>tfw broke down crying in public earlier for the first time
>tfw sat in waiting room full of normies and the radio show was talking about sex
>couldn't hold it any more, ran out of there ASAP
>tfw kissless virgin
>no hope of ever getting a gf or married
>be reminded of my loneliness whenever I go outside
>nearly jump in front of a bus on the way home
I'm getting really tired anons.
sad bump
pls tell me i'm not the only one anons
Had plenty of times like this where I just need to go to the bathroom and breakdown
Breddy pathetic of us though desu, friend.
>>29874781
>Breddy pathetic of us though desu, friend.
I know, just wondered if anyone else had felt the same way. Every day I hate going outside, having to deal with the shit and be reminded of my fate.
>>29874428
Yeah. Started yelling and throwing things around and my neighbors ended up calling the cops because they thought I was being robbed or murdered. When the cops got to my house, they only saw a retard crying relentlessly. I though about suicide more than the usual that week.
>>29874428
Holy shit man, I don't know what to tell you. Don't take it so hard man blablabla you probably heard that shit too often. I really wish I could tell you something that would help you.
>>29874428
I'm on anti psychotics for paranoia and delusions, not sure if that counts
>>29874428
damn that reminds me of when I was a virgin and how bad I felt (took me 22 years to lose it)
You know, it is true what they say. Once you start having sex on the reg, you will notice it really isn't that much of a big deal and that this is really just your mind messing with you.
Then again, who the fuck likes being "left behind", I get you.
Anyway, brobot, go fuck some prostitutes. Honestly. Trust me, you are not missing out on anything. Focus on making money, fuck an escort whenever you feel like it and hit up the gym regularly and you will be a lot happier already, guaranteed.
>>29874428
I've never had a mental breakdown in public. I just close my eyes and take a deep breath when it gets rough. But I admit it gets tougher every day. When you innocently go to the grocery store and 14 year olds are kissing next to the cereal aisle, or when they are behind you in the line and start kissing and hugging and you can hear their lips and tongues touch and you're looking at the chewing gums and condoms and wonder where and how did it all go so wrong.
>>29874781
>pathetic
Nah, normies have social support networks (aka friends) to unload on, you don't. Therefore you keep your feels inside and have meltdowns when it becomes too much. You're not weaker than them, you just don't have the advantage they have of being able to talk through your emotions with a supporting friend.
Worst public place I've ever cried by far is on a bus full of kids as an adult.
>>29875681
To clarify, the difference is that normies get to externalise their bad feels regularly by talking to friends, whereas robots internalise and hold on to their emotions until their mental dam breaks, at which point they discharge all their feels at once in a breakdown.
p.s. If you have autism, sensory overload is probably a factor too. Maybe wearing sunglasses or going out in the dark would help.
Once you come to terms with always being alone and you know that no female in your lifetime will ever look at you in a romantic sense, you simply stop caring. I'll have people at my job will ask me if I've seen girl X or if I saw girl Y walk by. I just don't look at them anymore. They're simply things that are there and nothing else.
28 years of being a kissless, hugless, handholdless, touchless virgin will either cripple you or numb the shit out of you.
Had a few moments of crisis after my boyfriend died in the 11th grade, then I turned 21 and discovered alcohol.
>>29875758
>boyfriend
Get the fuck out normie scum
>21 to discover alcohol
Holy shit you're late to the party. I don't even drink, but people I went to school with were getting drunk when they were 12 and 13.
>>29874428
Sorry your life sucks op, I'd offer a hug but you'd probably fall in love with me and we both know you don't need anymore suicide feul
>>29874428
I thinks true when people talking about loneliness slowly eating away at you.
The last time I broke down was when my parents confronted me about my future and about how I have no friends.
However shame is far worse to me than loneliness, I'd rather have no friends than ones who I'd keep disappointing.
Shame drives me crazy.
Hate to break it to you friend but that was an emotional breakdown, not mental
>driving
>feeling suicidal
>realize I'll never be happy
>scream out my window that I want to fucking die
>people just stare at me as I drive by having a freakout
