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2016-01-20 05:45:17
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i am a 25 year old schizo NEET who is interested in the occult for possible financial and romantic opportunities, i would be interested in any advice you might have for me
in case you were wondering about me, here is my story:
>grew up catholic
>went to private school
>liked latin and saints and angels and prayers and wanted to be a priest
>was a smart kid
>but didn't do work
>school psychiatrist put me on ritalin
>spent most of my time reading scifi and fantasy and drifting by in class
>eventually moved to a gifted and talented program at a public middle school
>began to lose faith in church and government and structure and hierarchy and authority
>became a super fedora atheist
>got to high school
>had art class with really chill, intellectual kid
>he starts telling me about buddhism
>realize just cause i reject christian dogma doesn't mean i reject everything
>start studying hinduism, buddhism, daoism, tantra, kabbalah, sufism, etc.
>stumble upon the principia discordia and illuminatus! trilogy
>learn about r.a.w. and chaos magick
>start reading leary and lily
>decide to take acid to enlighten myself in college
>get to college
>take acid
>find everything i ever wanted
>start taking acid regularly
>start selling acid
>fall in deep with the acid plot
>eventually go insane
>come up with a plot to "immanentize the eschaton"
>end up arrested then put in a psych ward
>spend the next couple of years in and out of psych ward
>eventually got stabilized on antipsychotics and antidepressants
>can no longer take drugs (except that sweet sweet ganja i partake in regularly)
>have not finished my degree because of schizo breakdown
>have not held a job in five years
>currently on disability and living with parents
i just wanna find some sort of job that pays enough so i can have a cat and a girlfriend and weed, i lack funds and brainpower to finish college
will the occult help? what should i do? i've always been skeptical of crowley and his ilk