Who /mental illness/ here?
Anybody back from the ward?
Everybody here does, I would assume. Even the normalfags have psychopathy.
>>29828765
A lot of psychopaths go undiagnosed
>>29828739
schizoaffective checking in
meh im just a regular depressed/anxiety suicidalfag
>>29829561
same *high fives*
had an involuntary two week stay in the ward a couple years back. shit sucked
Schizophrenia checking in
>>29828739
where did you get the pic?
>>29831286
ohayou face
>>29828739
have depression, waiting on psychiatry appointment for the crazier stuff.
>>29828739
I got sectioned a few months ago because im a heroin addict. I made a thread on it a few days ago. I had to spend a week in the psych ward. Towards the end it was kind of fun because I met a friend. I'll kill myself before I ever go back though. The worst part was I was the most normal one there, so all the crazies came to me and told me their problems because I listened. There was a poop in the shower also. 4/10
>>29831408
holy shit i was also a heroin addict and spent 2 months in a psych/rehab ward. it was a small place so only room for 2. after a month of being alone a girl is admitted, and she left her shit in the toilet without flushing hahaha. and there was no toilet paper in there either
>>29831408
What did other people there have?
>>29828739schizophrenia,depressionandanxietyhere. anxiety is the worst cause meds have the other two under control.
>>29829922
what do you hallucinate. what delusions have you had?
>>29831525
what about benzos?
>>29831408
>There was a poop in the shower also.
wtf man. crazy or not thats just bad manners.
>>29828739
Lately my anxiety has been unbearable. I have always had such problems but right now it's killing me, i am shaking even as i type this. Can someone please help me with what i should sum up to a professional when i visit? I feel like i definitely need some medication and therapy but going there scares the fuck out of me and i will probably mentally block from stress when i go there if i don't have a precise list of things that i should say.
pls help
>>29831542
Voices. Thinking I'm being tapped, being spied on, etc.
nothing bizarre but its still incredibly distressing
>>29831573
never taken any. so not sure how effective they are. i was on zoloft for years and that helped with anxiety a bit but i came off of it a few months ago. my psych is trying to push more meds on me atm.
Autism here.
I hate living
>>29831581
just google "anxiety symptoms" and repeat the list to the doctor.
>>29831315
much obliged
orig
>>29831606
>Voices. Thinking I'm being tapped, being spied on, etc
i heard voices talking about killing me 24/7 and i thought they could hear every tiny noise i made even from hundreds of meters away and from different rooms of the house.
ayy lmao clinically depressed, anixety, and my parents think i have aspergers! whoop-de-fuckin doo.
>>29831622
dude. there's a reason everyone love that shit; it actually works. yeah u get addicted by daily use but the horror-withdrawal stories you hear are from people who take way too much. i met a guy in rehab who took 50 2mg Clonazepam a day.
>>29831670
>so you feel anxious like when doing specific stuff or is it like all the time mr.anon?
>IDK I JUST REALLY HATE NORMIES
>>29831742
>and my parents think i have aspergers!
well your parents know you best.
>>29828739
mostly tumblr illnesses here
bpd
depression
social anxiety
and gender dysphoria
two suicide attempts i had to be hospitalized for
live with my mother at 24
just kill me please... someone... anyone...
>>29831747
>50 2mg Clonazepam a day.
that sounds like way too much. i dont think i would get in that situation.
I am glad, that I atleast don't have severe autism or schizophrenia.
That's the real deal.
>>29831581
Hey man, you could always bring a list or send an e-mail before you go. In my experience everyone has been very understanding and supportive. You could always just say I have really bad anxiety and find it difficult to talk about. They will ask you questions you can then answer, which might make it easier? Hope that helps a bit.
>>29831769
>doctor jewson: w-whats a normie, mr. anon. i dont know, you seem delusional. im sending you to the psych ward.
>>29831785
do you have afeminine penisby any chance? or did you chop it off already?
>>29831926
i'm too much a coward to actually transition.
i take tranny pills and most people would assume i'm just an effeminate gay man.
it's cool though because i never leave the house, so it doesnt really matter. I've been going on 4 months now since my last time outside.
