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/uni/ feels thread
>tfw no friends here
>not even one
>Friends at home are hours away
>barely talk to family
>didn't leave my room at all in the last 6 days
Isolation seems to be taking its toll
>>24093232
i've been missing almost everyday because i just can't take it.....
i'm gonna try and change my major bc fuck this shit
>tfw been waiting for my exam results for over 3 weeks now
>tfw too dumb for engineering
>>24093232
I dropped out. Anyone who doesn't is a normie faggot
>>24093413
My older bro thought this in his first year and nearly dropped out because of this. Earlier this year he graduated with a 2:1. Keep at it m8 it will get better
>>24093232
>make $12/hr
>live with Dad
>NO STUDENT DEBT :^)
>>24093456
What are you doing now? And please don't say NEET
>tfw no one to share a good story or a laugh with between lecturesfeels bretty good actually, can fully concentrate on the lectures instead of socializing with fucking normies
I would like a qt gf, though
there is a super cute girl in 2 of my lectures who also lives in the same dorm, but at this point lectures have been going on for 3 weeks and I can't really seem to strike up a conversation so I'll just pass
>>24093548
Just say hi at some point, I started talking to a girl after 1 and a half years of being in lectures with her and never before interacting with her. Went surprisingly smoothly. Bear in mind that she is about a 6/10 maybe 6.5
>Two papers due Tuesday
>Have to teach a HS class on Thursday, haven't written lesson plan yet
>Have to accompany that class on a field trip on Saturday
>Will have to miss out on a day of good times with fem friend
>huge real analysis exam tuesday, studied hard but not feeling good about it nonetheless because prof is a dick
Anyone else /swamped/ here?
>>24093548
Why don't you try lowering your standards and talk to sad, dejected ugly girls.
>>24093232
>thought everything will change at university
>first semester went good had some people I talked with
>they all change university, no contact anymore
>all I do now is study, lift and play videogames
I feel so empty. I feel like I am hovering above myself not actually living life but watching it happen.
>not really interested in anything but sitting in front of my PC doing weeb things
>barely pay attention in classes if I even attend them
>If I do attend them, chances are high I don't understand most of it
>never study unless it's 3 days before a test
>forget everything the moment the exam is over
>somehow manage to have relatively good grades for the last 3 years because every written test is doable by memorization of old tests and homework
>procrastinate to the maximum, basically a NEET if I'm not forced to attend a lab class
>no real clue about the subject I'm studying (chemistry)
>I'm somehow in the master's course of an "elite" university
>get thrown out of an internship due to constant fuck ups and my tutor's patience running thin
I'm counting the days until I get forcefully expelled.
>first semester
>tfw things are actually okay
>haven't been upset about anything since i got here
>got a volunteer position at the campus radio station on the video team
>other than radio station people i don't talk to anyone i don't need to
>no one bothers me
>downgraded my high school friendships to Skype friendships which i was dying to do
>live a comfortable independent life
>>24093626
I say hi all the time when I see her in the dorm, but that's it
last time I talked to a girl in a lecture was 2 years ago during my bachelors, we meet up a few times but it didn't quite work out, unfortunately
besides classes she was basically a shut-in and only had one female friend in college, which made it easy to approach her and strike up a conversation
this time the girl is always surrounded by at least 3 other girls which makes me spaghetti
I'd love to talk to her when I met her alone in the dorm, but I don't know how to say any more than hi when we walk in opposite directions, am I supposed to just stop and start talking? seems super uncomfortable for me
doesn't help that I don't even like being around people that much, I don't even know if I would enjoy having a gf
>>24093301
been there. sucks.
>doing a digital media type class
>too poor to do it at home
>use the university machines after hours
>every time i go in the same girl is in doing the same thing
>literally every time
>the first few times we both avoid eye contact
>we eventually have small conversations
>she's a nice person as well as being attractive
>"i don't have many friends, thats why i'm here in so often anon"
>infatuation sets in
>start daydreaming about said girl daily
What do?
>>24093301
If I went to your uni, I'd nag you to be my friend.
>>24093529
Working in the coal mines
>>24093232
>was scarred about university
>tried to be friendly to people
>they never invited me to shit
>got salty
>don't care anymore
>start fucking with people because why not
>>24093232
>have new courses like computer engineering and differential equations
>really shit at those
>fail out of most weekly assignments
>still have some old exams I have to retake, final try on some of them
>doctor tells me my health is deteriorating fast
>lose old friends because my autism is breaking all boundaries and they are tired of my shit
>familly is constantly on my back because I have no job and do not chad up
>food tastes like dirt regardless of what I eat
>urge to vomit every morning
>having people around makes me upset, lecture halls are nearly unbearable
>sit in train today with headphones in, just have a thousand yard stare into the emptiness
>close eyes and drift off to a better place
>open eyes just to see some qt piercing me with a starre like I am some ghoul feasting on her moms carcass
Shit is pretty much eating my soul over here.
Only perk is that I absolutely look like shit nowadays so no one bothers me, probably because they think I am a heroine junkie.
>>24093957
You keep talking to her, obviously.
>>24094031
That would probably deter me from being your friend if I'm being honest
>>24094071
in same situation with calculus except without the all other bullshit. Got some tests to retake before semester ends in 4weeks,hope i dont fail the fucking tests again.
>already fucking up all my homework due to laziness
>no real friends just some people I kinda hang around but it's clear they don't want me there and only tolerate me
>drink alone every night in my room
>skip half my lectures because of hangovers
I just want to die in my sleep one night
>In grad school
>Live off campus
>The few old friends I had in undergrad are gone
>Not a part of any clubs
>Never do anything anymore because of this, no idea where to start because I fucking suck at socializing.
>Drink alone in my room every weekend while playing vidya and shitposting.
I mean, I did that most of the time while in undergrad too, but at least I went out a little bit. At least the option was always there. Now I am truly alone.
Also I have discovered that I hate what I'm learning and want to drop out. Just fuck my life up senpai.
im fucking retarded
pretty good looking, no social autism.
still plays games inside dorm room all day. i feel like I just need to go meet people, but too lazy.
where 2 meet grilles on campus?
>>24094105
Your deterrence would only make me more determined.
I'm kinda pissed off right now. My gf's roommate wants her to go with her to the bars in a city 2 hours away tonight to make sure she doesn't do anything stupid or something. And she feels like she has to go with her in case the chick gets too drunk or does something to get herself arrested.
So now I don't have any plans. OK then.
>tfw now have to start nursing school later than i planned
>tfw microbiology is kicking my ass
>tfw not hanging out with friends anymore, let alone talking to them because i feel depressed or whatever the fuck it is i'm dealing with
>tfw new coworkers at my work-study job are ghetto sheboons that are super rude and don't work like they should be for a $10 per hour job
>tfw i just play video games & browse 4chan
>uni in my home town is really good
>get accepted into it
>staying with my parents because I'm not a normie
>with student finance I can literally afford anything I want
I'm picking up an LG G4 tomorrow, feels good lads
I just got arrested at college and charged with disorderly conduct.
I'm 18 right now in year 12 of college (retook the year because I failed physics by 1 ums kek)
I really want to move out and go to uni because I just want a fresh start desu and to be much more independent. Is this a bad idea as a robot? I have like no passions really but I guess I could do a computer science course. Is uni really shit? Or is it quite good if I make friends? Should I move out or stay at home? I live in the north of England, are there any unis I should avoid?
>>24094954
>I really want to move out and go to uni because I just want a fresh start desu and to be much more independent.
you most likely won't make use of that 'new start', you'll fail to integrate and things will be almost the same as in school
>Is this a bad idea as a robot?
no, it's a great thing to achieve higher knowledge of a given subject, regardless of your social interaction with normies
>I have like no passions really but I guess I could do a computer science course.
if you're not serious about it, you'll most likely won't make it
>Is uni really shit?
no
>Or is it quite good if I make friends?
can't relate, since I don't make friends, but it's good anyways
>Should I move out or stay at home?
I moved out and I didn't regret it once
>I live in the north of England, are there any unis I should avoid?
britbong universities are not my expertise
who /engineering/ here?feeeeeeels(trying to bypass robot)
I've been talking to myself for about four years now and sometimes when it's late and there's a nice stretch to walk down I amuse myself with sub-par singing.
Anyone know what comes next?
ive made friends at college but havent had sexual contact or romantic contact with a single girl here and its my 3rd year.
>tfw finally made a friend on my course
>tfw he's a total bro
>tfw he introduces me to his mates and they like me too
i'm gonna make it bros
>Used to watch Recess all the time as a kid despite the fact I was home schooled
>Really liked King Bob
>Literally fantasised about being like King Bob
>I was very coddled growing up
>Parents didn't let me read violent books or watch TV outside of cartoons
>By the time they were ready to let me go to college I still watched cartoons every day
>Got into college
>Parents told me I was ready to leave home
>Gave me no other advise about the real world
>I thought that college would be like Recess but with bigger people
>Bought a crown with me
>Thought I would be the king of the college playground
>Parents walked me to my dorm
>Emotional goodbye etc
>Immedietely grabbed my crown and a hockey stick like King Bob had
>Started walking around the campus
>Looking for the playground
>spent 30 minutes, can't find it
>eventually start to get scared and emotional, my parents aren't here
>one of the girls who is helping new students sees and approaches
>''are you okay?''
