>go into depressive state whenever I am criticized in the slightest
>freak out at the smallest mistakes and become paranoid
>scared of interacting with everyone
>scared of failing which usually causes me to fail
>>29668117
Lots of this is me, should i see a doctor?
>>29668148
I've been considering going to get anti-anxiety meds but the side effects are usually horrible.
>>29668117
>get email
>don't open it until a day later
>don't respond until a week later
Even if it's not necessarily anything bad
It still terrifies me
I can't tell if I have issues that warrant seeing a professional or not
>>29668278
>get email
>don't open it until a day later
>don't respond until a week later
This is literally what triggered me to make the OP. I'm always so worried about sending simple emails. Even if it's just a document attachment I spend forever.
>>29668371
This is a big issue when talking to people.
>get message
>don't open it until a few hours after I receive it
>don't respond until like a day later
>sometimes don't respond at all because I feel like it's too late to reply at that point
Why is everything so difficult
>>29668117
i'm agoraphobic for 8 years without leaving room and have nightmares every night where i go outside and people see me, i'm too terrified to show my face/physical presence to another human being, or to even let someone hear my voice or read my words outside of an anonymous image board
if someone were to see me i'm terrified that they'll think i'm a lesser person and think badly of me, and that i'd have to kill myself to escape the fact that someone knows i exist
i've accepted that i'm a monster subhuman that will never be normal or equal to other people but i still don't want other people to look down on me in the flesh because then it's a reality and i really am nothing but garbage and i can't face that and accept it
whatever
>>29668479
Why is this so hard?
I make everything so much more awkward than it needs to be by putting it off so long. I'll write a draft and go over it word by word over and over again until I finally can summon the willpower to ignore all of my fears and press send and then feel like crap for hours after thinking about how I probably shouldn't have even sent it or I should have sent it earlier or I should have said something different or whatever. Fuck my brain.
I know that feel, I have near constant panic attacks at work as I'm forced to socialise with others (office job so atleast I can hide in the toilets when it gets really bad). My armpits are normally drenched in sweat by 10am and by 3pm I have a tremor so bad I can't even hold a pen. Can't even go to the docs because everyone always stares at me in the waiting room (why do they fucking do this every time without fail) which normally makes me walk out.
>>29668731
Yeah, I sweat so much it's so frustrating. It's a different kind of sweat from when I exercise too. It's all palms and armpits. It always happens when I'm in an uncomfortable social situation (i.e. every social situation) and it just makes it way worse.
>"Friends" start to say they want alone time
>I've heard this one before. I know how it ends.
>At first they like me, invite me to everything and never want me to go.
>One day it all stops and I never know what I did differently or wrong.
>Eventually they leave me behind, just like all the others.
>Other people do fine on their own. I do not.
>Feel like a caged animal, only worse because my own thoughts attack me.
>I know this isn't normal. Maybe I should seek help.
>But what kind of fucking loser has to pay a professional to be their friend?
That flashing exit sign keeps looking more and more enticing every time I come around this bend.
>>29668654
are you me?
i don't have nightmares though
