What keeps you going in this harsh world, /r9k/?
I still have hope that i can one day manage to land a qt and be able to make a comfortable amount of money. My hopes dies more and more each day though people on this board tell me it will disappear once i turn 25.
>>29893958
Grad school, and the possibility of finding a qt significant other. However I have little reason to believe in such a possibility so after I get my PhD I may an hero unless I happen to make a good friend or something.
Family.
bloxx
nothing in particular rly
>>29893958
The hope of bringing despair to the fools around me.
>>29893958
Cussedness.
the rain really makes me feel at peace with things. Besides that, anime and video games for escapism, and sweet baked treats because I love them.
>>29893958
Hopefully it'll all be over for me soon
My family..
I guess
>>29893958
Her.
http://vocaroo.com/i/s0ZglTBkzu55
>>29893958
Setting one specific goal for myself and agreeing to commit suicide once it's done.
hate of authority
nothing personnel
>>29894221
My family too. Folks specifically. Would hate to imagine them bawwing and then them dying soon after
>>29893958
I have hope that I can one day save enough money to buy a remote tropical island and live the rest of my life away from normies
Self-resourcefulness. Drive. Confidence. Those things which make me me, few as they are. God. I don't focus on the bad anymore, and the good slowly increases as a result.
>>29893958
I used to think it was losing my virginity, which I still want to do.
Nowadays it's just fear of the other side.
Paying off some money I borrowed from my parents, then going to leave them enough to cover my funeral. That's my only motivation right now.
>>29894323
I been dead before. It's not bad. It's not anything.
Ignorance.
>>29894320
Leave normalshit
The shit I do, like music and tryingand failing heavily atcomputers
>>29894261
>ywn participate in some shitty, futile yet visceral Russian revolution
>ywn explore the decaying ruin of some Russian industrial/urban complex
>ywn escape the tedium of daily routine
>>29893958
I'm going to die anyway. Might as well keep going until I finally win out. I still think being some old guy that tried a bunch of shit and failed is better than suicide.
Sometimes beautiful things happen too. Things that take you away from everything to do with any kind of comparison.
Bed and Internet connection.
Art.
Unfortunately I can't next month, so I'll probably an hero.
>>29893958
Hoping to die in WW3.
It will be coming pretty soon, atleast it feels like it.
>>29893958
I don't want to kill myself desu
Nothing really. I'm 35, I'm never had a girlfriend, I don't have any friends but I'm relatively successful financially. My entire life revolves around escapism and acquiring it.
I spend all my free time watching anime, playing video games and visual novels. I learned Japanese for the sole purpose of playing more untranslated visual novels. Every night when I'm in bed, I live out my dream life in my imagination for hours and hours. Living a much better life with a cute sweet perfect girlfriend. I imagine even doing mundane things like going to work but in my imagination persona then coming home to my girlfriend. Sometimes hanging out with my imaginary friends and having fun with them.
Then I fall asleep and I wake up, barely in reality and I go to work. Everyday I feel like my connection to reality is slipping further and further away. I feel like I'm barely connected to my body most of the time these days. When I'm at work I'm a zombie, sitting at my desk and staring at a computer screen all day. Needing to take Xanax because the anxiety of just talking to people still gets to me sometimes. When it's time to go home, I feel like a weight is lifted off of me.
Eventually I'll be stuck inside my own imagination and completely insane. This is what I want though. I want to stuck inside my head, I want my dreams to become my new reality.
Wouldn't that be great? When that happens, I'll truly be happy.
>>29896000
Bro I think you've already lost it.
>>29896000
Elaborate more on your imaginations and dreams anon. I'm curious.
>>29896000
>wanting to go insane
Just get a prostitute
>>29893958
>What keeps you going in this harsh world, /r9k/?
I'm waiting for true virtual reality and sex robots.
>>29896000
At least you learned japanese, that's pretty impressive
>>29896000
Oh wow, I'm 19 , I'm glad to see I'm not alone with this.
>>29896000
Great job anon, you're now my personal hero.
