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Someone here have suicidal tendencies when he was 6-7 ?
I have.
I was fascinated by what is to come after death. Nobody had an answer for that so I was frustrated. I did not want to wait until I die of old age
But I never found the right path (thanks for that, or maybe not). I considering jump out window but I was not sure if I was high enough and also I hate pain so any violent way was not an option.
Try to drown myself in the pool but instinct is instinct and came for the breathe after some time.
Growing up is an emotional seesaw so after some time I just came on other thoughts.
At the moment I do not have suicidal tendencies. I just remembered it, I thought it was interesting and I wanted to share with anons.
Someone have similar stories from childhood ?
my parents were fighting a lot, my friend moved away, and the only grandparent i ever liked hanging out with and the only one who actually loved me died within 3 months when i was 10
i exploded in size, went from 110 lbs (already huge for a 10 year old) up to 160 in a few months. i just wanted to die. i would put chains around my neck and pull as hard as i could to try and strangle myself. i skipped 80 days of school that year. i remember i didn't want to see the new year so on new years eve i just started running away with nothing and laid down in a ditch to die, but then a cop found me and took me home
my mom took me to the doctor and got me on some antidepressants. idk why i never killed myself, i've been depressed the whole time ever since and i fucking hate my existence. i guess i haven't done it because i know there is nothing after this so i better ride this shitty ride the whole way, kinda like how i sat through all of star wars episode 1 in the theater when i wanted to kill myself as a child
>>26651886
Sorry to hear that anon.
My intentions were purely out of curiosity so of course no comparison.
How are you doing now ?
>>26651940
p bad. i might kill myself saturday. if something happens then i'll wait until my bday. if i'm still a khv by then i'll kill myself. if i'm not a khv but still a virgin, then my 10,000th day i'm killing myself (march 31, 2018). if i've lose my virginity before that, then i'll wait until my mom dies and then i'll kill myself. if i have a wife at that point obviously i won't an hero
so yeah i'm not going to make it
>get $3k in NEETbux every month
>tfw spending it on hookers, mcdonalds, and fine wines
Thanks again wagecucks
>>26651737
>>get $3k in NEETbux every month
No you don't.
>trying to start one of these threads with an amount that's so high that it's completely bullshit and wouldn't fool anyone
NEETs are fucking retarded, you're killing this meme.
>>26651737
>$3k in NEETbux
Where the fuck do you live? Sweden?
Why do you, personally, come to this board? What do you think you gain from being here?
i feel isolated from every other person that i engage with irl because i just can't produce the easy flow of conversation and social exchange that they can, no matter how hard i try. i feel like i'm constantly trying to catch up to other people in how i act or am perceived. on this board, i feel like i'm on the same level as everyone else.
>>26651722
I come to this board because I find people who share my bad experiences in life, and they have superior understanding of them compared to anyone that I talk to In real life. The most obscure feels that I have are understood on this board, and I find comfort in the fact that there are others experiencing exactly what I am, and I can discuss it with them.
Also I feel that this board offers an insight into the reality of the "other"- I'm so used to hearing about successful people all the time, how someone is doing well for themselves. But what we don't rcognise is the huge amount of people who aren't successful- this board offers an alternative perspective, outside of the realms of the mainstream culture of this age (which makes me sick- I despise what human kind has become and I fully do not conform to the modern ideology of the western world).
Don't get me wrong there are some disgusting fucks on this board who just need to die. But for the most part, it's people like me who look atthe fickle existance of this generation and just refuse to take part in its hypocrisy. This comes at a price- no gf, no love, loneliness and social alienation. I find people on this board who are exactly like me in this respect, and it's comforting to know that I am not insane to not appreciate and partake in societies whimsical theatre.
Also I sympathise with people who have had traumatic childhoods and the likes as I did too- very interesting reading about the effects it has had on their lives.
Plenty more reasons but I'll stop here.
Companionship.
I'm too scared to get it in real life, and people wouldn't understand anyways, so I do it anonymously online.
ITT: How to get a QT 3.14 GF
this may help, robots.
http://www.wikihow.com/Get-a-Girlfriend-When-You're-Autistic
Wow I finally found some good help, thanks.
Wikihow is useful for life advice, except you're supposed to do the opposite from what's in there.
>>26651622
this
so basically treat women like shit
How do you plan to kill yourself?
I was thinking about using a plastic bag + some drugs. Not sure how successful this method is, though.
Another idea would be to buy Nembutal from any site that pretends to sell it and take every bit of Nembutal I can buy online + using the plastic bag as a backup.
I don't know, I'm not even good at killing myself.
>"If you make a plan to kill yourself, you most likely won't do it and are just an attention whore."
/r9k/ is no longer a safe space, friend.
Old age and decades of alcohol abuse.
I plan to drive my car into a tree.
Life could be a lot worse.
Let Mama Fembot give you some advice.
> also a Silent Hill 2 thread because I'm in awe of the details they managed to put in a 2001 game
>>26651389
fuck off fembot, both you and maria are whores who aren't real.
>>26651389
How do I fix my fucked up shit?
Because in the words of the great Dexter holland, shit is fucked
>>26651389
Mama Fembot, how do I get a cute gf who decides to forcibly feminize me gradually with slutty clothes, makeup, female hormones, and breast implants until I'm living full time as her sissy slave maid?
>tfw you see a girl's butt crack in public
Anyone else's dick literally explodes when they see this?
Tfw girls are allowed to be half naked in public, but if I whip my dick out, it's straight to jail for me.
