Anyone here molested as a child? Gay or straight, hot or horrifying. All greentext is good greentext.
Real preferred: However,
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I have some copypasta of mine from another thread.
I’ll start
>>23023541
>be me 10 or 11
>live in apartment complex with mom and little bro
>large courtyard surrounded by buildings.
>play there all the time
>one day see girl I went to elementary and part of middle school with
>Had a crush on her, major
>curly brown hair, cool as shit, tiny bit of a tomboy
>her parents are divorced, dad lives across the courtyard now
>she's over on the weekends, we spend time together outside all the time
>my mom and her dad meet since we are over at each other's places all the time
>Mom's cool with me spending time over there. Thinks her dad will be a good influence on me since my dad bailed (white, not a nigger)
>Her dad invites me over one day when the girl is not there
>asks me all kinds of strange questions about if I like her and liking girls and shit
>think I am in trouble
>he’s giving me the sex talk, I realize
>my mom asked him to, I find out
>embarrassed but he seems nice and cool
>talks about porn and then shows me some. long time ago, so VHS, no internet yet
>talks about masturbation
>long story short, he tells me I can watch porn when I want and he'll leave the room so I can spank it.
>go over occasionally and ask to watch porn. He’s always cool about it.
>Sometimes, after a while he walks into the room, passing through, or to get something. Sometimes he just sits over on the other side of the couch and watches porn too but not looking at me.
>sort of embarrassed but after a while not.
>Soon he’s jerking his cock at the same time. First in his boxers and then soon out in the open
>amazed at the size of his cock. Never seen an adult one IRL. Watching him cum blows my mind the first time. I still can’t jizz.
this shit be gay yo. Should I continue?
Go ahead
>>23023545
cool
time. I still can’t jizz.
>There is a video camera, which I know now, was on every time but didn't realize at first. I am a dumb kid
>this goes on for a while. Jerking to porn in the same room, but a lot of the time I am just watching him and how he does it, using lube sometimes etc. I’m just playing with my cock and watching him cum all over himself.
>occasionally we’d shower together, but he wouldn’t really touch me.
>Eventually he comes over while I am playing with mine and starts to suck me. Horrified and embarrassed and scared but oh god yes, that feels amazing, first real orgasm comes very soon after. Maybe like a few weeks.
> I think my first real jizz was in his mouth
>we do this for a while, we’d start jerking separately then he kneels in front of the couch and sucks me while jerking his cock.
>at first he just shot his cum on the carpet but after a while he stands up and shoots it on my body but he always waits until after I have cum
>showering together more now because I’m frequently covered in jizz,
>asks me if I want to touch his cock in the shower one day
>goaheadtasteit.png
> Soon, I'm sucking him at request
>for a while at first he always pulls away and cums into a towel but then one day “forgets” and I get it my mouth.
>Swallow some instinctively. Not a fan but it’s ok. Next time he asks me to swallow.
>surewhynot.avi
>hate to say this but I loved it. Didn't understand gay vs. straight, still knew I liked girls but it felt great
>Get to go over after school, get my dick sucked to completion and then suck him for a while. Not so bad. Start to really like the positive attention.
>He essentially coaches me on how to suck him off, learn how to get him off quickly and how to make noise and show enthusiasm. He’s always showering me with praise.
>this goes on for a LONG time. Maybe over a year. Then he shows me gay porn.
>maleonmalepenetration.exe
>>23023568
>never knew that shit was possible, I am a dumb kid – told me it feels just like a girl from the giving end, feels even better from the receiving
>sucks me with a finger inside me while I watch 2 dudes rail each other on TV.
>cum buckets and I’m hooked, start anal play at home as well, literally sharpies in pooper
>eventually he tries his cock in me. I’m 11 or 12 maybe.
>On my back, scared as hell, shaking, but hard, hurts bad but I really wanted to get past it.
>he’s actually cool about it, stops, tells me it will take time
>doesn’t even cum, massages my asshole and puts Vaseline on it. Kinda sore next day but not bad.
>after some time, we try again.
>Shows me how to clean myself out in the shower with this bulb enema. Not embarrassed by sucking cock or swallowing a man’s jizz but the idea of him seeing me poop kills me for some reason
>after shower he spends a long time massaging and fingering me, gets 3 fingers in. I’m on my stomach, feel him climb on top.