>''I---I am looking for the Playground''
>she looks at me like it is a joke
>''don't act like an idiot''
>walks off
>I end up freaking out and running around the campus in a crown with a hockey stick asking people where the playground is
>they all think it is a joke
>eventually go back to my room and lock myself in
>do some research, find campus don't have playgrounds
>make no friends in college
>tfw not sure why I'm in uni but don't know what else to do
I'm not gonna be an engineer. I'm not gonna be a doctor. I'm not gonna be a lawyer, a scientist, a programmer, or whatever the fuck else. What's the point of wasting 4 years of my life to get a shitty liberal arts degree with no jobs?
At the same time, idk what I'd be doing right now if I wasn't in uni. In today's job market, how is an 18 year old supposed to get a full time job at anything worthwhile? I could learn a trade, but I don't want to be stuck as a mechanic or an electrician for the rest of my life. Nor do i want to become a teacher or professor and stay in the education system for the rest of my life, writing peer review papers about nothing of importance.
So what the fuck do I do? I'm too dumb to be STEM masterrace but too smart to be a tradesman. I'm only good at artsy shit, but I feel obligated to contribute to society, and it would feel masturbatory to devote myself to answering questions while doing nothing to improve lives around me. The world doesn't need somebody like me.
>>24095050
Thanks for the advice, whenever people say stuff about uni is that almost always from the account of a norm or who goes out to parties every night? What would happen if I moved out and got a dorm with some normies, would that make integrating much easier or would they most likely just reject me And make life hell? I always hear people say it is the best time of their life, but it is rare to hear robots talk about their uni experience.
>>24095061
I don't have a bf or gf.
Can I have permission to imagine that you are mine if I give you permission to imagine that I'm yours?
>>24095165
>Made some friends at college
>Made some friends at work
>Dont feel like im close to any of them
Anyone know this feel? Its almost the same as not having any friends. I mean, they're there and we talk and joke around every day, but i still dont feel like a friend to them
>Sit down at table to eat
>Group of girls at adjacent table get up and move to a different table
>>24095335
You can, as long as i have permission to imagine you as a cute girl.
Im not into dudes
>>24094650
gtfo fuckin retard
>>24095420
Please explain to me why I am a "fuckin retard" Mr. 420 man
>>24093232
>tfw have to take a computer class for general ed
>tfw everyone in there is overweight and disgusting
>tfw i have to take a public health class for general ed
>tfw everyone in there is a sjw
there is no in between. it seems like you have to choose between being an autistic stem lord or a sjw dindu
>>24093232
1st year uni
>didn't study
>exams soon
>started smoking hash
pic related, feels good man
>Go to community college with plans of later going to university
>Kill it because it's fucking easy, have a bunch of profs telling me to continue my education and that they would write me a letter of recommendation
>Never apply
>2 years later
>Doing nothing with my life
>Paralyzed with depression cause I never went to university
>>24095270
I don't really know, man, since I don't go out to party
it's basically like school but with harder/more interesting subjects
>What would happen if I moved out and got a dorm with some normies, would that make integrating much easier or would they most likely just reject me And make life hell?
I only recently moved into a shared flat with one roomie, but he seems to be similary socially retarded so there is not much to worry about for me
I highly doubt that they would make your life 'hell', most likely they would just ignore you if things REALLY don't work out
most important thing in my opinion is to pick a course that you actually see yourself enjoying, everything else is obligatory
if you pick the wrong subject I'd guess that that by itself would make your life hell, but I can't relate since I didn't make the wrong choice
I think it's basically go to university, if you have something you really want to learn more about but don't go to university for the sake of going to university, if that makes sense
>>24095517
Thanks for the advice, last year I didn't really think about my course too much but I guess I'll have to do my research
>>24093232
lolhhh
>>24095411
I'm slightly offended that you thought I was a guy to begin with to be honest.
>>24095242
My college has playground, anon. It's not Recess tier though.
how do i into study?my methods are so shit for calculus
>>24095830
>5 minutes in and i already fucked up
As expected of me. Anyway, too late to back out now, im already cuddling you
>>24095882
Solve more problems. What aspect of calculus are you having trouble with and what are your usual methods?If I stop responding, presume I died.
>thought masturbation was going to be an issue
>turns out roommate is a pervert who constantly wants to go down on me
>all i had to do is ask and my pants are off and I'm getting oral sex
>its even escalated into us just having sex all the time
>can't even remember the last time I masturbated
>she even wants to do it in the shower
honest question, am I still a virgin if I've only did it with a girl?
>tfw I'm in a tiny ass frat and I'm the only one who isn't graduating this year
>tfw they're almost my only friends
>>24095944
related rates family and idk i just do hw but still shit at it...
>>24096031
>Related rates
Are you doing kinematics?
>>24095936
It's okay.
I can't stay mad at you!
>>24096099
>Are you doing kine
no family just general related rates type shit
>>24095980
if you had sex you arent a virgin. if you're a male you're stupid. if you're a female, then yes even lesbian sex.
>>24096160
Kreyszig advanced engineering mathematics might be a good place to start. It helped me get the best in a calculus course last year, but we didn't touch on related rates.
>>24095989
No, that also makes you a lesbian.
>tfw A in Calc I, A- in Calc II, getting absolutely bootyblasted in Calc III
On both tests so far, I've fucked up some crucial idea that wrecked my test score (equation of a tangent plane given a vector on the first one, lagrange multipliers on the second one). I finally understand why /sci/ memes about triple integrals though, it's the easiest shit ever even when you have to get things in polar or spherical coordinates. At this point I'm gonna be lucky if I manage to pull a B- out of my ass here and that's only gonna be if I do extremely well on the final. Oh, and
>tfw qts everywhere
>tfw no gf
>tfw thought about asking a qt out
>tfw tried to just talk to her and she completely ignored me
>>24096265
Oops. >>24096265
was meant for >>24095980
>tfw 2 tests on monday, 25% of my final marks each.
I still haven't studied for them
>>24093518
Is your dad proud?
pro tip: he is not.
>>24093232
completely neglecting most of my work and classes. I didn't even go to any lectures this week because i didn't feel like it. or i stayed up till like 3 am smoking pot and playing dota and i don't feel like waking up in a few hours. passing my classes though, and lab though i've let a lot of them pile up already and i don't even know where to begin with writing some of them. I feel like dropping out and just becoming a wageslave. might do it if i find a pretty good job next summer. lets see how next semester goes.
>>24093232
>tfw have only left my room to eat breakfast and dinner
>tfw haven't done homework yet
I can't wait until Thanksgiving desu. So much shit to do until then, but at least I'll get a break.
>>24093456
shut up idiot
>>24095980
No, but you're not a robot.
>>>>>/out/
>tfw you see your qt neighbor
>thought she liked me
>"Oh hey! I'm going to a toga party :3
>Dressed like a whore
>Probably out to get used like a dumpster
>"What are you up to tonight?"
>"Um, catching up on studying"
Thanks feels. I needed that. I think I'm going to take up smoking or drinking. Something that'll kill me at any rate.
>>24096337
you still have more than 24h, you fucking faggot
get off 4chin an hit the books
Some preppy girls laughed at my cause I had some peanut butter/jam/bread on my face in the library once.
Classic uni banter
Tfw in third year and yet to bang or make friends with any girls from the uni
>>24095980
Is she hot? Are you hot?
>>24096435
Going to college is the normiest thing you can do.
>surrounded by young adults 24/7
>surrounded by sluts 24/7
>surrounded with drinking and partying culture 24/7
I-I'm such a robot!
>>24096862
>implying you ever took a STEM class
>implying you're even somewhat educated
of course you can humpl sluts 24/7 while doing your gender studies degree, faggot
stay mad, peasant, while the rest of us tackles the last questions humans have about nature
>live in an apartment with 3 roommates
>i'm the only one with a car
>mfw they expect me to fucking drive them everywhere
>>24097055
>STEM
>THE MYSTERIES OF NATURE AND THE UNIVERSE
hahaha, it's a fucking STEMlord. Enjoy getting keked when your all of your peers are fucking each other with no restraint while you're too busy shitposting on /r9k/. I hope your future job gets outsourced to a fucking third worlder who will do your job for pennies. Like your dumbass can solve anything.
>>24093232
I'm about to go to an university in Canada.
What should I expect? What should I do?
I have the typical robot syndrome, lack of motivation, eternal internal struggle, etc.