Weed is the only thing that keeps me going anymore. And not because of "lmao 420" shit, it's just the only way I know of to feel like a kid again with no cares or worries.
>>29893958
seeing smugwojak4v2 posted, preferably by thisguy
>>29897762
other anon here, Its pretty shit actually.
once you have learned japanese and your life is still shit, and you start seeing the faults in untranslated stuff because nothing is perfect, what the fuck is there left for you to do?
>learning japanese
is like the holy grail for weebs, what the fuck do you do when you achieved that?
>>29893958
I don't have the guts to end it yet and I don't know what the future may bring so I'd see it through to a certain point, though it's looking more and more hopeless.
I don't even know. I had a horrible and defeating life since birth but I am kind of adapted to it now. I can't exist in a happy world, which felt 100% of the time surreal and weird.
Currently I am at university to please my parents, doing heavy physical training to please my brother but aside from that I am just lying in my bed waiting.
>mfw I am playing the same 30min game since two years because I am so used to it
Hope that things will turn around. I have no expectations, but I still have hope.
>>29894248
what goal?
>>29894114
yeh rain is good. i often youtube that shit, but im a bong so its pretty consistent regardless
>>29894059
not bad, not bad
>>29894261
u gonna take action on that bud?
>>29894320
fool
>>29896000
yeh insanity sounds better than this, thats why drugs are so good
>>29898290
if u can get the effort, meditate as well. its not great but its something
.. as for me. i dont know. the routine.. the routine of being alive. its easier to stay in this routine than make the decision to die. the way things look right now, i'll probably auto-pilot through my life and pretend i was in control the whole time, that i failed myself, but really im just looking for something, waiting to get hit by some glitch in the code, that makes life good again, that changes my belief, my outlook, my shitty world. i don't know if it'll come, but i'll spend my time waiting for it
For fear that my mom would blame herself.
>>29893958
I love my parents. They are my life. If they die, I won't wait even 5min to end my life.
>>29896000
please tell me something about your fantacies.
I dunno, like, why bother? But I still feel like there are people I need to apologise to, or to make right with, work hard for. Just feel like I owe, not just friends and family who have given me what Ive had, but give what I can to the world. Just as i get older it feels like thats becoming less and less.
>>29899247
I like. Something will click, whether it was always going to happen, or whether its a sequence of experiences/influences, something'll tick
>>29896000
Can you even imagine what it'd be like being more in touch with your body/reality?
The lack of a quick means of death
>>29893958
The desire to contribute something worthwhile to this world.
There's also a lot of neat shit that I haven't seen or done yet.still holding out hope for that QT 3.5 tan - lined tomboy gf to come my way.
>>29893958
Curiosity. Mainly, KIC 8462852. It's this really weird star thats dimming really weirdly shown in pic related. It has also, according to some records from Harvard, been slowly fading for a century.
Actually, like fuck! I kinda wanna do something as a fucking human being, for human beings.
>wtF right
But hey, we're pretty lucky to exist in the first place.
>This universe has just the right constants etc, pretty much made for hosting life like us
So.. yeh, I kinda like the whole feel of getting swept up by Elon Musk in my newsfeed, watching my Brian Cox docos and taking some LSD, and just get excited about existence.
Whether or not I contribute something to humanity or do something with my life, is in a future chapter. Itll just happen if it happens, if it doesnt, it doesnt. Or should I have a little more drive about doing something?
>>29893958
For the last 4 and half months: My boyfuriendo.
I never wanna be alone again, so I'm trying not to give him any reason to get rid of me. He suggested I look for a job, so right now I'm looking for one closer to where he lives so we can see each other more often. Doesn't make the job hunt suck any less though, I hate every second of it.
>>29893958
just signed up for college late in life (29) for political science.. I want to be an adviser to candidates for the right wing or at least a staffer. It'll be boring and probably tireless if I can get in the game but I love politics so I want to make a change somewhere if at all possible
Tendies. Their warm crunchiness embrace me.
