Can we have a /sucide thread/?
Who else genuinely feels like their death is approaching, or rather, long overdue?
I can quite honestly say that I enjoy nothing anymore, and have zero reason to live.
On my work days, I get up, go to work, get home and sleep. On my off days, I sleep for 11 hours, drink/get high by myself, and mainly lie in bed trying to sleep again or browsing 4chan on my phone.
I have zero friends, my relationship with my family is very cold, like they have forgotten about me or something, and my body is basically skin and bone.
Everything just seems stupid.
>>29750550
Sometimes I'm surprised that I'm still alive. I feel like I should have died years ago. There's occasions where I'm convinced I'm going to somehow die in the coming week.
I mean, I definitely WANT to die. I just can't bring my self to do it. I've never been anything but a burden on everyone. I feel as though I deserve to die but it just hasn't happened.
The fight gets hard, but it's up to you. If you want to give up or not. I'm almost gone. I can feel it. I'm hollowing.
Surround yourself with things that bring you comfort and happiness. Cut out the negative people. Ground yourself in something you can occupy your mind with.
Outside influences play a big part in how you think even if you don't know it.
>fanasizing about shooting myself in the head
>get ecstatic, breathing heavier
>tfw I live in Europe
Hey anon, if you're thinking about it; before you do can you give me 400-500 dollars for my sick puppy?
You might as well do something to make someone happy before you go.
Please think of those who care for you
I live for irony and spite
>>29750694
want me to ship you a gun you poor eurofag?
>>29750714
If you have a sick puppy that you can't help because of financial issues, create a Gofundme. If it's a sick animal, the general public will gobble that shit right up and give you all the money you need.
anyone know if the safety net is up on the Golden Gate Bridge yet?
>>29750752
Not the guy you replied to, but yes please.
You can come over and do the honors yourself if you like. I'm in England, I'll buy you some fish and chips. I'll even throw in a battered mars bar.
>>29750752
Doesn't matter anyways, trains are always a good, fast, and almost foolproof method as well.
>>29750550
I'm pretty tired. Nothing gives me pleasure anymore.
Everything just seems so pointless.
>>29750788
What if you jump down too early at an awkward angle, and the train just kinda mangles your legs and or arms?
That shit would just be awful. Not the pain, but the recovery. Knowing you tried to end it all, and failed. There would be people dedicating their existence to making sure you don't try to kill yourself again.
>>29750550
What do you do for work and does it make you want to kill yourself?
>>29750550
I used to fuck around with drugs and alcohol to the point where there were times I had no idea how I survived. I've been in trouble with the law more times than I can remember and I was taken to mandatory rehab 3 times after waking up in hospitals and trying to convince the staff that I wasn't intentionally trying to kill myself.
There were nice normie QTs whom I went to high school with who are now dead. Died very young from unpredictable stuff like cancer or tragic car accidents.
I'm a degenerate fucked up robot. I look at their lives and my life and the question "why" inevitably comes.
I feel so empty these days and it feels like even my basic sentience is slipping away. Sometimes I think that I really did die in one of those binges and that all of the time since then has been a death dream.
>>29750550
Give it a little time, you might start enjoying your existence.
>>29750788
2scary4me
>>29750783
and have my ass whopped in jail?? no thanks
I'd rather you make a gun and shoot yourself in the head with it
javascript:quote('29750550');
"Everything just seems stupid."
your everything only represents a minute fraction of the whole world. How can you be so sure without experiencing at least 30-40% of it?
>>29750898
>make a gun
I was thinking jumping off a building would be a more practical solution.
>>29750898
>thinking euro pussies would fuck you up in prison
>"ay m9 wut u doin ova hea?"
>"yee want ya heard smashed in aye?"
>"u fokin ameerican righto"
A suicide thread?
I'm quite close to death myself, I'm not sure for how much longer I can keep up with this. Constant suicidal thoughts every day.
Too depressed and anxious to find a job or enroll into higher education, my parents will likely not approve of my lifestyle for much longer. Been a NEET for one year but they thought that I would be able to move forward in life somehow, they'll soon realise I'm fucked forever. Practically zero hope unless I get an actual diagnosis which I could use to justify everything.