>>29831865
>WHAT DO YOU MEAN IM GOING TO THE PSYCH WARD IM NOT DANGEROUS DO I LOOK DANGEROUS
I promomised my caretaker that she can come visit my house next friday. I feel like I made a huge mistake
>>29831981
Are you me but like one year older?
I guess at least you have girl pills. I just do the herbal PM and its giving me small tits
>>29832043
yeah i hear it's pretty common. lots of people like us pop onto /lgbt/ every now and then. mtfs who never leave their house or socially transition.
PM is cool. have you thought about hrt? lots of informed consent places have really cool payment plans for the unemployed and neets.
>>29832142
Money isn't really the problem. It's more like being disowned and dealing with all the stress that comes from that. I'll probably just keep living like this and maybe it'll be enough for me to not want to die.
>>29831981
>i'm too much a coward to actually transition.
im sure youd miss your penis if you chopped it off.
>it's cool though because i never leave the house,
outside is heavily overrated. i wish i had the luxury of not leaving my premises ever. i hate going to work. it makes me so anxious.
here have some opera from /mu/: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=2Z-LtheSy7w
>>29831993
>dr. jewson: please, put your penis back in your pants and calm down! nurse please bring a sedative for mr. anon.
>>29831494
Everyone there was like a walking zombie. There was a terrifying 60+ year old transgender thing that was bald and sounded like a demon witch. It said I had nice hair and a nice smile so that made me feel good.
>>29831580
I didnt notice the poop until halfway in my shower. A hot poop is a smelly poop, I spat water on it.
>>29832040
>my caretaker
is that like your caseworker or something?
>>29831709
I'd suggest seeing a professional for sure.
>>29832296
>A hot poop is a smelly poop, I spat water on it.
lel death to the poop
>>29832302
Yeah. She is like a personal nurse for me. I don't even think I'm mentally ill but they sure do
>>29832375
In the UK?
>>29832393
Finland
>blox
>>29832317
i did. i ended up calling the cops and they took me to hospital and i was in a psych ward for 2 months. that was a few years ago now. i still take antipsychotics. i still see a psychologist every few months too.
>>29828739
dislexya, adhd and prolly on the autistic spectrum desu.
>>29832435
Which antipsychotic?
>>29832447
>prolly on the autistic spectrum desu
what autistic traits do you have?
>>29832461
now just risperidone. but ive tried a lot of them and was on a high dose of risperidone and seroquel for ages. gave me a fucking seizure but i think that was mainly from the zoloft. after having a seizure i wasnt allowed to drive for 6 months. was shit desu
>>29832529
Glad it's working for you. Risperidone made me worse.
>>29832419
what are finnish nut houses like?
>>29832465
my brain works alot differently than everyone else's. people are constantly surprised at me for having unique perspectives about things. In some ways I'm a lot smarter and wiser than the normies, but in a lot of ways I'm also dumber and much less competent.
Pretty heavily medicated on benzos right now but still unable to leave the house.
No uni classes during the weekend so I'm pretty much just redosing clonazolam whenever I start to feel feelings again.
>doesn't feel at all man
>>29832600
>Risperidone made me worse.
what, it made you hallucinations and delusions worse or you had other side effects?
i got massively fucked up by abilify. got akathisia really bad and would be out at the mall with my parents and suddenly just feel like i had to lie down and sleep and id have to go sleep in the car. plus some other fucked up side effects.
>>29832637
yeah that does sound like autism in my unprofessional opinion. do you have any friends?
>>29832663
>just redosing clonazolam whenever I start to feel feelings again.
how much do you take in a day?
>>29832666
clouded my brain hard and i thought i was saying disgusting things to people and wasn't aware of it, if that makes sense.
also akasthisia
>>29832604
Boring as fuck. They're so boring that they can be used as a threat to fix your shit
>>29828739
went to the ward a few months ago, they said I have major depression, social anxiety/phobia, and shizophrenia, I honestly think I just have autism not just the meme.
>>29832768
>Boring as fuck.
boring is at least better than shit in the shower.
>>29832711
I made a solution with polyethylene glycol and clonazolam powder at .5mg/1mL and 30mL total.
