Hello, tonight I was at a bar with a guy who browses /x/ mostly.
I told him I hate robots and he rebutted because we hate those who are like ourselves. I never browse /r9k/ so I would like to say I am legitimately explaining how I think, I am contemplating if I need to kill myself. My brother calls me Autisimo (Au-tis-i-mo)
From this thread I hope to achieve some sort of advice on what to do to become normie. Firstly I'd like to direct you robots to the first girl I kinda had a crush on, but didn't want to bang, but she was cute so I was confused on how to react. I think it was more like, wow she's pretty I want to be friends but I sperged and now if she goes missing police will finger me. Only relation I'd had upto then was FWB a gay guy 5 years.
>http://archive.4plebs.org/adv/thread/14397548/
>7 months after school ended came across her user name, googled it, found her tumblr
>Message her a bunch on tumblr
>Been doing it since, atleast 100 messages, she hasn't disabled chat because I told her I wanted to kill myself
>Most recent was after I pissed off my brother and he wanted to kill me last week
>Her sister told the police in about May last year
>Still doing it, I don't know why
>I ask her for money every now and then
>I saw her for the first time since Nov 2014 two days ago
>wave of sadness
>I didn't even want to be friends
Current 1 year relationship with a girl, I made her call sushi 'carrots' in public because I was scared of people evesdropping on me, she told her gay best friend about it and I felt so ashamed. I make her order me subway because I don't like the questions, she's ok with it.
Random moments
>On about our 6th date I was telling her about the terrorist training manuals I've read, thinking back it was fucking weird.
>Live in Australia, my brother and I throw small sticks of gunpowder at aboriginals it's fun at the time because they yell at you in native but jesus christ
>Staying with relatives, gf left house before I got up, slept at a friends and came back next day
>Relatives were worried about me because I didn't even leave the room for water
>Used to hide behind the couch when someone knocked, now just go silent
>2nd last year of highschool I panty raided my teacher, wore her dresses and shit for weeks
>Lost virginity to a prostitute, I read 4chan sex guides so she let me come back for free a few times
>Last fortnight I remembered my childhood friend so I sent an email to my old primary school principal asking for her details and he didn't reply
>My girlfriend and her family tell me I'm autistic
>One time a kid wanted to fight and he knocked my shake away, nearly crushed his trachea
>Been bullying me for years tho
>I used to work at a hospital and I'd drive around the campus jerking off to porn with total disregard for my surroundings
>work in a slaughter house, felt nothing
My brother is a drug dealer. Last week I stole his safe, his phone and told the police on him because his girlfriend kicked me out of his room. She's a tick who hates me.
I'm going to university currently because I don't want to get a job and start working, I'm not remotely interested in studying but I have nothing else I want to do.
I'm so depressed anyone who is in the role of teaching me can smell it on me, even if I keep to myself.
The topic of my conversation earlier tonight with /x/ bro was enlightening him on the don.
He was anti-Trump but I told him all about how he's going to tax imports to even out the benefits companies who leave the US get using slave labor, all he could say was how Trump is going to start ww3, it's bullshit.
Lately I've been having the urge to punch walls out of sheer physical distress (Not anger) on how retarded I've acted, I want to take it a step further and shoot myself although my girlfriend is giving me a reason not to.
I just want friends but it's really hard. My parents were abusive as fuck and my dad was exposed to agent orange, I've read it can cause autism.
The hitting is getting worse, I noticed it after I was riding the train and I kept tapping this guy in the back because I thought he wasn't getting off at the next stop, but he was. My knuckles were bleeding after I got over it.
I remember writing a poem and sending it to the girls tumblr last year, it was for a friend of mine who killed herself, it got rejected from this poetry magazine so I stopped writing poems after that, it goes like this
>Felo de se this great beauty did she,
>her sweetest smile makes all worthwhile,
>There! an eidolon, idle upon bloodless crest,
>Rest! rest now where angels alight amid pallid moonlight.
I wish I had more friends
>you're a college graduate with a job
>Not fat, have some friends
>Cyborg tier
>This autistic bag of insanity has a gf and you don't
what the FUCK
I also forgot to mention, I asked her for money because I had problems with homelessness while completing highschool and shortly after it, before gf came along.
I don't even know if this is the right board for autism.
>>29613366
Rustled
>>29613184
>4chan sex guides
topkek senpai