I'm done with uni, I'm dropping out to become an electrician.
>>24097220
so I take it you really never took an actually relevant class
how does it feel to be to stupid for science? you probably can't even grasp the feeling of never being able to comprehend the stuff others think about
it's okay, anon
it's mostly the stupid people that are actually happy, so you're basically set
>>24097220
I can solve your mum's reproductive dilemma alright
>moved to a different country for Uni
>hate the people here
>no friends
I just sit at home and smoke weed all day. Main problem is just boredom. If I had something to occupy my time I'd be set
I complain about this in a few threads like this but it never goes away. I can never truly be content during the semester because 80% of the work is out of class. I always feel guilty when I'm not working and just feeling it pisses me off so much.
>tfw i might never see her again after this trimester ends (about two weeks)
>tfw she's the person i have most wanted to be with in my life but she will probably not even remember me
>>24096862
>implying I don't hate my life
>mfw I just suffer being around people and cherish my alone time just so I can get a good paying job and make my parents proud
>>24097473
make her want you
you have two weeks left, anon
I believe in you, don't you dare disappoint me
>He goes to university/college
Fucking normie scum. Get out!
I hate college/university faggots. They might be smarter in academics but when it comes to morals, existentialism, and will power to work hard. They are fucking shit. Unifags are bigger welfare queens than welfare queens because they rely on bank loans to stay afloat on their studies. Leeching away from society, increasing inflation, and in all general shitting up everything for everyone.
College/university is a buisness pyramid scheme from kindergarten. Your teachers are just college advertisement. You have been sold a lie.
But whatever. Go ahead and keep studying. I am sure you will get that $100,000+ a year job. Dispite only a small percentage actually do get the job they studied for.
Meanwhile. The wageslave saved money in 8-10 years. Gets a property, slaps a house on it, put electricity, a well, and a septic tank system. This should be the ultimate goal for everyone. Not materialistic bullshit like a Lamborghini or a million dollar mansion. A simple house all to yourself and alone (unless you want family but fuck that. I rather be alone in my house I own)
>>24097307
>a shit undergrad thinks he knows anything about science
Come back when you have your master's at least
>>24097499
Do it for mom and dad, Anon! I believe in you!
i pop bars , smoke blunts, sip cpt morgan , doggystyle on my girl and blast future in my dorm. lifes good
>>24097537
I did your mum alright.
>>24093232
>tfw u constantly rush to class to avoid any social interaction with people you may know but mostly so you don't see that boy you like with that asian qt again
>>24097534
>all this angst
>>24097605
My mom is my dad...
>>24097660
I'm your father
>>24097524
i'm trying to anon, believe me i am
i spent all of today making something for her
but she already has a bf she's happy with, and the last thing i want to do is make her feel terrible by forcing her to make a choice (one that i'm 99% guaranteed to lose)
if i can't have her, then i at least don't want to be a negative influence in her life, if anything i want to make her smile
i'm sorry anon, i really am, but there's nothing i can do
at least i had she gave me the opportunity to feel this much love
>>24097719
Based gay dude
>>24097723
fuck man, her having a bf is tough
you'll eventually make it, anon
maybe not now, maybe not with this girl, but you'll find one that'll make you happy and vice versa
>>24095503
wow you really threw it away. a bunch of mediocre people cant even get letters of rec and they get into shitty grad schools because of it
>tfw can only code while high
>4 more years of compsci
>have to explain to parents who are still giving me pocket cash where my weed money goes or get a job
hard choice desu
keep lying or become a normie
>mfw I go to class drunk
>mfw I took midterms drunk
>mfw I literally keep alcohol in my backpack so I can drink in between class
>mfw I drop acid and roam across campus in a drunken, psychedelic haze
>mfw I'm an English major, so it's easy as fuck
>mfw I can only get one-night stands through tinder
>mfw I'm literally incapable of having lasting relationships and all of my friends have drifted away
>mfw people apparently like my stories
>mfw I'll probably overdose on heroin before I graduate
>mfw I wouldn't have it any other way
>>24097825
thanks anon
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=elmVm5cZNoE
it's just
i'm so tired of always losing the people that make me feel happy so soon after i find them
why does this keep happening to me
i've always been alone, why can't i get someone i can just be happy with for a while
why can't i ever plan for the future, why do i have to live on borrowed time
but not this time
this time i will at least get to say a goodbye
i can't stand being heartblocked anymore
i'm not going out with a whimper
Couldn't even last a full semester. Getting fucked up every night I could. Had no friends. Back home working everyday. Probably gonna try heroin
>>24098315
XXXXDDDD
wow so cool
I got caught masturbating in a women's restroom while using feces as lube. I got arrested and now everyone thinks I'm a creep for no reason.
Fuck normies. I never get invited anywhere.
>>24098654
It's because you're bitching about it rather than owning it and telling everyone you don't regret that you don't get invited anywhere Anon.
>tfw never had sexual contact of any kind
>theres a crazy girl I could easily coerce
>dunno if it's worth it
>tfw 1.76GPA
a-at least I have my associates degree already....brb killing myself
Washing clothes is too expensive
>in community college
>studying for ACT
>math is hard as fuck and I'm gonna fail
please help
>>24098778
offer your boipussy virginity to an azn math god
>>24098739
do it brofam, you've nothing to lose
>always had a problem with sitting with people, even my friends
>always feel the need to ask if I can join them during the break between classes
>hate feeling as though i'm interrupting something or annoying them
>they always say yes, one even berates me for feeling the need to ask
>says "you don't need to ask, we're your friends"
>one turns to me and says "it's okay man, you don't need to ask"
Feels good mane.
>>24093632
>doing bachelor of music/education
>so fucking behind on practice
>everyone wants me to accompany them
>THERE ARE OTHER DRUMMERS IN THIS COURSE YOU KNOW
>>24098753
this t b h my f a m i l y man
>>24093232
>tfw no gf thats into recreation drug use
I squandered my college years, got consumed by depression, and turned more or less into a misanthrope. Now that I'm gone, I miss it in a peculiar way.
>tfw can't decide what college to go todon't worry I'm not underage
>tfw everywhere I want to go could be full of bland normies with stupid opinions, or worse, megachads and stacys
is two days enough to cram like fuck and get a pass on a secondyear zoology class?
its all rote learning kind of stuff
procrastination is ruining my life
>>24099577
try it anyway anon
>>24093232
I have to work with the most annoying faggot in one of my labs. Holy shit this guy called be 13 times over 2 days so I could fix one word in our lab report.
Anybody else having the worst semester of their school life atm? I'm literally taking two classes and a lab but I'm failing all of them. Physics sucks, Biology is fucking boring, and I'm an idiot and missed days in the lab
>tfw it's all ogre
>>24099369
This feel right here.
Did two tabs of earlier and all I could think about was how nice it would be to do this shit with a girl
>>24099577
yes senpai, cut down on the sleep.
i have functional neuro exam in 2 days so i feel the pain
>>24100003
have you started studying?
>>24100074
yeah, I've been drawing pathways and looking at slices for maybe 15 hours. Still have a massive load but I just gotta power through. I will cut myself off 4chan soon.
you should probably think about buying some energy drinks and going into a study hibernation soon too senpai.
>>24099986
taking acid with a qt is fun, but pretty risky.
it will magnify the fuck out of any weird vibes you're sending off, especially if you're along.
having sex on acid is also more weird than fun, made me feel like some kind of bizarre insect rather than an ape.
>>24100817
* alone
fucktherobot blox
>tried the social game in first year
>made two friends, both dropped out after first year
>no friends at uni now, spend time fucking with people at uni and people from high school
>spend all my time alone
>go and see hookers every once in a while
>rarely show up to classes
>rarely study
>hand in everything on time
>study day before all midterms/finals
>have a 3.5 gpa
>finishing up fourth year
>somehow getting by like this in compsci
>completely empty inside
>want to become either a serial killer or just disappear completely off the grid
>nothing makes me happy or inspired or excited anymore
>university has destroyed me more than high school somehow
>have a few friends here
>really just smoke weed and go to class
>even in a fraternity
>how did i even get in here
>disregard many people in there
>just hang with same friends i met the first week and get stoned
>feels
>>24099877
One of the worst for sure. I'm also taking 3 classes and just doing mediocre in them, but what's worse is that it's my last semester and I feel like I haven't had the college experience I thought I would. I didn't get laid, and I blew the chance at happiness I had with my oneitis almost 2 years ago. I still hope there's a chance for us, but deep down I know it's over, and I just think she might feel differently because it's been such a long time. She had a crush on me at one point, but I didn't make a move and she got tired of waiting. Even if we did get together now, we're both graduating in a few months, then moving back to separate hometowns. I just want to run off with her. I just want her to love me again.
>>24102285
also english education major here
feelsgoodman
>>24102285
>have a few friends here
lucky
>tfw I never went to uni and don't really want to/can't but I still visit these threads every time.