I estimate I'm probably at about .5-.75mg a day. I have a script for XR Xanax which has always been there for me but the clonazolam is nice.
>>29832873
Maybe, but people shit in the shower and hurl it at the nurses anyway.
>>29832699
yes. I hang out with normies, but can never feel as if I'm actually one of them. I always fell like an outsider.
>sometimes I see shadows following me
>I can feel them staring at me
>mostly when I'm alone, or at night time
>sometimes can hear voices like door knocks (I checked them many times, there's nobody there) and people shouting my name/saying something to me when in bath
>feeling that something is watching me from the other side of the window, or that if I come close to it I'm gonna see something on the street
W-Well, what is this, schizophrenia?
I am already diagnosed with f92.8 btw.
>>29832907
well i thought not having friends was one of the hardest things about having autism so even if you feel like an outsider at least your not totally lonely. i havnt had a friend in at least 6 years and i dont have autism. just social anxiety and schizophrenia.
>>29828765
It's called narcissism when they're failed normies, and psychopathy if they're successful
>>29833012
your post made me feelspooked.
what is f92.8?
>>29833012
Sounds a little bit like psychosis
>>29833076
Other mixed disorders of conduct and emotions
This category requires the combination of conduct disorder (F91.-) with persistent and marked emotional symptoms such as anxiety, obsessions or compulsions, depersonalization or derealization, phobias, or hypochondriasis.
Conduct disorder in F91.- associated with:
emotional disorder in F93.-
neurotic disorder in F40-F48
I remember making a thread like mount or two ago at night, where I was shiting myself because I was seeing spoopy scary things and couldn't fall asleep.
cribling depressed and wana kill myself and try many times checking in
I very highly recommend all of you to read my thread here to get a deeper understanding on how reality works:
>http://www.dpselfhelp.com/forum/index.php?/topic/54425-what-causes-dpdr-and-how-to-break-out-of-it/
Once you understand it, begin to realise that you are a fragment of godliness, and you have the power in you to return to happiness and a more "stable" reality.
>>29833144
>I was seeing spoopy scary things and couldn't fall asleep.
it does sound like youre bordering on psychosis. what do the doctors say about it?
>>29833260
>what do the doctors say about it?
I don't talk with them about this. Last antidepressant that I took for a month fucked ip my memory and was literally making me insane by causing super realistic dreams, and I don't want to be sent into psych ward.
>>29833337
It's not that bad. You listen to music and play snooker all day.
Who /OCD/ here
Tell me about your latest intrusive thoughts
>Can't think about mental illnesses like schizophrenia or I'll cause them to happen to me
>>29832666
I'm on 5mg of Abilify right now. I love what it's done, minus the restlessness and the headache. I can't sit still, I'm pacing as I write this
Does it go away?
>>29828739
posted this in the "great fucking excuse thread"
>tfw OCD and bipolar type 1 and a fucking paraphilia
involuntarily stayed at three wards before but that was many years ago.
>>29833337
if you speak to the doctor they may be able to prescribe you tasty antipsychotics without sending you to hospital. it depends how badly these things are fucking up your life though.
>>29828739
Where do I sign up for a govt check every month? Ive been practicing being crazy for the interview
Got caught attempting suicide and went to the psych ward for a week. Turns out I was in dire need of SSRIs. Its crazy what a difference it makes and to feel what a healthy normal person feels like at any given time. Surreal as hell
>>29833408
>Does it go away?
for me it didnt but i got off it pretty quick cause of how much it was fucking me.
>>29833472
Dude I can't handle this restlessness. My legs are exhausted all the time from pacing and walking and fidgeting
This has to go away over time. It's been a life saver otherwise
>>29833408
>abilify
I couldn't swallow for some reason and I fell asleep everytime I took that medication. Fucking aids
>>29833425
>a fucking paraphilia
what atypical sexual interests do you have?
>>29833510
I have no side effects except a headache and restlessness. And I sleep every other day basically.
But I'm sure you can all agree when you see what life is like on meds you don't wanna go back to the fire that is unmedicated
>>29833498
have you tried any other antipsychotics?
