I can't take being alone anymore. Goodbye.
Why do you dislike being alone?
>>29957528
You want to scream and cry and hug someone but you realize no one is around you. And as you feel like your chest tightened you can't help but feel weak and fall to your knees. Begging for help you try to scream but you remembered you lived in an apartment so screaming will get you more problem. Getting more and more desperate you begin to inflict self pain in an effort to deviate your mind of your emotional burden. At first you scratch your hand but that didn't really distract the pain throbbing in your heart. You began to think of a way to inflict more pain, punching your hand against the wall. Yes. Yes!! This might work!! As you hit he wall blood began to drip from your hand. You can't move you hand anymore. It feels numb. No, no,NONONONONONONO!!!!!! I CANT STOP THIS. ITD TOO PAINFULL AHHHHH HELPMEHELPMRHEMLPMRHELPPPPPP MEEEEEEEEE.
The next moment when he jumped off the balcony. He smiled, because soon his pain will be ending.
>>29957352
see you tomorrow, you fucking nigger
>>29957837
you will get over those feelngs as you get older, and eventually become an emotionless husk of a man
>>29957352
If you really wanted to off yourself, you would have done it by now. Not sure if you want attention, or if you are calling out for guidance. Regardless, you won't do it.
>>29957869
This.
Eventually there is nothing but apathy.
>>29957952
He wants for someone to love him you dingus
>muh attention meme
OP's plight is obviously genuine. You'd realize that if you stopped to think about what you're saying for a single second.
>>29957869
Why bother living? Seriously I've been thinking of this for a LONG TIME. I was born religious, even then I don't see the point of living. If I die as a kid even by suicide, I will almost likely die as an innocent, hence guaranteed heaven. I actually considered suicide when I was fairly small. Up till now the only reason I'm not dead yet is because that is too late because I was such a bitch and had yet known the pain living as an adult. Right now, I'm still afraid, because bits of me believe that hell MIGHT exist. It's too late for me hobesrly. The only way I can think of is Pascal's Wager but seriously god? Why didny you just kill me when I was an innocent boy??
>>29957869
Wow this is actually great news!
>>29958062
I know these feelings well
It's like I missed the bus and now I'm here forever
>>29958062
>>29958110
I'm not sure this is the right attitude, though. When I read someone else's post about this, it seems a lot more delusional than when I myself am thinking it.
>>29958034
So what does posting about it do? If OP wants company, then go find it. Consolation only goes so far. At some point you have to nut up and fix your problems yourself, cause the world isn't going to fix it for you.
>>29957352
good night, stranger
>>29957352
https://youtu.be/GWXXsxa2moA
>>29957352
Porn helps senpai.
>>29958154
Maybe he thinks someone might be able to empathize instead of giving him recycled, smug "advice"
>>29957869
can confirm this.
>>29957352
death is forever OP. you don't get to experience anything else again. no jokes, no memes, pizzas, anything enjoyable you ever liked. you gain nothing and lose everything. yes, the pain, but also any chance at moments of pleasure or joy.
>>29958300
>death is forever OP. you don't get to experience anything else again. no jokes, no memes, pizzas, anything enjoyable you ever liked. you gain nothing and lose everything. yes, the pain, but also any chance at moments of pleasure or joy.
What is heaven?
>>29958351
>expecting heaven
It would be nice, yeah, but it wouldn't make any sense.
>>29958062
It's all in your head bro. Nut up, get laid.
>>29958351
Heaven is a dream of those living. You get nothing in death. No transcendental moments of music, appreciating beauty, etc.
>>29958369
This. Ignore your feelings and just go through the motions. Shape up. You're not supposed to think and feel the way you do, OP. It's a sign of a defect of some kind.
>>29958351
>What is heaven?
wishful thinking
Not to hijack but..I'm about 6 years out of highschool and never known someone who anheroed. I kind of want to be the first in a while for my town. Does anyone feel the same?
I'm a 18 year old robot who is set for a life of isolation, pain and lonliness.
I can feel it, I can see it, and I can visualize it. It keeps me up sometimes. I drink so much caffeine sometimes so that I don't have to go to sleep for a few days because I'm afraid of nothingness.
Anyway, I have a chance, and a choice, that I sort of know the answer to and that I want to reaffirm anyway. I'm aware of all of this, but I'll ask anyway, because it's cathartic.
Backstory: Again, 18 year old virgin. Have a few friends who I am very distant from. To contextualize it, I last hung out with them a month or two ago. I texted one of them and they invited me to hangout, and while we were hanging out, they said we should hangout more often. I text the same person a week later and they blow me off, I don't know if it was on purpose, but I hope not.
This has kind of been the pattern: I'll text or call one of them or run into them somewhere, we'll hangout, have a good time, then they won't call me, so I'm always the one initiating. Now, I don't initiate often, because I don't want to come off as pushy/needy, so one reason they could not be calling is because they don't think I want to hangout, because of how little I call them, so they don't bother. Or it could be that they don't like me and I'm theorizing and or reading it all wrong, although again why would they say I should call them more? If they really weren't interested they would just act awkward and distant.
Anyway, input would be appreciated, I know the answer, but again, I need reaffirmation.
>>29958515
>anheroed
wat?
>>29958628
maybe look at the way you talk with them. its possible that they dont feel comfortable around you such that they dont mind you being with them but if possible..ehhh dont invite him please.
>>29958628
They aren't your friends
You need a spirit quest
>>29958706
I come off as pretty normal, just quiet probably, so maybe a tad weird, but I don't talk about taboo stuff, and I'm not a spazz. Although, it could be the opposite: that I'm too boring, so they forget about me in a way.
Anyway, I should keep trying though, right? I think I have no choice really. Either I try now, or just accept isolation.
>>29958799
Yeah, probably acquaintances at the most right now. But I still have a solid shot, right? I should mention they used to be my friends, but we have lost touch, and have now been doing the cycle I explained. I should just call them, no?
Also, explain in further detail why I need a spirit quest, and what that would entail?
>>29958869
No, you need growth
>what would that entail
only you can know that. it's different for everyone. It could be a literal "I'm taking ayahuasca in the amazon with a south-american shaman" to just going to dog-grooming school. You need personal growth and to not care about forcing socialization. You think it matters if some acquaintances consider you a friend? You cannot see past tomorrow, you are still young. Make something of yourself and friends will come.
>>29959026
>You need personal growth
I agree. Wouldn't having friends open my life up to new experiences that would make me grow as a person?
I work with a couple art forms in my free time, though, so it's not like I don't have hobbies.
>>29959085
No, personal relationships in 2016 are a total sham invented by modern man to distract him from the mediocrity and unfulfilling life he has. Relationships haven't always been like this and you can still have some good ones but you are wasting your time. Just focus on yourself.
>>29957352
Get a job. Make friends with coworkers. Go out with coworkers. Meet girls. Do a little dance. Make a little love. Get down tonight.
Get down tonight.
>>29957837
what the fuck? is this bait? you sound like a 13 year old girl with a "normal people scare me" shirt. i hope you actually do kill yourself
