I had an experience that i cant tell to anyone i know in real life, it has been eating me alive for years so now i am going to get it off my chest. Post some similar stories if you have them.
>be me
>16, sophmore year
>spend all of highschool up to this point lonely and sick of all my classmates
>lunch comes around
>just want to get away from them all and spend some time to myself for once
>no empty tables
>table in the far corner has only 1 person
>had seen her before, but never talked with her
>she was sick all the time, missed a ton of school so she had no friends
>figured she wouldnt talk to me, she was a loner
>i was right
>eat in silence
Ihis continues for a week or two, we have an unspoken mutual agreement that we are going to sit quietly and isolate ourselves together.
>she doesnt show up for about a week
>dispite never exchanging a word with this girl I felt lonely
>didnt know why
>when she comes back she looks worse than usual
>so skinny she must have not eaten in a week
>pale, blotchy
>injesting massive quantities of medication
>I finally say something to her and ask her what its for
>she gets startled when i talk
>tells me she has a lot of illnesses
>mainly blood related
>anemia, things like that
>ohshitdude.jpg
>I started to talk to her a lot more out of pity
>every day we talked all lunch
>went on for the whole school year
>we become incredibly close
>start going out
>happiest Ive ever felt
This goes on for the whole summer. It is junior year now, and we are still going strong.
>one day on the way to school she gets in a car crash
>very mild crash
>still has to hospitalized for a week due to her medical condition
>the stress of missing so much school causes her to try and recover faster than is healthy
>her condition worsens
>a lot
>worse than its ever been
>doctor decides the stress will kill her
>releases her from hospital with a larger dosage
>she returns to school in the worst state Ive ever seen a person be in.
cont.
>spend all of highschool up to this point lonely and sick of all my classmates
>want to spend some time to myself for once
How the fuck does this make sense
bumping for more
>>29712570
Aaaaah, where's the damn rest anon? Should've written this down before posting.
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>>29712570
>she is becoming severely depressed
>either doesnt come to class or spends the whole thing crying quietly in the back
>all the joy I had been feeling melts away
>the only girl Ive ever loved
>the only girl to ever love me
>dying
>wants to die
>she tells me she is in constant pain
>her blood hurts
>she cant breathe
>she is severely under weight
>tells me she wants to end it all
>I decide to join her
At this point we were both so depressed that it all felt hopeless to continue.
>her parents were going out of town this upcoming weekend
>decide to meet at her house and do it then
>time drags on as slow as it has ever gone
>spend every second with her
>god I love her
>saturday
>sneak out of my house
>climb in her window
>she tells me we are gonna OD
>her meds are so strong there is no way we will live
>spend a few hours together playing music and just being with one another
>this human being who is falling apart in front of me
>pale, blotchy skin
>sunken eyes
>ratty clothes
>eyes red from crying
>hair is a mess
>most beautiful girl ive ever seen
>the time has come
>we both take 4 painkillers
>feel numb
>feel tired
>say goodbye
>go to sleep
>I wake up
>whatthefuckno
>a few hours had passed
>doctor said 3 would surely kill her
>keyword "her"
>we forgot to factor in that i am not a sickly little human being like she is
>7 feet away from me the love of my life lays
>dead
>this cant be real
>it is very real
>panic
>my heart hurts
>god it hurts so bad
>oh god no what if i am blamed
>get out of there
>run as fast as i can
>sneak back into my house
>spend the rest of the weekend recovering emotionally and physically
>monday
>her parents return
>no word from them
>must have been in shock
>on wednesday my mom gets a call
>mom says something along the lines of "Anon your girlfriend, she died, she killed herself. The funeral is next week."
>next week rolls around
>her family, my mother and I are the only ones there
cont.
>>29713017
>back to school
>morning announcements come one
>"lets take an extra moment of silence for a student we have lost this past weekend"
>hear my classmates ask one another who it was
>no one knows
>no one there even cared she was gone but me
>feel more alone than ever
>never be able to tell anyone you were there
>live on knowing you should be dead with her
>never be able to work up the courage to end it
>live every day feeling like you cheated her
>years pass
>not a day goes by that i dont think of that day
Well there you go, theres my story, not sure if it will help me at all to tell it, but i figured it was worth a shot.
>>29712619
i worded that extremely poorly holy shit, i meant that i was lonely in the sense that i had no friends, but i was constantly surrounded by loud assholes, so i wanted to get away from that and be somewhere alone and quiet
>>29713134
wow, so fake and gay
improve your pasta skills, bro
