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How are you holding up fellow oldfags?
I was not made for this world
>>29681218
41 here. Life is a never-ending drudgery of pointless shit. It never "gets better" and it never stops.
>>29681218
Today is more or less the same as yesterday witch was the same as the day before.
Forty-five to fifty more years I believe I have to wait before it ends naturally.
>Good
25, college grad, live with roommate, work in law, $40,000/yr, getting a raise/promotion late August. Even though my ex came back into my life and there are issues, things are better. I've grown substantially and continue to treat people well.
>Not so Good
Cousin recently murdered. Realizing mother is getting older and will, at one point or another, die. Realizing the same of my siblings and nephews. Only solace comes in knowing I have no intent to have kids who will experience like losses in a world that is, in many ways, burning
>>29681218
I'm just reading books to kill the time. I'm visiting my mom for the holiday weekend and everyone is out working/traveling so I'm here in her house by myself. It's too hot to go outside so I'm just chilling.
Applied for a job this week, and became ashamed at how pathetic my c.v is. I really dont have anything more than my highschool diploma.
I'm 27 and this might be the summer I get laid.
Wish me luck sempais
>>29681566
praise kek. You're gonna get laid
I'm 27. I have a house and a well-paying job, but I od ridiculous hours (4 12-hour shifts a week, often flipping between day and night shift mid-week or even multiple times) and I have pretty much lost all interest in finding a girl. Looking forward to gaining my virginity-strengthened wizard powers in three years.
The long work hours and fucked up sleep schedule mess with my head, though. Sure,
I'm making all the money forever, but time passes like a giant hallway and the days just kinda blend into each other. Surreal as hell.
I got a master's degree. I got married. I have no money and I constantly think about killing myself.
I thought life was supposed to get better?
Getting worse by the day. I thought the feels would dull over time but they've only grown stronger. I can't even wagecuck properly anymore.
>>29681566
28 here
been saying this every year since 18
The ride never ends
A girl has been flirting with me lately, shes pretty cute but has a very visible tattoo of her ex's name. Might not pursue further because of that, I'd feel like a Chuck.
>>29681610
where is that gloriously badass picture from?
>lost virginity at 27
>but no wife to tie me down, dodged that bullet (thanks Lord for not making me too handsome which would have led to me making life-changing decisions while still young and stupid)
>wagecucking but at a pretty comfy job
>sure the world is still turning to shit but at least I'm free and still have my health
Could be a lot fucking worse.
>>29681660
>a Chuck
This is the best typo I've ever seen on the board. The beta version of Chad is Chuck. It even gets atound the wordfliter.C_U_C_K wordfilters to KEK
>>29681218
32yo. Still live with a roommate. Have a nice job in a union. No GF except for the girl I lost my V card to 12 years ago.
I have a lot of ideas that I think are good, but I'm not implementing them. I'm at the "half a page of scribbled lines" part of the song... I can still do it though!!!
30 here. As I've aged my crippling social anxiety has transformed into social apathy. I no longer find myself uncomfortable or embarrassed in any circumstance. If someone says something to me I'll answer if I have something relevant to say, otherwise I'll ignore them or stare at them until they get weirded out and fuck off. I've also developed a brutal honesty that would've gotten me in trouble many times over if I had normie relationships to maintain or a normie job to worry about.
Luckily I've managed to become good friends with my boss who doesn't mind my eccentricities. He runs multiple small businesses and pays me decent money to help him with the grunt work.
>>29681218
32 years old. best financial situation I've ever been in, but it's a little precarious. I live in a great situation, great apartment, keeping my health up, eating extremely well, but no social life and no sex. super lonely. Also, I haven't resolved my existential angst.
Just applied for a job as a lumberjack. They told me I dont look the part but They need someone to keep records in Excel. Glad I can do my part making the World worst for the children of others.
26 here.
I was forced to use a selfie stick today. And yes it's as bad as you think.
Thankfully whenever I leave the house I try to look as good as possible, dressed nice but pedestrian, and well groomed
25 here. Fit, had a bunch of gfs and lot of sec, but OCD is killing my chadness. I struggle more and more to Talk clearly and my behavior is a fucking mess of bipolarity.
>>29681218
27. Seems life slows down while the time keep its pace. Seems I do virtually nothing in a year
>>29681218
32
can't buy a fucking job, never had a college education and cant get anyting but manual labor and retail shit, after i turned 30 it became instantly harder to get a job, i guess they figure if your 30 and still applying to work at walmart you are a waste of space.
>>29681218
30, live at home, NEET for a couple of years now but sick of that meme life so I''m gonna get back in the rat race and bee myself and follow my dreams~. I think that 25 was the worst year of my life, psychologically speaking.
The thing that sticks out the most is how I can't really relate to anyone younger than their late 20s.
The fact that there are adults who grew up with the internet and their childhood was spent watching youtube and they don't know anything about 90s and early 2000s culture is baffling to me. It's like they're aliens, or I'm the alien.
>>29682960
I think 25 is the worst year in anyone's life, period.
im 25 i have extreme anxiety outside i need to overcome
working out and honing my skills keep me out of depression.
but browsing r9k fucks with my depression levels
>>29682973
turning 30 was pretty depressing, it's like wow my life is half over and i haven't done anything i wanted to do.
Tired of lending my stepsister money and never getting any back. Though I finally got regular instead of temp at my job, I'm up for two raises soon and I'm gonna hang out with friends for the first time in a while tomorrow. Therapy is going alright but eating shitty food is aggravating my anxiety like a motherfucker.
>>29683009
25 was a lot worse for me. It's the age where I had to confront mortality.
40 sounds worse than 50 for some reason.
40 is washed up and 50 is venerable.
>>29682973
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=FHxZo-aSffQ
Definitely. At 20 I was feeling awkward and old-ish hanging out with 17-18 year olds but I was still thinking "nah it's only a few years it's only a big deal if I make it a big deal" and had some regrets that I wasn't doing whatever I thought I would be doing at 20 years old, but nothing too bad.
25 is when your friends and former classmates start getting kids of their own and getting their own homes and married while you're still watching Vietnamese soap operas.
I think 30 is when you're like "ehhhhhhh whatever what am I going to hop in a time machine or go flirt with high school girls still? Fuck it."
>>29683023
40 sounds fucked up
30 is the most fucked
50 is ok since ur alive and probably settled in life
>>29683095
Yup, describes my experience perfectly as well.
>>29681218
My sister started trying to fucking have kids as soon as she was living out of the house and she got pregnant by the time I was 19, so really I felt old ever since I was 19 years old. Then again I'm a NEET who still lives with his parents so I'm the weird uncle who's no fun and lives at grandma & grandpa's.
I just want a wife and family.
>>29681960
>I haven't resolved my existential angst.
Existential angst isn't something you can resolve. That's the biggest lie of the mental health profession.
Existential angst is just whenever you notice that you were built to expect permanence and meaning, but everything in the world will end.
