Green text your life simply as possible
>born with a broken jaw
>couldnt talk until I was 5
>speech therapy untill I was 11
>1 or 2 friends at infant school
>bullied to the point of broken bones and blood just because I had a weird face
>struggle to go day to day
>teachers hated and bullied me
>7 years old
>best and only friend dies in his sleep and since then I have not been able to share a bed in fear the person next to me will not wake up
>Deep insomnia since that age in fear I will die if I sleep
>0 friends and still bullied
>8 years old
>have a massive reconstruction surgery on my jaw
>Look like a monster for the next few years
>went from fairly out going and fit to not being able to leave my bedroom as I had to recover
>change schools at 11
>have a few friends
>most people cant understand my speech still
>get into countless fights and have my jaw broken in one of them
>at 14 get a girlfriend for 3 weeks
>it was so she could claim she dated a goth with a fucked up face who was really deep man
>start having serious mental health issues
>keep it to my self, want to die at all times
>face is kinda better now
>0 friends at college
>just got reported to the college as a potential threat to peoples safety or my own
I want to die, I wish it was me who died not my friend, everyone who doesnt hate me just thinks I am weird
I left out things like heckling and being fun out off as I was trying to keep key points
>>29775857
What is that quiz called btw?
>>29775956
>wait for a reply
>got one
>its asking for sauce
I dont remember sorry
>>29775857
>born to a mysterious workholic dad and shy mother.
>moved to the us in 2001
>parents constantly argued
>dad worked all day and rarely came home
>dad and mom separate
>me being autistic has no idea whats going on and is in general scared as fuck of dad
>instills a fear of talking to others after he yells at me
>live with mom
>live in poverty because she can't get a job and has never had to work
>Gets a job
>goes to jail because she was suicidal
>live in a foster home with niggers
>7/10, lived fairly well off for 2 years but was still quiet as fuck. Lived in the same neighborhood i was raised in
>5th grade, gets a boner from boobgirl
>mom gets out of jail and buys a home
>despite having a degree, cant get job
>Go to a technical middle school
>got shit grades but made friends
>discovered the internet and made me happy for once
>Got bullied by a group of niggers and eventually got detention
>Left detention with a new friend
>hung out quite a lot
>Never get a girlfriend in middle despite wanting
>turn into myself and masturbate furiously
>go to high school, reach manic depression levels
>rarely talk to anyone else
>have mental health issues
>make only 1 friend
>get kicked out of high school because it was for smartasses and instead go to navy school
>get kicked out of navy high school for a public threat
>go to my 3rd high school (junior, senior year)
>Principal, teachers and security officer interview me to make sure i don't make anotherr threat
>mom begs them to let me finish high here
>they allow it
>stay low for the next 2 years
>still get shit grades but manage to make internships and get a scholarship for college
>Go to college
>drop out 1st semester
>mom loses her shit and starts yelling at me whenever i come home
>marries step-dad
>have to deal with his adhd son
>parents tell me to either move or go back to college
>join the navy to get out
>still unstable. Spend my entire life just browsing the net and exercising
Shit man if that's true that's depressing as fuck. People can be pretty shitty.
>>29776152
who you quoting fella?
>>29776134
A trend among robots is being bullied and then being a public threat lol
But that sucks, depending on how old you are I am pretty sure you can still make it, you are decently educated I guess
>>29776134
one correction: i haven't left for bootcamp in the navy yet. I will in about 8 months so till then, i have to work out.
>>29776200
It was meant for OP's greentext but the greentext above my comment was sad too. I think my inner f eels would be perfectly represented by Wojak right now.
>>29775857
Hang in there man. Life is cruel but I have hope for you OP.
Please anons post your stories I am thinking of making a collection like a book so we can see each other and see trends
>be born
>have no memories of anything past junior year
>only know about the past through my parents and people i meet
>Dropout of college
>Move out with my pharmacy tech license
>work 6-4 every day as a pharmacy tech
>live in a small apartment
>have computer and internet
>450 rent
>have done this for 2 years
>only talk to others outside of pharmacy tech in meetup groups.
>>29776623
>never have girlfriend
>have 1 friend who is like me
>talk occassionally
>spend time reading /pol/, /r9k/, reddit, wikipedia and watch documentaries on youtube
>watch netflix movies
>thinking about buying a ps4 because a lot of people game and it seems fun
>>29776623
Sounds very unfulfilling and empty, do you have any goals or ambitions?
>>29776663
I am a xbox player and if you bought one I would play with you, xbox is pretty good right now and on the climb and has a lot of free games if you are restrained by money but its all up to you friend
>>29776667
to not be bored.
>>29776693
you dont seem to have much free time. Maybe pick up a cheap hobby?
You should try to move up in your profession
>born into an upper middle class family of niggers
>went to private Montessori schools till kindergarten
>made tons of friends
>life was good til puberty
>go into middle school being a timid little shit
>most friends from elementary are either chads and stacies or they move away
>start to realize that my parents are Christian fundamentalists
>discover I like dick
>I end up having to hide my real self til freshman year
>parents pull a 180 and immediately try to "fix" me with gay camps and therapy
>self esteem and depression get worse
>become a literal sperg for the rest of highshool
>only have 3 IRL friends
>continues until senior year
>I'm not completely retarded so I got into college
>currently struggling to even be a functioning member of society.