I'm not sure if I'm mentally ill. I'm able to function just fine when I'm at work. I've never missed a day, but I have been late because of difficulty getting out of bed. However, almost all of my time off is spent in bed feeling intense self hatred, fantasizing about suicide, and rationalizing about why I can't improve myself. I wonder sometimes if I just want to die because I'm too lazy for life.
>>29833583
No and I don't want to. I'm OCD, I think I'm on them because I don't take to SSRI's well. The difference has been night and day.
I don't understand how Tumblr romanticizes mental illness. This has been fucking HELL for me. It's not cute, not fun, it's terrifying and scary. It feels like your chances of a normal life are slipping through your fingers.
But we will get better, we will improve!
Hey, boys :3
I used to come here mostly for the memes even though I'm not exactly a normie. I felt fairly good about myself then but now I literally can't stop thinking about my body every time I go out. I mean literally as in that's literally all that's on my mind. I can't stop comparing myself to everyone around outside.
Is that a mental illness?
>>29833667
Does it inhibit your quality of life? all of these disorders are spectrums. They can be mild to crippling
>>29833609
Of course there are exceptions to this rule but I THINK that the majority of Tumblrers who claim to have a mental illness are dramatizing it or are appropriating it for the sake of fitting in to that community. It may not be a conscious decision but it's probably there
>>29833545
I like my women how I like my beer: cold and fermented.
>>29833609
>But we will get better, we will improve!
thats the spirit. its not a death sentence. just a hurdle.
>>29833731
>I like my women how I like my beer: cold and fermented.
creepy. ever acted on those feelings?
>>29833788
Yes, but never with one that was as decomposed as I like. Likely never will (which is probably a blessing).
>>29833731
>not liking your women well done
came back from the ward a month ago.
Went there due a suicide attempt which I failed.
Depression,anxiety disorder,borderline.
>>29833717
I think the fact that they need to fake it to fit in is indicative of a mental illness. Regardless, I do not get Tumblr.
>>29833747
That's been my mantra. I'm really trying here. I want to continue being a unifag
>>29833883
There are people who think both of those are memes. Be strong brothrr
>>29833698
I think it so. It's less severe when I'm at home or around people I'm comfortable with but other than that I can't see my reflection (glass) or walking by someone who's fitter than me without feeling awful. It's the consistency that bugs me. It's always there.
>>29833905
how did you try to kill yourself originaload
>>29834085
>>29833883
whops xdadda
>>29834063
Possibly depression or something, but I'm not a doctor
>>29834085
I have not. But when i was first experiencing OCD I tried knocking myself unconscious many times by bashing my head into things. I put a hole in the wall with my head one time.
It's not the same, I know
>>29834187
What kind of OCD do you get?
>>29828739
depression, sometimes paranoid, and I get catatonic on occasion,
>>29834269
Have you been checked for Schizophrenia?
>>29834225
I dont know if there are any kinds, all my therapist and psychiatrist have said was "you're an obvious case of OCD"
I get really bad intrusive thoughts, I have thoughts I cannot think about because they're dangerous. I repeat my words to get them right or I'll be hated, so it sounds like I've got a stutter.
To relieve my dangerous intrusive thoughts I'll have outbursts of profanity or I'll have to repeat "Hitler" three times to punish myself for thoughts I think are dangerous (yet I can't control them)
I'm afraid that my thoughts can kill my family, even if on a logical level they cannot. So I punish myself for them.
I think it's pure O, but I'm not sure. I'm new to this diagnosis, it's my first ever one aside from ADHD
>>29834085
>>29834106
overdosed on my meds,got drunk,tried to slit my wrist and them jumped out of the third floor
>>29834325
I get the same and mine turned into voices. It's literal hell and I hope you get better.
>>29834325
Basically, I'm in a constant battle with an asshole in my head who says bad things will happen to me if I don't listen to him
>>29834344
See mine is just my own voices. Did they finally leave your head? I'm so scared they're gonna fuck off from my head and become hallucinations.
See but the clincher is if I think about that happening, I can cause it to happen so I need to do something to remedy that horrible thought.