I don't even know why I do this I can't relate to most of this shit.
>Danced with a girl at a party two weeks ago
>First time I've touched a girl in about 9 months
>She has a boyfriend
I feel like I'd just get laughed at if I admitted to frat brothers that I'm still a kissless virgin, and I feel like it would be even more pathetic to ask someone to set me up for a one-night stand
>was excellent high school student
>always sucked at math tho
>go to school for biochemistry
>depression hits like a fucking truck
>Zoloft fries brain
>no interest in anything besides dying
>don't give a fuck about school
>almost get kicked out
>bullshit my way to stay in
Those studybux are dope af, mah nigga
>now a non-degree
>failing 2/5 courses
>probably gonna flunk out and just kill myself
>saving up my sleeping pills for a gigantic OD
I honestly don't think I've learned anything since high school. My brain is incapable of giving any fucks or soaking in anything new.
Depression is a such a fucking horrible disease. I had internships lined up at the WHO and CDC, but now I'm just a dumb faggot.
Somebody just fucking kill me.
i think im going to fail this exam tomorrow to be completely frank with you comrades. means another semester off uni
>>24097288
>Canada
still around?
>>24103924
If you're in a frat, just go after the freshman girls. They're literally just going to frats to get drunk, get fucked, and laugh about it the next day at their breakfast halls with the other girls who went out. At least at the uni I went to, frat parties were mostly freshman girls looking to get their weekly dose of vitamin D.
>>24104518
what is it on?
>>24104355
sorry senpai, sounds tough. you should look into trade school or something, could afford your own shit and stuff in just a few years. i don't know.
>10 page paper due Thursday
>have to get at least a C to get an A in the class and maintain my 4.0 GPA
>>24095247
how about an architect?
>>24104596
corporate finance. having to memorise the findings and conclusions of 15 or so journal articles.
>>24104596
I was thinking of maybe going to a cc and becoming a paramedic. I think I'd like it.
But above all else, I just want to die
>>24104553
im canada
>want to go to campus gym so i can start lifting
>too much of a pussy to have to deal with other people
guess i'll just stick with doing pushups in my room
damn
to think
in just 2 and a half years
I'll just consider these threads completley garbage threads full of kids whining
>>24097723
holy fuck I'm in this situation right now,
Anon, I feel you... It fucking hurts.
>>24105078
>tfw graduating in a year
Where the fuck has time gone?
>>24093232
What should I study?
>currently studying accounting and don't really want to continue
>>24105003
How many do you do?
I got rejected by the university I wanted to get into, so after a while I decided to take CS but I still haven't attended a single day, and now I'm too embarrassed to go in even for a week and decide I don't care about it.
So now every day I just drive my car to a fairly empty parking lot in my town and sit there for a few hours, reading and playing mobile games.
I can drop out in the second semester and go elsewhere, but I'll probably have to do this for the next two months.
>Trying to keep a 4.0
>Not that smart
>tfw I'm playing the system to the maximum and I hate it
Just 2 more semesters...
>going to uni next year
>dont have anything to actually take because i'm poor as fuck and have been going to community college for the past 2 years
>tfw senior year, get A's and B's for first time in years on midterm
>feel all the other tests slipping down through the cracks
>forgetting homework assignments left and right
>poised to continue barely fucking up an aerospace degree with a 2.3 GPA
Alcoholism has fucked me.
Could o a semester over the summer, but parents convinced me to take a break to calm down
>Have nothing to do
>>24105192
>had a 4.0gpa in highschool
>can't keep a 4.0 in uni because I'm fucking retarded when it comes to math now
>>24105237
I had like a 2.2 in high school
I remember the glorious days of going home to play videogames for 14 hours straight after school
>>24095061
in college i feel like a lot of the time people will hook up in one night stands. Then theyl like date for a couple months and break up. That's how my last relationship worked and how my next relationship is probably going to end up too.
>>24093717
I tried to make friends freshman year, cut contact, then was willingly alone until I was forced to be with people all the time who kept trying to talk to me and eventually I caved. I just kinda like being alone. After being with someone a bit I want to be alone again.
>>24093548
I'm just of a fucked mentality that no woman will want me again. I had interest from them in high school. It all went away in college, and any attempt at meeting chicks failed pretty much. I try to save myself the agony now.
>>24093632
Real analysis is good, mathbot. I keep skipping a class since its my last and I got work in it and exam this week. Also gotta grade tests, make quiz, lesson plan, all that. I hate having work to do at home man.
>>24094369
Yeah man... I hate being a lonely alcoholic too. I want to quiet drinking. More pain than pleasure.
>>24095361
Yup. All feels empty. I only have a couple friends I can feel comfortable with and talk deep shit. New friends feel fake but we get along. Might be normal, or not, I'm fucked in the head.
>>24096273
Don't try to ask them out. You only regret it man.
>>24097306
I've considered that.
>>24098315
Sounds fun. Tinder grossed me out too much dude. A chick sent me loads of nudes and wanted to hook up but I felt grossed out and backed out. Also I'd like to die of heroin overdose too desu.
>>24102252
Sounds familiar. I'm too pussy to drop off the grid though.
>>24104355
Fuck antidepressants, I'm emotionless and want to die daily but I'd never get on that poison.
>>24105260
>those days will never come back
>>24104630
that's 2 pages per day you fucking pleb
don't tell me that's already too much for you
>>24093717
This! I feel like I am making decisions that aren't truly my own. I am getting the grades and choosing the courses, but it is like I am on autopilot.
Just finished my BA in Film Studies. Well I have an exam in a week but other than that I'm done
Doing Honours next year cos why not. My parents aren't happy. I think they're starting to resent me for not having a job or a gf, and for coasting along in an easy bullshit degree while living at home
Fuck knows what I'm gonna do for work, the only things related to my studies would be a film critic or academic
My current plan is to do Honours, then travel for a little bit with the money I've gotten from centrelink, then come back and join the army or something
>tfw uni semester just about to finish
>tfw will only see him once more before the break starts
>tfw he lives like 1.5 hours away and is shit at responding to online messages despite being all hugging and shit in person
>that one girl in class who you're falling in love with despite having never talked to her before
For some reason my whole life I was just not able to be friends with my peers. Right now I am friends only with people who are year or two above me, not to mention couple of Internet school girls I keep contact with.
>>24106779
alsothinking about names for your childrenafter shetalked to you once
>applying for college since I just finishedonline high school
>family chooses which college I have to apply to
>family tells me which courses I have to take
>family tells me it's what's best for me
The best part is that the chose aChristian University. College is supposed to be "the best years of your life" but for me they will probably be the worst.
I'm planning on killing myself anyways, so I'll see how the first week goes and if it sucks then I'll commit.
Everyone told me high school would be different, the courses would be challenging. They weren't. Everyone told me college would be different, it'd be in depth and set you up for the future. It didn't.
I make more money doing my own thing online than I would in the career this would set me up for. The kicker is that I spend MORE TIME on homework than my online business... what the fuck. Only one month left though so I'm finishing it.
Oh yeah and no friends or gf but that's a given.
>>24107246
What business do you run online?
>>24107274
Nothing interesting man. Just take my adderall and scour the internet for chinese deals I can resell for a high profit margin.
Only make like 40-50k but I live in my parents house so all of it goes to my investments
I don't get the obsession with college in our society.
It's not impossible to live a comfortable life with just a high school diploma, or even a GED.
Why take all the debt and waste your time with more schooling, seems like an exercise in pointlessness.
>>24107339
If you live in a heavily populated city in the United States, it's not possible. And that's where most people in the United states live.
>>24093232
Just dropped out. Shit, guess I can't feel my feels in this thread. It don't feel good though.
>>24107406
Move? I guess some people have stronger ties to where they live, but as long as I don't leave the state I live in, I don't give a shit.
I am the last one to write this sentence.
>>24094914
What did you do?
Original comment
>>24107545
I am the last one to copy this sentence.
>>24107646
I am the last one to post this meme.
Uni is fine so far for me
>Course is incredibly female dominated, only a handful of guys
>As a result, the only two 'friends' I have are female
>Now coming to this really pathetic realisation that they mean so much to me but I barely register on the friend scale to them
>Honestly think one of them flirts with me when we're alone, but don't want to act on it because if I'm wrong I'll have lost the only companions I've ever had in my life
>>24094043
Same here.I'm actually quite comfortable with this
>>24096536
Unless he's in some kindergarten uni he doesn't stand a chance.
>>24096862
Getting into university was a lot easier and took a lot less socialization than getting neetbux.
I actually got a girlfriend with qt 8/10 netflix n chill every night
feels good
>mfw 19 yo KV
>mfw first year in college
>mfw 0 friends
>mfw spend every day inside my dorm room
>mfw drink almost everyday
>mfw can't focus for shit
>mfw I have 0 motivation to even open up a book and study anything
>mfw sexually frustrated all the time
>mfw I skipped more than three thirds of the classes
>mfw I have my first test tomorrow and I didn't study anything because I'm to depressed to even bother and I also can't understand shit
Only 3 more years to go, I guess.