Either you believe in an afterlife, or you just "keep busy".
>28
>Been going out with used goods but telling them we wouldn't do anything sex related
>They go crazy after long enough without fail
>Just want to lose it to a virgin girl so it stops being a problem
>Recently became the last virgin known in my circle
I don't know why I fucking try sometimes
>>29681218
39 KV here, living like a neet. Just waiting until I build up enough courage to bag myself
>>29681218
30 years old here
>I was not made for this world
I wasn't either - no gf ever - no friends for that matter and sacked from my job, but I just made a superb spaghetti bolognese after drinking a bottle of rum, and nothing the fuck even matters, not a thing.
Fuck the nasty, smelly, roast beef pussy female woman. Infant human producing machines; eat drink be merry and thank goodness for a peaceful life.
>27
>live with parents
>no gf
>no friends
>work about 50 hrs/wk
>just finished paying off student loans
>don't know what the fuck I'm supposed to do next
>>29683430
buy a cheap house, you can find one for 20k or less in my area. live in it or rent it out.
>>29683536
Where the hell do you live? I'm moving there.
>>29683368
>just "keep busy"
There's nothing wrong with that. One of the biggest problems with our society is that we value "asking hard questions", having opinions about philosophy and so on.
I think you can tell before you start, that this won't lead to anything solid. But people do it anyway. They feel like if they just keep thinking about it, they'll figure it out.
Just exist. Stop thinking. You might say that's "giving up", but giving up on what? Who gave you the orders to think yourself into unhappiness?
>>29683552
probably a shithole flyover
>>29683536
I work and live in Los Angeles county. All the houses within 50 miles of downtown LA cost more than 300k. I dont want to move out to a small town where there are no jobs and have to commute for four hours every day to work at a city.
>>29683574
Nothing wrong with a shithole flyover if you're not intending to be a captain of industry. A 20K house I could by with my saved up neetbux would be godly, since I could quit paying rent, have a permanent place, and either grow a couple of weed plants, or save for a nice vacation.
>>29683602
Is Lancaster within 50 miles?
27 here. I earn well but it's not enough, and I'm reluctant to change jobs because this company is my only actual social group. But I want to earn a LOT because I figure if I have no life I can compensate with this.
Lately I worked closely with a normie faggot who figured out how much of a loser I am with women. I'm not sure if he just assumed because I'm ugly as shit or deduced from something, and I don't know what's worse. I'm a KV and this getting out would be a social suicide so I'd rather hide if possible.
>>29683758
people assume things all the time
i got tired of it and tell people to fuck off, i hate it when people assume shit in my face without knowing me
>>29683555
>we value "asking hard questions", having opinions about philosophy and so on.
No society doesn't really value that. People do it because they want to feel intelligent.
When I was young existential angst was easy to ignore because there was nothing I could really do or knew I could do about it.
As I got older it was sort of a, do things anyway you don't have much of a choice start working on those problems that seem insurmountable.
A few years later and it's like I know nearly with complete certainty no matter what I do there's no way to have a decent life. Probably time to just resign self to dying.
Out of billions of people on the planet, when you really think about it you suck so bad nobody giving a shit or openly celebrating about you being dead after that is kind of a shitty feeling.
>>29683810
>the world is so big
>we have no purpose etc
your life and your reality is the only thing that matters
26 y/o here, I'm seriously considering saying fuck it and joining the French Foreign Legion.
I' did 2 pumps to Afghanistan as a Marine grunt, and I've been out for 3 years now. Nothing in civilian life catches my interest. I want to see combat again while I am still physically capable, and the FFL is always deployed to some shithole in Africa. I've already removed my fair share of kebab in my previous years of military service, and the FFL will give me a chance to remove some niggers as well. I figure that, if I am not going to produce strong aryan children, I can at least make my effect on the gene pool by eliminating as many undesirable shitskins as possible.
Also, Africa is in the beginning stages of a massive population boom. African governments are not prepared or equipped to deal with the rising tide of anarchy that the pop boom will bring to the continent. Mercenaries are going to be in high demand in Africa in 5-10 years time. I figure that after an enlistment in the Marines and the FFL, I could walk on to almost any mercenary group. Becoming fluent in French will also help. I just registered for a French language class at my local community class this fall. Right now I'm planning on leaving for France just after the new year.
Sorry for ranting bros just felt like getting it out.
>>29683872
ergo when you decide it isnt worth living that kind of a life because you can't improve it all that is left is getting ready to die and just accepting people will probably be as big of faggots about it or worse than when you were alive
>>29683966
no i simply stop putting my self esteem with purpose
if i am comfortable and enjoy life at some way its good enough.
i mean yeah it would ideal for everyone to have wives,cars,houses,jobs etc but shit is not the case. just roll with what you have
stop trying to achieve some sort of ideal and start thinking about your piece of mind and security in the future
>>29684037
>piece of mind and security in the future
not sure why you think im doing something else
>>29683887
Americans can't really join the FFL, especially ex-mil would be unlikely
They're looking for highly dependent shit skins who speak French native and will feel completely fulfilled in life by the uniform and modest paycheck .
And they're paranoid of any potential diplomatic or PR issues.
>>29681218
28 here and I feel like I've crossed the point of no return
>drop graphic design school in 2010
>since then I've made some Web Development in freelance
>trying to find a first job now but i never had a proper job experience in my domain
I-It's going to be ok, right?
>>29684138
im just saying everyone wants everyone else to live a normal life
but think of it really, how many people do get to live a "normal" life? its just some bullshit. maybe in the 1950's you could have a normal life even if you had bad teeth or social awkwardness nowdays it can get you fired
>>29684188
freelancer here.
portfolio is the bottom line,everything else is just some bullshit they fill the resumes with to get the best possible candidate
>>29683758
lol trust me everyone knew you were a virgin already. You can just look at a man and you can tell what his sex life is like. It ain't pretty out there guys, this world is evil.
>>29683785
Yeah, I'm really sick of it. Especially when I get people who are otherwise retards and/or NEETs who act superior to me due to having a gf, or even having had a gf. It pisses me off like no tomorrow.
>>29684193
not really. 1950s were a shit time. you just wouldn't hear about the people that didn't make it well they died in obscurity
>>29684214
I was thinking of putting some sample web apps on github to land some kind of front end job
>29
>NEET
>Dropped out of high school & college
>can't drive
>no ambitions or goals
>everyone I knew growing up has moved on
>left behind in a dead end northern town
>nothing to do here but drink yourself to death
>nobody my age to socialise with
>nobody understands that there is nothing to do for someone my age who has no social life
>all the activities that take place outside are social activities
>have nobody to go outside and be social with
>every time I go outside I feel like I don't belong there and can't relate to anyone or anything
Just got my NEETbux back after 2 1/2 months because the guy who did my assessment lied on his report. Got 1000 pounds in backpay.
