>>29836357
living in a dream, eh?

>>29836357
So why don't they get to know you? Because of those shitty parts of you that you're not acknowledging. You may have good self-esteem, but you've also got a big ego. Prioritize understanding yourself above feeling good about yourself and you'll recognize the bad habits and traits you need to change.

Mine is ok, good, really good, it depends on my mood.

I'm also a total failure in life, 27, no job, no gf, got some hobbys but thats all, oh, and a severe illness.

I dont think that I deserve it either but I see there this path when I look back ... if I had taken this path my life would be absolutely different ..

Our difference is maybe that other people can find me interesting without knowing me.

And propably that I thin every day about ending this life ..

>>29836410
>So why don't they get to know you?
I'm hiding in my apartment so they never get the chance. I'm also avoidant and slow to trust.

>>29837138
Well, it's easy to maintain a positive opinion of yourself when your own is the only one you have to hear. But if it crumbles when exposed to a negative one, it wasn't actually that healthy a sense of self-esteem. So there you are, bemoaning your fate of having no friends or no life, yet doing nothing to change it. You can blame your personality (disorder) all you like, but at the end of the day you're the one who has to live with the consequences of your inaction.

>>29837409
I'm just counting my blessings. I'm just happy that I don't have the compulsion to call myself a piece of shit every day in addition to my other problems. I didn't make this thread to try to solve anything.

>>29836357
I have good self esteem too. I think I am a good person, and I like the person I am.

At the same time I know it's completely my fault that I have no friends - and that is due in at least part to my personality.

That being said - I don't really know if I want to change. I feel that I am fine with no friends.