FEELS THREAD my fellow suicidal bastards
>>29824489
glad i get to read this again even though it's completely delusional and has nothing to do with ordinary reality
I'm here with you, Anon. Let's share some feels.
>My sides when Life's absurdity actually becomes comical
HOW THE FUCK COULD ANYONE TAKE LIFE SERIOUSLY
>>29824515
FOCK IU!
>>29824539
No matter how funny it gets. You either laugh about it and probably end up crazy or get sad about it... Dead end both ways.
some vintage feels and despair right here
>>29824489
>omg normies are fit because they're rich and i'm fat bcuz i was poor and had traumas!!
Dropped, thought it would be a decent read but its just another fucking moron blaming the world for his problems. I was poor, actually live in Mexico, my dad would beat the shit out of me when i was a kid and still i'm fit.
>>29824539
This feel I know
Sometimes I think my life is some kind of cosmic joke
>>29824489
holy shit this guy blames all his problems on anyone but him self. Newsflash normal people don't think about you at all. they dont feel guilty.
>>29824933
>I was poor, actually live in Mexico, my dad would beat the shit out of me when i was a kid and still i'm fit.
If you still managed to have friends / peers to go to the gym with, you're a normie
>>29824991
>Newsflash normal people don't think about you at all. they dont feel guilty.
That's why he's alone. Nobody gives a shit about him
>>29825010
>needing people to go to the gym with
you're there to exercise, not socialize, fat ass
>>29825010
I don't go to the gym i do BJJ and me and my brother started going together and still do.
Even if OP is shit, this can still be a good feels thread
Let's just get back to feeling, ok guys?
>>29825055
more feels
sadness is sad
>>29825033
>Implying you don't need social support to keep working out
>>29825111
i can't tell if you're actually retarded so i'll just say stay fat friendo
/r9k/ has no feels anymore, I don't feel like I belong here anymore, yet I can't leave. I think suicide is the only way out of here.
tHIS FUCKING PLACE HAS BECOME NORMIEVILLE!! REEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!!!
>>29825181
i feel the same way
It's Friday night and we can't even have a good feels thread
What went wrong?
I blame the constant invasion of /pol/ and fembots, who are both shitting up r9k in different ways
>>29825181
>>29825227
I've got you covered. I'll bring more.
>>29825227
Fembots don't exist as girls can't be robots.
And I don't know who's to blame, but to me it doesn't really matters, I just want to leave this place forever.
>>29825261
Thank you anon
oreganodsf
>>29825181
>>29825227
>>29825261
>>29825279
It's been a while since I've seen a feels thread on r9k.
wegsdgsqwrqwr
I wrote a big feelsy post last thread but I have no motivation any more. I am just tired.
Original one for tonight.
>Go to college naive as fuck, think by smoking pot, drinking, and being as outgoing as possible Ill make friends
>Two old high school "friends" invite me out, I cant hold my liquor, ruin the night
>Semester passes, smoking more pot, people talk less to me
>Only "friends" are other druggies who just use me to light up, I know this, and everytime they patronize me with "hey buddy how you doing?" I just go along with it, because I didn't want to go back to being alone
>Eventually drop out spring semester, parents put their hopes on me since other brothers were 30+ year old dropouts living at home, one with his wife
>Call me useless shit druggie, father tells me he wants to kill himself, I spend the next two years in and out of psych wards trying to find out what is wrong with me
>Beyond literal autism its anxiety, so bad that I dissociate all the time and dont remember stuff daily
I got a notice today guys. The ambulance that brought me to the ER after the suicide attempt, their doctors are sending my $700 bill to a collection agency. My financial aid was also cut because I was almost homeless, had to move out of state into a family friends house, and so the original state said no aid.
I cant hold a job but I know how to kill myself at least. The last helium tank had a bit of oxygen. Im such an idiot. But its OK because I know where to get them without oxygen now.
Its gonna be OK.
I wonder if God will let me be a classical guitarist in heaven if he lets me in. I really wanted to play and learn about it in school. I'll let you know how Elliot is doing, send some signs.
>>29825423
Well, thanks for what you posted here
roegk
>>29824840
>"to the senior who bought it for me, I'm sorry I let it go to waste. You probably should have bought it for her instead."
>"I bought a bottle of wine when I was a freshman in college"
What did he mean by this?
>>29825503
Save me a spot, space robot
>>29825503
Catch you on the other side.
I keep applying to jobs and barely hear anything back, I got four rejections today. four, that was so demoralizing. I know I am going to end having to move home again and rot away at my moms house. drinking heavily right now.
>>29825547
People under 21 can't buy booze in the US
He had to have a senior buy it for him
I've been up for about 72 hours straight now. Wanted to see what it does for depression. Surprisingly, I don't feel depressed anymore, but I don't feel anything tbqh
No sex drive, no sadness, I just havent cared about anything except r9k since the 48 hour mark.
Feels good....for now.
>>29825730
At least they had the common decency to tell you, most jobs that rejected me never told me shit.
You can do it anon, I believe in you.
>>29825970
Goddamn
A robot might just have discovered the cure for depression
Unrelated: does anyone else feel like they never had a chance?
>weird, mean family where I never connected with any family members
>shitty hearing that obstructs every single conversation
>extremely unattractive and weird looking - i have to get surgery to fix my jaw because it grew in wrong
>extremely short
>weird circulatory problems that prevent me from living a remotely active life style - i maintain a healthy weight, but i can almost never exercise or do anything fun
>family history of and genetic predisposition towards anxiety and depression
I feel like I was born to be a robot
>>29825970
Yes, I would imagine your body would disengage from emotions when it is screaming at you for rest.
>>29826005
I had my chances, but I was emotionally immature up until after I graduated college and therefore fucked up every chance I had.