Might actually use it to improve my life..get driving lessons or something idk..
Turning 25 soon, lads.
Already noticed I no longer need to fap every day. I guess it's downhill from here.
>>29684220
How do normies do it? Surely there is a way to cheat this system.
what up f am, 25 kv neet on bux here, living in homeless shelters on and off since 16, kicked out at 18, droppout of everything including cc, etc etc i could go on etc
honestly, in all seriousness, im fucking GUCCI. like bux has legit made my life fucking comfy as a smug nigger after winning a melee match he should of lost. like all i do is wake up, game, 4chan, shitpost, and chill. i even made a close friend who is basically the clone of me. like i play with dude and i dont have any stress and im comfy and i legit dont even want a gf or anything
my dream is to like to out in northern canada and build a cabin there and live with 2 shiba puppers. like i daydream about it all the time. but i live on bux and have like 8k in student debt so i highly doubt ill ever be able to afford it. like i cannot express how much distaste i have for seeing people. like for me going to a shopping mall is what i imagine hell to be like. like my own personal hell is just a endless crowded shopping mall with no exits
but otherwise im fucking good. like my whole life has legit been a unending series of nightmares up until i dropped out of society and i got on bux. i hated being a kid, my parents never even remotely loved me and im pretty sure they dispise me, they always took videogames away from me, i hated school and growing up so much and i could never hold a job longer than 3 months
but like now im just smug as those anime sluts. fuck, im actually ompimistic about the future because its all going downhill. robots will made everyone unemployed and i will be laughing. and then ai will come and then make humans obsolete and i will laugh even more.
>>29684274
Weakling. I'm 28 and can still fap 4 times a day, when I have a free day. Once for all other days.
>>29684280
normies don't surely know, they just pick at people that seem weak and assume shitload of things about them
one time i told a nigger to go back to africa he did a move with his hand like he was going to hit me but didn't do shit, fucking faggots
>>29684328
>Weakling. I'm 28 and can still fap 4 times a day,
I haven't been able to do that since I was like 18.
Twice a day is already too much.
>>29684349
Sounds like you lost your mojo. You need to get it back.
>>29684298
>talking like a nignog, with almost no grap of the English language
>being proud of being on retard-welfare
>being in homeless shelters
>posting the worst anime girl out there
While you say you're laughing on the outside, I think you're dead and gone on the inside.
>>29684267
Sounds like you need to move.
Halfway through 25
>good
Got a new job at local fast food, live rent free with retired parent, got 3.7 gpa in spring semester, have my own room and bathroom, parent used to be abusive, but is in process of reforming
>not so good
Think about killing myself every day, convinced the future is hopeless, attitude is shitty, can't and don't desire to form meaningful relationships, constant flashbacks of abuse throughout life
>>29684411
Can't afford to move out, can't afford to live on my own. NEETbux only go so far.
>>29684405
grap of the English language
35 year old here
Got bad news for you guys, if your shit isn't close to becoming together by 25 its most likely not going to ever. We're the outcasts of society, I'm honestly sorry life is no fairy tail. It really does get worse and worse. You'll break and "almost do it" around 30, but you'll puss out.
>>29684328
>>29684380
>>29684274
I'm 30 and CAN fap 12 times a day if I wanted to, but I don't.
It's not even a matter of having a sex drive, it's just that masturbation and porn gets old as a meme. Anyone can lazily squeeze out a single cumdrop multiple times a day from the comfort of their computer chair with their pants still on.
I fap once every two weeks, once a week maybe, and don't even need porn.
>>29684405
If you're a NEET, there's literally nothing wrong with living on welfare. When you spend so much time in isolation, your shame levels deplete incredibly fast.
>>29683887
Doing God's work, keep at it man.
>>29684454
That sounds shitty anon, how did your failed attempt go?
>>29684447
It's a single typo, better "dan typing like dis u know like my f am i cant even capitalize the letter i like dude like like"
>>29681218
Better than usual. Started lifting again after not working out at all for a couple years. Seeing results already, which is pretty nice. Other than that, I might as well not even be alive. I sit at home literally all day every day playing vidya. I'm going to have to find a job soon because my savings are running low.
>>29684431
Do your parents work? Couldn't they help you get set up somewhere you could get a job? You always become homeless and work your way up somewhere.
>>29684527
My mum has been NEET for years due to bi-polar and depression. I can't afford to live on my own and she can't afford me to move out.
My dad just got out of the hospital a couple of weeks ago for his alcoholism. He does odd jobs and just moved in with my grandad to take care of him because he doesn't have long left.
Doing pretty well.
>25
>mechanice at luxury car dealer
>60k a year and climbing
>girlfriend who will become wife in next couple years
>want to travel to Europe and do more roadtrips, and open my own shop
>own three cars, two are ones I've always wanted
Really, I've already done a lot of shit that I want to do. I'm just building further on what I have already. I could die happily tonight, in all honesty.
It's a good feeling knowing that at 25, the rest of my life is just icing on the cake.
>>29684597
reason for r9k?
>>29684597
Where did you learn to become a mechanic?
>>29681293
it stops if you end it
>>29684462
>If you're a NEET, there's literally nothing wrong with living on welfare
No of course not, but it's certainly not something worth gloating about how "gucci" it is to be on the same level as people with downs' syndrome.
>>29684405
>>talking like a nignog, with almost no grap of the English language
i mean im sure i made gramatical errors a fucking plenty but you understood what i said, so why nitpick on spelling or other worhtless shit? dont you know proper word structure is only relevent in your cum drinking liberal english class?
>>being proud of being on retard-welfare
well i mean i wouldnt say im exactly proud of it, but i do like it and i like the lifestyle. i mean if i could do more i would, but im not exactly able.
>>being in homeless shelters
yeah in youth shelters, since i was 16. it was actually better than livign with my parents honestly
>>posting the worst anime girl out there
go back to naruto and bleach u fucking liberal bull prepping cum cuzzling whore marrying C U C K O L D
>While you say you're laughing on the outside, I think you're dead and gone on the inside.
i mean sure, believe what u want, i have a very strong distaste of people and i guess im a misanthrope, but i wouldnt go as far to say im dead and gone inside. i mean i guess i do get emo sometimes but who doesnt?
also umaru is okay, but sylph a GOAT
>"OMG your word structure is so bad and your use of the english language is laughage HAHAHA you are so uneducated and stupid"
i always deeply hated spelling nazi's. it doesnt help that im jewish either
>>29684597
>25
>60k a year and climbing
>no gf
>no travel
>no motivation to do anything
>own one car I've always wanted
I'm only a failed normie and I hate you
>>29681756
cuck isn't filtered
>>29684597
>born in 1987
>so i guess i'm 29
>isn't too bad, will get my bachelor's march next year or so
>never expected to go to uni ever
>also have a NEET, videogaming-loving gf with rich parents who bought everything in the place we live in
>even a 600$ coffee machine
>playing vidya all day, occasionally studying some particle physics
not so good:
>in depth 7000$ and rising, cause i'm going to be a student till i'm 33 or something
>>29681756
The Trinity is complete. Chad, Stacy, Chuck.
