Anyone deal with intrusive thoughts here? How far does it go? I fantasize about killing and torture daily now, and I'm beginning to wonder if it's causing some form of mental decline.
Pretty much when I go to work i think about killing everyone around me and myself.
I'm doing nofap so I'm trying to forget the porn I've seen.
>>29968179
What qualifies as an intrusive thought?
Like a thought I don't want but can't stop thinking about?
I don't know. I kind of enjoy the thoughts of mercilessly murdering people when I see them on the streets. Imagining their heads being separated from their bodies, or imagining slicing open their abdomen and pulling out their intestines like magician's magic trick, or slowly slicing off their skin and frying it in oil.
mmm.
I wish that I could live forever so I could kill people forever.
>>29968212
It seems to be defined as occasional impulsiv thoughts that you know are "wrong" and you quickly try to brush them off. Mine are becoming more gradual though, I'm often fantasizing about killing others then killing myself much like >>29968207 mentioned. It especially spikes when I'm walking in a crowded place like a city and end up generally disgusted by everyone I see.
It started with imagining the perfect murder and how to get away from it, but sprinkle that with years of boiled over anger and it's spinning more and more out of control. I'm beginning to struggle to imagine any outcome for me other than murder-suicide.