Not taking any units over the summer and am thinking about switching course or unis
>tfw I don't know what to do
>exam tomorrow
>haven't even made it through the practice paper all week.
>>24093232
>tfw kicked out of engineering
Should have tried
>barely made it through bachelors by studing hard every day
>turns out master-level studies are twice as intense
how the fuck do people do this, it's beyond human capacity
>Spend a lot of time in the nerd clubs, anime and vidya
>Get to know the quiet nice nerdy girls really well
>Think they're all shy and innocent since they don't talk much
>Find out most of them have normie boyfriends and that almost all of them lost their v cards to the usual gigachads
Not even nerd girls are immune to Chads power. Lucky for them they can get a normie bf instead of settling for a nerd guy.
>start of project
>get given brief that specifies exactly what we need to produce
>fast forward to a day or two before deadline
>probably a third of the class has no idea what to submit
>FB group blows up with questions
>3-4 people on me with problems
>every single motherfucker says they're going to do it right next time
>proceed to stay at home playing ps4 or something
>they so desperately need to come in to work but just don't
>one girl says she "works better at home" despite having a small child that needs constant attention
Lost causes.
Pretty great so far. Nothing to complain about.
>>24095980
I'd kill for this scenario regardless of the genders.
No friends, KHHV, etc.
Somehow I'm pretty content though
>>24108837
Kate Leth is a fucking pussy, omg
>>24108752
>Shy looking girl in 4 of my lecture classes
>Plays pokemon on her 3dsXL Zelda Edition all the time
>Her laptop is covered with cartoon/anime stickers
>Talks with her friends about vidya
>One day I manage to get a seat next to her
>Ask her for help about a chemical problem I didn't understand
>Somehow she is able to mention her boyfriend twice while answering my question
>tfw first semester
>going to fail my molecular chemistry class
I just can't fucking learn enough for that shit, I'm starting to lose points from other classes because I get so upset after a chemistry exam that I have to leave.
>chad just walked it, asked my roomate for a lighter then called me sad when I told him I'd been up all night on my computer
Well now I just feel like fucking shit. Was just about to go to bed. Feel way to shitty to do that now.
>>24093301
this, except that i don't even have any friends at home.
>>24108963
Its a safeguard for those types of women.
Thinks every conversation with the opp sex is sexually/romantically motivated.
>visit friend at college with his girlfriend
>in a gay voice call girlfriend a silly bitch
>forget this is super liberal school, SJW friends go full force
>fulldamagecontrol.JPG
>regardless of this still hook up with 2 of them once alcohol gets flowing cuz I'm a handsome SOB
>mfw I'm fresh out of hecks
>>24093301
>tfw living this life for 2 years now
>tfw beta brazilian guy studying at Chicago
Tried to make friends but i sound pathetic trying to chat speaking englishfml desu
>>24093632
senpai, I have a 500 word essay due in 2 weeks. You don't know shit.
>>24093729
Make a huge scene so you have to be thrown out by security if they expel you
>>24109197
Implying it isn't.
>>24098315
Fuck I wish I went to lectures high now
>>24109301
>500 word essay
Holy hamburgers if 500 in 2 weeks is too hard kill yourself my man
>Get number of QT girl in my class
>ask if she wants to go out for a drink
>says yes let's go on Sunday (today)
>text her about an hour ago to see if we're still on, expecting the usual last minute deflect
>"sure I'll see you at 3!" (just over an hour)
HELP
>>24109410
Lurk more. You clearly don't understand the difficulties a 400 word report can present a month in advance of its deadline.
>>24109551
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=CKVbqhDlUO8
Good luck, anon.
>>24109551
Make sure you don't smell in any way (sweat, mouth etc) and clip your nails and put on fresh clothes.
You don't really need any other help desu.
>>24105003
I know you probably are gonna take any excuse to not hit the gym, but I had the same problem.
I couldn't go because of social anxiety, so I just go at 1am and there's no one, you can even jack off and no one's gonna care or see.
>>24105003
Do people actually use the gym showers?
Are there private shower cubicles or are you expected to shower naked publicly without getting a boner?
Any other Aussies here? Would this unit be enough to count as a chemistry preq for a bachelor degreee?
>https://www.open.edu.au/courses/science/murdoch-university-fundamentals-of-chemistry-previously-introduction-to-chemistry--sci18-2015
>>24109293
>huehue complaining about loneliness
Your fame should be carrying you, so you must be a subhuman of the lowest order.
>took adrafinil and noopept for the first time today
>super concentrated on shitposting
help
If you're a uni student who doesn't smoke weed you are wasting your time
>Final semester before I graduate
>need to complete a 200+ page portfolio containing dev work, sql work, systems analytics work, etc.
>need to go meet with the lead parks director in this city this week and finish up a 20 page business gap analysis to turn into them
>need to come up with an idea for an android application to develop as my final project in another class
>mfw
Anyone here tried any good neutrophics?
>I'd like to know about phenylpiracetam in particular
>>24093456
>everyone who isn't a pussy is a normie
>>24109237
That's the funny thing about SJW bitches. Most of them just join the bandwagon in order to feel good about themselves, but will turn on everything in private.
Once had a gender studies major tell me that deep down she actually believes sex and gender are the same thing, kek.
>tfw smoking weed every night
>tfw on track for straight A's this semester
Parents cant say shit to me if they ever catch me, I'm doing well in school what the fuck else do you want?
>>24109551
Look your best, keep the conversation flowing by getting her to talk about her life, laugh and joke around about her stories without being horribly impolite, and don't be a beta. Remember: confidence is the appearance of having your shit together no matter what. Even if your shit isn't together, you can fake it 'til you make it.
She accepted your date, she's into you, just don't fuck it up.
Also, number one piece of advice: AFTER THE DATE, DO NOT TEXT/CALL TOO MUCH. Easily the #1 mistake guys make in dating.
>started reading study book
>fell asleep 20 minutes later
>>24108577
That happened to me too
I dragged it out for about 3 years until I had to drop out, I had only passed very few courses.
Now I'm a 24 year old kv just starting a new education.
I've tried harder but still failed both of my exams.
>>24110742
what are you studying? literature?
>>24111082
If he smokes it late and he's just high a few hours before bed he could study a few hours every day anyway.
>>24111082
Chemical engineering
ez pz so far but this is my last semester of weed-outs so it's bound to get more strenous
>>24111109
that's not the problem. weed fucks with your REM sleep and therefore your memory. I feel significantly more retarded if I smoke a j in the evening. only smoke when no tests are in sight
but if it does not affect him that much, then go ahead and do it guilt-free
>been doing really well pretty much cruising up until 3rd year
>on 69 currently (70 is what's needed for a first)
>get set a piece of work on liberal theories of justice
>no idea what to do
How can i get a mean here when the all the samples are in intervals instead of just getting the precise values?
Who here /bournemouth/
>17, move to Arizona and go to ASU (not underageb&, that was 4 years ago)
>start as a "management & entrepreneurship" major 'cause I didn't know exactly what do as a freshman
>take a PHI 101 course, change major to philosophy
>take on second major in English literature
>get insanely passionate about these things
>sophomore year, I start to realize I'm one of the few in my classes who actually read the texts & cares about 'em
>get qt lit gf who is super smart & reads with me all of the time
>break up with gf for no good reason
>realize that I don't need literature & philosophy courses to read books
>egomaniac trip
>complete self-imposed social isolation
>a couple of new professors hate me
>withdraw from semester right before summer break as I don't want to give the enemy professors the pleasure of another B+ on a paper I treated like a dissertation
>move to Chicago, start cooking in Michelin-starred restaurants
>visit friend at his university
>fall in love with girl there
>go insane when she stops talking to me
>write a book to channel maniac energy
>parents insist I come back after a year & finish my degree
>come back after a year
>don't finish degree
>drop out & spend all of my time cooking, reading, writing
>tfw I kinda wanna go back to college so I can fall in love again
Devilish?
>>24111293
I found on a site that i should use the midpoints, i thought it might be that.
>>24111341
That's bullshit but I believe it
>>24111511
Sounds right
>>24111213
>70 is what's needed for a first
Ireland or UK?
>>24112050
England, don't know what the score is for the rest of UK
>screw up high school playing video games and getting obese and being depressed
>go to community college and get my life together
>get perfect grades and professors love me, go to a good uni after two years
>majoring in CS and junior year is going great
Life is good
>presentation tomorrow.
>too fucked up to study. Being a full time employee and a full time student fucked up my whole semester. Overly tired, lost motivation, can neither work nor study.
>fw haven't made friends after 1.5 years with anyone from my course
>fw they're all fucking normies
>fw live at home so there's no forced student socialisation
>fw my only friend goes to a uni that's a 6 hour drive away
>fw no gf
Only have one good friend, I care about him more than anything.