>>29684817
>Chuck
Have we just witnessed the birth of a new ebin meme?
>>29684814
i meant *debt
Just turned 30 this year. i am also homeless now as of june. .
I have a job and car, so its not all bad, but i need to get a camper before winter hits, then i need to find some place to park it.
I may lose my job though, which means im well and truly fucked in that case.
I dunno. Things may finally improve for me or ill permafucked and die in the cold.
Wish me luck you fucks.
Anyone else finally trying to get their shit together at 25? I just got my high school equivalency and am gonna try to go to college
I don't think I can take being a virgin and a loser working retail for the rest of my life
>>29684817
PRAISE KEK - he has delivered unto us the final piece of the puzzle
>>29684793
>but you understood what i said, so why nitpick on spelling or other worhtless shit?
Because it makes you sound completely retarded. You type like a 12 year old girl, or a 38 year old black man from the ghetto, a mix of the two really.
question for those who havent fucked yet
does sex feel like some kind of alien concept to you as well? giving yourself up like that... letting her see you like that, her liking you that much?
I can't even imagine someone loving me in that
Being that close, thinking of me in an "attractive" way like that
Ive started to accept that ill never have sex, that ill never pass the barrier of talking to a girl like any other girl would, and flirting and getting her into bed.
It's so far away
>>29684949
>Because it makes you sound completely retarded. You type like a 12 year old girl, or a 38 year old black man from the ghetto, a mix of the two really.
>"i think u sound silly! XD"
okay i guess. thanks-aronies there oniichan
dont forget to hit that upboat button on your new facebook feed eks deeeeeee
27. I have a degree and a decent job in IT except my drive to work is one hour. No friends for a couple years now and I've never had a girlfriend. I've been having chronic pain issues in my gut for a year now and the docs haven't been able to help. I am in pain all the time now.
I am moving out soon, I am not sure where. I want to buy a house in the country side and work from home and stop driving two hours every day. I want my pain issues to stop. It is getting harder and harder to cope with my current life.
>>29684765
well, i mean the lifestyle itself is fucking lovely dude
no stress, no boss telling you what to do, no alarm clock
you sleep in every day no matter what. EVERY DAY. i dont remember the last time i didnt sleep in. i dont have to see people i hate everyday and work with them. i dont have to put up with anyones bullshit
im just a free shitposting soul who games, watches anime clips and masturbates all day
how is that not gucci?
>>29684803
it only uncensored that if you whack off to k_u_c_k porn you kek
>>29684949
I've got the strong feeling, that he's deaf. they usually aren't very good when it comes to grammar, which is understandable because they (or most of them) communicate visually. I may be mistaken and he's lived for too long on the streets
>>29685068
I'm a NEET and my life is complete shit. I go to bed wide awake in the morning and wake up tired in the afternoon. I have nothing to do but to talk to other retards on r9k. I have no chance of ever getting laid again or to make any progress as a person.
It's a self-imposed prison.
>>29685019
Who is the question for? The normies will say lol virgin and the others will just agree with you.
Just remember sex really doesn't mean that much to normies. It's not about love. They see and talk and fuck so many people it's just a form of solitary masturbation with more than one person in the room. Rarely do they remember people they fuck.
>>29685102
LOLHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAH
good one m80
honestly tho ive failed english so many times ive lost count. i never got the whole "u have to put these words in a N I C E structure to express the exact same idea XDDD" english class thing
only thing i was ever good in school was math actually. i had like 90's in math failed everything else
>>29683334
>all while growing up having a wife and family just seemed like something that happens inevitably
>tfw realizing it will simply never happen
>>29685135
>u
That's what I meant, 12 year old girls who text each other write "you" as "u". You're a grown ass semi-intelligent man, write like one.
>>29684885
>>29684817
>chuck
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=RoG8YL9kqO0
>>29681218
I'm 27 and housebound with an extremely painful and disorienting neurological condition. I've been living with my parents for the past 4 years.
Most days I think about suicide but I'm afraid of death and I still derive vague pleasure from my hobbies and interests.
>>29681218
26. Have a graduate degree, a well-paying job, no major health issues. Realized recently that I'm getting close to 30 and don't really have anything. Last time I had sex I was 14, not sure I'll ever have it again.
>>29684878
me
i just learned skills through the internet and freelancing
>>29684803
But T B H is desu
I feel kinda bad because I got really mad at the use of "desu" everywhere and now I realise that half of it was probably word filter. Tbh isn't much better, desu is just the weeaboo version of DESU
>>29681218
i was a grad school robot and now im a wagecuck robot
that's about it
technically working is better than the poverty and instability of grad school but being wiped out every night after the 8 hour day plus hour long commute sucks
and i relapsed on alcohol because of the fatigue
and i dont get paid enough
>29
>about 33k a year
>basically non existent social life
>mostly ok with life despite some loneliness
Thinking of going to college to study math because I like math.
>>29681610
i feel you bro
i had to get a master's degree from an ivy league school simply for the PRIVILEGE OF BEING A WAGEKEK
>>29685735
I hear the alcohol part
>Resolved to cut down on drinking in 2016
>Got new job
>Long hours, extra long commute, high-stress, soulless work that wasn't laid out in the job description
Alcoholism is my only friend.
>>29685736
Pure math is the comfiest shit ever. Too bad you can't get work without a good amount of stat and applied math credits, I'd do this shit for a living if I had the brain for it.
>>29685762
haha yeah wonder why they never write >"anything remotely interesting about this job is going to be gone by your second month, and we will make you stay at the office every day until you want to scream from boredom and the good mood you started the day with has utterly disappeared."
in the job descriptions
i guess they just assume everyone's a normie who leaves work with a smile on their face ready to whip up a healthy dinner and then go for a run with their girlfriend
>>29684817
TOP CHUCK
>>29685450
I am 30. fell for the AlphaBux meme. Fuck your career and become goodlooking if you want dat puss. Or, dominate other men.
Grunt-tier engineers make bank $$$ but don't get sex.
>>29685813
geoff? is u, lone tree fag?
>>29685813
One of my problems comes from being an amerifat that has to pay out of the ass for education.
I have a lot math books that I do in my own time, but don't think it will help me get a job because no piece of paper.
It will make the first two years or so of bachelor's pretty easy though
>>29685019
the idea of sex makes me very uncomfortable. even though I women attractive and fap, I'm not sure I could have sex or at least ever enjoy it.
>>29683334
> money
> looks
> charm
3 = chad tier
2 = marriage tier
1 = divorcerape tier
0 = foreveralone tier
"Getting married" doesn't stop one from moving up or down this scale.
