>out of every single possible person you could have been born as...
>You were born as you.
How unlucky we are.
>one chance at life
>Unspeakable, unfulfillable fetish makes normal sex unenjoyable
The worst part is, no matter how much I fix up the other parts of my life, this one thing always comes back to haunt me. I put up a tough front and work hard so people just assume
I'm enough of a normies to have been in relationships, but nope, not capable of physical intimacy.
Yeah. I was thinking about that recently.
I was screwed from the beginning by losing the genetic lottery. But that's not all. On almost a daily basis something awful happens. As edgy as it sounds I feel like my life is a cosmic joke. I can't interact well with my family. Despite years of effort, I'm still terrible at everything. If there is even the slightest chance something will go wrong, it does, even if it works out fine for others. The only escape I have is anime/things relating to anime, so if I'm motivated enough to completely immerse myself in it I will, the second something takes me out of it and reminds me how awful my reality is--a simple failed social interaction with my family is minor enough--it reminds me how much of a fuck up on all fronts I am, and I want to kill myself again.
>Implying anyone will read or care about this
>>29832268
At least you aren't black.
>>29832281I actually am
fucking kill me
>life is an one-way road
>people are really getting sick of pretending to care about you
>all the billions of shitskins in third-world gutters
>I wasn't one of them
