/r9k/ I just dont know how to go on about this anymore. Ive been browsing this board for years now and as I did. Many people have tried to help me or give me advice.
I thought the way to win over females were to be strong, charming, alpha and generally a normie. I pretended my ass off, I wasted 2000 dollars on new outfits, I went to my brother and had him mentally groom me into being someone else.
I hated being who I was, at the gym when I first started my membership I broke down and cried to the guy because of how bad I felt and he said "Your problems seem more than just with looks, seems to me you hate that you exist. Idk if we can help with that".
Ive done nothin but try and try and I failed every damn time.
To the point I resent and hate people now. My delusion is getting more and more profound. I get angry whenever I see couples, I get so damn angry at every girl I try and talk to only to fail.
Im 20, try having the best years of your life not be filled with the enjoyment others have and see how well mentally you are. I lost out on all the fun in high school that I will have to FOREVER live with.
Honestly if I continue on this road. I would not hestitate in the future to just play the gamw and kill innocent people for how fucked up the world has made me feel.
Its selfish but I deserve some compesation for how I am feeling.
This is the key: just be yourself. And you can that to the bank.
>>30017749
>Im 20
Hahahahaha holy shit you literal fucking crybaby.
>>30017879
Thats right, keep laughing at me. It only fucking helps me see that anywhere I go for any kind of help im met with ridcule and disrespect.
Fuck this damn and everyone on it
>Im 20
>still in college
>complaining life is over
ahahah. it gets worse anon. you actually have the most opportunities where you are right now. fuck off this board and do something. or not. I don't care.
>>30017749
I feel for you OP, the only advice I can give you is "just bee yourself", but what I mean by that is just stop caring what the normalshits think and do what YOU want instead of trying to fit in with the normies and awkwardly sperging out all the time.
Real robots never stood a chance. They were born spastic, 1/10, short, 1 inch penis, ect.
What we have here is the concerns of failed normiescum
>>30017926
Learn mindfulness meditation.
Use this place a therapeutic opportunity to fight people verbally and express your aggression more. Also use it as a way to become thick-skinned.
Educate yourself on the negative side of relationshits (they are terrible and women are terrible).
Jack off to patrician porn.
Live like a teenager.
OP, people like us, we have no chance in life. No chance to become something, no chance to be loved, no chance to be remembered. And when I think about those things, I used to get sad until one day it hit me. None of that actually matters. In fact, nothing matters at all. This life is temporary OP, and so is any pain or pleasure you feel. When you are dead, there is nothing, nothing at all. Life is suffering, what is joy but the suffering of others? Basically OP, you just have to stop caring and realize that none of it matters or is worth anything anyway. Some cunt won't fuck you? Who cares, both of you die either way and it wouldn't have mattered in the end. Chad makes fun of you? Fuck him, he's trying and struggling to succeed and in the end it all means nothing. Better to live as nothing and not waste time pretending to be something when we are all nothing in the end.
>>30017749
HAHAHA you fucking scum wait till your "best years" are actually over and you have no hope at all