>>29776809
Doesnt sound all too bad desu
How old were you when you worked out you were gay?
you will make it
>>29775857
>born in the country despite not being a local
>abundant space led to not having to worry about people, and essentially major escapism for me
>dad was never around, off doing political things
>never learned how to socialize, due to living in rural america everyome minded each others business
>when i did go to school,i wasnt bullied, or made fun of, just ignored.
>would go home and explore the woods, favorite thing to do,became a really active child
>weird shit started happening in there but thats a /x/ story
>high school rolls around,join the football team
>good decision, i get through high school without being made fun of once,football team likes that im quiet and not afraid square on big guys
>spent the entirety of it alone in the woods mostly.
>became a good distance runner too over time. Still am.
>college, already paid for by a dead uncle of mine who was rich,left college money only
>dad comes back, had to retire from his political crap
>he drinks all day
>he made my mom crazy
>thinking about doing ROTC, join the army or air force.
And thats where i am.
>>29775857
Jesus fuck man. Im so sorry. Where you from? From the sound of it, it seems like you are from a pretty shitty place.
>>29776917
I am from southampton in the south of england.
It isnt too shitty but I live in a poverty area
>>29775857
>every morning I break my arms
>and every evening I break my legs
>and then I lay awake in agony until my heart attacks put me to sleep
Feels shitty man
>>29776912
So you dont consider yourself a robot right?
Either way you are on the way to be a good man and will probably enjoy your life, I wouldnt suggest the armed forces if your life is going well, its more of a dead end option
>>29776939
Isnt this supposed to say my skin is paper and my bones are glass or something?
>>29777002
No. Oregano oregano just just just
>>29776937
Britain. Damn, I thought your people were much kinder than that. In California, people used to protect the weird. Being ugly wasn't a reason to be bullied. Being a crazy, weak, loner on the other hand... You need to get to a much kind country. I mean how are you right now? Im guessing everyone assumes your dangerous because you much look mean due to your jaw.
>>29777109
Back to liddit you go.
>>29776809
>>29776851
I'm going to guess you were around 13-15 when you found out
>>29777109
Yeah I look decent from the front now but like my face is missing from the side, so people avoid me or laugh behind my back, recently a girl posted a picture of me to her snap chat which I saw in the reflection of my moniter
it is awful for bullying in england
>>29777146
Dude, compassion for another person means I don't belong here? You really are becoming what the rest of the world think a robot is.
>>29777146
saying go to reddit is being reddit now go back to /b/
>>29777185
Well man, remember the world is bigger than England. If you can find a way out, than do it. Do not let these bastard win. One robot in the world is cheering for you.
>>29776982
Well,i dont really consider myself robot but i have never had a gf or any female friends, (never put forth the effort to speak to a person for any non business reason,much less a girl) i dont speak to anyone socially on any regular basis, and im pretty sure i have a panic disorder (which ive learned to control because of years of practice doing it during football). So i wouldnt mind just taking orders and delivering the orders to others for 3 or 4 years. Then i can start playing the workforce game but instead of "oh he doesnt speak to anyone hes weird we shouldnt hire him" it will hopefully be "theres a former serviceman who doesnt really speak all that much".
>>29777190
>Dude, compassion for another person means I don't belong here? You really are becoming what the rest of the world think a robot is.
Yes.
And good. Great. Fuck the world. The world has abandoned me - may you live in interesting times.
>>29775857
>be me
>be born
>molested at 5
>childhood anxiety and depression
>burn myself from teen years to mid 20s
>kept marks hidden
>like girl at 18
>we are friends
>she runs off gets married
>learn bass
>play in band
>learn guitar
>write my own music
>meet girl when i am 20
>like her
>she likes me
>lives across state so it doesnt work out
>when i turn 23 my dad dies
>he was a great dad
>always went to him for advice
>talked with him a lot even just to shoot the shit
>miss him
>regret not talking to him about me getting molested
>i found out he had something happen to him when he was young too
>wish i would have let him help me
>at 27 i meet my friends cousin
>we get to be really close
>like her
>she only likes me as a friend
>fml
>go to another friends house
>his wife's best friend is there
>9.9/10 hottie pie
>she flirts with me
>think nothing of it
>hang out with her a second time
>she tells my friend that she likes me
>we start talking
>get closer every time we hang out
>she falls asleep in my arms during movie
>feelsgoodman
>2 months of getting really close
>she texts me telling me she is really attached to me
>two days later tells me she thinks im great but she thinks we are too different to be right for each other
>we stop talking
>feelsbadman
>one day invites me over her place to watch a movie
>just me and her
>tells me she invited me over to fuck
>but now she sees that was a bad idea and doesnt want to hurt me
>was that close to changing from this wizard course
>fast forward 7 months
>she is with some asshole who just got divorced
>be me
>be 28
>just started seeing a psychiatrist again
>told me previous doc had diagnosed me with ptsd and severe depression and anxiety
>back on meds
the couple of months of hand holding and being all lovey dovey were probably the best times of my life.
