Well /r9k/, I have hit rock bottom. I cried infront of a prostitute.
Last night I was taken by a sudden urge of courage, so I decided to just end my loneliness and call a hooker, if only to see what it was like. I don't have much money as i'm unemployed, but i had been saving $80, so I used that.
I managed to find a girl online for that exact sum, so I called her, and arranged for her to come over. I cleaned my place up as best i could, but when she arrived it was odvious she wasn't too happy with my apartment or myself. With visible reluctance she took the money and started to get undressed. I stopped her and told her that i wanted to take it slow since it was my first time, yet the sympathy or understanding i expected to see in her face was not there.
She asked me what i wanted to do, and I mumbled that I didn't know. She seemed pissed off, so i asked her to do what she thought was best.
She grabbed my hand and moved it to her chest. This was the first time i have ever touched another human being or been touched since i was a young child, at least ten years, i flinched and pulled away. It was quite shocking.
She accused me of "fucking around" and wasting her time, I was scared she might just leave right then with my money, so I apologised and told her I wasn't used to being touched. I expected her to say something along the lines of "No surprise there", but thankfully she didn't.
She led me over to the couch and sat down next to me, she started to unzip my pants. Suddenly it was too real, I started to panic for no good reason, my chest was tight and i was shaking. Sex, to me, is something that happens on a screen, it's an abstract concept, it's not something that physically happens, it's something pretend and safe.
I realised i was terrified, then i was swamped by a feeling of intense helplesness.
I don't know why, but rather than asking her to leave, i just started to cry.
She left in disgust, with my money.
So what now? I keep thinking I'm already as low as it's possible to be, but i keep proving myself wrong.
>>29674455
You sound mentally fucked up. At least you took a chance I guess? Take more steps to be less of a fucked up loser, that was your first step.
How is that rock bottom?
Sounds like a fun night and you gained something from it.
that's why i don't go for whores, secretly they are all judging you for everything you are and everything you ask them to do.
You should have paid extra for a "girlfriend experience", not sure if they call it the same in the US. Basically an escort pretends to be your qt gf, you can kiss, hug and tell her you love her etc.
Crying in front of a whore is not rock bottom, you baby. Get over yourself.
>>29674455
Thats not rock bottom. Been there, done that. You will be alright.
>>29674556
This. Also there are several websites (at least in my piss-small country) with actual reviews of escorts. Check it out, it pays off. It is literally same as picking new computer parts - you check the reviews and experience of other users first, right? Do the same and you can have your next girl providing you with a nice, kind, easy, warming and gentle experience.
>>29674641
To continue; There are literally escorts who made their careers not by providing some kind of special services, doing something really fucked up or having extra huge/small something. There are girls who made their career by doing A+ girlfriend experience. Check out those.
You thought she would have sympathy and understanding because you were a virgin?
Did you forget that women have a seething HATRED of virgin men? Just because she's a gross hooker doesn't mean it would be any different, they hate their customers and only use them as a means to get their next drug fix, so it was like a double shot of disgust for her.
>>29674730
You know shit about escorts, anon. We are not living in 19th century anymore.
Which is a shame, really. But whore-market improved thousandfold. Which says a lot about our society though.
>>29674455
Submit this to buzzfeed with a couple more paragraphs and you stand a great chance of getting picked up, try vice too
>>29674455
It's okay. You went out of your comfort zone and tried something new, you should be proud of that. Next time try and find a more understanding hooker if you want to do it again. I am a 31yo wiz but I'm afraid I would get a girl like you had that doesn't care. I think it's more important to feel accepted by the person rather than just pay them for the physical act.
>>29674458
damn she sounds like a total cunt but most whores are
sucks that she stole your money and that's right she fucking stole it she didnt even get you off...
>>29674458
>>29674455
You deserve it for believing everything that the internet tells you.
You deserve it because you hyped up sex in unimaginable ways. It's not that big of a deal.
I went to a brothel a while back and it was no biggy. Fucked her and left.
>>29674730
>women have a seething HATRED of virgin men
Are you retarded? Most escorts on their websites or bios cater to virgins and are usually really gentle on first times. OP sounds like he got some backdoor slut.
>>29674455
Dude, get on OKcupid and get a 3/10 practice gf for that shit. Don 't you know anything?
I was the same way but after many times of being intimate with my 3/10, I'm much better now and almost ready for the real deal.
>expecting some coke whore to play mommy and therapist
lmao OP just lmao
>>29674959
>You deserve it because you hyped up sex in unimaginable ways. It's not that big of a deal.
It's exactly this type of cancerous, childish normie attitude that leads to single parents, unwanted pregnancies, and pregnant teens. "DUDE IT'S JUST SEX LMAO IT'S NOT A BIG DEAL." Yes it is, you fucking faggot. It absolutely is a big deal.
I'm glad I'm damaged in a way that I don't desire love and affection. Maybe deep in my subconscious that I do care but in my conscious mind I couldn't give two fucks.
Dude you get what you pay for.
