I do sometimes receive visions of a native american shaman and have moments where my words fill infused with righteous truth, but nothing that you can't write off as a coincidence or a bad dream.

Oh, and i used to have dreams of a nuclear bomb going off every night until I started taking my medication everyday. I'd wake with a start, but still, thats just neurosis.

Like i never saw a werewolf flip over a pinto or anything.

I mean, i know freemasons are thing, but i'm still a skeptic. I don't think they know how to summon fireballs or demons from hell or anything, and if they are sacrificing babies they are doing it to make porno or snuff films, not cause it gives them magic powers.

I just want to see some REAL magic, you know? I just want to see something incredible and fantastic that isn't technological showmanship or some sort of optical illusion.

I mean, reality just has all these fucking RULES, you know? And it seems like everyone and their mother has seen or heard or managed to break them themselves at one point or another, and for me, these rules are absolute and concrete and it fucking SUCKS, because no system should work like that, there should always be exceptions.

>>17494606
I mean, it would be so cool to have some sort of supernatural power that wasn't all "hail satan" or some shit. Like self folding origami using telekinesis or something, even it was fucking useless, it would just be awesome to have some fucking wonder back into my life, you know?

Life gets boring pretty quick when you feel like you've already been told all the answers.

I mean, am I an autumn person? I am just a crufty curmudgeon doomed to life of banality?

How many fucking times am I going to have to find wonder by staring at a geode and appreciating all earths supposedly "natural" beauty?

Its like, yeah, shiny rocks were wondrous and beatiful, when i was like 8, but now they are just boring rocks.

I'm tired of seeking out new experiences when they always lead down the same path to dissapointment, I never see or find anything that "breaks the rules"

>>17494606
why must the process of discovery always be terrifying and lead to all sorts of horrible consequences?

Why must we embrace the "truth" that the universe is terrifying and hostile when there are clearly so many things that refute such a belief?

We are given water to drink, air to breath, the sun to warm ourselves. We have dominion over the earth an an abundance of natural resources, we most often have our parents who love us or at least someone who cares for us and nurtures us in this world...

why must every encounter with the supernatural lead down this dark, treacherous road?

So in short we are all just bored with what you call reality? Now i am just kinda sad.

>>17494606
Not your personal blog

>>17494606
Keep your eyes open. Anything can happen. Do you know what is the worst when you finally see something paranormal? From my experience I can say that to this day I dont believe what happened to me. I seen weirdly behaving ufo once, and heard weird auditory anomaly with my friend. Though I was sober,never took drugs or have any explanation,and even have a witness. Yet my brain still refuses to grasp it. I can advice you to start exploring, walking at night. A lot. Always stay curious and open. That is how my experiences happened.

>>17495141
Oh and I will add it never happened to me in the city. Auditory shit was in the forrest far away from the city. We heard weird sounds and whispers in language that sounded like latin. Ufo I met during summer, when I was running far from the city. Yes. I run in the darkness. I like it. I am weird.

>>17494658
This is the reason why so many people believe t be abducted by aliens. Its sad people are lonely and desperate for contact. So they create in their minds a scenario where they are the victim or chosen one by an ET. After a while the fantasy becomes real in their mind. Theres actually been studis about this. I even saw somewhere where this lady never got married so she created this fantasy of being impregnated by ayys and birthing hybrids who now live in pomona.

>>17494658
Nigga u dumb. Theres more than rock hunting. Ever been caving? Or rock climbing 500ft vertical? How about scuba diving? Or learning to build a plane and flying through out the continent (like I have rebuilt a robin dr400).

>I dont know what else to do besides netflix and the internet therefore aliens.

I know that feel, OP.

When I was young I thought life would be more like my chapter books. Heros fighting the good fight and discovering wonderous secrets. But now that I am here in "real life", it seems like one of those overhyped games like Watchdogs. I expected more. Not the same things happening over and over until the "game" is over. Its all just a little disappointing.

It's ok, anon. At least you don't have crippling mental disorder and the love of your life left you and you're going to kill yourself any day now. Could probably be worse.

>>17494606
By the way. I used to have paranormal club. We would go to the forests and cemeteries in the middle of the night without flashlights (just spare ones in case we find something weird). We have been in the creepy places hundreds of times and nothing has ever happened to us. Years later I see some weird stuff. But to find it I had to walk alone. Odd.

You will hear this over and over, and that is because it is true; it won't come to you, you have to find it and work for it.

It practically doesn't matter why you start, just start. Meditation, sorcery, anything. You have that will to learn, but you have to express it to get what you want.