They'll likely end up selling some of my properties like my car and I'll end up being even less independent than in the past (as they bought it so I could go to school/work), when that happens it's definitely a good time to do it.
But still I'm not sure when to kill myself: before or after my parents die? I don't give a shit about their feels or anything, I only want to escape on my first attempt. If I get caught I'm fucked. Probably going to be hanging, since few other worthwhile options are available in the shithole I live in.
>>29750550
As soon my parents are dead, i'm out.
They made their best and don't deserve a suicide son.
that's why i'm still walking.
>>29750903
If the first 20 to 30 years of your life were shit, you can safely assume the rest will suck as well.
>>29750550
I have been suicidal for 20 continuous years with gaps only maybe a day long, maybe half a day. I think once I had a spiritual awakening and went 4 days, but then I realized that the awakening did not change my life or personality, only my relationship to finality (now I want to die but I don't think of death the same way).
I spent 10 of those 20 years drinking like I was at a college party every day, except I was alone.
I spent most of those 20 years eating junk food in mass amounts like I was on death row and every meal was my last.
I have pain in my abdomen now. I'm going to a specialist in a few weeks. I'm not sure whether or not I used food and alcohol to ruin my body so that I had no choice but to check out.
>>29750822
People who literally jump infront of trains are fucking retards.
Just lay your head on the tracks. The wheels will obliterate your head first thing.
It would be over quickly.
>>29750972
That's the reason I haven't offed myself yet.
But lately I've been thinking that I shouldn't have to be miserable and unhappy just to gratify someone else.
My parents should have known better than to bring me into this world.
>>29750985
This faggot here is right, if you're not a full-fledged successful normie by your late teens you're hopeless.
>>29750870
I work in a call center.
I does make me want to kill myself, but I wanted to kill myself long before I started working there.
If we are being honest, then I first became suicidal at around 13.
>>29750876
Every year, and month, it just gets worse and worse
>>29750903
Suffering is relative.
>>29751006
>this world
for my parents at least, it was full of promises.
can't blame them.
how can i get myself to cut deeper than some fucking cat scratches?
i always pussy out if i have to put any pressure on the knife and shove it deep in and out
>pic: my arm
>>29750550
Have you ever tried being yourself?
>>29750998
that's a lot scarier desu fuck that
>>29751153
Get a sharper knife and use stronger painkillers.
>>29751153
cold water, then hot once it's cut
>>29750788
Probably the single shittiest most selfish way you could off yourself. Kill yourself all you want, just don't force someone else to be involved in your death.
>>29751153
What are you hoping to achieve? If it's death, there are better ways.
Anyway, get drunk or high, that should make your movements more fluid and unrestrained. Might end up fucking yourself up real good.
>>29751153
Your edginess is so strong you could cut yourself on it, use that.
>>29751153
Don't be a fag and just stick it in your chest. Guaranteed foolproof way to do it and you can do it in half a second.
>>29751180
Just get blackout drunk
>>29751213
people say suicide is selfish in itself. I don't care if it's like that then.
>>29751213
So what if he's a selfish asshole? Any normie that gets involved in a train suicide incident should get fucked and deal with it, society probably never really helped him at all except for shit-tier mental health institutions and horrible advice, so why should he care?
You sound like a pathetic moralfag to me, go back to facebook.
>>29751289
>get fucked and deal with it
It's funny how this is 99% of normalfag "advice" in a nutshell. But if you use it on them you're selfish.
>>29751216
well that's pretty much the whole thing; i want to fuck myself up before i get the guts to end it all
>>29751213
>involved in your death.
Their involvement would be minimal. I mean, they wouldn't even have to do anything. They're just sitting there, when suddenly they hear a slight crunch and that's that.
I don't see how I would be inconveniencing anyone.
>>29751321
>i want to fuck myself up before i get the guts to end it all
This requires some clarification.
>>29750550
Sounds lame, but @OP take a long walk and just take in everything.
Download this album "Sturgill simpson - A sailors guide to earth"
Best of luck to you bro.