>>29686151
No
>>29686189
One thing I found during undergrad was that it's really easy to forget to practice the more trivial problems, which can lead to time management issues in exams.
>>29683373
>Just want to lose it to a virgin girl
Never gonna happen bro. Virgins only fuck Chads. They don't know better; why would they EVER pick the awkward guy over the handsome charming (lying) guy?
The only way to fuck a virgin in America is to fuck 30 other women first.
>>29686436
this
and this also completely sums up why feminism was a mistake and women's liberation has sounded the death knell of the west
26 here.
not holding up so well.
gfs dog bit the shit out of my right hand unprovoked. had to go to the doctor and get antibiotics and a tetanus booster. can't go to work for the time being because I can't do my job if I can't use my hand. and in my state its the law that the doctors have to report animal bites to the police. so long story short my gf is pissed at me because she thinks Im trying tobget her slapped with a fine and get her dog taken away, and is trying to make me out as the bad guy when I'm the one who was attacked. I told the police I don't want to press charges. and if it was up to me the police wouldn't have been involved at all. damn government sticking their noses into a bad situation and making it worse. but anyway the dog is getting quarantined for 10days by animal control. gf is pissed and won't listen to me. honestly not sure if I have a gf anymore, but I'd rather be alone than with a girl who cares more about a fucking animal than me.
26 here, generally feeling lost and unmotivated.
I know what i need to do, ive just lost that "spark".
I have nothing to complain about honestly.
Just gotta take it one day at a time.
>>29686678
Get out now. You're nothing to her.
You're getting a huge neon-lit look into the future with this bitch when she poops out a kid. You'll be roadkill.
>>29684642
Because I do identify with yall on some level. Normies do suck and the world is a cruel place. A lot of people find me too weird.
>>29684684
Dad helped me get started. Taught me sone of his knowledge, gave me his old broken down truck, and I took it from there. I'm now ripping into engines on 80k dollar cars.
>>29684800
Im sorry
>>29684814
Do what makes you happy. Fuck everybody else
25 year old robot reporting in
>still a virgin
>no real education
>doing some IT program here in Utah not sure if I will pass it
How do I get my own place to live? I am staying at my uncles and don't know what to do to get an apartment or something.
>>29681218
Fresh-off-the-boat 25yo here. I no longer desire a romantic relationship with women, not because it's not an inherently desirable thing but because it's virtually impossible to find one who could ever like an ugly sperg like me who isn't a complete slut.
I no longer want to make money or even particularly to have friends, I just want to live on my own property and have some job making at least a bit above minimum wage. Generally speaking, I desire to die alone, and unfortunately have a loving family that makes it socially unacceptable to just kill myself when I get bored.
>>29681218
I don't know what to do with myself anymore, and I'm not sure that I care. I'm 27 years old, never had a GF, and all my friends have moved on to wherever they are now.
I'm slowly waiting to die, and my only hope is that I find the strength to end it sooner on my own terms.
30. had the girl of my dreams a couple years ago. true 10/10 even by r9k standards (she was a virgin too). like all good things in my life though, it was short lived happiness. she left me. guess it's not surprising, she was 16 when we met, 20 when she left me. people change. but it hurt a lot, because i never had shit before her. no friends or social life. after that i got a job, got pretty fit because it was incredibly fucking hard, bought a motorcycle. things sucked but were ok, i always felt good when i was vrooming, no matter what. but one day, coming home from work, an SUV turned right in my path. bam. just like that, my bike was gone. my job. my health. i'm back to where i started before i met her but now i'm fucking 30 and it all fees so hopeless. i'm pretty set on suicide when my savings dry up, but i won't be going alone.
i didn't deserve this shit life
>>29686119
I don't really want just sex. What I really want is a gf, somebody who can be my wife and give me children (lol). I really need to lose some weight and gain some muscle but yet again today I spent the entire day playing vidya and watching Netflix.
I gotta quit drinking. Its still really fun and enables me to function socially. But my body is dying from the inside out.
>>29687985
>I really need to lose some weight and gain some muscle
tfw started wearing tanktops like pic related to highlight to myself how much belly I'm getting and how pathetic my arms are
tfw it's kind of working
>>29681504
Is this a new thing now, not having children due to a pessimistic view of our future? Fuck
>>29688407
Nope. It's been around quite awhile
https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Antinatalism
>>29684793
You're fucking awesome
>>29683810
>few years later and it's like I know nearly with complete certainty no matter what I do there's no way to have a decent life.
You mean for you to have a decent life? Cus I can imagine lives that are way better than non existence and that are strong enough to beat existential angst
>>29687326
Get a source of money to pay rent (AKA a job), look at apartment listings, contact people to setup a viewing for ones you like. I had to view about 6 or 7 because of faggots wanting to jew you for tiny little shitboxes or the places were just disgusting. Once you've found the place you want, don't dick around filling out an application, talk directly to the landlord and tell him you're willing to put the money down now. Always pay by cheque so it's traceable, never give cash. They'll make you sign a lease which has the terms of the rental on it. That's about it.
These are the steps I used at 24 to get a large 2br main floor really cheap.
>>29688325
Good idea, but it will also be reminding me of my gyno for which I won't be able to save up enough money in the next few years.
>>29685025
Mechanic fag here. I have chronic pain in a lot of my joints. I just accept it and move on. As long as I can move, I just keep going.
Gut pain is killer though. I have it sometimes. I would seriously evaluate your diet if you haven't. Could be related. I wish you luck.
26 years old here.
After so many years of school, I finally have a career going and just bought a place. I guess life isn't so bad, but I did have a lot of help from my mother.
Now, I want GF. Problem is, I basically have zero personality. Fun, right?
Pic non-related; just my hobby.
>>29684193
I can't ignore my innate biology anon
>>29688680
Certainly a good advise unless you live in a high COL area. For example, SF.
A robot will have a hard time finding a room in SF. Unless you make around 80k, you can forget about your own place in SF. You have to live with roommates. However, the housing market here is so competitive that you pretty much need to be a chad to get a room. Every room opening with a reasonable price gets hundreds of applications and people who bring in roommates can screen them as much as they want because they can. And the chances that a robot will be selected among hundreds of qualified applicants is sooooooo low.
>>29688699
26 and I know that feel. I don't even know how to get the personality. Do they sell it at Target?
>>29687048
you're right man. to me it isn't even about the wound from the bite. I'll be ok eventually. the wound will heal and the pain will fade. its the fact that she's treating me like shit for daring to be bitten by her dog! I can't trust her.
>>29683373
I've had sex with both virgins and non-virgins and desu I preferred the latter. Ofc the former turned into the latter. All I'm saying is women are more fun in bed once they've had enough experience to know what they are doing, but not too much experience to ever love anyone again or consider anyone good enough again. It's a fine line seemingly. You want to be number 1-6 or so I think.
