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>outcast among outcasts
>>29819515
Your thread was not overlooked, robot
>tfw can't make friends but can easily talk to people
>tfw tons of acquaintances
>tfw cyborg
>5'1" Male
>Autistic
>NEET
>Gay
>Lung cancer
>Deforned face
>>29819515
>tfw you get drunk and make a brutally honest post in a fetish thread about what you're into and over half a dozen people tell you to kill yourself, that you're a monster, etc.
>>29821174
Does your fetish by chance involve causing other people to suffer in order to gratify yourself?
>>29821207
Yes
shameblox
>>29821275
the worst thing you can do to someone is hurt them
For our immortal souls, with eternity to spare, no loss is permanent, and no wound is too deep to heal,
and so the worst thing that could ever happen to us is to suffer
So as we continue to suffer, and as we continue to hurt those who hurt us, we should wonder if perhaps maybe we might possibly deserve what we got
Oh if only I had the courage to forget my past, and forget my pain, then perhaps I could find a way to be done with this anger, which has caused me to harm so many souls caught in the way
If only I could forget my suffering, then I could forgive anyone
>>29821174
what's ur fetish ?
>>29821464
I'm a little drunk so I may be misunderstanding this, so let me try to clarify:
>the worst thing that could ever happen to us is to suffer
>So as we continue to suffer
>we should wonder if perhaps maybe we might possibly deserve what we got
This makes no fucking sense. Because I'm suffering- the worst thing possible- I deserve to suffer when that suffering results in me inflicting pain on others? What the fuck?
>>29821623Torturing, mutilating and killing someone before making love to their corpse. With some more mutilation after death.I know it's fucked up and I hate it, but it's what I'm stuck with, I didn't choose to have to live with it. And I haven't hurt anyone in a very long time, and needless to say I haven't killed anyone to fuck their corpse. I am still apparently the devil and a menace to society, though.
>>29821718
well of course people will think that. Unless you've actually acted upon the urges then I don't think you're a monster.
also "in a very long time, " ...... anon what up ?
>too autist to be a normie
>too normie to be a full robot
>too autist to qualify as a failed normie
>too autist to qualify as a cyborg
i dont know what i am. nu-autist maybe?
>>29821753When I was a teenager and very young adult I was suffering from unmedicated bipolar disorder and OCD and during my manic episodes I would sometimes hurt other people.My inhibitions were nonexistent because of the mania. I was suffering from extremely strong obsessions/fixations with death and compulsions relating to acting on them, and I had the energy and motivation to act on the urges that were plaguing me night and day.I regret it horribly and would take back everything that I did in an instant if I could, but I can't go back in time and change the past. I know that being mentally ill isn't an excuse, that I could have tried to tell someone and been locked up somewhere where I couldn't have hurt anyone. At the time I was so delusional and paranoid that I thought I'd be killed or locked up forever if I tried to get help, so I hid it to the best of my abilities for years until it finally was impossible to keep to myself. Since then I've gotten proper mental health care, been put on the right meds, and it's been nearly 7 years now since I last did anything. Still fucking haunts me though.
>>29821759
Im in the same boat, I just consider myself a failure
>the only person I consider a real friend last texted me four months ago
