>>29763445
even if I put a rope around my neck, the tree branches will not support me

>>29763445
The days having a slight sick feeling and crying every once in a hour came back. Don't even know an excact reason because it's everything that sucks.

I didn't have this for a year, even though I feel kind of depressed all the time.

I don't know when this will end, if it will at all.

Will I ever be happy in my life?

>>29763918
I even fail at killing myself.

Tried to hang myself using a belt a few months ago and it fucking broke.

I'm sure I'm too fucking stupid to hang myself properly.

Living in Germany so kurt-cobain-style or something is not an option.

I'm so miserable can't even kill myself.

I'm afraid of ending up as an alcoholic because I only feel "alright" after 3-5 beers. But my body tells me it's bad for me every time so I take a break from smoking and drinking. It's hard.

>>29763445
I hope you'll get better. Do whatever makes you happy, I'm sure you have interests.

Drawing or playing a musical instrument (or even producing something on a computer program / daw) can make you feel a bit better.