>>29775857
How the fuck can someone be both avoidant and dependent?
>>29777442
It's a meme ya dip dip dip dip di psi poregano
>>29777442
I avoid affection but when I need it or I cant handle anything
affection always hurts me but without it I feel like theres no point
>>29775981
at least you got a (you) you greedy slack jawed bastard
>>29775956
http://www.4degreez.com/misc/personality_disorder_test.mv
here you go senpai
Don't really have any good reasons like you guys, just inherently a weirdo.
>born into loving family
>angry father and normal mother
>be strange throughout school due to mild autism
>start using the internet in 2003
>find wow in 2005
>have left my room 10 times since then.
A few well placed investments have led to hikki mode on a scale never seen before in my family
>born in shitty rural southern town
>dad is is a crazy army vet redneck alcoholic
>mom is a psycho ex Stacy that enjoys hurting people, also alcoholic
>grow up little house on the prairie style
>small old log house in the boonies
>dad was always at work and mom was always home drinking
>constant arguing between them my entire childhood
>fed me shit food, got pretty fat
>very few friends, never invited to anything
>bullied some, mainly ignored/excluded from everything
>5th grade dad gets a better job and we moved to the suburbs
>become good friends with the kid that lives next door
>holy shit, having a friend is amazing
>he moves in 7th grade, never heard from him again
>dad buys me a bench and some weights
>start lifting like a mad man
>become extremely depressed in 9th grade, neverending suicidal thoughts
>only reason I didn't eat lunch alone was I somehow found a table of people just as wierd as me
>fail most of my classes and become a delinquent metalhead/edgelord
>by 10th grade the weights had made me big enough that I had alot of interesting nicknames around the school
>still an ugly fatass, just a really big strong one
>everytime I thought I'd made a friend they'd end up taking advantage of me or bullying me
>somehow academically get my shit together in 11th grade and pull my grades up
>graduate highschool as a lonely freindless virgin ogre
>become an insane shut in neet after highschool
>for over a year I stayed locked up in my room jerking off, pissing in jugs and starving myself
>get back into working out and become /fit/
>kinda get a job renovating houses my grandparents are flipping
>make a few friends/drinking buddies through my brother
>still a lonely depressed kv that lives with his parents
>the only things that can give me a little pleasure are drinking and working out
>breakdown almost nightly in bed wishing I was holding someone
>becoming more mentally unstable and irritable by the day
>>29777712
I relate to a few of these feels, how old are you, if your under 25 I think you could get things on track and if not you still could be on the look out on how to get some one
>>29777821
22
My friends have been taking me out places and introducing me to new people the last few months, and some of my anxiety problems seem to be going away.
My life is slowly getting better, I can only hope things keep going this way. No idea why my mental state has suddenly taken such a dark turn.
Pic related - I took it in 2013.
>born in 1993
>dad has two bachelors degrees and mom has two masters
>we're not rolling in money but we're comfortably middle-class
>I learn to read at an early age, have a lot of friends, and am elected to student government in the second grade
>mom takes me to the museum and all kinds of educational places when I'm growing up
>second grade teacher offers to let me skip two grades to the fourth but mom won't let me
>in the gifted and talented program
>all of a sudden parents get divorced
>who's this hairy guy helping mom move the furniture out of the house?
>have to switch school districts to live with my mom
>went from being in a relatively urban area to the middle of bumfuck nowhere
>don't have any friends
>get bullied a lot for being a nerd
>bullying intensifies as I get older and I have to enter some counseling program in the seventh grade
>I start skipping classes a lot because I don't feel comfortable at school any more
>grades completely nosedive and the never recover until I finish high school
>bullying relents somewhat by around the beginning of eleventh grade, but the damage is done - I can't talk to women, have only one friend, and, despite doing very well on the ACT, have an abysmal CGPA
>graduate and have to do two years at community college before transferring to a good university (got a 3.96 for my first two years at CC)
>step-dad makes me get a job right out of high school
>I start working at McDonald's and make friends with these two refugees who are both smart and going to the university I transferred to (both are starting medical school this summer; one graduated with honors and the other did the Peace Corps)
>they're really nice people and help me socialize
>I've always wanted to travel the world and realize that I'm in a position to save and buy a plane ticket
>one of the refugees suggests visiting Turkey since plane tickets are cheap and he thinks it'd be fun for me
1/?
