ITT: Reveal a fucked up fact of ourselved
>stalks gf from 1st grade
>>28887425
I spend at least 6 hours a day reading abotu an researching mass murders/serial killers.
What's more, in most of the documentaries and police reports, it is mentioned how those people themselves all had a deep fascination with reading about other serial killers
>>28887502
who are you currently researching at the moment, anon?
I am looking into the Original Night Stalker / East Area Rapist.
I prefer to research about killers who were never arrested.
i really love both Splatoon and Zootopiaand its not sexual
>>28887425
I like fucking 16 year olds.
>>28887425
Was a compulsive liar from 4 yo to age 21, when I finally managed to get control over it. I am horribly proficient in lying and I suppose... Acting, but I get officially too in character everytime and if I am attempting to act out anxiety or a panic attack I drive myself to an actual panic attack. I doubt that I am sociopathic or even within the spectrum... I cry from watching injustice on the newspapers. I think I am the very opposite, extremely empathetic.
But yes, I've lied a shitton throughout my lifetime, now it's more of a party trick I do to make people laugh.
This one is not a secret but... I have literally different voices for different feelings and circumstances. Being happy equals to always the happy voice, etc. They range in timbre and pitch and etc.
I do wonder if this is even considered a form of mental illness or a symptom.
>>28887859
Hey I came here to basically post this.
How'd you manage to get control over it?
I stalk this qt over a decade younger than me(I'm a wizard). I know her full name, facebook, instagram, reddit, okc. I have a folder of her nonlewd pics, including her relatives and dogs. Just standard stalking skills, ie google and info she puts up freely. Not even in a sexual way, I just saw her post some pics on reddit and though she was an ultra qt and totally my type. Too bad I'm a worthless NEET and she's on the opposite coast anyway.
Standard r9k autist fare I suppose...
>>28887502
Have you watched the movie Zodiac? Good film
>>28887425
I cheated on my oneitis with her best friend.
but its gets better
my stupid ass told her.
now i dont really dont know what to do.
she was basically my bridge to the social world
>>28887908
Just by trying hard not to lie, that's all. I always felt immense guilt over lying, I didn't want to feel horrible about myself anymore.
There's only one trick to keep in mind... Most of the time, if you find yourself about to lie, if it's not too late, quickly erase it with an expression like "oh my bad, sorry, I was confusing things, here's what actually happened." since it is more of a habit than anything else... It's mostly about gradually correcting yourself.
I was consumed by guilt and self hatred around age 16... I had promised myself that I would stop lying, and I couldn't stop anyway. So, I'd advise you to not be unrealistic about it.
>>28887425
I have been in love with the same woman for 12 years. I can't move on. She is married with kids now too. I tried moving away, numerous hobbies, seeing multiple therapists, and nothing I try will surpress. Ever since I met her I have thought about her every single day since. Been over 12 years and she rejected me both times I asked her out. I haven't spoken to her in over 5 years since I moved. Still can't stop thinking about her. I can't even look at porn because nothing else makes me hard but the thought of her. The only way this is gong to end is if I kill myself because I can't move on.
I legit have voices in my head telling me to not try new things.
it sucks.
>>28887706
>and its not sexual
In that case it's not fucked up.
>>28887502
so do I and I've been doing this for years
I feel like I could write a book about at least a dozen or so mass murderers. Mass murders are far more interesting to me than serial killers, who I think tend to be quite boring egomaniacs. Mass murders are crimes of passion though and generally have a far more interesting story behind them. The most intriguing lesser-known mass shooting I know of is the Luby's Massacre, when a misogynist crashed his truck into a Luby's diner in Killeen, Texas, stepped out of the vehicle and started popping people in the skull with his two pistols.
>>28887917
>including her relatives and dogs
Why though
oh shit 2888888888888 soon
>>28888037
>if you find yourself about to lie, if it's not too late, quickly erase it with an expression like "oh my bad, sorry, I was confusing things, here's what actually happened." since it is more of a habit than anything else...
Yeah, it's very easy for it to sort of creep up on you out of nowhere and before you know it you've lied again. I always feel shitty afterwards, and I tell myself 'Okay, that's the last lie I'm going to tell', and it goes well for a couple of days, until out of nowhere you slip up and lie again. I don't think I'm sociopathic, it's just a habit that's been solidified over years due to extreme insecurities about myself. I've been considering going to a psychologist about it but I don't really have the money or time at the moment.
>>28887425
i've had hour long sessions of fellating my own penis, ejaculating into my own mouth and swallowing it.
i'm very vain
>>28887502
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>>28888099
I am the compulsive liar poster desu, serial killers and such are of morbid interest and I enjoy reading and researching on them too. And about all sorts of Mafia organizations.
My "favorite" killer is Richard Kuklinski though. The Iceman has an incredibly interesting life story and his way to think/feel about death is the most philosophical, he's an interesting man indeed. Well, was.
>>28887425
>never got over his high school crush
I sort of know your feel, OP. I'm 23 and she now has kids.
Recently snapped and broke all the mirrors in my house. I avoid looking at my reflection as much as I can, avoid blank screens and pictures of me. I'm also planning on ending my life next weekend.
>>28888145
I personally never informed anyone about my compulsive lying. As time passed and I was lying less and less... Eventually I stopped lying. At this point enough years will have gone by so that you can say that you either don't remember saying such a thing or even confidently admit to maybe having exaggerated a little bit back then + tell the actual truth.
