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Post whatever is in your sad folder, and why you are sad tonight
this comment may or may not be original, who knows?
People appreciate how compassionate I can be and my ability to earn money, but as soon as I do anything that reminds them I'm imperfect, they hate me.
I just wish people would want me for who I am, not what I am.
.dewolla ton era stsop sseltxeT
If you die in real life you dont necessarily die in a dream.
>>29813767
What kind of work do you do?
And who are these people? Family?
>>29813866
Working at Target over the summer while off from uni. While in school it's not as bad because I'm going to school across the country so I can generally avoid people easier since I'm less known at my college.
The people I'm referring to are everyone I become close to, really. As soon as I care for anyone, they expect me to always be there for them, doing whatever they may need. I'm a very caring person and take care of those closest to me, what can I say? But with family, they don't appreciate me at all unless I'm seen not heard. Friends, they're all normies and have others besides me; they only need me when I'm the only person they can talk to. Girls; they like me for my looks (7.5/10 here), affection, and willingness to serve. But when I want anything for myself, they leave me.
I wish I could find someone who would accept and care for me the same way I'd care for them, despite my and their imperfections. I'm not asking for someone to be flawless or angelic, just someone who can be there for me the same way I'm there for everyone else. Only 19 but I already feel that I'm gonna spend my life alone.
>>29813964
It's way too early to give up.
Just stop caring about all the normies and try to pick out 2 or 3 close friends. And if nobody is there for you, just stop giving a shit.
>>29814031
Thanks for the advice, doesn't sound easy but I see the good in what you're saying. Feels good to talk about it.
>apply for comfy horticulturist position
>best interview of my life even though I was sick
>we all laughed and had tea
>say they're definitely going to call me for a training day Friday or Monday
>Both days pass and I follow up but they assure me they're going to call back
>Never do
It doesn't hurt so bad when false hope proves to be false. But there is no greater pain than having genuine hope stolen from you.
>>29814080
I know the feel, but don't let it get you down too much, there still may be a chance. How long ago did this happen? Maybe you could contact them and try to make it work.
>>29814055
I'll be here all night
Also, why don't you just try to find friends at college? It's worth a shot
>>29814080
Companys can be cruel.
Why is it that you love such a strange hobby?
>>29814031
When we're little we're stupid naive little shits who have no idea about the meaning of effort and sacrifice.
Athelete and arts kids are the exception.
>>29814160
Plants are aesthetic and help whatever environment they're in!
>>29813964
Look here uni kid. Nobody will give you space if you don't assert yourself. Everything is a test of boundaries. The more you give up, the more people will encroach. You are afraid of being rejected for not complying, which is a very common thought mistake among inexperienced people. People will only respect those who are perceived to have value. So go make something of yourself.
>>29814160
I actually have made a few friends at college, but no one close. Whenever people want to talk with me about personal problems, they regret it shortly after we start, so I've gotten used to keeping stuff like that to myself. Lots of acquaintances, but no good friends, you know? Having a single dorm (no roommate) doesn't help much, but I can hardly call that an issue, I highly prefer having my own place.
The only time I really feel like I've belonged in college is playing sm4sh with some guys in the school's game room. I'm probably middle of the road in skill compared to everyone else there, so there's a decent mix of winning and losing, which I don't mind. I just wish I could connect in ways outside of vidya, you know?
>>29814217
Plants are pretty comfy, you're right
What's your favourite?
>>29814291
And what's with the guys you played with? I founf some really close friends of mine through gaming myself.
>>29814291
>personal problems
When normies talk about "personal problems", they mean how you get black out drunk, or how you missed the chance to fuck that hoe.
Normies don't want to hear about your tortured soul poetry. Because it's boring to listen to even if you feel so genuine and deep (protip, feeling sad is neither unique nor deep)..
>>29814338
Nothing's wrong with the guys I've played with, they're really cool actually. I just don't know what people would think of me if they knew of some of the personal issues in my past, and I don't want to ruin good friendships while I have them.
Maybe I really should just take a risk on it. Who knows, I've got another month and a half to mill over things in my head before going back.
>>29814431
Not trying to be unique or deep desu, just being honest. Simply put, I think I'm just unable to connect to that demographic of people in any way, which may sound like an obvious statement, but sometimes it's not that clear irl.
>>29814469
If you think you have major issues, talking to normies is not going to help. It's your responsibility to sort it out with the help of professionals if you don't want to be held back by your past.