>>29685068
It seems Gucci cus you're a loser and that's what you like doing. One day it will hit you like a bag of rocks that you're a loser who contributed nothing and felt nothing special
27 y/o here
People younger than me keep getting gayer and more lobotomized by the minute, people my age are all married and fully cucked, people older than me are bluepilled af and sit around watching sports and laughing at shit comedy.
My 20's are coming to an end, hair is falling out, and I'm still for all intents and purposes a NEET with an inheritance that just has to pretend to work or go to school till my parents die.
>>29688936
Love how people with no social life judge the younger generation. As if you know what they're really doing.
>>29688798
After going through numerous dates on OKC/Tinder or whatever, I just realized that I really fucking suck.
>>29689063
Well, then the real question is why chad doesn't suck and you do.
>>29688799
dog bitten anon here again
wanted to add that she knew her dog gets aggressive around strangers but she didn't bother to kennel it or put it on a leash the first time I met it? I had no warning. she opened the door, dog lunged and my hand was bleeding. I had no time to react, no indication that I was about to be bitten. and she is blaming me for "trying to get the family dog taken away" ? are you fucking kidding me? too many dog owners out there that don't train them well. and then they turn around and say "I dindu nothin" when their dog attacks someone. if you can't handle the responsibility and the consequences of neglecting the responsibility, then don't get a fucking dog! goddamnit I'm so pissed off right now!
How many hours of professional driving instruction should I go through prior to taking the lisence test? I'm 27 and never driven before in my life.
>31
>$9979 in credit card debt
>Roughly the same in education debt but it only adjust with inflation, no interest
>No completed degree despite that debt
>Shit tier job which I've been at for over 8 years
>Haven't had sex with someone who isn't a prostitute for 7 years
>Alcoholic - cut back the last few weeks. Looking to quit very soon
>No close friends, some people in my life would wall consider me a friend but for all intents and purpose they're just people I know. I see most of them probably three times a year max.
>No fulfilling hobbies or interests - all my free time is devoted to shitposting, watching sitcom re-runs or familiar movies and getting drunk alone
This is not what I expected my life to be. I really need to incorporate significant changes into my life and as soon as possible. There's so many things wrong with my life though.
>>29686678
Your gf sounds awful. Self-righteous and refusing to communicate. Envision that attitude if you ever end up negotiating a divorce with her. She sounds like she would destroy you.
>>29689411
exactly and I don't want to put myself in that position.
you know, /r9k/ likes to whine about
>tfw no gf
but I think a lot of anons don't understand the bad sides of having a gf.
>>29688915
LOL. This is the dumbest shit I have ever seen. I went to a top 5 school, made >250k a year in the tech industry, whatever, and look NOBODY is important. Even the large-scale business owners I've met alluded to not feeling particularly important in the grand scheme of things. One just sold out after competitive conditions changed-- does that make him a "loser"? You are absolutely retarded if you think that anything you do will ever 'matter' to human history, and anyway we're just a thin organic reaction layer on one of a hundred billion random planets in one of a hundred billion galaxies. Get over yourself.
>>29682973
So...
You're implying it'll get better?
Deer gawd I hope so
Anyway, I think 25 is a good oportunity to get my shit together.
It feels like "oh shit I've been wasting my life and I'm getting old, either I get my shit together or I start preparing the retirement plan
I'll do both, juss in case.
Actually this is the year I decided my retirement plan, feels good because no strings attached
>>29689524
Life is mostly struggle and suffering and working much too hard for much too little. Particularly for men in the modern world. Technology isn't making it much better at this point either, except for corporations.
>>29689221
>I really need to incorporate significant changes into my life and as soon as possible.
You can begin today, and it's great that you're not so far gone you don't believe you can change.
Also, enjoyed your writing.
>>29689770
you're right and I've worked too damn hard to get out of NEETdom and live on my own and be somewhat financially solvent to potentially throw it all away for some pussy.
>>29689850
g...guys? can I be a robot again? or is it too late for me :/
>>29689908
I believed the gf hype and it bit me... quite literally...
>>29689218
Get the fuck away and let the dumb cunt get ripped up by her dog.
>26
>live with my mom
>NEET
I'm applying to grad school, but I don't think I'll get accepted. It seems like the universe wants to fuck me over every chance it gets.
>>29690012
don't worry I deleted her number
>mfw the fucking stupid dog probably bites the animal control guys when they come to quarantine it and the mongrel gets euthanized
>>29689957
Seriously fuck that bitch. Dump her ass asap and press charges/impound the dog for bonus round.
>>29690133
Im not gonna press charges (even though I pretty much have a slam dunk case). but Im done with her. and yeah hope that fucking dog gets euthanized. fucker is lucky he let go of my hand and she kenneled him before he got my steel toe boots right in the face.
>>29690187
I would have her at least pay for the medical bill.
>>29690221
eh I should but her family is having a hard time right now because her mom had a bad accident and is damn near a vegetable. I got insurance and the antibiotics only cost me a 5 dollar copay besides my insurance bill.
I may be mad but Im not heartless.
>>29689809
>You can begin today, and it's great that you're not so far gone you don't believe you can change.
I genuinely believe every person is capable of change regardless of the age or situation. The problem is most problems are created by bad habits that have become instilled in our daily routines to the point that change becomes more and more difficult with each passing year. We just become so set in our ways. For most things it truly is never too late, it will just be a shitload harder for you to force yourself to make the uncomfortable but necessary habits into your routine to change.
>Also, enjoyed your writing.
Why?
I'm going to drink myself unconscious tonight
That's how I'm holding up, OP. There's your answer
>>29690260
>tfw it's Sunday so I can't get too drunk
Got a six pack of pic related and just cracked the first. Will get me through to dinner time at which point I'll eat a meal waaay too big so that my stomach become so full I no longer desire booze.
>>29681293
31 here
thanks for being older than me sempai
hey I just want to say thanks for being here guys, and if no one else does, I sure as hell appreciate you. it might not mean much but good luck to all of you with your various situations. cheers
>>29684220
>this world is evil
This
Seriously we were put on this Earth to suffer
There is absolutely no fucking hope because it is our destiny. It will never get any better.
>>29690866
>we were put on this Earth to suffer
Get over the victim complex. We weren't put on this Earth by anything. Through any extraordinary set of circumstances life germinated on this planet and through millions of years we became creatures lucky enough to have sentience. Just because we're intelligent doesn't mean we're owed any special existence. The universe is harsh and uncaring. It has no interest in your life and you sure as hell wasn't designed for to suffer. Just to exist. Be thankful you're smart enough to comprehend it. This gives you a chance for roughly 80 years to seek out and partake in the things you enjoy before you inevitably die. Life as a person isn't some journey or ordeal. It's honestly as a bonus. Just enjoy what you can while you can. Everything else is meaningless.
>>29690246
> but her family is having a hard time right now because her mom had a bad accident and is damn near a vegetable.
Lollllllll life is suffering all around. "Life's a bitch and then you die." It's about enough to become a Buddhist.