He has a shit ton of friends and sadly I'm 'just another friend' to him.
Next year he will move to another side of the country and I might lose contact with him.
I want to die..
>>24113498
Were there any introductory activities in the beginning?
Are there anything like parties or something that everyone can go to?
There were 3 weeks of daily activities at my school and i got to know some people there.
There's a pub at the school every wednesday and sometimes other kinds of parties that you can buy tickets to (where everyone sits around long tables, gets drunk and gets food).
With these things i have managed to get many acquaintances.
>thought I wanted to co bio
>classes are hard as fuck and not as interesting as I thought
>changed major
>still stuck with hard classes
>trying to stay above a 2.0 or will be put on probation
>got real drunk one night and passed out
>sent to ER
>doctor said I was fine
>got written up for being drunk
>a letter might get sent home to my parents
>they'd kill me
So fucking stressed right now...
>people falling for the worker-student meme
>working to pay for more work
It's like you fuckers are addicted to pain or something.
>inb4 nuh-huh you're just lazy
Fuck you. Everytime I have to do an assignment with one of you fucks, you never deliver on your end and guilt trip everyone into letting your underdelivering ass sign the deliverable.
>First test in 2 days
>tfw finished my master's thesis a week before the deadline
Feels....empty, somehow. NEET life, here I come!
>>24113964
There was an introductory week at the beginning of the first year, but I missed it because reasons
Don't know about any parties
I'll just stay alone
>alternate engineering school with internships
>kill myself studying during school semesters
>kill myself with personal projects to pump up my resume during work terms
#wagekek
>>24110172
>are you expected to shower naked publicly without getting a boner
I know what you mean dude
When you do this much cardio it doesn't matter how straight you are, you can't control these things
>>24109720
>>24109876
>>24110772
Thanks guys, she just left my place, I think it went OK.
>>24108837
>pic
While she has a thin skin, she makes her statement without getting hyperbolic or hypocritical. I didn't know women had the capacity for self-restraint.
>>24095497
You're gonna get fucked m8
>>24093957
Got any chloroform?
>>24114345
At my school the parties are made by commitees in the student union and advertised for everyone.
>25 years old
>mfw likely won't get my degree until im 29-30
>>24117260
>24
>might get it my bachelors at 27 if everything goes well
>in a program with built in masters so i'll quit after the bachelor if i find a good job but otherwise will have to do masters too so it will take at least until 29
>studying with little kids
>those kids are already full normalfags and i'm still kv
this year have a girl as roommate
into her, and she was the one starting conversations too, but i'm simply unable to keep it up
girls are boring man
now she almost stopped talking to me
will i die alone?
>>24113505
i feel you man, something similar happened to me
when you're been alone for most of your life, good friends are the rarest thing on earth
being surrounded by Chads who are 3-4 years younger than me, lots of women and lots of couples makes me more and more depressed everyday.
Not sure if I can take it.
>>24093232
Sometimes I feel like dropping and packing boxes at a warehouse or working at a call center.
Ive got two more years left but it's getting tiring.
>only lad friend just dropped out
>only girls left in my hall
>they sit outside and sing along to JB and watch the Kardashians
>7 weeks into year and friendship groups are being solidified
I'm an antisocial, depressed twenty-something with no friends, what do lads?
>>24114101
why would they sent your parents a letter just because you got wasted
how old are you? where are you from?
>>24095247
>I'm too dumb to be STEM masterrace but too smart to be a tradesman. I'm only good at artsy shit, but I feel obligated to contribute to society
Fashion or architect design.
Look also into geography.
>Be first year
>Understand all the subjects perfectly
>Study lightly before tests
>No mark under 90%
>Feel I'm getting too cocky but the marks keep coming in greater or equal to 90%
Tell me how fucked I am next year, I need to be brought back to reality.
>>24120646
depends your major
I'm a sophomore finance major
haven't hit the major specific classes but I'm taking classes for juniors, and they aren't bad at all
I feel like the key difference between me and others is that I actually read the book beforehand and take good notes
>>24120687
I'm majoring in computer studies.
I'm usually able to just listen to the lectures and practice a few times and I retain the information but at the same time I feel like I'm setting myself up for failure.
I wish you the best of luck anon.
>>24120165
Help the needy.
>>24102252
>>university has destroyed me more than high school somehow
This. I survived school on the hope that I'd ascend onwards to the magical loving land of university and was met with yet more isolation and drudgery.
>tfw finally almost done with college after an ungodly extra amount of time
>finally working in the field
>not cutting it as well as I wanted to
This is supposed to be my life forever. If I become a failure at my career as well, I'll have nothing.
> tfw the 2 girls in my flat are best friends and usually spend hours standing outside my door giggling and talking loudly about guys they like and their dick sizes.
>>24120893
>so anon how big are you?
>just finished all the deliverables for my capstone
>all I have to do now is present it and I'm free forever
>>24111293
You take the median
>>24120920
5 |nches
are we close to the thread limit?
>>24121061
this is the type of shit which made me drop out.
>projects piling up
>losing will to progress
>finally met a girl who is genuinely nice and is completely out of my league
>hankering for cigarettes coming back
>in a year I'll be done and the few friends I've made will forget about me
it's a melancholy kind of feel
>>24120954
>tfw chose the honors college with almost no work required
>tfw completely free as a sophomore while other colleges are still taking classes
>>24120893
>>24120920
>>24121061
>tfw dick is 7.5 inches
>but dick size doesn't matter unless you're normalfag enough to get laid anyway
In my ideal world people would just walk around nude and get judged on their dick size instead of all the other retarded shit that girls don't even care about
>>24121057
>how do I into statistics
>>24121193
>>>/tumblr.cum
Who /nostress/ here? So much shit piled on in the first couple weeks that I'm completely numb.
>>24121386
my mistake, i'll be sure to torrent the movie, spend all my time finding the correct scene, and converting it to a 1080p webm in order to placate a faggot who has nothing better to do than to bitch about how I google searched for a gif.
>>24119036
>normie roommates would keep me up until 2AM most nights - playing RnB and UK Grime music on their loud sub-woofer sound-systems, which were almost always being obnoxiously placed in either the middle of our hallway - or, on occasion, directly adjacent to my door.
>calmed down after the first week - still the same shit whenever there was any kind of normie fuck-fest going on (which was usually anywhere from 1-3 times on weekdays and 1-2 times on the weekend).
>was consistently medicating with diazepam - even before leaving the door, to avoid the inevitable panic attacks.
>ended up being put on sleeping pills and antidepressants - big mistake;I've now found out that SSRI's (especially the dosages I was being put on) are a sure fire way of fucking your brain up, long term.
>Ended up dropping out after trying to kill myself.
If I had put more thought into my application, other than the University's ranking for my course, I'd probably be playing Polo, shooting clay pigeons and going Fishing with the Fishing, Shooting and Polo societies at somewhere like Cambridge, ICL, UCL, or even Oxford Brookes. Instead of being in the ugly city of Southampton and terminating my studies in the 4th week, from clinical depression and 'attempted' suicide.
>>24111203
that seems like a dubious jump
from what i understand while youre high it is difficult to form memories, but as for affecting your total long term memories of things and things you learn, i doubt that weed messes with that
>>24121628
ignore the quote. the quote was accidental.
>>24121676
>what is REM
>tfw you fell for the uni meme
I'm going for free on a scholarship but I hate it so much lads. I'd rather just be working some manual labor job or join the navy
>>24121771
well its like an A->B, B->C kind of thing, ofc weed can affect REM sleep but to what degree is whats important, id like to see a study demonstrating that weed affects your long term memory, like i said its well known that while under the influence of weed your ability to develop memories is impaired, but what about when youre not high?
>>24093374
>that feel when no dream gf
I'm at the point where I don't even care about school, work, love, sex etc.
All I want is a good friend..
>>24121904
My ideal scenario would be to have a friend who is also a girl and we cuddle :3
I need human contact and someone to talk to aside from you fine lads here
I feel like I'm stagnating.
I should get off 4chan and find a new hobby. Maybe miniature painting?
>>24121904
Define "good friend".
How would you know that he is your best friend?
>>24122022
Fishkeeping?
>have to write a short three page paper over a question using only a single short book as a source to back up our argument
>can't comprehend how anyone could write more than one page let alone a single decent page
>>24115875
jek
>>24122071
A good friend would be someone that has the same interests as me, same humor, one that I can hang out with often, one that I can talk to when I'm depressed.
I currently have one friend like that but the problem is that while he is really important to me, he has a shit ton of friends so I'm 'just another friend' to him.
Also, next year he will move to the other side of the country, so I might lose contact with him.
If thats the case I'll probably go fucking insane I'm not even kidding..
