I have 4 stitches in my face from self harm and I'm drunk
I am sitting here with my right hand in a cast because I gave myself a boxer's fracture after a girl who gave me strong mixed signals blocked me on FB just from asking if she wanted to hang out.
The sad thing is, i lost 50 pounds, quit weed, and did other shit just for her.
Whatever. Her loss.
this is my life right now >>28602698
>went to mcdonalds and ate alone in a dark park
>usually don't talk shit in video games but started having fun calling people niggers and faggots in rocket league
>debating dropping out of grad school
Just a usual Monday at 3am I guess
>>28602872
>went to a party
>girl hitting on me to a decent degree
>get way to drunk
>stop talking to her
>buy some adderall to sober up
>cops get called
>party broken up
>she leaves with some dude
>sitting in my car pretty wired with my two drunk friends who are asleep
>>28602872
are you >>28603005?please dont hurt your self
>>28602872
Drinking Baileys and crying right now, I feel you.
>>28602912
>>28603109
>normalfags
>>28603183
ye
I'm done hurting myself this week, I'll get the urge next week though and do something worse
>>28603210
>I'll get the urge next week though and do something worseplease dont ;_;
>>28603236
I try to stop it every time but never succeed. No therapist can help. I'll feel feelings in a week that make me feel like an entirely different person who just wants to die even though I'm fairly content right now.THERE IS NO STOPPING THIS RAPE TRAIN
>>28603287
>I try to stop it every time but never succeed.
ive done a lot of self harm and i know what thats like buti have never like the idea of other people being hurt or hurting themselves and i want to help them if i can in some small way
>>28603334
I'm the complete opposite
I want everyone to be in pain. I wish everyone was self destructive. I want to hurt everyone. People are scum.
>>28603354
but why?
how could that make anything better?
>>28603373
Misery loves company
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=9h8qYv4dzvQ
>>28603387
>that song
but what if there was a way to feel better about things?
>>28602872
Im 24 and still living at home, my dad wants to send me to a psychologist, I'd rather he kick me out desu.
>>28602872
The people that go around telling others they self harm are massive attention whores. Finish the job you fucking pussy.
>>28603403
I like being miserable though. I really enjoy being miserable though
Even just thinking about miserable makes me want to re-enter a wound and start dragging that knife down my face
>>28602872
The only reason I'm not sucking dick or taking it is because of my devotion to our lord and savior Jesus Christ. May my soul never be led astray.
Pretty shitty.
Spent the entire night having my bf scream at me because he doesn't actually love me or support me but wants me to be this perfect person and thinks treating me like shit is going to make me do anything but hate him.
I should of gone to sleep like 6 hours ago but Ive just been sitting here pissed as fuck thinking about breaking up with him and focusing on not having a complete bpd meltdown like I did with my last ex and just leave him suicidal and alone.
He thinks he can degrade me into doing shit because hes an abusive faggot just like his father but I dont let people push me around and its just putting this huge distance between us and the more I think of it, the more pissed off I get.
>>28602872
I'm drunk and wish I had a girl to be with and listen to classical music while being drunk. This shit is soooooo good.
>>28603428
ya but like
have you ever thought about what it would be like if you didnt?
>>28603453
just leave the fag
>>28602912
>He actually quit weed.
i really hate the fact that this website is overrun by normalfags. i used seem obscure shit and now everything i see here are bunch facebook cringe shits
>>28603453
how about you post this shit on tumblr instead you fucking normal faggot
>>28603428
would you ever considerbeing my gf?
>>28603552
I have BPD and you think im normal?
Fuck you retard.
>>28603684
not normal enough for the normies but too normal for r9k. that's why you'd fit in well on tumblr
