>Neet
>Mother has cancer
>no where to go if she dies
>looks weaker and weaker by the days
>feel bad for being a leech
>try hard to be normie
>fail harder every time
>back to fits of depression
>backs to thoughts of suicide
>want to kill self but have no courage
>back to deprssion
>get drunk to forget
>back to the same routine
Sorry about your mom op
Drinking will only make the situation worse.
You're worreid though and that's step one to actually changing your behaviour patterns to support your mother better.
If you can ease the stress load on her she's more likely to convalesce; emotional and physical strain make it harder to stave off disease.
Just try to think of her more often and then let yourself act on those thoughts without giving yourself time to think about your own immediate comfort.
You'll find it's easier to do stuff around the house if you don't think about it.
>>29767040
>if you don't think about it.
Thats the problem. thats the problem with everything in my life
>>29766875
>murder suicide
problem solved
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=JTeKpWp8Psw
How does this song make you feel? It's about a guy's mother dying from cancer
>>29767419
How it makes everyone else feel. It's sentimental but means nothing a few minutes later.