>okheregoes.jpg
>the pressure, oh my god.
>he pumps for a while, I am pretty numb so it doesn’t really hurt except when he goes deep. He’s asking me if I am okay a lot and telling how good it feels. Apparently, I am a good boy. :-P
>he finally cums inside, didn’t love it, didn’t hate it, but I didn’t cum until he blew me after.
>we do this maybe once a week or two. start to get loosened up over time, taking man cock like a fucking pro.
>about 12 or 13 now, pubes just coming in IIRC
>wish I could tell someone, not to make it stop but because it’s like the best thing ever to me. Guy is like a Dad to me as well, takes me places with his daughter, presents at Christmas. Talks to me about guy stuff. Helps me with my homework
>Plus he sucks a mean dick and gives me access to porn
>he tells me that we’ll get in trouble if I tell anyone because only adults are supposed to do these things
>understand that dad has been videotaping everything, didn’t before, but now he’s not hiding it.
>>23023570
>I am not really embarrassed though so I don’t care. Never consider why he would tape it. I was a dumb kid
>One day we are the sofa bed which was still folded out because his daughter has just left
>Bout to get my ass fucked and he sets up the camera as usual, plus a long cord into the TV which is an enormous rear projection model. Old school now, but state of the art then.
>first time he’s ever done a live feed type thing so I can see myself
>I am sucking him and he’s watching it on the TV behind me. Kinda rush because I can’t see it too.
>He lays flat on his back, and I am squatting over his dick and he’s holding my ass cheeks in his hands. Slides me down on his cock. I’m hard, sticking straight out.
>takingitlikeapronow.webm
>I’m watching this on the big TV, fucking amazed, because I had no idea thats what it looked like really
>switch to doggy, face towards tv, unf
>then on my back at the edge of the bed. Dad’s holding the camera, sort of POV
>start jerking my cock, watching myself on TV
>suddenly cum buckets all over myself, never done that while being penetrated
>hellyes.jpg
>That really cemented how I felt about anal. Being fucked was a thing for him and I did it because I really kinda loved the guy but it always made me nervous
>felt like I would get hurt, as there was always a tiny bit of pain, but now I get it.
>I also would get a bit soft and never thought I could get off like I did when he fingered me but this was a whole different level
>so Dad pulls out, cums all over me, which normally, he always came inside
>some lands on my face
>firsttimeforthat.ogg
>dad zooms in, I am watching myself turning my head back and forth.
>seen it in porn never on me, kinda mesmerized, dads got a huge grin
>okthatwasfun.scr
>>23023574
>this goes on till I am about 15 or 16, right before highschool
>dad rails me or blasts my throat. Girls ignore me but I have less interest because my balls are always empty
>Went to Disney with him and his girls even, mom couldn’t afford it. He never did anything with me when they were around though.
>Dad basically treats me like the son he never had which I know sounds horrifying to some but I fucking loved the guy
>must have swallowed buckets of cum, mom had no idea, never almost got caught
>then things got weird, and awful and that part is hard to reconcile with this part.
I don't think it counts as molestation until a certain point, but let's just say I had a lot of sisters and got to know most of them intimately as a kid.
posted in the rape thread, am the anon who's stepfather molested her from 10 till 17. Will just give some examples of things he'd do
>lock me in a large dog cage when my mom was away on work
>make me shower/clean and later on shave (when I grew pubic hair) in front of him while he commented and touched
>oral, anal, vaginal sex along with fingers and toys I am pretty sure belonged to my mother
>tons of photos and videos taken of me in bondage
>trained like a pet
>cut with boxcutter when I was misbehaving
>>23023579
You better tell the end of that story nigger
>>23023611
Generally speaking we are talking about an adult with a young kid or a much older sibling.
>>23023651
Fucking hell anon. Sorry to hear that. I know I came out of things ok compared to a lot of people and I obviously still feel somewhat positively about it.
But on the flip side, it did fuck me up in my teens and it's certainly one of the reasons I'm not going to have kids of my own.
>>23023664
yeah I wont ever have kids, well I can't anyhow due to the scaring on my uterus he caused. I am doing pretty okay now, relationship/job and all that. I hope you do well too
>>23023663
That is the end of that story, but I just didn't tell the bad part that happened when it all ended for good.