>Suicidal thoughts constantly
>Use internet, music, video games to drown out the feelings
>Every so often I "wake up" from my delirium and the thoughts start again
>have to bury them, but the longer I live the harder it becomes, the more frequent the realizations
>No idea what do once my anxiety overwhelms my coping abilities
>>29751357
Permanent mental damage would be a major inconvenience.
>>29751440
My advice: don't get into drugs of any sort.
Eventually you might find that intoxicants are the only way you can drown out your feelings.
I know this doesn't really help, but take it from someone who might be further down the path than you are.
>>29751397
>@OP
kill yourself faggot
>>29751440
you just gotta move man. Take a walk or do some pushups and some jumping jacks. Its not a lie that fitness changes your mood. You dont have to go all bro fitizen but just do a lil something to get the blood pumping and you'll feel better.
>>29751505
I don't really get this.
If I was building a brick house, and someone came by and started slamming their head into the brick wall, untill they died, I wouldn't really feel guilty.
>>29750998
I've been considering this method. What are the downsides? I'm pretty sure all you need to do is work up the courage to stay on the tracks, right?
>>29751529
>>'29751536
Take it easy man, this is for your own good.
>>29751397
>@OP
Hello, summerfriend
>>29751505
Well those normalfags should MAN UP then. Entitled idiots.
>>29751547
Because you're already fucked m8. What's likelier is that you're talking out of your ass and would panic in real life.
>>29750550
I honestly never would commit suicide. As I get older I start to realize part of me wants to experience that whole "Remember back when we were young?" sort of thing.
At the same time there really is no point and in the grand scheme of it all, the amount of time a human life lasts is meaningless.
On the contrary, I do find it very hard to resist causing pain to people when they're vulnerable. Like when gardening with Grandma. I could easily bash her over the head with the spade, she'd die and we're out in the country. No one would know, just throw her in the back of the truck, pour some dry cement on her and throw her in the river.
When I had friends(When I was younger and before I started going crazy) I'd have them come over and shoot. They'd be downrange and the only thing going through my mind is one very easy shot.
It's not anger or anything toward the person, it's the fact they're vulnerable, and it takes everything in my power to resist.
>>29751667
Well, I grant you that seeing someone beat themselves to death would be somewhat unnerving, but I wouldn't blame myself for it.
>>29750550
>On my work days, I get up, go to work, get home and sleep. On my off days, I sleep for 11 hours, drink/get high by myself, and mainly lie in bed trying to sleep again or browsing 4chan on my phone.
>I have zero friends, my relationship with my family is very cold, like they have forgotten about me or something, and my body is basically skin and bone.
And who's to blame except you? Go and change something. Its your life.
>>29751536
I already exercise, it doesn't help. I think there is a distinction between what people think and conclude about their lives, versus what people merely feel about their life. A depressed man may not conclude anything negative about their life and so would benefit from simply feeling better. A person who ruminates on their own worthless life would not banish their own thoughts simply because they feel better. In other words, Depression can just be a symptom of a negative outlook. Treating symptoms doesn't address the pathology.
It's often noted that anti-depressants can actually increase the risk of suicide, simply because the person is now motivated enough to finally off themselves.
>>29751689
What's this test buddy?
>>29751689
end my sufferingwhy is robot so mean? :'(
>>29751739
Sorry for the late reply, but heres what you should do. Not sure where you live but here in the US, at least where I am at we play pool, darts or bowl and drink.
Get decent at throwing darts, playing pool or bowling and keep showing up to events like tournaments and you'll be invited fast with open arms to other groups. Ive played pool since I was a toddler and can walk into any pool hall or bar and instantly hit it off with anyone.
You dont even have to be that good. Grown men arent the intimidating assholes you see on TV. Show some interest and you're in.
Good luck.
I'm nearing 31 and can't keep it together anymore for a long time.
I'm afraid one day the will to end it will be too much and I won't care anymore about my family and the reaction or shame.
>>29752439
Im 32 and havent had a gf since i was 18 in high school. Its a personality thing.. I freaking love being alone and not hearing anyone elses problems.
Find a hobby that involves other people that requires skill. It gives you a sense of self accomplishment and being better than others.. which you already have.