Save up your pennies and go to Vegas and get one of those expensive whores that cost like $300, at the bunny ranch or whatever the fuck they call it, they even have special services especially for virgins kek.
Getting a $5 whore and expecting her to be sensitive and cater to your individual needs is like going to McDonalds and demanding gluten free kosher vegetarian low GI hypoallergenic free-range organic burgers or whatever, it's just not the right place for what you wanted.
>>29675053
The fact that you think it is shows how naive you are.
Sex is an integral, normal part of every day life for the average couple. It's not a big deal.
People everywhere talk about it so nonchalantly I don't know why you virgins think about it like it's the best thing to achieve in life.
The whore is prepared to suck your smiley little cock or cash and let you put things in her holes, but she is not prepared to play mommy or psychiatrist to a messed up man child. You Lund like you expected sympathy or perhaps a shoulder to cry on. She has problems of her own faggott and isn't get paid enough to dal with you shit!
>>29675083
This. Proper escorts cater for this as a part of their job and they're generally incredibly nice people who want you to have a good job. You pay for a good service and they will treat you fantastic.
New pasta gentlemen!
>>29675053
It is what it is.
Sure it should ideally be done between two responsible mature married adults in the missionary position or whatever but we live in the real world.
I honestly think that for manchildren, the best option is to go for the easy and willing option.
I'm talking Filipinas. I'm talking Chinese. I'm talking black women. I'm talking divorced women.
A nice bonus is that if you date women in their 40s, you can probably even cum in her pussy and not worry about pregnancy. Feels good man, condoms fucking suck. Once you have some experience under your belt, you can go for younger women you really want with confidence and not seem like a creeper.
Hey look I know what I'm talking about sounds morally a bit compromised but we're not living in a perfect world.
>>29675129
>40s
menopause lasts nearly 10 years and most women start late 40s all the way to late 50s
>>29675053
What's childish is your equating sex with pregnancy.
>>29675053
Virgin detected. Sex is normal as fuck. 4chan isn't the real world lad.
>>29675245
The real world is full of degenerates, and that's why everything is going to shit. Cucks like you are destroying Western civilization.
>>29674455
Idk OP not many thing hit me in the feels anymore. This, this seemed so raw, this situation seems so broken. Wow
>>29675233
Is this real life or exercise?
>>29674455
Be happy you didn't get STD
>>29676071
All those things you listed only occur if you don't use birth control. It's kind of a no-brainer.
>>29674455
Literally Catcher in the Rye.
Go kill Kanye now, or some other famous musician.
>>29674556
>tfw you're not rich enough to pay high dollar for a qt to be your sweet "gf"
>>29675083
$300 in a Vegas Brothel might get you a hj, and that's about it
I lost my virginity at a brothel outside my city.
It cost 450$ and the girl was extremely nice to me.
I suppose you get what you pay for. She took things slow with me and made it an enjoyable experience overall.
>>29674837
>BuzzFeed and Vice
>The most degenerate propaganda websites for casual sex, promiscuity, infidelity and cultural marxism
>Having any sympathy for a virgin male
>>29675129
is there such a large difference between white woman and woman of color?
went in the age of 18, with friends help found a hooker spot.
chose a big titted blonde and went with it
didn't cum, it was ok and not thrilling.
i can't believe an hour went by this fast
eventually she said i need to loosen up or something, i shaked her off
>>29677691
>degenerate
>propaganda
>cultural marxism
How does it feel to be ten miles up your own ass?
>>29677947
he doesn't feel it, he can't. His asshole is too stretched out.
>>29677947
He most likely doesn't even know what those words mean. Cultural Marxism is one of the buzzphrases circulating around here and the internet. Gullible, naive idiots like himself pick them up, thinking that using them makes them smart. He most likely feels superior and intelligent for using such a fancy, big word.
>>29674455
Aw I thought this was going to be a catcher in the rye shitpost at first
>>29674455
>>29674458
Same feels about sex. I don't know why the fuck I'm scared of sex. I just always think that I'm underage for it (under 18) and it is illegal or some shit. I get fucking panic attacks just thinking about what if time will come to have sexy time? And I'm INFP, so crying highly expected.
>>29674987
>women treat us like we are disposable
>'get a disposable gf'
why are you doing this to me r9k
>>29674510
yeah but they're whores so who gives a fuck
>>29674510
>he cares what a literal whore might think about him
You just reached the beta singularity. What a fucking loser, and that is in robot standards.
>>29678911
>>29674455
>>29674458
>I'm about to have sex
>I cry
LOL
Seriously though, sex is supposed to happen between two people who care for one another (not just looks) and trust each other.
You may be a pussy but you should not be able to purchase trust.
>>29678911
>under 18
MODS?
Underage b& pls stop shitting up our board. No one cares if you're a virgin until you're like 20, thats normal
>>29679871
Agreed underage and retarded. Please mods?
>>29675129
>manchildren
>black women
that won't work
>>29676303
birth control fails sometimes, normie retard.
>>29681248
That's what abortions are for, friend.
