Absolute maniac.

>>29744583
>tfw you now feel like on natural meth all the time, sleep only 3 hours a day instead of 16 and talk to more people in a month than you did in the first 20 years of your life

>>29744701
>mfw the comedown comes and your depression is worse than in clinical depression

>>29744533
>>29744701

how can I force this to happen

>>29746080
try SSRI, stimulants, booze, few all nighters and going out of your comfort zone a lot

>>29746080
Usually happens to me if I fuck up my sleep schedule

>>29746189
Also stress and MDMA.

>>29746080
I tend to get hypomanic when I get a new girlfriend or a good job. Not always.

It isn't worth it. After the happy inertia goes I can't even get out of bed some days. Imagine wanting to die but just not having the motivation to do it.

>>29746373
>Imagine wanting to die but just not having the motivation to do it.

I don't have to imagine it that's my life for the past 10 years.

Wish I had some mania to break up this constant depression.

>>29746414
Bupropion'll do it.
I never understood why antidepressants always have 'suicide' as a possible side-effect until I started on it.

(first 2 months all I could think about was dying, but I was energetic and smiling a lot)