It's literally fucking hell, they won't go away
>>29834284
My symptoms come in intense waves every few months, sometimes I just ride through them, but there have been times where I have been taken too hospital while catatonic. I have seen a few psychiatrists, but I have never been diagnosed with anything, or, they haven't told me what I have been diagnosed with. Also have auditory and visual hallucinations in periods of extreme stress, but that has only started recently.
>>29834372
Do they speak from the perspective of another person? They don't have to leave your head to be considered voices.
>>29834405
From my own perspective. They're not another person. They're literally me. It's just this asshole in my head writing down everything i say and do.
Though on occasion I'll tell myself that the person I'm walking behind is scared that I'm following them and I'll freak out.
To get them to stop I pick scabs from my scalp. My hairline bleeds and it hurts to comb.
>>29834376
My psych refused to tell me my diagnosis because my ocd. He said i'd dwell on them and make myself worse.
>>29834510
That's what my psychiatrist did. God I'm glad he did for so long too.
OCD sounds like hell. I'm sorry OCDbros. Can it ever get better for you?
>>29834510
I haven't asked to be honest, I don't really care, diagnostic criteria change, and a diagnosis can change from psychiatrist to psychiatrist. I just think of it as my brain being a shitter
>>29834542
Yes! It can! Medication and therapy have been proven to treat OCD
Despite the gloom and doom of this thread, there's a lot of hope in mental illnesses. Even schizohrenics can go off their medication with the right amount of treatment.
Not shitting you. Years ago the prognosis was grim, but nowadays, it's gotten 10000x better.
It sounds weird but these people are honestly luck to have what they have NOW and not back in the 50's and 60's.
REMEMBER: FULL REMISSION IS COMPLETELY POSSIBLE
t. Psychfag
>>29834639
Not an actual psychologist, just really really interested in it btw
>>29834639
seconding this, as someone who has OCD and is in treatment for it. Therapy and medication can make an ENORMOUS difference. To all of the OCDbros ITT who are suffering, please, please get yourself to a good psychiatrist and psychologist. You don't have to live like this forever.
>>29834639
Just reading this is making me teary because it's so true. I'm in treatment now. It's been the most difficult thing in my life but I already know the differences. Guys, it can get better
Who /ACT/ therapy here.
>>29832892
Enjoy your withdrawal seizures when you cut it out. -zolam's are fucking hell.
I got out of the hospital most recently a month ago tomorrow. Diagnosed with MDD, generalized anxiety disorder, and substance abuse disorders with opioids and benzodiazepines. But I've definitely experienced hypomania, I'm completely sure of that, so by default I have bipolar type 2 (all that requires is at least one hypomanic episode).
The depression is a bitch. Meds don't help enough, therapy just makes me feel worse, I do basically nothing nowadays. The words the psychiatrist used were severe and medication resistant.
>>29834639
>>29834708
>>29834735
JEW PILL SHILLS
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SHILLS FOR THE JEW PILLS
>>29834735
The partial hospitalization program I went to focused on ACT and DBT. I fucking hated that shit, it was infantilizing. I quit and started getting high again, and I don't even regret it.
>>29834784
Fuck off. Medication has helped me a lot.
>>29834784
You are harmful and toxic. These people are being helped.
Go be schizophrenic somewhere else
>>29828739
the only anti depressant I need is more money but you goys go ahead enjoy being experimented on
>>29834808
I already know that money doesn't make me happy. All I do is spend it on drugs, binge, and feel even worse when I sober up in the hospital.
Not that that will ever stop me.
>>29828739
I don't know if I have a mental illness (ADD, but that shit is normie-tier) but I have these very bad moments of the worst embarrassment of all time. And it's for extremely autistic shit as well. I'll give you an example.
>be me at the supermarket
>buy my 15 or so groceries, no problem
>go to self checkout machine because I'm socially retarded
>everything is going well
>machine breaks halfway through
>girl from the store walks up to me and tries to fix the machine
>says she can't fix it and she will just get my stuff at the express lane right by the self checkout
>recognize girl, went to my high school
>stand there with wide eyes for 10 seconds
>"sir? I can get you over here"
>literally just fucking walk out of the store without my stuff and drive off
And I never let myself love that shit down. Anytime I go to that grocery store or one of the same brand, then I remember that situation and immediately just get a massive wave of embarrassment and can't let go of it.
