In a rough mood tonight. A stacy gave me hope that I could leave my Robotness behind and then crushed it swiftly. Need something to get me through the next few hours.
Looks like I'm here to stay.
Anything by the band Carissa's Wierd
>>29671348
Tell us more what happened?
>>29671348
Plenty of soft feels songs for ya anon
"she is the sunlight"
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Xie8B6CPQKs
>>29671370
Finished highschool a month or two back. Had a crush on her for a few years and she messaged me out of the blue one day and asked to hangout. She kissed me and now hasn't responded in over a week. Just used me to make herself feel better I assume
>>29671458
What a bitch. Sorry, man. At least you didn't end up being with her and having her hurt you even more
>>29671607
Yeah. That's how I've been trying to look at it. It probably would've ended badly. I think she had some mental health issues, but then again. So does every girl I've gotten along with.
>>29671393
Good suggestion. About halfway through and am enjoying it
chill vibes op https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=5BCEufoyKS8&index=6&
>>29671946
>another anon is enjoying Trading Yesterday
There is hope after all
More Feels-ish music (very hit and miss)
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=nkqVm5aiC28
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=21YJcWdiNfI
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=-Qqo-ZNylDU
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=9FxjMdxTwag
>>29672038
Great suggestion. The rain in the background was really soothing.
>>29671692
Look at it this way, anon. I got my oneitis. I got laid and lost my virginity, and even took hers. Happy ending, right? No.
She dumped me like a year after we started dating for no legitimate reason. Keep in mind, I have Borderline Personality Disorder, and she was one of the few things I actually cared about in the world. You know what she said to help console me? The same thing she told her ex. THE GUY WHO USED TO BE MY BEST FRIEND.
Keep in mind, I like to gamble. Not with money, mind you. At this point I have nothing left, no friends, no job, no school, no family that cares about me. I grab a bottle of sleeping pills and look up the minimum amount to kill me at my weight. I take the exact minimum that I find, so that I have around a 50/50 chance of living or dying. Guess what? I live. I have the most bizarre trip of my life, but I live.
Then I do it again. I'm begging to die at this point, she keeps texting me trying to make herself look better, hell, I never even told her that I was trying to off myself. Again, I survive.
I wait a week, then you know what? I take almost half the fucking bottle. Oh, I survived. I didn't even go to the hospital. You probably don't know what sleeping pills (DPH) do in large doses, so I'll tell you. They basically give you schizophrenia. Extreme, temporary schizophrenia. I sat curled up in a corner in the fetal position being tortured by visions that I had no ability to distinguish real from false.
I woke up the next day. I woke up and I felt half normal. Every memory I have is now somewhat blurry. I cannot remember anything 100% anymore. I don't even KNOW how fucked up I am now, but I don't have the courage to off myself for good anymore, so I have to live with it.
Trust me anon, you getting fucked over by some Stacy at "18" years old is nothing. You cannot imagine how bad it can get.
>>29672167
Sorry for the harshness btw, a bit of reality is the best medicine sometimes.
>>29672167
>>29672187
Don't worry about harshness anon. I'm just looking for other people to talk to right now. My parents have been assholes. I have the money to pay rent and move out, just don't think I can find a place that would take me for less than 2 months. I'm just kind of waiting till I get to move in for college at this point.
>>29672213
Sorry mifam, I'm still kind of sore since ithappened a few days ago.
Don't you have any friends that would let you bunk with them for less than 2 months?
>>29672230
Friends aren't something I really have. I met a few people at some orientation thing for college, but I've mostly talked to them over IM, so I'm not close enough to stay with any of them. Considering messaging the uni I'm going to and asking if I can move in early, but I doubt they'd allow it.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=JIBq1Jkm7YU
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=FWWSAOqqiwI
What sorta feels are we in the mood for?
Check this guy out
True talent
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=04mfKJWDSzI
Boriginl
>>29672326
Right now I'm listening to the Braid soundtrack with a rain effect playing in the background. It's pretty comfy.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=TqOVpiXfq0o
>>29672344
>he links a knockoff triphop artist instead of linking the OG motherfuckers
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=aiUTGIr157A
OP if you want to truly feel, listen to this.
>>29672372
fuck that was good
domo origanato mr roboto
>>29672487
If you like that, here ya go:
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=gEQNAZGoZrw
Here you go my friend, this is going to make you feel even more.
Welcome to Bristol, motherfucker.
come share and play your songs here
>>29672664
https://www.dubtrack.fm/join/r9k-the-musical
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=XvSUaCly0VQ
''Calling all comas,
Prisoner on the loose
Description:
A spitting image of me
Except for a heart-shaped hole where the hope runs out
Shock me awake
Tear me apart
Pinned like a note in a hospital gown
Prison of sleep
Deepened now
A rabbit hole never to be found
Again
Where are you hiding, my love?
Cast off like a stone
Feelings, raw and exposed when I'm out of control
Pieces were stolen from me
But dare I say, given away
Watching the water give in
As I go down the drain
I appear missing now.''
>>29671348
I got you man
https://youtu.be/NY8IS0ssnXQ