>tfw while commuting I see the qt I have been crushing on getting in the bus
>tfw I have only spoke once and very indirectly with her about some irrelevant topic
>tfw she sits right next to me
>tfw surprised because I never meet people on that bus, let alone someone a qt I have a crush on
>tfw spent the rest of the way sitting silently beside her without speaking a single word
God must have given me the opportunity to fix my life, but in his divine kindness he must have forgotten I'm too weak willed.
>>24122071
>Someone who you can call at 3 am to get water out of your flooded house.
>>24122160
You don't drink I guess?
>>24121307
Do you imply that i am wrong
yeah, it's now working out for me, I'm tired of studying
I'm joining the army
>>24122570
I drink and smoke weed regularly, not too much or too often.
Why?
I'm honestly drawn between failing out or killing myself. I can't succeed here.
>>24122579
0-10000
what's the mean
what's the median
you can't really be this stupid, can you
>Have two roommates
>Both are Christian
>One wears a fannypack, zip off pants, pants tucked into socks, and socks with sandals
>Doesn't seem to change clothes or shower
>Young earth creationist
>Larper
>Brought stuffed animals with him
>Dorm is mostly gamers
>Sizable christian presence in my building
I don't think my living situation is a very good fit for me. Most of the people seem mostly into gamer culture and I'm more into left-field music/art. I'm going to transfer dorms next quarter.
All robots who are struggling, remember: it's more important THAT you get a degree, instead of where you get it and how well you do. Chances are you'll be working in something completely different when you're older, but a degree shows that you are disciplined and can work. Employers love that. So just keep going, try to improve your social life and graduate with an open mind about what you can do.
>>24123041
I've reached the point where I don't care about getting a job. I really feel as though I've squandered my chance at truly becoming educated in something I care about, and that's all I really want in life.
>>24123041
This. We should promote healthy mindset more on this board but I know it'll never happen. Self loathing ruins riot and doesn't actually do anything.
dropped out
Who
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here?
>tfw you feel like the only robot in a sea of normies, Chads and Staceys
>tfw your dorm neighbors are both chads that have multiple girls come over and have parties all the time, playing beer pong
>tfw you keep a good enough relationship with them where you say hi and strike up 2 minutes of conversation on average but they never feel inclined to invite you over
>tfw you stay up until 2 am working on an assignment and they're having the time of their lives
Feels pretty weird especially since the girls to guys ratio here is 3:1, so you'd expect to be able to have at least one female friend but of course Chad just adds the extra girls to his harem.
>tfw last year of college
>two job interviews tomorrow
>been drinking whiskey like there's no tomorrow anyway
Who /depressed/ here? I can't stay sober for the fucking life of me, it's too bad. I just need some damn intimacy in my life, somebody who cares, everything seems so impersonal.
>>24117508
l-l-little brother..?
Pro-tip: finish that shit ASAP. You don't want to be the lonely near thirty fucker inbetween the millennials. Nothing good you do is respected, everything bad you do is amped up to 11.
>>24123688
it was booze and sleeping pills for me. just stick to alcohol and you'll be fine.
>tfw the girl in the room next door brought home another guy and you hear muffled rhythmic thudding
why does this make me hornier than any porn i can watch?
>>24124192
HD soundtracks do wonders for immersion.
>spent the entire weekend in dorm playing Skyrim
>my roommate did the same, except with minecraft
I need to get out. Somebody help.
>>24124192
If you have balls, knock on the door and tell them they're too loud.
>>24095882
You know what helped me? Understanding the concepts. Whatever you learned, don't go straight into the problems without brushing up on understanding the concepts behind them. It takes longer to understand what the concepts are especially in calc, but once you understand them, the problems will be a breeze and you won't be going through rote learning, which is not a good strategy for math.
>>24103325
its like 3 people really
>>24106695
Autopilot really describes it well. I honestly hope that I won't wake up one day regretting everything
Just a friendly word of advice not to take the social aspect of uni too seriously. I'm two years removed and was struggling to remember my roommates name from Junior year. People move on, people change, and this is normal.
Enjoy the time you have though, you'll probably never have that much free time again unless you go full NEET.
Im just testing to see if this works
>Everything is too hard
>Already failed half of my classes even though there's 2 months left until exams because the exam is less than 50% of grade and you can't do homework after it's due.
This is fucking hell
i havent shown up to my classes for a month and a week now
i dont know what to do
my roomate got my entire building evicted so i had to go back home for the rest of the month since i didnt have money to get another place and pay rent for it
it makes me so anxious to think what will happen if i show my retarded face to class, what should i do?
>>24125236
better than none
How do I get internships or vacation work?
>>24126408
Withdraw/drop all your classes immediately, then try to do it again without being autistic
>senior year of high school
>by looking, I may seem like a chad, but have extreme social anxiety, depression, ADHD, also am an ugly manlet
>well liked due to being good at baseball, but never had a girlfriend
>had baseball scholorship to U.S college
>destroy my arm, two surgeries later, Dr. says I'll never play again
>now that I can't play baseball, everyone hates me
>stop getting invited out, my "friends" don't want anything to do with me anymore
>attend my town's local college
>only have one real friend who stuck by me anymore
>freshman year
>working my ass off, literally spend every waking hour doing homework or studying
>facing academic dismissal
>feel worthless
>spend my nights listening to 80's rock and trying not to cry
>get a text message
>an old girl I used to be friendly with in high school
>says she misses me, wants to hang out this week.
>at that moment forget all the bad shit that's happened
Fly on thunderbirds. It will get better.
how often do you go without speaking to your hs friends? I constantly want to talk to them, but I dont know how long i should wait inbetween.
just failed one of my exams. in my last year and I'm so tired of school. I pretty much have to knock the final out of the park.
>>24121416
that's kinda where I am now. after failing 2 exams I'm just completely numb. this feeling started last semester. everyone is panicking on exam day and I walk in and just stop giving a fuck about it.
>>24107143
Your life is set. You have it good. At least your parents care about helping you out.
>>24126408
>my roomate got my entire building evicted
what the fuck how?
>>24094343
are you me?
this is eerily similar to my life
>>24094650
or just go with them...
>suffer extreme depression, miss classes one week
>thought I missed big group project in one class; avoid class the next week out of shame
>turns out the group project was the next week, miss another week out of anxiety due to this
>spent the last month worth of school hiding in my room, playing Persona 4 and Resident Evil with my one legitimately sperg friend
>pretty much have to drop that class and make up missed tests in other classes
>also dealing with general Uni feels; no friends, don't want to be at shit LibArts school, wish I could do art
>only saving grace is that I put myself into debt and am not under parent's control.
I hate this
>>24094840
same man.
>nursing student
>have a few friends, but never hang out because so fucking busy.
>Like i barely have time to eat the shit food
>Ps 203 kicking my ass and bringing down my gpa
>always, literally ALWAYS tired/exhausted.
>Dont get invited to parties
>Dont get invited to activities
>pretty much just play football and dick around online when im not sleeping or studying.
>feels bad man
>>24094369
Shouldn't have gone to grad school if you didn't enjoy research, faggot. I'm in the second year of my PhD program and I haven't had friends since high school.
Anyone else here hate parties? I went to one with games and alcohol and hated it. One was really overcrowded, and the other was people talking in little clusters with loud music playing, making it hard to talk.
God damn. Rather sit at home cleaning my guns or writing desu. I hate this party culture. Girls think you're a weirdo if you don't participate
>>24127992
I have never been and I don't want to go
I don't see the point desu
>>24127992
Yeah
I don't get it either
Like how the fuck do you have fun at those things, everyone smells of alcohol like crazy, it's crowded as fuck, the music is loud as fuck.
I went in the beginning for my first semester a few times, under the idea that I might have gotten laid if I went, and it sucked each time. The only times I had fun was hanging out in our dorms drunk after the party or just walking around between houses.
I'd really rather be doing anything else. I stopped after I randomly got punched in the back of the head by some drunk guy on my way.
Also I didn't get laid.
>finish high school with good grades
>always liked history and decide to go to a great college renowned for it's history degree
>not the most employable job but it's interesting, will make me wiser and i can always become a techer
>go to new town and due to anxiety and some fucked up stuff i end up isolating myself
>spend a whole year indoors, speaking only with the housemates (they were good people but were older and already went trough the "university social life" so they didn't care much about meeting new people, etc...)
>finnish the year with shitty grades and i just wanted to go back home
>gave up on the great college and went for a community college nearby to take an art degree
>i can't draw for shit
>i'm in the last year and i feel like i just wasted money and ruined the chances of being someone the moment i left the great university
>underpaid jobs is all that's left for me and i don't even learned anything special
I fucked up everything and it was all my fault... When i was young i never dreamt that i would work in a factory but guess what... life's tricky
>>24094840
>>24127852
ayy m8s retail wagekek here,
im looking into nursing, anything I should study up on / do prior? thinking of doing some cna or emt shit to see if i like healthcare at all.