>>29893958
because I hate it and I don't like being happy.
Life is suffering.
>>29894021
>significant other
STOP DOING THIS SHIT
Just say gf/bf you fucking faggot cunt normie.
Mytulpathey are almost completely my sole source of drive, at this point
>>29901461
That makes you legitimately crazy, or did you actually manage to fracture your own conciousness?
>>29901502that isn't how it works, but yes, I was successful, and yes I am probably insane
>>29901569
Good luck dealing with your insanity friend.
>>29893958
My girlfriend
(Pic is old)
>>29893958
Truth be told, I've come to accept that I am a talent-less hack who is ultimately a burden on those around me. I suck at just about everything I do except maybe video games, but we all know that's nothing special, nor a reason to keep on living.
I hate myself more than any other person I know and I am pretty sure the rest of the world would be better off without me. Sure a few friends and family might be sad for a month, but they'd get over it and continue with their day to day lives. I feel many of them would see a great improvement in their own personal lives without having to worry about me any longer.
They say suicide is the most selfish thing, but I believe that's bullshit. Suicide can be justified, understood, and ultimately seen as a positive given the context. The most selfish thing is to realize you are a fuck up and that you should kill yourself and NOT go through with it. That's me right now. I am being that selfish piece of shit who keeps to himself away from the world with very little interactions. I know people hate me, but yet, life is ok. Not as bad as it has been in the past, but nothing to where if someone said they needed someone for a fatal transplant surgery, I wouldn't be refusing. I've accepted my life is going nowhere. I cry from time to time and wonder where it all went wrong, but I know it's pretty much pointless to care any more. I'll enjoy the stupid small shit like 4chan, vidya, and so on, but when life gets too rough (high bills, possible jail time, tired of living), I'm killing myself
>>29894114
All of this, save vidya, haven't played in very long now.
>>29894366
But for how long tho?
>>29893958
came to peace with dying alone, besides if nothing is worth living for nothing is worth dying for either
there will be cold whiskey in the fridge when I get home each night so its better just to ignore it all anyway
>>29893958
the thought of her and knowing that you will find your passion and love what u do and get a good life
>>29893958
Films.
No really, I watch like 400 films a year, it's my only real hobby.
>>29896000
Fellow 35'er here, sounds pretty awesome anon-san. My own solution to this have been to animefy everything I do, whenever I work I always see everything as "me: the anime". I guess the ideal would be to completely enter a psychosis AND still be able to maintain onesself without getting taken to some institution. Best of luck ahead!
>>29893958
Work basically, and traveling a bit, I enjoy driving. I'm 25 and no gf, so probably never happening now. Oh well, happier alone most of the time anyways, fuck women.
>>29903547
>I enjoy driving.
You got a fast car, anon?
>>29903328
Not entirely sure. Woke in the ER
>>29903607
I wish, I have a pickup truck, I like going off road and shit (I live in the woods of northern Maine)
I want to see the World burn, I want to see chaos fall upon humanity.
>>29903727
Ma nigga. I just hope I witness some huge 'happening' in my lifetime, the world can't stay this boring for too long.
>>29903774
Only special events would enable it, like huge natural catastrophes with global lasting impact.
It will happen sooner or later, that is a given, however I hope it is soon, meaning still in my lifetime.
Few motivational/nice songs can get me back to my tracks when I feel shitty.
Also I want to witness WWIII.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=JPxR81ekyH4
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=VT6ybYxFi24
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=a7S_Okzr1lw
>>29903896
I mean, it's not like I want WWIII to happen. But if it happens, I want to see it. I want to see east coast burn in nuclear fire.
wonderlust
>>29893958
You want to know what op? You really want to know? Addblock. Just to fuck up all images block one block all. It's not easy being a NEET.
>>29893958
spite honestly
I am seriously waiting for singularity. I can simulate my ideal life then.
>>29896000
I kind of think like this too, actually. My fantasies have always been better than my actual life. What's wrong with that? I'm content in living a perfect life in an imaginary world. That's good enough for me.