>>29834920
Advice stop tiering your mental illness.
Schizoid Personality here.
Indifferent t b h
>>29834943
I'm saying in the sense of ADD is nothing compared to what some people have. The only problems that come from that is that I forget shit if I don't take Vyvanse in the morning. Some people have really bad mental illness that need serious treatment and I jut forget shit from time to time.
>>29835115
I love how people pretend that amphetamines somehow only help people with ADD function better.
>>29835127
I didn't say that. I said I take it to make me not forget shit.
>>29835150
I wasn't accusing you of saying that, I was saying that the medical profession says that. I'm basically just mad that you get Vyvanse and I don't.
>>29835190
Oh, my bad, I thought you were accusing me. Yeah I do feel you on that. It's under the "controlled substance" list so it's very hard to get unless a psychiatrist prescribes it to you. It does help with more than add though, I feel better in general too after taking it.
>>29835115
It's all a spectrum. Severe ADHD kids are non-functional and missing portions of the prefrontal lobe.
stop tiering these things. It's stupid
>>29835127
I got Focalin as well as two years of eye therapy (ADHD was affecting my motion tracking and eye sight)
My doc didn't think Meds were the only solution
>>29835231
>>29835245
The point is that psychostimulants will make pretty much everyone function better in the right quantities. There's a reason everyone ran on that shit during WW2, and people like Hitler and JFK got speed shots constantly.
>>29835245
I'm not ADHD. I don't have hyperactivity, if anything the opposite. ADD means you just have a problem with remembering shit
>>29835335
It's not ADD anymore lad.
It's ADHD-PI, ADHD-PH or ADHD-C
You're likely PI (Primarily Inattentive)
>>29835359
Ok, well then I am ADHD-PI, which, correct me if I'm wrong, is not much compared to the other two. The "normie tier" labeling was merely a joke, I understand that mental illness is mental illness, but some is worse than others.
Just got out after another suicide attempt. Living with my parents for now because they're worried I'll try again if I go home. Snuck out to the liquor store last night so I'm going to get drunk today.
Schizophrenic reporting in.
I like living t b h
Anxiety and Depression
been on sertraline for a month and I dont really feel better, actually feel even less motivated to do anything.
anyone experienced with sertraline got some tips?
>>29835499
As far as Zoloft goes, if you don't have an uncontrollable urge to kill yourself, you're not doing too badly.
>>29835527
does it get better tho? got frequent mild headaches and aint feeling these pills helping me, should I leave these pills or switch them or talk to my doctor or wait or what? I knew that they are not going to change the way I feel about myself (aka massive fucking failure) but I hoped they would at least help me push through the day.
>>29828739
I recently came back from a couple days ago.
Boy what a mistake.
I reached out to get help for once in my life hoping that things would work out for the better for once in my life instead of the usual of getting worse.
I'm not wrong for thinking that I could reach out and get help but I'm wrong for trying.
I'm an idiot.
I knew I wouldn't get help but I tried anyway knowing full well id fail.
"Talk to us instead of calling a mental help line or the police."
>a few seconds later
"Don't say that or you'll have to go back"
Donald Trump pls.
>>29835587
Honestly, I have no clue. I was only on it for like 3 days before we decided to get rid of it and double down on Wellbutrin. Talk to your doctor if you aren't satisfied, it's their job to try to find a medication or mix of medications which help. Some ideas could be to add another antidepressant which functions differently like Wellbutrin, increase the dose, or switch to another med/combo.
Suspected AvPD here. Currently waiting to see a psychologist for a psych evaluation, but that is expected to take 3-4 months. I don't mind waiting. The bad part is knowing I have to go to actually receive a diagnosis later on. I tried going once before but entered a panicking state once I was there, so I lied to them and acted like nothing was wrong with me. Then I said I was probably just wasting their time and just walked out after apologizing.
I ran home that day.
>>29828739
High functioning ASD, formerly known as aspergers
I was diagnosed at 6 but my parents didn't tell me until a month ago. It explains so much.
Just clinical depression and anxiety.
