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Note that it's very late and I'm exhausted so sorry for the bad grammar and spelling errors
I haven't been to 4chan in years. This place seems like the best shot I have at answers.
I don't know if this cesspool is as shit as it was when I left or if it's worse, hopefully a little less shit. Also let me add that I have no mental health issues, physically healthy and without brain cancer. My ears are fine as is my nose. Not going to green text because it's not that long, try reading for once.

Almost my entire childhood is a blur, I don't remember a lot other than my mother being a really positive person who was quite spiritual (reki< I can't spell it, incense, meditation the works) and I grew up for the most part in a very positive and natural environment. Now, when I was a kid I was unique, as a toddler I would astral travel, I could communicate with spirits and whatnot, I didn't realise what I was doing at the time but I was doing something. My childhood was filled with emotions and feelings I haven't felt since as long as I can remember, it was a beautiful mindstate. Every once in a while I can experience these feelings for a short while, an hour max, but it doesn't feel like I remember. The feeling is like a memory of the real thing, a fragment of it. After it happens I become very tired and drowsy for about fifteen minutes, however during this time the feelings are more intense and I get sort of, memories? It's like a picture in my head that feels like I've experienced it before (past life maybe) the emotion is so raw and powerful, it's like a dull orgasm but in my head if that makes sense. If any, of this makes sense. Do the /x/files have any idea? I know there's going to be a few of you who try run it off as some mental disability or something, but as I said before. I'm fine on that front.