If you can't afford professional help because if insurance bla bla, then HAHA AMERIKEK.
>>29814438
Then don't?
You don't need to weigh your problems on them.
>>29814591
Don't need to, but you'd be lying if you tried to tell me you find human interaction meaningless. We all crave some form of belonging, it's in our nature; thus, recognizing this, I actively seek acceptance (albeit in small ways) before I allow myself to fall into NEETdom.
pls give me sad nostalgiafag music to listen to
i'm drunk and I wnt to cry to something
>>29814704
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=4NZdggNUvq0&ab_channel=MaxenceCyrin
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=g_AvtwmNiGM&ab_channel=AmitabhaBuddha
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ppzTFgwZxhc&ab_channel=BTYBStudios
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=aDY8_LeWKZc&ab_channel=IfsanLukman
>>29814291
What 'personal problems' are you even talking about? Are they really too weird to be undersood by normies?
>>29814031
>groin surgeon
Wut.
>>29813717
well yes, but not the great times. that never happened
>>29814771
>sexually abused by older brother growing up
>verbally abused by both parents
>physically abused by stepdad until he left my life
>robot life in middle school and high school
>failed suicide
>>29814829
Okay, I shouldn't have made any conclusions before hearing that, that sounds more rough than I expected. Could I ask some more questions for context?
In what manner did you explain people about this? How did they react? How would you want them to react?
>>29814518
Those professionals are actually useless morons. I'd rather spend my money on good food, which is a far better therapy than what you get with any old shrink
feelie feel feels
>>29814932
Well it's not like I'd just start rambling about this stuff. If the conversation steered itself in a direction where something could be brought up and I mention being able to understand or relate to something, people ask why. So I explain softly why, then they ask for details or to go in depth, then I tell them about this stuff in depth and they get scared off.
I guess I can't blame them. Not having any issues like these (which I would imagine is the case for most normies) means they just don't want to hear about it since it'll get them down. At the end of the day, it'd just be nice to talk to someone who wants to help me figure out why these things happened and what I can do about it to maybe make amends.
I'm not looking for pity, just true empathy and concern.
This will only make sense if you watch rick and morty, but it's still sad.
What was your dreamif you ever had one?
>>29815253
I don't have dreams.
I worked at a place once and someone asked me what I liked to do. I literally had no answer
>>29815253
The question is often not why but how.
>>29815253
No real, concrete dreams that could be achieved.
Only power beyond human capability and the freedom given by it as well as the ability to make an actual difference in this world, with nobody being able to stand in my way or corrupt my work so long as I breathe. The material of daydreams.
>>29815084
He would die
>>29815058
All of that sounds very reasonable to me. It almost seems to me like you just talk about it to the wrong people. I mean, if people really cared about you as more than just an acquaintances, they be patient enough to help you. I feels kind of douchey to say you might not have any real close friends, I hope you do, but I don't think you do if nobody wants to talk about your past. You could always try theraphy, buy considering your situation you probably have already? Idk. Godspeed anyway.
Oh, and one last thing: I have met more than a few normies with stories about rape or abuse by parents, and I'm not even close with most of those normies. So I don't really think talking about this is really taboo or anything, I only think you should do it with the right people.
>>29815253
When I was a little kid I dreamed about being isolated playing videogames and no one bothering me ever. Halfway there
Everything man has built is oppressive to me, like a prison. Blocks upon blocks of homes lined up next to each other, with everyone caring for their lawns and putting the garbage out at the same time. Neighbours death staring you as you walk outside. The feeling of being watched, wherever you go. Living in cramped apartment buildings where you can hear people through the walls, they're all around you, the walls have ears, can't even play an instrument. Driving down roads which only go in one direction, as if everything you see: mountains, trees, hills, green grass is nothing but a painted picture, something you will never explore and never feel with your hands just a painted landmark you drive past. Sitting in traffic amongst hundreds of other cars, with people performing their best act, maintaining their image of being in control and strong and powerful, even posing with their faces and reacting in a rehearsed way which has become normal for them so they forget who they are. Having no escape from society, resorting to fantasy and make believe to stop you from killing yourself. Campsites which have restrictions, and so much natural land which is owned that you can't physically walk in a single direction unless you want to pass fences and through peoples homes. Not even being allowed to sleep in a small tent on the side of the road because it's dangerous but driving in a car going 110km per hour is perfectly fine.