>>29778053
Pic related, also took in 2013
>start talking to this girl from India who added me when she was drunk; it's cool, because I was planning to go there as well
>have this itinerary set to go through Turkey, Greece, Egypt, Jordan, and a few other places before terminating in India and heading back home via Istanbul
>get incredibly lost out of the airport and end up going back and forth over Galata Bridge before finding my way to Istiklal Caddesi and my hostel
>spend five days there, make some friends, see the sights
>wind up getting drunk on my last night, chasing some Turkish girl out of the bar
>she ends up inviting me for tea, tries to bring me back to my friends but they're gone
>we get drunk together, go back to her sister's apartment, and I lose my virginity
>wtf
>go to Athens the next day
>miss my flight to Cairo
>go back to Istanbul just in time to get caught up in the Gezi Park protests, which happened five minutes from my hostel
>travel around Europe, go to India, meet this girl I've been talking to for months
>her family is rich as fuck, we start dating even though they've got way more money than me
>we go long distance; lasts for about a half year after I leave before we break up, after she comes to visit me in the USA
>I travel again the next summer, hitchhike around the Ring Road in Iceland, and then from London to Istanbul
>get laid with a lot of brown chicks, have my own apartment, work for this kind of scam tourist agency and start doing freelance writing for a few Indian magazines
>go back to India again that same winter
>meet a girl from my university on OkCupid, we end up having a two-year relationship (she's also Indian; I have kind of a thing)
>go to Colombia and a handful of other countries that same year
>finishing up university
>went to India again this last winter, just got home from Costa Rica and Nicaragua
>going to Mexico for my birthday in August and then India again in December
2/3
>born 1994
>raised by Mom and Mom's boyfriend
>Mom's boyfriend beat me
>Move in with Dad in 7th grade
>Never let me leave the house
>Move back in with Mom before 10th grade
>She was single now and it was all going great
>She meets a man and just leaves out of state with him
>Weeks go by living alone
>Grandma finally finds out
>Go back with Dad
>Beg him to let me drop out
>Drop out
>Great-Grandma says nuhuh and makes me get my GED
>Move in with Great-Grandma
>Comfy meals every day
>Got first gaming PC
>Do nothing but play video games
>She passes away
>Move in with Grandma
>She makes me decide to go to college or get a job
>Say college
>Enroll in community college
>She buys me cheap car
>Few weeks in college
>Always complaining about giving me gas money
>Says I need a job or can't live there
>Doesn't even give me a week before kicking me out
>Move in with Brother
>Lasts about a month until he wants me out
>Get ~$2,300 refund from school for loans
>Say fuck it and run away
>End up in another state
>Found room for rent on Craigslist
>Get job at temp agency
>Hated it
>Quit after 2 days
>Live off money for like 4 months before broke
>Move back home to Dad
>Had to sell car
>Had to sell gaming PC
>Need job but no car
>No car because no job
>Been sitting here NEET for 2 1/2 years now
I hate my life. I want to go to truck driving school so I can be paid to basically be homeless. I know they get home time like every other weekend but I'll just go to a casino and get laid or something.
>>29778109
Pic related, from 2015
>spent my first 3 years of college doing delivery driving
>now I manage a logistics company, it's really boring but I make good money for a student
>graduating very late because of traveling
>planning to do like my refugee friends - get an MS, do the Peace Corps, apply for med school
>bought a motorcycle a couple months back
>broke up with GF of two years because her parents don't approve of my family not having much money and me graduating late (downside of brown chicks)
Life is going pretty well overall. Worst thing that's happened in the last few years, which hit me hard, is that my only friend from high school died of a drug overdose. He had a lot of druggie friends and we lost touch after graduating, but he contacted me when I was in India. We reconnected and he wanted to go back to school, but some girl basically threw heroin at him at a party and he took it and died, given that he'd lost his tolerance after having successfully completed rehab.
thank you all keep em coming, giving advice and talking
I am going to make a origins of robots picture with these if thats okay
>>29778053
>>29778053
what the fuck is going on in that picture?
>original
Am i fat guys?
Dropped 25 lbs in 6 months and started lifting 2 months ago.
I used to have no confidence at all and be depressed.. but i dont think i look that fat anymore..
go easy on me please.
>be me
>be born to clueless mom and asshole dad
>mom tries her best to raise me but apparently I was an asshole kid from day one
>get little brother
>little brother is a major two faced asshole
>family tension intensifies
>dad beats the everloving shit out of me occasionally sometimes because I forgot to wash hands before dinner, other times because "I looked like I wasn't really listening" when he was talking to me
>fucker's pretty good at beating me, I only get bruises in non obvious areas
>this one time he pulls some shit that left me with mild trust issues
>wakes me up at 1 am in the winter
>takes me outside
>gets on a bicycle, tells me to follow him on foot
>follow him for about 30 minutes till we get to a forest
>suddenly he speeds up and disappears in the night
>can't see fucking shit and it's freezing
>cry for a few minutes then try really hard to snap out of it
>start looking for a way home, but it's completely hopeless I can't see anything
>decide to lay down and sleep till the sun comes up
>wake up to dad calling my name
>I answer although I already know what's coming, he just throws me to the ground and kicks me a few times when he finds me
>guess he was angry because he couldn't find me and thought I was hiding
>I only realize I could have freezed a few years later
>I was 7 man wtf
>at this point mom is depressed and angry all the time, still get another little bro a year later
>go to middle school few years later, things are pretty bad at home but I don't really get beaten anymore unless I do something bad
>dad lends me his phone for 2 days, can't remember why
>find messages of him and his lover texting with my friend on phone
>they were detailed
>tell mom after some hesitation
>says she's lowkey aware
>says she's been wanting to divorce for the last 7 years (smallest bro is 3 at this point)
>says she wishes we hadn't been born
>thanks mom
I guees this all leads up to me being a major fuckup and having 1 friend and no other connections
>>29778240
your not at all fat look at your arms and wrists, you have a big build with a foward chest is all
>crawl out of vagina (last time I'll ever touch one)
>grow up in middle class white suburban utopia
>private school till 4th grade
>best friend dies
>transfer to public for 5th grade
>bullied cuz fat, ugly, stupid, religious, etc.
