who /in constant despair/ here?
>tfw became so addicted to how bad life was going I don't ever want it to change
>literally live for when bad things happen to me
>actively seek out a toxic lifestyle
If you accept that it will never get better, you'll never get hurt again
>>29894626
>despair
>that pic
A world of memories just flooded back in.
>tfw you will never absolutely obliterate Junko's pussy
>>29894626
same. heroin addiction worked out well in that regard
same. felt that way for a while, it subsided, and now its coming back again.
the difference is i feel like some part of me is still fighting against this feeling, but it still feels like a drug.
>something good happens
>feel very uneasy like I'm on borrowed time before shit goes real bad to make up for this brief relief
>feel like I don't deserve to be happy
>life goes to shit again
>feels comfortable and familiar
>feel good knowing that I can kill myself on a whim with no regrets
I've turned down and ignored girls in the past because I never believed I deserved a gf
>pretty much dead inside
>only emotion I feel at all is a muted sadness
>purposely seek out ways to emotionally hurt myself worse and worse just for that twinge of heartache I get for a moment
>it gets smaller each time
are you saying you're...
left in despair?HAHAHAHAHAHA
