>be social outcast in school
>become depressed and stay a shut-in for years
>have psychotic episode and end up in the ward twice
>apply for education course
>first day try talking to someone, they scour at me then ignores me
>next day people go out of their way to avoid sitting next to me so I'm the only one alone in class
I can't even figure out what's wrong with me.
I'm starting to think there's only one way out and in my head I'm screaming at myself to jump in front of every car or train...
I don't know what to do
Questions;
>Which country do you live in?
>How much older/younger are you compared to others?
>Are you ugly?
>>29896337
it's okay friend. why were you a social outcast?
what do you think is wrong with you? is there really something wrong with you or is there something wrong with the other people?
>>29896337
Please keep trying, OP. You're probably just rusty, or you got a judgemental cunt.
>>29896337
Why don't you just murder them all? Seriously, they have been torturing you your whole life, you will be giving them a favor by quickly executing them. Again, i'm serious about this.
>>29896378
>Which country do you live in?
Australia
>How much older/younger are you compared to others?
I'm about the average age
>Are you ugly?
Yes
>>29896390
I didn't do much besides exercise and play video games. It wasn't until after school that I realized how different my social life was to everyone elses
>>29896453
I don't think I could get away with that.
I think I should become a serial killer though.
>>29896483
Do you just do cardio only? Try lifting and once you're swole everyone will want to be your friend.
>>29896596
No. What will happen is guys will be jealous and assume you're an asshole and girls will mock you for being an overcompensating manlet
>>29896596
I'm "swole" and nobody wants to be my friend
But on the bright side they don't fuck with me anymore and when I have to interact with normals I usually get treated with respect
>>29896483
>It wasn't until after school that I realized how different my social life was to everyone elses
i didn't realize that about my childhood until i was out of school and out of the world in general. you're just not the average person. that doesn't mean there is anything wrong with you. you can still connect with others if you choose to but it will take work and it will take going outside of your comfort zone. for many people it comes down to a question of whether you can find people who are worth the effort. you might as well figure that out. are there people who are worth the effort? if so, do your best to meet them. if not, find what makes you happy and pursue that instead. your life doesn't have to be over. you just need to figure out what you really want from it.
>>29896715
Timestamp face fit robot
>>29896337
Anon I'm going to sleep now but post Skype I wanna be your friend
You should kinda like me desu I had no friends in high school and college and ever and I think people just fucking hate the way I act
>>29896337
>tumblr filename in OP's pic
I mean come the fuck on, is this nu-/r9k/?
>>29896801
tumblr is good for art blogs fuck off
>>29896830
>animeme
>art
o i am laffin
>>29896830
Yeah, that's a nice word for porn blogs.
>>29896841
Fuck off normie
Not original but still necessary
>>29896854
Oh and those too I guess.
>>29896857
>i'm a normie because i don't consider animeme art
Come on, you can do better than that, faggot.
w-what state
if it isn't too late to ask
>>29896337
How was the ward? I'm considering trying to get myself admitted to stop myself from an heroing.
>>29896337
>>first day try talking to someone, they scour at me then ignores me
greentext the conversation?
>>29898043
I enjoyed the first time because I talked to all the crazies, making friends with the nurses and spent a bunch of time reading algebra and networking books. I only 'lost it' twice.
You get to meet a lot of people with genuinely miserable lives. They separate any girls who deem themselves "vulnerable" which basically means the only female patients I saw was a 50 year old crackwhore and a bull dyke except when they let me go to the cafeteria and I saw some nurse chad flirting with all the girls from the "vulnerable women's" ward.
The second time was much worse. I went to a different ward and pretty much stayed in my room the entire time. I never spoke to any other patients. This one fat woman would eat multiple servings of food so sometimes I just wouldn't eat because I didn't want to ask for food.
>>29898075
>beginning class
>we all walk in to take our seats
>these guys sit at a curved table and leave a seat open
>I sit there
>later they start talking over me
>say "sorry, I didn't realize you guys were friends" (because I sat in between them)
>he mumbles something and looks away
>nobody says anything to me after that
>they keep talking over me
>>29898174
How was the food? I heard it was prison-esque in a lot of places
It seems vaguely comfy and low-stress, but I don't know if I could stand being away from the things I like to do for that long
>>29898174
honestly your better off not trying to make friends during a course. most of them are already friends from highschool/dorm and signed up together. at best you can get some loose acquaintances for group work and study groups
>they start talking over me
this normie behavior is really rude and annoying. basically universal gesture for "look we're excluding you!"
don't sweat it OP they're retarded and got flustered
>>29898200
It is pretty much prison food but I really enjoy that. People need to learn to accept what they're given when it comes to such frivolous things such as food.
>>29898210
It's not so much that I'm not making friends, it's that my entire life I've never developed a normal relationship with another human and I can't figure out what's wrong with me. My therapist says I don't seem to have autism. I just feel like this is never going to change.
I want to be desired for once in my life.
Buy some weed, OP. Keep trying. Do something different. Write a pornographic novel.