>friends death plus bullying from 5th to 10th grade messed me up a bit
>keep it all hidden from parents
>befriend suicidal guy in 11th grade AP Biology class
>he's cool, likes same music, we play dark souls a lot together
>probably have 3000 combined hours in DS1 alone
>suicidal friend tries offing himself senior year, but I managed to talk him our of it
>go to separate colleges
>be STEMfag for a semester, almost fail out
>become history major
>been depressed, have anxiety attacks, high paranoia, since 5th grade
>gets real bad in college
>just finished second year
>working shit job
>want to die
>born
>didnt even ask for it
>kind of exist
>never do anything in school
>each year was passed by sheer luck or accident in my favour
>went to a private primary and secondary school
>get lost in wow and miss deadlines for higschool aplications
>go to a below average public highschool with ~900 students
>used to 80 or so, over time develop some issues, every day was filled with stress and anxiety from the second i woke up till the second i went to sleep
>graduate highschool playing wow 9 hours a day and not doing anything, i shouldnt with the grades I had but most teachers liked me for some unknown reason and gave me a free pass
>do bad on my highschool exams
>again luck is on my side and get accepted to a law school abroads
>parents divorce and deploy mental warfare to get me/siblings side with either of them
>start to distance myself from the family cause of this bullshit
>just finished my first year, did nothing but stayed in my dorm doing fuck all
>somehow pass all the exams without going to the lectures
>enjoy summer living day to day
luck is on my side that i know, parents gave me awful genes so i was doomed from the start. honestly i really dont know what to think of it, its 4 am and im on /r9k/ of all places after all
>>29778271
Fuck I meant to say "find messages of him and his lover texting while texting with my friend
>>29775857
>I didn't cry when I was born, the doctors had to spank me, to make sure I wouldn't asphyxiate
>I knew my life would be shitty from the moment I glimpsed the outside world
>I was raised by my mom, my father spent his days working and his nights at a bar
>I was rejected by a girl for the first time when I was 7
>I made a few friends around that age
>At 12 my parents moved to another state and I lost all my friends
>A girl asked me out in that new city, probably because I was the new guy from the big city
>We dated for a week, she dumped me and three days later she was sucking some guy's tongue in front of me (I didn't even held her hand, that little slut)
>Couldn't fit in the new school, turned to videogames
>At 14 my mom bought me a computer
>Later that year she sign up an internet package
>It was the time I discovered anime, manga, programming and porn
>By the time I was 16 I was a lonely fat weeaboo living in the sticks
>At 17 I started (by pure pressure from my mother) to work part time at our family's business (grocery store)
>I worked there until I was 19
>I moved to a bigger city, because... why not?
>I managed to get a scholarship at a good college
>But failed a lot of classes because I skipped too much classes, didn't make any friends and it was a terrible experience overall
>I dropped out at 21
>Around that time I started to work as a junior developer for a marketing agency
>At 23 I gave up on that as well, stupid job, stupid coworkers, too many hours, too little payment
>I started a small website offering cheating services for online games
>To this day it doesn't make much money, but enough to get by
>At 25 I came back to college, because without the diploma people won't even consider you a professional anymore
>And now I'm 26 and I'm still here barely hanging on
That's pretty much it.
>>29778601
whats the client my dude
was it a private?
>>29778601
>I didn't cry when I was born, the doctors had to spank me, to make sure I wouldn't asphyxiate
same here, f a m
must have known from the start that shit's not going to be easy.
WOW so many people giving such long stories nobody gives a fuck about
I will keep mine short and sweet
>Born with perfect genes
>School good
>Highschool bad
>College got literal cancer
>Currently dying a kissless hugless virgin at age 20
The end
>>29778660
You mean from the agency? Their clients were mainly local business (from the city or the state). I was hired as a "backend developer" but I was actually doing everything remotely related with technology. From fixing printers, to cleaning PCs, to taking care of the servers, to design layouts, etc.
>>29778905
This cannot go unpunished.
You sound like an ultimate gentleman.
Somebody has to pay, anon.