>>29815546
This is a late reply, but thanks for the kind words. Have tried therapy and it didn't help much, but it was a start. I'll take everything you've said into consideration, you've been too kind and it's really uplifting to read something like this actually :)
I haven't posted in /r9k/ for at least three years give or take. But tonight I needed to talk to someone and you guys are all I've got right now.
>University Student
>In a degree I enjoy
>In a prestigious university in my country
>The normies around me aren't as bad as they used to be in highschool
>Possibly because its IT a lot of these faggots are tolerant of autismos because a lot of them suffer the tism
>Seriously fat guy in my classes with a sharingan ring fucking why
>The only friends I've ever cared about are people I met online 12 years ago
>That's the case because I grew up in an abusive household and developed Schizoid Personality Disorder
>I cannot form bonds with other people even when I give it a shot, usually due to external motivation
>Usually I'm not even motivated to try because I don't see any point in it
>Feel nothing and mirror the behavior of others while in uni to have a pleasant work environment.
>Play MMO with one of my friends
>He's also got the tismAnd he's a Wizard
>He has shittons of friends in this MMO which I have no idea how he manages to make
>I can't make a single lasting friend, not even online
>Tonight they're all off doing their own shit
>I'm alone and have no one to talk to
>Feeling empty inside for the past 5 hours
You don't want to know this feel /r9k/.
>>29813717
I wish I'd be able to go back just for a day.
>>29815253
my only dream by now is getting some distance from my life. I often feel like I should just run away but then I don't do it because I know I wouldn't be happy if I'd do. On the other hand I'm not gonna be happy if I just stay. It's late I'm drunk and I can't find a fuck to give about writing correctly.
>>29818014
Worst part is I know that feel.
>>29813649
I'm feeling sad these days thinking about how fucking robbed we all got to live in this era.
I know technology is making the world a better place and violence is at an all time low and all this other shit, but I can't help but feel like this "progress" should have stopped a long time ago. Like maybe millennia.
The ancient Hawaiians had a tiered system where they planted crops at the top of mountains where the volcanic soil absorbed a great deal of water, then planted lower crops at the base of the mountains, and then maintained fisheries in the little bays and saltwater inlets at the very base of their island. When it rained all the crops and fish would get nutrients, and there were many generations for whom this was just life. Four hour workday half the year, zero hour workday the other half. The rest of your time you can relax, enjoy some music or surfing or whatever the fuck their leisure activities were. Of course there were times of scarcity and wars, but think of the thousands of people who's entire lives were spent eating fruit and fish, enjoying each other's company, developing and enjoying culture, etc.
It's so peaceful and beautiful. I bet every single one of you's early sexual discoveries involve the internet and pornography, we're working so damn hard all the time, and none of the pleasures of nature are available to us. Especially if we're in cities, another disgusting modern invention.
Our ancestors saw enough value in the world to fight and risk their lives in stuff like revolutionary wars, to explore the west, and to take great risks for love and friendship. Nowadays I couldn't be fucked to sacrifice anything for my country, my community, a girl, or my friends.
IDK guys, it all feels so hollow. Humans didn't evolve fast enough to keep up with technology and enjoy the modern world.
>>29818322
Just think about how your ancestors probably discovered things sexually, most likely with a real woman in an isolated area. Something they felt proud of, maybe they felt love. We just jacked off to computer screens, professionals were performing sex so we could get over our dumb biological needs and get back to work. It hurts me.
>>29818359
>tfw you're disappointment to all your ancestors who survived through wars and famines.
>>29818405
They probably had more fun and enjoyed life more than me regardless. At least their risks were real, what the fuck do I have that I've worked for? nothing.
What women have I wooed, seduced, or competed for? None. I just swipe right, drop some dumbass pickup lines, and have empty sex. say bye, never seeing her again.
What do I eat that I contributed to making? Nothing. I just microwave some food, go out to eat, or prepare some fuckin chicken and veggies that I bought pregrown and prepped at the store.
It's all so empty. We were meant to be farmers living a slow, occasionally labor-filled life for tangible rewards. Everything got too abstract too quickly.
I know I"m romanticizing the past, but I think modern ennui is the worst shit that could've happened to humans.
>>29818405
Progress just makes our lives more and more miserable every second without giving us anything to complain about.
