490
>Going through a slump
>Taking it personally, thus
>Prolonging the slump

Looks like a winning game you're playing. Also, the need to brag about every little detail makes it look like you did those things for no other reason than to be able to say you did, to bolster your image. Not judging, just saying in case you hadn't noticed.

>>16938506

Oh, believe me, I notice. I've got problems, bud.

>>16938490
Isn't there anything else in your life that you're proud of? Sex isn't that important. If you feel lonely why not actually get a girlfriend instead of easy hoes?

If you're a woman, it's a way of life.

>>16938479
Why is it a way of life for women? Are you implying it's not a way of life for men?

>>16938485
Because they must use cunning/wits where they can't do it physically. (i.e. kicking the shit out of her bf so she employs the art of lying to equally damage him false rape/cheating/etc)

Men never had to do that, just be the biggest dude on the block and get your way. Otherwise they'd be curbstomped. Then brains became imports so theres that too.

janitor

>>16938450
you'd think so, but a lot of the cleaning industry is manned by female immigrants.

even there he'll face competition.

>Also, preferably something where there's an option for a part-time shift, so nothing like a truck driver or whatever.
truckers do have part time shifts. although nowadays you are being requested exp.

but the standard go to jobs are janitorial work, trucking, security, and garbage collection.

Maybe an overnight shift somewhere, stocking shelves.

not really. even if you did, 4chan has it's own archive

http://boards.4chan.org/adv/archive

plus there are public archives like so

http://archive.4plebs.org/adv/

and coupled with le google you can probably find the personal info if you're really determined.

it's been a long time since 4chan could claim that it trashed all of its posts once it fell off the last page. they probably, read surely, register all IP's and coupled with all the incidents it has had...
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Contact mods. Most boards on 4chan get archived on independent public archival sites, you need to contact mods there as well. There's no guarantee they'll take action.

That's what you get for violating basically the most fundamental rule of the internet.
Probably the best thing you can do right now is keep your head down and let it pass. If your personal info got tied up with one of your internet identities (or, lord help you, your only internet identity) I'm afraid it's time to set up a new pseudonym for yourself. If you've got shit you invested actual money in (e.g. steam account) involved in it too - again, you're an idiot for using the same username everything - the best you could hope for is to keep social...
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I don't really know what to say to help you, but I think that in a way, feeling socially awkward is a good thing. I've been depressed for about a year and on meds for the last six months, I've also isolated myself and almost always end up turning down invites to hang out with my friends, but unlike you my social skills are fine, better than ever in fact, because I just don't care about the outcome. Trust me, feeling numb and like nothing around you matters or is interesting is frustrating as fuck. So if your depression is/was anything like mine, you're...
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Keeping an eye I this in the hope of overhearing some useful advice.
I've been of my meds for about a year now. Getting back into social interaction Isa proving very difficult for me.
I have a wife and we almost talk, kinda.
I have a friend who really helped me through the past year, and we were quite close but we've drifted a but the last couple of months (possibly because she got tired of hearing me complain).
Other than that, I'm pretty isolated.
At least I'm feeling like I SHOULD be seeking or social interaction now, which is a big change.
So,...
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I'm in a similar position. Maybe just pick 1 or 2 friends to get back in touch with, ones that you were closest to or that you feel would be the most understanding. Then just see how it goes.

>>16938408
because women aren't retarded.

i blame super mario

>>16938415
>LOL GAME REFERENCE

fuck outta here trash

Call the police?

>>16938398
Last time the police got involved he threatened to stab them and get himself killed

>>16938423
Let him do it, such a deranged person is better off dead.

Don't quit bruh, you're scared for a reason.

Trust ur gut bruh

>>16938383
Starting looking for alternatives to make money.
Either use your skills or get a summer job.

>>16938410
I'm scared of the quitting part not necessarily no money.
>>16938420
I have plenty of experience/skills to find other work it's just the job market is crappy right now at this time of year.

I live with my parents since college is right by so it's not like I don't have a place to sleep and eat.

fuck off creep.

>>16938381
Whoa. Hostile.

I know! C, stomp, and 4 - hobnails. I'd say "you're welcome" ta boot!