>>29775857
>Heart stopped, so I was born dead
>By age 3 my dad had broken my leg by biting it and dented my skull with a 2x4
>new town age 6
>new stepdad beats the fuck out of me for any little thing
>age 10 jumped on playground at scool
>13 wear a dress on the schoolbus to get back food and drink privileges, pulled off buss by school guard dude (rough neighborhood kinda school) and forced to stand in a dress as the busses circled and kids took pics and laughed
>15 new school
>suddenly grown into myself, popular and outgoing
>17 move to a new state, drop out
>18 first 'serious' girlfriend, move back to hometown and lose virginity
>become stoner, spend all of my money on weed and play vidya all day with gf
>20 homeless
>move back with mom, stepdad is usually away and their marriage is dead
>a few casual hookups and short relationships
>22, meet the most amazing girl I've ever met, life is great, camping and cooking together and plans for the future
>2 weeks later, she leaves for 9 months in ireland
>keep in contact nonstop because she's lonely and shy, no friends, we get very close until month 5
>she makes a friend, we talk less and less, she lies to me, goes to clubs and bars, we fight
>we manage to make it through, trust is shredded, have a fight over another lie when she hung out with a girl I hated, we break up and I fuck one of her friends because I'd never been so pissed and had to do something
>25
>alone
I'm ready to die now, senpai.
>>29779326
>2 months, not weeks
Wouldn't do an LDR for nearly a year aftwr 2 weeks
>tfw your mother was committed to a mental hospital just a couple weeks before you were born
In western Canada born and raised. Abused by my mother is how I spent most of my days.. chilling out laxing and clinically depressed like a fool. And had no friends inside or outside of school. Then a couple of chads up to no good started making trouble in my neighborhood. My ass got beat then I got scared and I thought man forget it your homes in /fit/lair. I hoped onto a bike and I benched and I curled and became a Chad who got all the girls. Now look at my body I'm finally there. Still depressed and lonely shit posting on 4chan.
>overprotective parents
>two older sisters
>very weak common sense
>overthinking
>extremely anxious, to the point that I'm jumpscared by people calling me
>shitskinned
>grew up doing nothing
>kv until 17 (18 now)
>normies forced me to kiss a girl
>they took my robot's license
>fuck my life
>>29779631
>took robot's license
They raped you?
>>29779759
no but they made me kiss a girl
now the best I can ever be is a demi-robot or a failed piece of shit
how can I call myself a robot if I'm not a kv?
>>29778240
You look good senpai the scary thing is how shallow you will see girls are. They will talk and flirt with any relitivly in shape guy in a social situation and you'll known deep down the same ones would be laughing behind your back when you were a manlet... I know this all from experience
>>29779628
underrated post, good job anon. this is great
Early Childhood
>mom took experimental drugs to avoid premature labor
>it worked, but the drugs made me literally autistic
>2 brothers and a sister
>both parents work, raised in daycare and by nannies
>didn't have any friends until 4th grade when we moved across the country and a kid in my class lived next door
>proximity dictates we become friends
>started getting chubby
Middle School / Pubescence
>middle school is hell
>gyno
>started puberty way later than everyone else
>constant torment and self hatred
>cried a lot when alone
>my one friend moves away at the end of 8th grade
High School / Adolescence
>try to tag along with one of my friend's friends in 9th grade
>become the kid in their group that no one really likes and everyone treats like shit
>getting fatter
>parents get divorced completely out of the blue
>it fucked me up, there was no inkling of shit not working out between them
>home stability is removed
>start orbiting a girl hard in 11th grade
>the first time a female had given me attention, I fell for her hard
>I do everything she asked of me while I got nothing in return
>constant frustration at not being able to have what felt like it was so close
>didn't wise up and break up the "friendship" until after graduation
Post High School
>went to university because it seemed like the only next step
>didn't really want to be there
>forced to room with a hockey team Chad
>got into weed a little
>my brain didn't handle it well
>anxiety, paranoia, and depression increased tenfold that year, even after I quit smoking
>had good grades, but told my parents I wasn't going back once the year ended
>NEET for a year
>mom gets me to start at an audio engineering school since I like playing guitar and recording shitty songs sometimes
>fail out of it
>manage to join a local band
>NEET for 2 years and counting, never had a job, still living at home as a 23-year-old KV autist
>>29775857
I wish I could send these stories to the parents of the robots here. I wonder how many would lose their shit knowing that they fucked up the only semi important thing they will ever do in their entire lives.
>moved a lot as a kid
>robot's license stolen
>no gf ever
>wagecuccing for the next 30 years
>ANIME
>descend into a bottomless pit of moe and never look back
>wizard
>>29779819
you can still be a robot dude, but idk why you would want too
>be born
>parents divorce
>get sinusitis
>father's wife hates me
>mother's husband has anger issues
>shitty life at home
>almost die from meningitis
>change schools at 9
>one of the leaders at old school
>everyone hates me at new school
>new school is really small and shitty
>don't make many friends
>11 years old
>become addicted to vidya
>become addicted to masturbation
>weirdo at school
>talented, tho
>bunch of hobbies, athletic, top grades
>start listening to heavy metal
>15 years old
>first kiss
>girls tried to like me
>was a dick to them
>no pussy ever
>smoke weed at 17 for the first time
>realize I'm a huge loser
>become the best friend of the weed guy
>cut my hair, start working on self improvement
>start drinking like crazy
>start considering suicide seriously
>lose virginity to a hooker at 18 yo
>smoke weed every day
>get into a top university
>get a gf within a month
>breaks up with me after three months cause my dick doesn't work
>fucked her once
>back to nothing
>>29779326
>I was born dead
Brutal
>>29779326
Wow born dead. Almost got off easy.
