fucking kill yourself

Is that too much bully for you?

I'm at that point where when I go out (occasionally), some guy would look at me funny and I would spend the next hour wondering whether it is obvious that I'm not a normie.

The only place where I fit in is at home or work, fuck everything else in between, I don't need that shit.

should have just got really drunk m8

>The towns biggest festival of the year during summer
>Decide to go there for once
>Delusional that you would somehow break out of the loser cycle
>Bad music
>Loud people
>Huge crowds
>Some drunk guy with a long hair bumps into me and calls you a faggot
>Wonder if you should buy something weird to eat from the event market
>Realise you forgot your wallet home
>Go home
>Hope that everyone dies

>>29985190
When I was younger, I eventually became aware of the fact that I was socially retarded. In an attempt to be hip with the kids, I tried to fix this.

>start googling things like "how to initiate conversation" and "how to speak to people"
>read dozens of articles on how to interact with people like a normal person
>start taking notes
>eventually feel like I have learned enough to be a normal boy
>I try to speak with someone the next day
>flounder
>continue trying
>fail repeatedly
>years later
>still socially retarded
>still alone
>apathetic

If anything good came out of that, it's that I no longer dress like a total autist but people still laugh at me everywhere I go.