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>tfw cannot cope with the fact that I am legitimately ugly
>size
>appearance
>illnesses
I fucking hate how all these things were decided from our birth and there's nothing we can do to change it. I didn't even get away that bad and it still pisses me off. It's ridiculous that life is basically a glorified lottery.
>tfwpswnbyqtgf
why even live
I will always have crippling Autism, I will always have insomnia, I will always be socially awkward, I will always hate myself for being mixed race, I will always hate myself for looking the way I do, I will always hate myself for wasting half my life, I will always hate myself for wasting the next half, I will always hate my family for abusing me, I will always hate girl for hurting me, I will always hate you lot for dulling the pain, and I will always hate myself for not killing myself.
>mom said I might have aspergers
sheeeeeeeet original
>>29907086
feels bad, really bad
>>29906982
>have anatomy exam tomorrow
>do not know shit about the digestive system or the central nervous system
I might aswell just stay home, but I have to go and get destroyed because I want to know what the exam looks like atleast.
And why the fuck do roasties have so much additional shit I have to learn, fuck them and their fucking ovaries.
>just turn 20
>look 14
>live basement
I-I'm glad things turned out this way..
>want to be friends with a cute girl
>I do not pass her 'man' test where she passive aggressively berates me with witty sarcasm and playful remarks
>I take it too personally when she says she hates everything I like, when she makes fun of the way I talk, and calls me out on my social mistakes
Trying to make friends is so hard because everyone is so obsessed with mind games.
>trying to hold myself together and not completely fall apart
>no fucking clue what to do
People say to go to college. I don't know where I'd go to college. I don't know if I even want to. It feels like my life is wasted and I don't know how to escape that. Just thinking about this stuff makes me want to eat a bullet.