>>26651366
It reminds me of a fat mexican plumber it doesnt do anything for me
>>26651366
it's trashy. such a turnoff.
I can't deal with this anymore. I thought university would be fun and that I would meet new friends. I thought I was a normie, but it's been a full day and I haven't spoken to a single person. Even worse, everything is minions. Where can I escape?
>>26651328
Find a robot club/society immediately or just really get drunk and tolerate it.
Being a loner at uni is social suicide
>>26651328
>I can't deal with this anymore. I thought university would be fun and that I would meet new friends
Could be worse, you can be a neet like me who won't have that chance
>>26651482
This. OP, DO NOT skip your uni's club fair or orientation. You still have a shot.
If you were homosexual which types of people would you date?
Probably effeminate guys
>>26651206
OP ;)
:;:;64
>>26651206
None, as I don't find guys attractive.
>be me, in my mid 20's
>live in post commie shit bomb
>wanna emigrate but system is so absurd to the point in which leaving is almost impossible
>need a papers to get job but you need job to get papers
>wut
>forced to live with religious freaks and nationalist retards blaring out hate speech against anything that is different
>they are so simple minded they believe all the mediatic propaganda saying shit about the western world and depicting it as a realm of degeneracy and decadence
>having to face lots of obvious propaganda, probably Russian
>awful poverty, work as a programmer I would be paid 4x in a decent place
>every single day I have to pass through masses of hobos, beggars and loud closed minded cretins
>see huge ass churches with gilded roofs and a few Mercedes parked in front of them
>get sick and not have access to decent medical care, they gave me common cold stuff when I had pneumonia and didn't realize until my health took a turn for the worst
>everyone gives me this "motivational" speech or pep talk where they call me an ungrateful asshole for not appreciating the fact that "there are people out there who have it worse" and where they constantly tell me to "give up, anon, you should be thankful for what you already have"
>everyone tell me to settle down here and "be grateful to GOD"
>I swear I'm gonna an hero or go on a killing fucking killing spree if one more person gives me that fucking 'give up speech'
General fuck my fucking life thread.
>>26651183
To be honest familiar, this could be a motivational thread for 1st world "robots", they could follow your example
There is absolutely no way you could escape from your country? How many languages do you speak? Also, where do you live?
>>26651263
You can leave easily if you know people or if your parents are rich/government officials. But for me, I don't see any way which couldn't be considered hard and risk ending up without a job or worse - as a hobo.
I only speak English as a second language but I was planning to learn a new language soon. Bucharest, Romania
>people here only care about what you have to offer and not really about you
>get sick, people at work ask when am I coming back, not about my health
>they generally try to shame you about it
>get overworked because eastern European is cheap labor
The horrible part is that the people here are not even aware of the slightest things going on.
>>26651263
I would also like to know where he lives. The only post commie country I am familiar with has decent healthcare and no hobo problem, and yet it's supposedly one of the poorer ones.
>be attractive enough to possibly have a relationship
>don't really know how to meet girls anywhere except online dating because introverted
>90% of girls on dating sites in my area are overweight
>tfw only really like average, fit or skinny girls
>10% of girls who are in good shape on dating sites won't respond to my messages because I'm probably a 6/10 and tons of 7s and 8s are messaging them.
What do? In b4 "date a fatty and make her run". She doesn't even have to be super pretty, just average face with a non-fat body.
>>26651170
online in mid twenties is tough man
rather than trying to land a 7 or 8 as a 6/7 focus on improving yourself. its honestly less work. get a good job, dress well, take care of yourself, work out, maybe some interesting hobbies. then it becomes really easy.
>>26651170
that girl has been my phone background for a long time. One of these days i'll get around to adding her on facebook
>>26651224
> get a good job, dress well, take care of yourself, work out, maybe some interesting hobbies. then it becomes really easy.
I do all of this. When do the thin women fall out of thin air?
You're chilling at Gamestop, and Ancalagon the Black slaps your gf's ass
What do
>>26650832
Wonder if waving your hand in the air like a retard is some new hip thing around Blacks.
Smaug is that small, what? I know it's fantasy, but come on...
Do a drive by in Vingilot
>Are you a virgin at YOUR AGE anon?
Yes because I am inferior. Due to this you "people" have been treating me like shit since I was young. And now you expect me to overcome the shortocomings caused by your treatment so I can integrate into normie society. So fuck you all and fuck you for asking that question.
Also your thighs are so huge they almost make your ugly big nose look small.
there's nothing wrong with being pure
>>26650807
Are you a cow at your age, weird fat potato girl?
>Be me
>Have high school aged sister
>Parents raised us well enough
>Sister comes home with a black guy
>She's apparently dating this dude
>He's not even an upstanding black man. He's a total nog.
My parents are fairly liberal on certain issues, and even they didn't like the guy. Is this just a case of a rebellious teenager? I don't know what to think.
>>26650765
>Is this just a case of a rebellious teenager
Yes. It's also a case of your whore sister craving some nice BBC.
Think of what she will look like with dreadlocks
>>26650765
>My parents are fairly liberal
anon, you have to understand that liberals just talk about how black people are equal. in reality they go to great lengths to avoid contact with blacks as much as possible (though they pass this decision off as subconscious or due to random chance).
Would you?
Why not?
If yes, would be willing to pay for it?
>>26650654
No
Because I had much better
I never paid for it so no even if I wanted that disgusting blob
i was feeling it until the bra came off
i would but i probably wouldn't pay
Yes but I wouldn't pay for it and wouldn't stick around after blowing my load.