I don't want to scare people off
>>23023669
Glad to hear it anon.
>>23023541
>be me 6, clueless kid
>got full time sitter, late teens
>spend a lot of time alone with him, he takes me everywhere
>think of him as a really good friend and looked up to him since he was older(obv)
>once when he was taking me home from school he kisses me on the lips when nobody is looking
>im surprised but innocent as fuck so don't think anything about it, carry on normally.
>he kisses me a few more times in the coming weeks, still clueless think its similar to my relatives kissing me on the cheeks or something.
>one day im home alone with him as i was almost everyday, i was playing in my room
>sitter enters, anon lets play a game
>recap: he's now probably my best friend ever, liked him a lot so i loved to play games and shit with him
>>back to present: agree immediately
>he says we will play a game of restaurant, i shall be the server and he will be the customer
>cool.jpeg
>he orders, i act like cooking, serve him and he acts like he's eating. im having a good time
>suddenly he gets up starts to raise his voice, "anon the food is terrible, you need to be punished for this"
>im surprised, idk what to do, so i say im sorry
>"take your clothes off anon! right now!
>>23023721
>>he orders, i act like cooking, serve him and he acts like he's eating. im having a good time
Please tell me there is spaghetti involved
>>23023723
>>23023721
Don't stop anon. Please go on. I was kidding.
>>23023721
>he takes all my clothes off
>makes me pull out his cock
>hes huge
>he pushes my head towards his cock
>I finaly snap out and try to wiggle away
>but he's too strong for me to resist
>"you will take your punishment anon!
>"I want you to suck my cock anon, suck it!
>he makes me slowly pull down his foreskin
>i try my hardest to resist but he pulls my head closer
>rubs his cock on my face
>he suddenly forces my mouth open and forces me to blow him
>he starts to play with my dick feels weird af
>he cums in my mouth and makes me swallow it
>feel disgusted
>he gets off me and tells me to go clean up and that I can never tell anyone about this
He used to use me and do weird shit to me for around 4 years was too stupid and scared to tell on him. After it stopped I repressed it but when I was 19-20 I got fucked up flashbacks and realized they aroused me for some fucked up reason. Read it's normal for people who've been abused and haven't had any other sexual relation. Feel really embaressed about it. I'm attracted to women and I want to have serious relationships but idk how I'm supposed to go about telling them all this.
>>23023755
>I'm attracted to women and I want to have serious relationships but idk how I'm supposed to go about telling them all this.
Some things go with you to the grave. But also, most women are going to be sympathetic to that kind of fucked up past.
>>23023755
>After it stopped I repressed it but when I was 19-20 I got fucked up flashbacks and realized they aroused me for some fucked up reason.
yeah anon it's weird but normal. I get very aroused thinking about the good times, which I believe WERE good but I sometimes wonder because I was very angry and hurt for a while after and I'm definitely strange now, sexually I mean.
I think it's clearer and a bit harder to deal with if it was forced, if it was physical abuse. When You are coerced it feels normal until one day it comes crashing down that it's not and you were abused and taken advantage of.
I have often thought that I would like to see those videos my guy took of me now, on one hand because I think I would find them very arousing, but also because I want to look at myself and see if I was really happy and enjoying it.
If I saw myself and thought I was miserable I am not sure what I would do.
>>23023779
>But also, most women are going to be sympathetic to that kind of fucked up past.
This true but PLEASE make sure there is STRONG trust before you do tell them. Some chicks WILL use it against you when things go sour.
>>23023779
>>23023787
Yeah I've heard from some how people use it against you but I feel it's so fucking shit that I've to deal with the consequences of something I never wanted to do. I feel like I have no hope of finding someone who gets it.
>>23023807
And I feel like sex is ruined for me forever. I really want to be with someone but all the ways my fucked up self could mess it up scares me so fucking much
>>23023807
As a straight male "sexual sadomasochist" I most definitely get it. I've never been sexually abused so I don't know _how_ I get it - maybe we all have the "code" for this stuff buried deep inside us and it just happens to spontaneously manifest in some of us - but I do know there are most def. girls out there who are like this too (mostly subs) and therefore most likely will accept it as I do.
