The suicidal thoughts keep retuning.
The depressing thoughts won't go away
Who else here /hopeless/
>>29763445
even if I put a rope around my neck, the tree branches will not support me
>>29763445
The days having a slight sick feeling and crying every once in a hour came back. Don't even know an excact reason because it's everything that sucks.
I didn't have this for a year, even though I feel kind of depressed all the time.
I don't know when this will end, if it will at all.
Will I ever be happy in my life?
>>29763918
I even fail at killing myself.
Tried to hang myself using a belt a few months ago and it fucking broke.
I'm sure I'm too fucking stupid to hang myself properly.
Living in Germany so kurt-cobain-style or something is not an option.
I'm so miserable can't even kill myself.
I'm afraid of ending up as an alcoholic because I only feel "alright" after 3-5 beers. But my body tells me it's bad for me every time so I take a break from smoking and drinking. It's hard.
>>29763445
I hope you'll get better. Do whatever makes you happy, I'm sure you have interests.
Drawing or playing a musical instrument (or even producing something on a computer program / daw) can make you feel a bit better.