>>29683810
I know exactly what you mean anon
Every year I age the worse it gets. It's drilled into our heads every fucking day that we don't belong in this wretched world.
All we can do is minimize the amount of suffering that we have to endure during our time here
>>29690979
heh Buddhism? just as a shit as all the rest of the religions. not trying to fedora tip here but:
"be good to have good karma and eventually be reincarnated into nothingness"
>18
>going to start college soon for biochem
>planning on going to med school right after
Other than my mom forcing me to go to work over the summer, I'm doing pretty good.
>>29690260
Underrated post. I used to be able to do that with 3 or 4 shots, many years ago. It takes quite a lot more than that now. Most of the time I just sip vodka like Aquafina these days. My liver has gotten much faster, too. On the bright side, the cheaper kinds taste about as good to me as the more expensive ones.
> Inb4 dead by 50
It will be a pleasant surprise, honestly. I used to have things that I wanted to live for, but they were all illusions and mirages and what's left isn't worth fighting for.
>>29691035
aka you can never feel good, your only choices are eternal suffering or not existing. yeah. real uplifting.
>>29691069
son, leave here and never come back. it's for your own good.
>>29690942
>Everything else is meaningless except for the things I say aren't meaningless.
How do you get to 25 and not get your life in check?
You had all that time
So many failed normies itt.
>>29691132
life doesn't care if you have your shit "in check".
you think everything is going ok, and then in a moment it is all destroyed.
obviously it is good to try to keep it together, but never take for granted that it could be annihilated in a second.
>>29691035
Nono just the parts about recognizing that suffering is about attachment to impermanent things. I could hardly care less about notions of an afterlife when identity and memory obviously die with the brain or ham-handed attempts at social reputation tracking. But I do sometimes feel like a prince who renounced futile attempts at materialistic fulfillment. I'm probably going to end up making more money anyway; at this point the stuff in my head is worth too much and companies want it. I just don't care anymore. It's complicated.
>>29691122
>Everything else is meaningless except for the things I say aren't meaningless.
>Just enjoy what you can while you can. Everything else is meaningless.
Victim complex again. The quote makes it clear that the things which make each individual happy are what gives their life meaning and everything else is not.
I guess whining is what gives your life meaning.
>>29691101
I can't it's like crack at this point. I'll try and stop when I start college.
>>29691172
hey fuck you bud. who made you King of /r9k/, Majestic Decider of Normieness? go fuck youself bitch
>>29691132
I was destined for success from 21-23. I thought life was going to be so easy. It managed to get away from me without me even realising and before I knew it I'd wasted 5 years of my life.
Life is not as easy as you think it's going to be, kid.
>>29691199
STOP NOW OR YOU WILL NEVER STOP
DAMN IT MAN I'M TRYING TO SPARE YOU OUR FATE
>>29681604
>often flipping between day and night shift mid-week or even multiple times
It's fucking irresponsible of law makers that this shit is acceptable for humans. If an animal was exposed to this torture, environmentalists would surely make a scene. It really shows how much the ruling class cares about the peasants.
>>29681610
>no money
>get married
No sympathies here.
>>29691181
enjoy the money friend, most don't have it. and I'm not saying that facetiously. if you can, go and fucking get it dude! anyone in the position to should.
>27 in fall
>no degree
>no meaningful job history, mainly bullshit manual labor temp positions I worked for a few months at a time
>no job
>never even been close to losing my virginity
>haven't had a friend in almost a decade now, can't remember the last time I "went out" for recreation
I don't give a shit anymore. I played the hand I was dealt and was promptly destroyed at the game of life. But at least I can say I played those cards with everything I had, at least I can die knowing I tried.
I feel bad for you failed norms who will suffer for many long decades yet.
>>29681629
Get on antidepressants so you can wageslave more efficiently.
>>29691069
You forgot
>doesn't know how to read
Fuck off retard
>>29681660
Change your name so people will think you are a Chad.
>>29691329
I am afraid of side effects
>>29691172
Mmm I remember a conversation with an older colleague and the owner of the company. He said "you know, in the last 10 years I've written a lot of code and had a few kids". His wife and boss completely controlled his life and he was religious on top of that. If that's success I don't fucking want it.
>>29690942
It's not a victim complex anon. It's an accurate and objective assessment of reality.
>>29690260
OP here. Also struggling with alcoholism. The only time I can ever feel somewhat happy is when I drink.
>>29691275
capitalism is a cruel master.
hey and I'm not saying communism is better, drfonetly not, but maybe the right way to run society hasn't been figured out yet. and maybe it will never be figured out.
I mean think about it. the goal in running a company is to make money at all cost. fuck efficiency and using natural resources in the most efficient way, and fuck taking care of your employees unless OSHA says something about it.
think of all the food thrown away because its "too old to sell" and all the big houses sitting unoccupied while people live on the streets. resources are wasted in the pursuit of money. and if you don't have the money and own the company you are at the mercy of those who do.
>>29690942
Fuck-off, demiurge-kun
>>29691406
>tfw turned to alcohol because finding marijuana requires being friends with people who know how to find it
a...at least I'm not breaking the law anymore right guys?
Not 25 but 23. I recently graduated with a Bachelors College degree in Liberal arts or "general music studies". Its obviously not going to get me a job really so I have contemplated going back to school to do engineering. I suck at math and am considering practicing at it and reading books and I never expressed an interest in building things but I want to do engineering for the money. Don't know what I should do but I don't want to work retail the rest of my life. I'd rather work a career with a valuable useful skill like engineering.
>>29691433
Even if you own the company you are at the mercy of blind faceless economic forces and global price volatility and the constant unending war against every single one of your competitors. Yes, you will be personally more economically secure. Economics will also force you to do terrible things to people and crush your dreams and keep you working all day every day of the week and ruin your ability to even appreciate all the pointless crap you can buy now. 'Oh a bigger house to impress my mercenary status-seeking 'friends' and wife who would divorce me if I ever stumbled.' There is little to no escape.
>>29691477
Buy it on a darknet market. They're actually a godsend for we the socially inept.
>>29691529
>there is little to no escape
death?
can't take the money with you. in that depressing way we are all equal. well until the super rich figure out immortality and become gods. while the rest of us die.
>>29691544
sounds sketchy dude. they can track us you know.
>>29691515
Sure you want to do engineering? It's gonna be tough though. You can try accounting as an alternative. Just go to a year long Master's program, study your ass off, get recruited by someone way before you graduate. You don't really need to know anything, most training is on the job.
Any 25+ neets?
>>29691544
ALSO no recourse if they take muh money and mail me oregano.
maybe I should just move to a legal state...
>>29687853
>taking out your emotions in traffic
At least you learned it is not a good idea.
>>29691363
There are treatments for side effects. Trust your good doctor.
