So I have been thinking about this lately and I wanted to ask you guys
What is one moment that changed your entire life, or your perspective on your own / others. For better or for worse.
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The first time I heard gunshots in Flint. Not to get too /pol/ but that's what started me having a lack of respect for most blacks.
Some moment while watching Azumanga Diaoh. Osaka did something and part of my brain just broke off and died.
I started crying pure happiness and realized being a loner neet can be enjoyable.
About 5 years of suicidal depression ended that day somehow.
>>29672837
Seeing my grandpa get dementia and slowly die over time really fucked me up. I've convinced myself that I'm going to an hero if my mind starts slipping when I get older.
>>29672837
upon accquiring friends
> I actually value being left alone and having people want to hang out with you is stressful when you're not used to someone taking up your time
on a dealing with a crisis that is actually out of my control, as in literally needing a miracle turnaround
> my life was very easy before then, being KV, neet, socially awkward were self inflicted and I could have dragged myself out of that hole any time I wanted but couldn't see how my life wasn't the worst existence ever short of getting raped
on my parents
> I fucking love my parents
A Muslim girl I was in love with and was going to marry cheated on me. At that moment I realized all women are worthless cum dumpsters and started focusing on myself. I became a selfish sociopath which helped me move up in the company I work for. I also became a sadist.
>>29672837
probably when I spurned the advances of the most popular girl in middle school. If I'd dated her it would've been the normal life for me. Then again I wouldn't ever realize how shit life is and basically have no genuine angst about dying.
>>29672837
Good friend of mine dieing because a doctor fucked up his treatment.
>>29672837
When she said i don't want to talk to you anymore
months have passed and now i feel better, my breakup with her is the reason i'm on 4chan
>>29672837
When I fell in love and moved in with a cool tumblr girl. I believed in the meme egalitarian world future. It was like being blissfully ignorant. On a drug. The blue pilled. I can see why it's attractive. The world was bright.
When she cheated, we split I moved back to the city, crime and reality set back in.
I wish I could take the blue pill again.
>>29672837
I've had several of those moments throughout my life.
When I was around 8, I started thinking about the possibility of there being nothing after death, that life may be meaningless and free of intrinsic value, which plunged me into nearly a decade of reclusive, depressive nihilism. Since this happened during important, formative years, I am to this day emotionally broken and socially retarded.
Near the beginning of high school, I finally ended that chapter of my life when I realized that I was a slovenly, fat piece of shit person, and nobody would ever love me if I stayed that way. I proceeded to lose about 50lbs and change wardrobe to a more respectable business casual. I am still much more health-conscious and dressy.
From around the end of high school to my first year of college, I gradually started to see people, especially women, for the inherently flawed, ugly things that they are. It eventually struck me that my platonic ideal of a person is totally impossible; all people, no matter their genes or upbringing, share certain foul, disgusting characteristics, and I am not destined to love somebody.
the first time i actually remember being attacked by my family members for talking out of turn
i still cant speak unless spoken to, if i have a problem that requires another's help i'll just ignore it until it goes away or gets so bad others notice and help
The first time I had a bout of intrusive thoughts when I was 14.
I had sexual imagery of family members, completely ruined my self esteem which I've only recently started improving.
>>29672991
Understandable
>>29673033
That's amazing, nice job !
>>29673056
Sorry for you loss mang
>>29673067
Again, understandable
>>29673073
Oh shit, sorry mang
>>29673111
Dude that's awful
>>29673146
I've fallen for the same meme family
>>29673386
Already at 8 ? That's fucked up
>>29673417
Call the cops honestly, that's child abuse
>>29673500
I understand man, I've been through almost the same.