SSRI side-effects sound fucking horrible and my last two attempts at CBT went abysmally thanks to the people I was seeing not listening to anything I was saying and only hearing what they wanted to hear. Now I'm just waiting out the clock until my fear of death is overcome.
For some reason the depression and trauma has made me very prone to fits of rage so maybe I might be able to go Supreme Gentleman.
I promise that if I do, I'll wear a shirt with anime titties on it so you know it's me.
Psych and therapist think I'm in the prodromal phase of schizophrenia
Any schizo's lurking? I need advice.
Who else PTSD here?
>>29835686
Holy fuck I know that feel.
>First doctor in hospital I saw told me to hurry and make it quick because she was going on her break soon (this was when she knew I was there because I'd tried to commit suicide that morning).
>They couldn't work out where to put me, I got driven back and forth between three different hospitals in the same city for 6 hours because they'd drop me off at one and the paperwork would be wrong and they'd take me somewhere else.
>Didn't get told anything when I finally made it inside, I just got shown my room and the shower and got left there. I had no idea what I had to do and none of the nurses could tell me what was meant to be happening from there.
>Got locked out in the psych ward courtyard at night accidentally (the doors locked automatically after six) and the staff couldn't find me, even though I was standing in front of three fucking security cameras. Luckily one of patients who was non-verbal saw me and dragged one of the nurses to the door to unlock it for me. He was a top bloke.
>Indian cunt of a doctor stormed out of the session because I accused the level of mental health support I had gotten to be as useful as an AIDS lollipop.
I admitted myself voluntarily because I wanted help but after the Indian cunt started yelling at me, I went to one of the other psych people and told them I was ready to leave and that I just needed to "be myself". That was about a year ago and I haven't tried reaching out for help since. Considering my terrible experience I had with Headspace (Australian free mental health support for under 25) the year before that, I don't think I will again.
My depression has gotten so much worse over the past month (to the point where I'm crying daily instead of just holding it inside where it just makes my chest hurt) but every time I think about getting help I remember how I was treated and it make me angry so I just keep it to myself.
I'm starting to seriously plan my suicide now.
Exit bag seems perfect.
>>29837994
cut off contact and stop giving them money
>>29838058
I heard this is the easiest and most secure way of getting autismbux, easy to prove or bullshit, but no one will take you seriously if you weren't in the military or weren't deployed to a war zone. Can you comment on that?
>>29838058
what do you have ptsd from?
>>29838861
Dunno, I wasn't in the military so I haven't bothered. Probably wouldn't be easy if you haven't been in combat even if you've been diagnosed
>>29838912
assault
>>29838807
Sounds like terrible advice.
>>29838058
What symptoms did you have to lead them to that conclusion?
>>29840007
unable to sleep at night, flashbacks, difficulty being in crowds, random panic attacks during the evenings into the night amongst other things. It took around 2-3 months of regular check ups for them to diagnose it. I've been medicated for it and I go to regular therapy but not too much has changed. I can never actually go to sleep now unless the sun is up. I'm lucky to work from home so I'm able to do that.
>>29840075
I've been having visual hallucinations along with a lot of paranoia, lack of motivation and stuff. Hope I'm not becoming schizo. Hope things work out for you anon,
>>29839672
fuck you jew pill shill cuck
>>29840125
Does it run in your family at all? If not, maybe you could be dehydrated on top of anxious. I hope things work out for you as well, anon. Things slowly get better/more manageable
>>29840147
You're right dood. Schizo's are just enlightened beings.
Teach me to use buzzwords, master
>>29840167
I don't know, my grandparents on my mothers side were crazy and died before I was born so I don't know what exactly was up with them.
>>29828739
Only normies talk to doctors.
>>29840075
EMDR is the recommended treatment for PTSD, has this been discussed with you?
>>29834948
>only one fucking schizoid
Very blatant OCPD, nearly unnoticeable OCD (obsession is needing something and not having it, compulsion is halfway between normal people and hoarders, and I'm a checker), Schizoid Personality, and certain sounds send me into a blind rage.
How do I cope with all my anger and anxiety? People always ruin my perfect order and schedules.
