What would you do next.
How are you holding up?
so far so good...it seems.
>tfw still too scared to jump in front of the train
>>29857201
Do people regret it once they're drowning/falling off building?
>>29857374
Some of them. Those who actually didnt want to die
>>29857136
I'm tired of life but for some reason I'm not ready to let go. I don't want to think or feel or experience anything anymore, but I just can't kill myself.
I'm going to try and do it soon, though. Before the end of the summer. what I really want to do is fuck off to the woods and go camping for a couple of weeks and relax, and then kill myself.
but I can't do that. They're going to make me go back to suffer some more and they're not going to let me out, ever.
>>29857136
Not good anon. I'm 99.9% sure I'll do it one day. Only reason I haven't yet is I'm worried about my parents and how they'd feel. I'm kinda scared of the end as well, but I see no point living. Don't want to be a lonely old virgin.
>>29857521
No all of them do. It's basic survival instinct, almost unconscious.
>>29857966
>They're going to make me go back to suffer some more and they're not going to let me out, ever.
They? Where are you?
>>29858361
They, the royal they, the collective of all who have influence or power over my life.
College has been an incredibly damaging experience for me and they're going to make me go back for another semester. I couldn't even begin to tell you how fucking bad it's been. I'm amazed I got through it at all, but I just can't go anymore. I don't have another one in me.
Even people I don't know tell me I have to go back. They're all laughing with their smirking grins because they know how badly it hurts me. I'm there for entertainment, because they like seeing me hurt.
I'd imagine myself doing it but that's it
Still have to wait
Everything is going to shit, though
I have fewer and fewer reasons to live
I found out the girl Ive liked for a year also likes me back
Makes it hard as fuck to kms now. Its like that broken part of my brain telling me to terminate has been shut off.
I still hate being human.
>>29857966
>what I really want to do is fuck off to the woods and go camping for a couple of weeks and relax, and then kill myself.
This is a really nice idea
>>29858617
If a girl ever liked me that would cheer me up so much, but I know it will never happen. Unless I see an escort I've got no chance
