>that sense of dread when you realize you're feeling good for a change
>>29702824
>when you know that it is just going to go downhill after those fleeting moments of bliss
I just want to get off this wild ride
Also abstract feels thread.
>>29702824
>I try to ignore that feeling then out of nowhere feel depressed and wish it would end... again.
>having a good day
>things working out the way I want
>actually feel somewhat happy too
>get suspicious about my own feelings
>get frustrated and depressed again because I thought my own feelings weren't sincere since I haven't felt good for way too long
>Get extremely depressed
>Convince yourself that this sadness is a means to push yourself and change
>realize you've done this countless times before and may never feel different
hey do you guys also like grab a knife and then start ripping open your arms and then feel blissful release for a few hours and then go to sleep and wake up and be scared about the severity of what you've done with blood everywhere and then try to cover up as best you can and then manage to convince yourself that it's all really not that bad and please don't do that again and then somehow feel very small yet somehow comforted like as if you were a little child again and your mother told you it was all going to be okay and you still believed her because growns up know best? yeah would not recommend.