>>23023818
>And I feel like sex is ruined for me forever. I really want to be with someone but all the ways my fucked up self could mess it up scares me so fucking much
This is you punishing you. Only you can stop that.
You prolly need to talk to someone anon, a professional.
love ya man
*internet hug*
>>23023579
>>23023663
Alright since we are doing all the fucked up shit
Part 2: AKA Things got weird and horrible
>Still 15 or 16 I think. Fully into puberty, horny as fuck all the time.
>go to “Dad’s” after school for some funtime
>There is another guy there and a kid I would guess 8 or 9? Seems younger than I was when I started with dad
>Guy is OLD maybe 50’s, big ass beer belly, thankfully clothed.
>I’m immediately freaked, I know this stuff is supposed to be secret so I’m wondering if I should even be here.
>This shit is harder to type so I’m probably going to go real fast.
>Basically they want me to fuck the kid.
>I pull dad aside and I’m freaking because no one was supposed to know. Tell him I want to leave. He says it’s all good, calms me down, gives me a beer. (Ya I know)
>I confirm that I don’t really want to do anything with the guy but he’s telling me this is for fun and they are just going to film.
>I am nervous as fuck, get down to undies and go back in LR. Kid is already on the sofa bed naked.
>Dad and (Grandpa? I guess), have cameras. Sit down to kid nervous. Grandpa tells us to go ahead and get started.
>Kid goes down on me, sucking like a pro but It takes forever to get hard. Have to close my eyes.
>Get hard and kid gets on his back, I lube myself up and the kid lift his legs up and lubes up too like it’s the most natural thing in the world.
>>23023847
and finally....
>I’m trying to be like dad and tell him I’ll go slow and shit and get him to talk to me but I slide right in with almost no resistance.
>It’s the first time for me. Never penetrated anyone before. It feels good and the kid seemed ok but very passive. I’m trying to “perform” for the camera now like porn, trying to get him to jerk himself. He does for a bit and then stops even though he’s erect.
>Eventually I cum, pull out, they zoom in on the butthole and cut.
>So I go in the back to shower and change and shit and I’m thinking about shit and feeling kinda ok and kinda not ok.
>I come out and grandpas on the couch with the kid, who’s now dressed but it’s clear he’s been crying but has sucked it up.
>Dad rushes me out the door and I’m fucking freaked.
Long story short I tell dad the next day to get fucked and I’m no longer coming over any more. He’s very morose and kind of just says okay and that’s it. See him around but don’t ever talk to him again. Even stopped talking to the daughter. My mom knew something was up but thought I was being a moody shitty teen, which is true kinda but I def had reasons.
My teens were an angry, ANGRY time because of that
>>23023851
I'm a straight guy so why am I aroused by this.
>>23023851
Damn, that is ice cold of his part. Sorry to hear that anon.
>>23023862
because
>>23023825
>"sexual sadomasochist"
That should be clear. :-P
>>23023831
Thanks man. I needed that *hugs back*
>>23023864
Yeah but it still surprises me.
Though I do get sexually excited by non-sexual power transfer so maybe it shouldn't. Or maybe I should just stop being neurotic about my sexuality.
>>23023863
Yeah, that was a harsh realization, I suddenly knew that this wasn't normal or ok and that I was being used. What was really bad is that when I confronted him I could see in his face that he knew he'd crossed a line. He was already feeling bad about it and I do think he was genuinely sad about the way things went down. Having said that I can't really forgive him.
And still, even more fucked up was that after that I was miserable, both because I was angry at being taken advantage of, guilty about having taken part in something that hurt that kid, and at the same time I missed my "dad". Not just the sex but the relationship. Furthermore I'd developed this twisted sexuality and I had no way to express it. I didn't even know what it was. I knew I wanted to get in a girl's pants, like instinctively but I had no idea how to relate to them. I also was and still am somewhat submissive and teen boys are not supposed to be submissive with teen girls because neither of them should have fully figures out those roles yet.
It never even occurred to be to try to be with a guy. Like it never crossed my mind. I wasn't physically or romantically attracted to men or boys my age in any way.
I just angrily jerked off a lot and treated people around me like shit for a long time.