Now I am 35 and haven't had a gf in 12 years and try my best to block out everything from my young adulthood.
>>29826024
It really isn't at this point.
Seems to come in 5 hour intervals.
I can focus almost as well as I usually do.
Does anyone have the picture of a guy and a girl and the guy says to the girl, "Even though nothing I do is right and I'm not perfect, will you promise to never leave me?"
The thing that gets me is that you can try all you fucking can to explain your depression to normies and they'll still go "but why?" while thinking you can be positive with a flick of a switch.
Then you repeat yourself while going into more detail.
>"but why? just be positive!"
It never fucking ends.
Anyone else here /losthisgrandpa/? Mine lost the battle against cancer last year. While my mom was single with me, she worked her ass to the bone and gave me to my grandparents, so gramps was basically like the father I never had.
I miss you, please come back.
>>29826335
meant to quote >>29825397
originalm something
>>29825503
I love you Anon, I hope you can find the peace you so sorely seek. Whatever happens.
>>29825261
Fuck why did I come to this thread, to feel worse?
>>29826335
>>29826352
We have to be patient, they just can't understand.
>>29826750
I don't know either... Maybe this just lets us know that we're not alone.
I'm worried I've fallen back into major depression.
I won't go through the trouble of trying to explain why, it wouldn't make much of a difference and it's also difficult to pinpoint any particular reason. Perhaps I was never actually better to begin with and I was only pretending well enough to fool myself, but no longer.
I return to this board, this lonely and miserable party where the guests all come to die or watch from a relatively safe distance. I've given up on suicide, since my last attempts were unsuccessful. The world is keeping me around though these fleeting days which bleed together. I will oblige and wait until something cool happens to me or shit finally hits the fan.
This sympathetic and woeful lurker bids you all goodnight, perhaps our dreams will bring us ease to out suffering.
>some shitsuckin nigga call me up
>gets my dick hard
>got my piece right here
>mfw when that mothafucka ain't gonna meet me somewhere
>mfw he don't even gimme an address
>>29825503
Sounds like you should get a guitar if you have any cash.
>>29825503
Save a space for me. Maybe I can bring my flute.
>spent highschool writing bullshit greentexts on r9k
>think I have a talent for writing
>take up a year of creative writing and classic literature in a community college
>get told I write like an emo highschool girl
I still don't know if it's a compliment or not
>>29827183
MEET ME SUM WHERE
MEET ME SUM WHERE
MEET ME SUM WHERE
MEET ME SUM WHERE
>>29825503
Anon if you do do it, can you please ask God why L got to screw up J's life and got away with it Without any repercussions? He'll know who wrote this.....
>>29825181
>>29825503
Femanon here. Please, before any of you try to kill yourself, listen to my message first:
http://i.4cdn.org/gif/1467790450641.webm
Good luck. <3
>>29828804
Did you really expect me to listen to that whole thing?
>>29826344
Sorry about the loss, anon. I don't quite know /losthisgrandpa/, but I'm going through /losinghisgrandpa/ which hurts pretty bad as well.
My grandma passed away a year ago and she was pretty much his entire life (he spent his entire life working and being with his family so all he really had in his house was her to take care of) and with her gone, he's slowly starting to slip further into old age. He doesn't find anything fun anymore, his body is starting to give out more often, he's always tired, and most notably his memory is turning to shit.
I lived with him over the past month while looking for my own place and this one time he turned to speak to me, paused, and just sighed "I forgot what I was going to say" with the saddest look in his eyes.
Spend time with your gramps and grams, robots.
In all honesty, I would really like to not feel like this anymore.
That's the main reason I spend so much time thinking about suicide.
I just want it to stop.
>>29828804
This is a feels thread not a cringe thread.
Wow not original
>>29825503
>suicide
>getting into heaven
I got news for you buddy
>tfw my religion stops me from killing myself despite the fact that my life is nightmare mode
>>29825503
May peace be forever with you anon. Good luck and hope you find the solace that you seek.
>>29828804
do you find meaning in posting this cringe?
>>29829843
literally me
I'm scared of killing myself cause I'm sure I'll go to hell and suffer eternally, so I can't. It'd be like jumping into a fir that burns forever, and I stay there forever, and never die. Only worse.
>inb4 some stupid anon says "hell can't possibly be worse than this nightmare of a life"
Anyone who says that is stupid. Hell is a place where people suffer the worst pain imaginable, positive emotions don't fucking exist in hell.
Imagine constant searing physical pain along with constant sadness, anger, disappointment, confusion, all the bad stuff. And it lasts forever.
I've never been to hell so I wouldn't know what it's like, but my guess is that it's something like that. Hell is LITERALLY the worst thing/place/whatever possible, for all of eternity.
Any religious person who believes that they'll go to hell and they're okay with it is a fucking idiot and they need to fix it.
>>29830534
well hell doesn't exist so
>>29830789
unlike the loud minority of christians who try and force their religion down others' throats, I accept that others have different opinions than mine, and you're free to believe in whatever the fuck you want. Just don't go forcing your atheism down my throat. I'll keep believing whatever I want to, and you can keep believing whatever you want to, and we can all be happy and rainbow-colored.
>>29824489
This is so depressing. Please someone debunk it and restore my faith in humanity. :(
>clinically depressed for 10 years
>social skills suck, haven't made a friend in 8 years
>i feel nothing, i haven't had a genuine laugh in 5 years
>i really want a girlfriend
>by a fucking MIRACLE i manage to go on a date with cute girl i met on the internet, we almost instantly clicked, ended the date by making out
>i felt nothing and i still feel nothing
is this a confirmation that i should kill myself?
I don't want to live anymore
why bother jumping through hoops for other people when they don't give a shit about you