Only one person knows of my issue with compulsive lying and that's the person I am currently in a relationship with. The reason I told him was because I have found him lying much in the same way I used to lie. + I am truly confident that me and him are going to be together for a good, long time.
I have a huge diaper fetish and I used to steal diapers from stores as a kid until I was caught by the hottest Rite-Aid employee ever. She was like 21, huge tits and fucking gorgeous and the look of disdain on her face when she saw I was stealing diapers of all things will stay with me my entire lifeand I commonly use it as masturbation fuel since I also get off on humiliation
>>28888106
They're there with her, so I guess that doesn't count. Though I did save pics of her parents. A throwback pic of her dad shows she looks like him more than her mom, and he's a good looking guy tbhee. Also to see how she'd possibly age. Her sister don't look too good at like 25 I think. She seems to spend a lot of time outdoors(reeeeeeeee), so I hope she wears sunscreen, but idk....
The pics that don't have her in them were from saving her instagram with save page as, to get all the pics at once. I also creeped on some relatives and friends of hers to get pics of her that weren't posted by her.
I find self harm to be "romantic" and its really the biggest reason why I do it anymore.
I have a huge desire of killing living things
Since ive killed a bull while visiting an folk traditions park in the south of Brazil, ive been craving for killing animals
Already poisoned several pidgeons and killed a cat with a iron bar while it was late at night
Im afraid that this obsession grows
How can i stop having this desire?
>>28887425
>confesses to fucked up things about himself like a middle schooler
I use to think about calling my close female friend who I was madly in love with and then shoot myself while she was on the phone with me. I wanted her to love me like I love her but she put me in the friendzone
>>28888493
I can kind of understand the poisoning part. I dont really like the idea of brutally killing things, but poisoning is something that I find to be interesting.
To an extent I did that to my schoolmates lunch. When in high school, every kid had to spend one day in the kitchen where the food was prepared and I mixed a bit of some sort of laundry detergent in the food. Not so much that it tasted much, but I hoped it would be enough to get a reaction out of people. Sadly people didnt seem to react to it in any way ;_;
Fast forward 10 years or so and now I only read about poisoning stuff, but wouldnt do it myself I think. I find those Japanese kids interesting since they really like bleaching their fellow classmates foods for some reason.
I guess just try to distract yourself with other, healthier hobbies. Read enough negative feedback on such thoughts and it might snap you out of it.
>>28887425
I used to get my dick sucked by my stepsister over the summer two year ago. I got her and her friend to do it at the same time during a family vacation
>>28888450
Same here bro. I think it's the emotional and physical vulnerability that I find intriguing. I just want a mentally ill gf who needs me to help her feel sane and safe.
>>28888595
I've never had this exact desire, but something similar, I just want them to realize how much they hurt me.
I want to fuck my 14 year old cousin
I hated my "friend," his bitchy wife, and his bratty stepson, so when I came over, I sprinkled some poison gas emitting resin in his room that I got from scraping off No Pest Strips. Hopefully he/they get cancer or some shit, as whatever is in the resin is super bad.
>>28888729
sheeeeeeit
wow not origialno
>>28888888
Just a test damaged run
I draw inflation porn on deviantart
I thrive off the attention of autists who ask me to draw their OC's (do not steal)
>>28888603
I have read several stories about how animal suffer and suffer with this,and how people feel bad about it,but it just makes me want to do it in more violent ways
Im aiming to kill some rats that live in a hole close to my house with fire,for example
Should i seek therapy?
I sometimes stop random pedestrians and tell them they are being watched, and should be really carefull with what they do and walk away.
Let's see... Nothing "fucked up" I think...
Like, the anon above I'm casually stalking a woman. She's older, suffers from severe depression, quite immature and lives in a different hemisphere. I don't even like her anymore, I just save whatever pictures she uploads and still keep relevant info about her like her secret twitter account, work number etc.
Like the other anons I too have a problem with lying but I've found that I only lie whenever I'm around people because I have this need to impress people for some reason. I just stay away from people as a result.
And...
I can't help but see my mother in every woman. I can only ever form healthy relationships with men. Everything else is distorted by my "mommy issues".
>>28887425
I tortured animals from 2-10 years old. Normally mice, since I had, and still have, a cat. I would throw them against rocks, make my cats rip their organs out, and bash a rock against the stomach of the mice so their guts exploded. I would submerge them in water to an inch of their life before allowing them enough air to survive, whereafter I would repeat the process until the mouse died for whatever reason.
Another time I found a baby bird in the woods, but I didn't know what to do with it, so I cut its head off and rationalized that it would have died anyways.
If my cat get ahold of any alive mammal, I can't stop myself. Recently, I managed to kill a mouse by keeping it in a small container filled with smoke from a cigar.
Absolutely no one knows to this day.
>>28888009
You brought this on yourself, now man the fuck up and pay for your sins.
>>28887634
>tfw just moved after a year of living on a street he hit 3 times
>>28888079
>being a nintentoddler
>not fucked up
>>28890048
what the fuck, dude, you need help. macdonald triad, read about it
had sex with a 14-yr-old boy
I talk to myself all the fucking time. I talk to myself so much it's an ingrained habit, I am totally fluent in English because of my talking to myself.
Although creepy, that actually landed me a job in my shithole of a country and I can actually pay some bills and go to college.
>>2889026
Say hello to the 4chan party van
I accidentally made a tulpa out of sheer loneliness.
pic related
>>28890329
Mind telling us about it?
I find tulpas fascinating and have been interested in them for years.
>>28890329
Did you make a pony waifu, anon?
>>28888493
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>>28890048
Jesus fucking christ you guys