>>29690541
Thanks anon I appreciate you too
Honestly posting here has been the most intimate human connection I have ever experienced
>>29691581
>>29691630
I've done it plenty of times with no issues. Use ones that encrypt messages, tumble bitcoins through multiple wallets before hitting the market deposit address, use a fake name at your address, and always do your homework on checking out the vendors. Never finalize-early (FE); use escrow. The system works, overall. You just have to be smart about it. If it's for personal use no one cares anyway. Dealing is another matter entirely and requires far more caution; no experience with that personally.
>>29688693
Thanks. I've tried changing my diet so far but to no effect. I eat healthy. I'll be starting a new diet soon with the doc's help.
This is the first time I've had a long term health problem and it really freaks me out sometimes. Worries I'm not going to get better and this is how the rest of my life is going to go. It wasn't going very well to begin with.
I will spend all night tossing and turning trying to get comfortable and then I have to get up and go to work. After 3 or 4 days in a row like that, I'm running on empty, totally on autopilot. I consider myself a pretty tough guy, not in the strong sense but in my ability to put up with shit. But some days lately I feel straight morbid, wondering how the fuck I am going to keep going.
>>29691660
brother I feel you.
we probably will never know each other for real. but that's the beauty of anonymity; posting what you feel without fear of personal judgement. sure people may disagree, or just troll you, but it doesn't matter because nobody will ever know it was you that said that.
anons gotta stick together as best as we anonymously can right? fuck all the negativity. as if we don't already have enough problems and stress.
>>29691653
Actually the sexual side effects are virtually untreatable and can be permanent. So are the 'brain zaps'. Don't use normal SSRIs. Look into Wellbutrin and Mirtazepine if you want ones less likely to fuck you up permanently. But don't expect more than feeling a bit less pain; for most people they don't make you feel happy per se. Also 5-HTP and SAM-e (take with a B vitamin) have been shown to be about as effective as SSRIs with literally no side effects. But it's still a subtle thing.
>>29691132
physical defects and deformities, motherfucker. Give me 40 years and nothing would change no matter how hard I try
should I cry because I'll never have a gf?
A part of me wants to cry
But another part of me just tells me to accept it
And not to give a fuck.
I hold to the latter because I havent been able to cry in years.
And because it'll probably be more painful if I let it take over
I'd rather just hold it.
Tell myself it's not important
tell myself I've accepted my loneliness and inability to have a girl
Because I never will anyway.
I mean... after all, it IS a waste of resources. I have other stuff to think about anyway
And I'd rather just give up the whole idea
I want to cry
>>29691711
not interested in dealing either for sure.
but it seems simpler for me to just move to a different state than do all that darknet sneaky mumbo jumbo.
>>29691711
Granted, you have to take into account the fact that I have suicidal tendencies and some of this is just me wanting to try various things before I go. If I ever got arrested and charged for something (I have yet to see any significant number of cases of this happening to mere customers) I could just off myself at that point. It really doesn't matter. Heads I win, tails I disappear like I likely would have anyway. It's very liberating. Really they should be grateful I haven't decided to use it for more political ends.
I feel like drinking
but if I start drinking over loneliness I'll get addicted.
I should stop smoking too before it becomes an addiction
I think I'm going to throw this tobacco away tomorrow or something
It's getting to the point where I feel like smoking out of nowhere.
Ima throw it right away because I have no one to give it to.
>>29691809
don't get a gf
or do
and then maybe you will understand that it isn't as great as it seems.
NEVER rely on others for happiness. especially a woman. it will hurt you even worse and you will end up alone again but in a worse situation than you already are.
how's that Yes song go? "Owner of a lonely heart, much better than the owner of a broken heart"?
>>29691733
>Worries I'm not going to get better and this is how the rest of my life is going to go.
I know that feel. I was perfectly healthy until I hit 30 and now I'm 31 and every time I think I've gotten one chronic pain or injury healed, two more pop up. I feel like this is what it's going to be like now, just a long, slow downhill slide of ever increasing pain and misery.
And I spent a lot of time wishing I was dead when I was young and healthy and pain free. I don't think I'm going to last long if I have to deal with all the old shit plus everything hurts all the time.
>>29691852
>or do
I am terrified of that
I've had experiences with girls already.
I spent a couple years of my life wanting to get a gf
it's exhausting and women are fucking crazy.
My rational side knows not to even try anymore
But, as much as I like loneliness, sometimes it backfires on me and it feels... well...
fuck I want to cry and still can't
>>29691864
my mentality is, no matter the situation, KEEP GOING until you die in a horribly painful pool of blood or something crazy like that. life is a bitch yes, but if you give up that bitch wins. don't give that cunt the sastisfaction.
>>29691900
the lonely will never go away brother it is hard coded into our DNA
the issue is that technology and society has evolved faster than we have. relationships are not beneficial to men in this age of chaos.
fight the lonely. fight the hunger. the thirst. do what you can to improve your own situation, and don't be selfish, but don't let anyone take advantage of you. ESPECIALLY not a woman.
>>29691901
There is no one trying to win. The universe does not care about winning. It will eventually end in everything falling into black holes and then the black holes evaporating into a sea of photons and ultimately heat death and perhaps a 'big rip'. It's just a big mathematical system evolving according to increasingly well-understood physical laws. It does not care whether or not you decide to fight.
>>29691940
y-you too
foam
Probably going to jail soon, still a virgin. What bothers me the most is that I am terribly ugly to the point that I am uncomfortable being around people because I know how it offends some people. I never wanted to participate in society, and now I am being shoved out of it. I'm totally reserved in the idea of lashing out now, no other response seems to strike a cord with me. If people just left me alone I would have been totally different. Pic very related.
>>29691956
ok so do whatever nothing matters
I can accept that
>>29691962
hang in there man. just don't put yourself in a bad position because lonely. I know it might be hard to understand but its not worth it.
Official theme song of these threads:
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=oLNC1fZD8Ww
I just turned 24. Only now I'm realizing just how close I am to being 25+ robot. I remember few years ago when I was like 21 thinking I will never come to it. And here I am now, just a year away.
>>29691964
are you going to jail for drunk driving? or am I misreading the situation?
>tfw trying to comfort anons as best I can in the face of a horribly cruel uncaring existence and skepticism, fatalism, and defeatism
I can't believe I'm the guy trying to give a pep talk. maybe it's because it somehow makes me feel a bit better about my own situation? or then again maybe I'm just retarded.
goddamnit I tried.
>>29692063
>skepticism, fatalism, and defeatism
These things make sense.
>>29692102
also nihilism
lots of depressing isms
>>29692023
I can relate
thanks
utopia
maybe we just embrace the darkness?
fuck why do I have to be optimistically pessimistic? or is it pessimistic optimism?
>>29692063
if you're the anon who responded to my loneliness
you were actually helpful and I should thank you.
Else, it's okay anon, your effort is noted
>>29692173
if it even made you feel one iota better at all, then my mission is complete.