Ever think of kicking that doctors ass
>was likely an accidental baby
>diagnosed with autism-NOS when I was 3
>received speech therapy, went to a private special-ed elementary school
>college reading level by the time I was in first grade
>grandmother gets computer and internet, become knowledgeable in how computers, technically
>everyone always impressed with my knowledge in things, school IQ tests me and I end up being sent to an otherwise normal school starting sixth grade
>discover later that year that I have a genetic disease
>home schooled for a year while we get the genetic disease under control
>go back to regular school from grade 8 onward
>home school messed my shit up, missing chunks of math knowledge, do poorly in the subject over the next 3 or 4 years
>miss anywhere from 25 to 50% of school because of my disease, also suffering from periods of depression, end up performing horribly in high school (I think my graduating GPA was something like 1.8 or something)
>end up having to get a high school equivalency degree to make sure I graduate high school (still ended up getting my diploma, though)
>Opt not to go to college because why bother putting myself in thousands of dollars in debt
>decide to become a self taught mathematician
And here I am. I am a literal recluse who now has no friends and only does really learns the maths, so I guess the autism won in the end.
> was a happy kid
> began questioning existence
> depression through out my teens
> goes away for awhile but returns
> dropped out of uni
> quit my job
> on disability
That's life.
>>29780282
Doing it son. Power to you. This world took enough they deserve to give something back
>>29775857
>born into great family
>lived in California
>couldn't get a gf my entire life, but lots of friends and was happy
>moved to Washington at 16
>dark, cold, no friends, and no gf
> no gf feels intensify
> still get through high school and go to uni
> begin uni one year ago
> extremely lonely, lost purpose
> make detailed plan for suicide
> family and roommate find out
> get on Lexapro, watched pick up artist youtube shows with real life advice. Guy's name was Owen.
> I muster up confidence and meet this girl in my dorm, we hit it off and I finally have a gf and no more virginity
> We break up a month later, but I don't give a shit. I got laid and the anti depressants really work now
>Fast forward 6 months later
>Meet an attractive girl off of Yikyak
> Both want a relationship
> Happiest relationship I could ever want
> We've been together for 8 months and still going
> Now a junior at my uni. Held a part time job and living in my own apartment
Life's good now. I wish I got out more, but still, I looked out into the abyss and was ready to die, and now I'm happy with who I am. My personality is much more stable, and I realized that there are more important things in life than just sex and companionship, though it sure as hell helped a lot.
Wishing for the best for you guys too.
have my parents instead
>my grandfather was an abusive alcoholic, my grandmother went insane, my father was sexually, emotionally and physically abused his entire childhood as the youngest in a family of around 20 incestual trailer trash kids under the reign of terror from his parents
>dad escaped their terror by going into marines where he hoped to die, instead found hope and went from anorexic to built
>saw multiple people die before his eyes in gruesome ways
>saw his best friend fall out of a helicopter and die while they were waving to each other
>had his own comrades corner him in a room and try to kill him while he was drunk
>found a wife in the Philippines and they had a son together
>while out on the job he was falsely reported dead to his wife after getting confused with a rabies victim
>walked in on her cheating when he came home because she thought he was dead
>never saw his son again
>broke his leg and got sent home
>found out all of the money from the marines he asked his sister to save for him when he got out was all used to support his family's drug habit
>tried to kill himself and fucks it up
>fucks hundreds of women with his new body and confidence instead
>found another wife and had a daughter
>she cheated on him with his brother
>while fighting for custody his brother got sent to prison for molesting my dad's daughter
>ex-wife felt guilty and gave dad custody
>my mother was a druggie who ran away from home after her parents got divorced and her mother kept getting abusive boyfriends
>father met my mother at her waitress job who had just been abandoned by her boyfriend after knocking her up
>they get married, mother leaves her job to raise the kids while dad continues working
>dad has PTSD, bipolar, paranoid schizophrenia, EXTREME ANGER ISSUES, alcoholism, drug addiction, mother is unhappy
>find out halfway through their divorce that my mother is pregnant
>they decide to stay together because they thought it was a miracle sign
>i am born
>be born the youngest and only son, have 2 older sisters
>parents both have nice jobs, live in a nice neighborhood
>oldest sister moves out
>parents divorce when I'm 6, dad couldn't keep his dick in his pants
>he leaves my mom in debt and we lose the house
>move a lot, mom works hard for me and my sister but shit's tough, get a pair of shoes and some new jeans once a year for school and my sister's hand me down shirts if lucky
>always friendly, even when people didn't like me
>eventually start realizing people don't like me and withdraw into myself
>bullying starts and I get made fun of for my clothes and teeth, mom couldn't afford braces
>hang out with a bad crowd because lonely
>they rape a retarded kid while I just watched
>I'm still fucked up by this
>move to a new neighborhood/school
>this school is worse
>oldest sister moves back and helps mom with me and my other sister
>think oldest sister is the coolest person ever, she was into the alternative scene and had cool haircuts and colored hair and piercings
>start wearing band tees of bands she got me into and dying my hair
>bullying gets exponentially worse, kids had never seen this shit before
>gets so bad I beg my mom to let me stay home, other days I'd hide until she left for work and avoided the bus and just wandered around the neighborhood until she got home
>Times I attended school I tried for bad attention and became a troublemaker, got permanent ISS and fucked with by kids/teachers
>ignored all homework and skipped class, didn't care anymore
>drop out in 8th grade, become neet until I'm 16
>mom gets me into a ged prep course and I find out I'm pretty smart
>transfer to community college because poor and get put into advanced classes after prep classes are done
>fuck off class again, all those years of bad habits are hard to break
>GPA drops, flunk a ton of classes
>drop out and get a job in surveillance thx to my brother in law
>still there, yet to go back to school
>still KHHV, fat and balding at 22
>>29781637
Forgot to mention that when I withdrew as a kid, people thought I was mentally retarded because I never spoke to anyone. I couldn't maintain eye contact with people and communication is still a big issue for me. My family has always medicated ourselves with food so getting fat was no surprise. I'm decent with girls, I'm just too autistic to pick up when a girl is interested in me so it stays platonic even when I want to bone them.