>>24121628
Southampton is a shit hole, I'm in Winchester which is pretty as fuck but the uni isn't exactly top tier. Great course but I'll probably off myself after the three years of government leeching
>>24128380
How old are you? It might not be too late to turn your life around.
>>24129045
I'm 22... Too late to start a new college degree
>>24129065
Just finish up that one last year of art degree. At least you will feel some sense of accomplishment and wouldn't be as embarrassed when people ask about it.
Take this as a lesson not to make the same mistake when you re-enter college for your history degree. I've got a mate who hated Computer Science but pushed through 3+ years(having failed some units) and got his Bachelors. He's now doing a business degree at 23.
It's not too late if you haven't give up.
>>24129309
Yes, i will finnish the degree since i've come all this way...
Maybe i'll try to take a master in something more history-related.
>>24127785
I know that feel man. I confined myself due to social anxiety and missed out 2 classes. I took up management class which i left in the backburner and bullshitted my way through the unit until the presentation date came with the lecturer as the marker. Never replied to my group members and withdrew myself from uni for that week.
Now doing another unit which i took the blame to myself for not getting my group organized earlier and got 0% for an assessment worth 15%. Currently need 90% to pass that unit. Just fuck my shit up
>>24129431
You can do it man. I wished i had made my choices carefully before plunging myself into a degree i did not enjoy doing. Wasted 3 semesters failing them before switching out.
>tfw 23
>younger brother already had internship lined up in his second semester with doing an art degree because he was sociable
People makes mistakes all the time but what matters is when can we apply ourselves.i wish i can say the same to myself
>>24129589
Is your brother a good artist?
>>24129624
Nope. He is painfully average who doesn't have a shred of talent. But that didn't matter because he had good luck and a supportive group of friends. He got lucky when a friend of his introduced him to a coordinator at a church who needed someone to fill up a niche job on his team. Guess you will never know when luck will come in your way but luck will never come knocking on you door if your wallowing in self-pity.
how many drinks per week do you guys have?
>>24129881
plenty
>>24129918
yeah but how many?
>tfw 5 papers due in next two weeks
>haven't started
>waiting for my survival instinct to kick in where my asshole clenches up and i panic into a fury of bad work
>only this time it's not kicking in
guys i think i've finally burned out
good luck to the rest of you
if i don't sort this out i will be hitchiking to the airport and spending the last of my money on a one way flight to germany
If I am 13 units in in a 24 unit degree should I give up or push on
>figured I might switch to something else
>>24129965
>If I am 13 units in in a 24 unit degree
I think you should quit school all together.
I took a year off after a terrible four years at high school being and outcast with no real friends and spending my lunch a lone in the bathroom hoping to avoid everyone. I had hoped to maybe do a bit of work for my dad while I was on my gap year but his business went shitty and I could not do any work there. So I spent the winter in the garage trying to get the junk 1973 chevelle my dad gave up on to turn over. I got it running and licensed by late April. I got accepted to Brown university and started attending classes in the fall. I still hadn't made any real friends but one guy from the local subway sandwich store told me he liked my car and we started a friendship based off our interests in cars. 3 weeks later we were meant to meet up at his apartment. When I arrived I walked in on him dead in his living room with a knife in his chest. I called the police and was questioned but not deemed a suspect in the case. About a month went by after that and I had been skipping most of my classes and didn't really care about school at that point because the real only friend I had made in more than 6 years was dead and he was taken from me suddenly. I started drinking a ton and dropped out of school. One day while I was out getting alcohol I bought some lottery tickets from the convince store and won a bit over $800,000 and have been living in a small basement apartment just sitting around feeling sorry for my self for being a robot and not keeping up with my family... Honesty once this money runs out I think that Is it for me, I don't want to get on with anything any more and I don't think anyone will miss me anyways.
>>24097083
I mean if they don't crash your car and chip in for gas, why not let them drive
>>24129881
I used to do 50+ but I'm down to the nothing but an occassional 10. Don't make it a habit or crutch, they're hard to break.
How many of you use 4chan as a crutch for the lack of social interaction.
>>2413060
4chan Is my only social interaction, I get my groceries brought to my house and I don't leave unless its for a walk at 2am or something like that.
>>24130357
>>24130357
that's absolutely insane dude, i'm sorry you had to witness that. but that's a killer story to tell regardless, i'm sure there are plenty of people that would love to hear that story
>>24093232
>will be 50k in debt by the time I'm done
yup.
>>24130600
That's actually the only reason I'm here, to simulate getting to have conversations with people since I spend 100% of my free time completely alone.
engineering is terrible desu
>>24093232
>Too depressed to do assignments, tried researching for a paper that's due soon and I just spent the last 3 hours on /suicide/ on 5+3chan
>No friends or family either
>feelsbadman
>>24131172
>falling for the STEM master race scam
Enjoy no employment unless you have connections.
>miss 3 quizzes in one class all by chance
>decide to give up on the class because of poor performance
>drop it
>forget to do homework every other week for other class
>get sick and miss exam
>douchebag teacher in final class, forced me to fail
>show up twice every two weeks
now:
>have to sign up for classes next semester
>only signed up for one
>too lazy, sad, crushed to sign up for more or look at the general ed
Kill me senpai.
Does it get better after the first year? Or am I doomed to a shit life?
>>24095361
Yeah, I feel that feel, I just drown it in booze and hard drugs,
>2/10, would not recommend booze or drugs, you can't be high or drunk the majority of the time and when you're not all you can think about is how great things *could* feel and how bad they *do*
>>24131239
what the hell does give you a chance of employment then?
tfw actually finishing long paper/essay/report you thought you'd never get done
tfw somehow manage to get A+ on long paper rushed and half-assed in the last couple days
>>24131340
Depending on where you're from, some countries engineering jobs are over saturated. If you're hanging on a low GPA you might as well hang yourself.
> Go to Tier 2 School across river from MIT/Harvard
>Most people here suck
>Isolation is great
>Professors are good
>Im too dumb for STEM
>Idk what I want to do
>Ive seen a lot of good Anime
overall 7/10
>>24131340
Dumb luck
>>24131499
BC or BU?
>tfw double-majoring in physics and philosophy at a T-1 state flagship
>tfw chronic anxiety
>Worst it's been ever; stressed to the point that I developed chronic bronchitis
>Had an attack while summarizing someone's paper on reductionism; went full-retard and forgot basic inference rules
>Dropped a class
>No longer care about gfs
>Hovering a 3.0 cum, 3.1/3.7 major
>tfw I'll never get into a grad school
Only one more year onii-chan.
>>24095497
i smoked heaps of bud my first two years of uni, did fine. The secret I found was too smoke in early evening (like 7 o'clock) and go to bed around midnight, then get up at eight. so long as i had an early start I was fine, even if i'd smoked heaps and played halo all night. enjoy yourself, bro.
Regina, Saskatchewan.
Femanons plz, I'm so lonely. I want a gf to cuddle and watch anime with and sex with
Highschool senior here, any tips and recommendations for me?
>inb4 underage b&
i'm 18.
>>24132429
i dont see how i can impart any knowledge onto you since your a vastly different generation from mine
look at me, scrambling to take more classes to try to transfer out before next fall semester
fucking stupid trying to think i can delude myself into thinking ill do better this semester
>>24104518
yeah, i failed bros. hopefully get a replacement because everyone was complaining
>>24095247
I'm in the same boat man. I'm almost finished with a BFA in Graphic Design and I'm realizing that people in my major are total keks that contribute very little to the world.
I figure I may as well finished it now but I am furiously jealous at people who chose majors that are boring to me but useful. My good friend is an English major and is having the same problem. Too smart to want to do most jobs but too dumb to do anything that matters. Shit.
>part time job to support myself is taking up too much of my time
>probably gonna fail this final year due to missing deadlines
>no friends
>doing psychology so no career path
>wasting time in my life
Only reason I am still trying is because my family is dirt poor and stupid and I am the first to go to uni, trying to inspire my little brother to go. Apparently he has got his head down at school and is working harder because he wants to be like me
Starting university next year. Does anybody here have any advice on how not to fuck up either academically or socially? I'm thinking about joining some groups and making new friends.
I want to try and turn a new leaf.
>>24131172
Oh shit, another ISUFag?
If it make you feel any better, the design college sucked my soul out after a few years too. Everyone here is a vapid twat save a few.
>>24134712
The joining groups thing didnt really work out for me. Even in clubs that centered around things I enjoyed I found everyone insufferable. Even though thats definitely not the case for everyone, in my experience Ive always met people out of serendipity and fallen ass-backwards into friendships. If I could give any advice for the social aspect of uni, it would be to stop trying to hard and enjoy the ride as best you can. Obviously that doesnt work on the academic side of things but Im not the best person to ask about that stuff.
>>24107143
I got to choose where I went and what major I took, and I'm still miserable. Having a choice doesn't matter if you don't know what you want anyways.
