Do you see your inevitable suicide as an act of sadness or benevolence?
>>29688111
Neither. Simply an end.
It will probably be isolation
As a dignified choice and a positive affirmation of my 'self'. It's not an escape, it's not out of self loathing. I just can't be bothered by all this shit.
An act of benevolence would be some guy putting a couple .45 rounds in the back of my head while I'm sleeping and hopefully he never gets caught for putting a worthless, self hating robot out of his misery.
I can't tell if it would be an act of sadness or not. I don't feel sad. I don't feel much of anything anymore, except the creeping knowledge that every day is worse than the one before it. I'm getting old, my body is betraying me, and there's simply no way out unless I do it myself.
It's just an end to a very sad, depressing story that nobody will ever read.
>>29688111
A man's fate is all that is, life is merely an illusion.