>>29776693
Start a fight club, anon. that should fix you up.
>>29779326
>you will never be forced to wear a dress at age 13 as buses full of schoolchildren make fun of you
>born in the north west to married parents
>they divorce before I can form memories
>move to south west with my mom, super close to her
>around 4
>get sent to stay with my dad for a while
>he keeps me for nearly half a year longer than he was supposed to
>my mom freaks out but can't do anything about it
>when I eventually get sent back, i've developed weird anxiety disorders for someone my age
>freak out if anyone sees me shirtless and whatnot
>eventually get into kindergarten
>make friends, have a good time
>move after second grade
>live in ghetto part of shithole state
>make close friends again
>start to become a little weird
>become obsessed with cryptozoology and shit like that
>bring pictures of mothman to school and show people
>but miraculously I was still liked
>and then move again, midway through 5th grade, back to where I lived before
>all my old friends either have no interest in me or have moved
>but I make new friends
>start going on chat websites, make a lot of friends
>stay up till 2 or 3 am every night during the summer to talk to people i loved on the other side of the planet
>get into an e-relationship with a girl 10 years older than me, with a child
>and i was 12 at this point
>and then I move again. back to shithole state, just a different part, just far enough away that I can't see my old friends
>mom becomes really mean and drinks a lot
>start developing bad social habits at this point
>stop trying to talk to people
>go sit by myself outside the building during lunch
>but miraculously, a girl still liked me
>she stalked me around school, and even to my house at one point until I opened up to her
>we started dating
>she had a shitty life with alcoholic parents, too
>we stayed up late talking to each other every night
>i fell in love with her
>we were together for two years
>in all that time, she was my only friend
1/2, almost over.
>>29783184
2/2
>i fucking loved that girl. i really did. i've never felt that way about anyone else.
>she was my life for 2 years.
>so many fucking memories with this girl
>exploring abandoned buildings together, giving her my shoes on halloween when her heels started to hurt, having her fall asleep on me a dozen times, being there for each other when our parents went too far with their shit
>and then I moved again.
>back to the south west. same house, same school as before.
>and it was my fault. my mom couldn't keep me there anymore because I wasn't showing up to school and I ran away one too many times.
>me and the girl split up
>she attempts suicide, fails
>i get into drugs and hoodlum shit
>start hanging out with bloods
>still in contact with the girl. we talk daily.
>i date other people, the relationships never last more than a month or two. never cared about anyone else. they never felt like they were all the way there. never connected with them like I did with her.
>time passes, I luck out into a few more friendships
>someone in my family is going up to shithole state for something
>i go with them
>i visit the girl
>what I felt for her before is rekindled
>she wants to date again, long distance
>i do, too.
>we date
>she breaks up with me a month later, blames her depression
>i forgive her
>time passes
>i go up to shithole state again
>visit her again
>she wants to date again. i still love her. we date
>go up to shithole state again a month later
>see her twice
>third time, she ditches me to go hang out with her friends
>i'm sad and angry, tell her so
>she apologizes and it seems genuine
>i forgive her
>time passes
>she's getting more and more distant
>i keep on her about it
>eventually she says a lot of shit about how she wants a future with me, but she doesn't want to be with me right now due to the distance
>essentially, "we can be together in the future, but because you're not physically here right now, i want to go fuck other dudes"
one more, sorry
>>29783367
end details
>so we split up
>i turn my phone off for a while
>turn it back on a few days later
>have a dozen voice messages from her crying and saying she regrets her decision
>i still love her. i forgive her.
>then I find out she cheated on me
and that's about where i am now
