What did you cry about today friends?
I did because I'm an objective failure at everything I've done.
>>29605761
i went to go get green tea in the dark but I hit myself on an open pantry door and I spilled some of it on me.
Then I cried because I cant even do the most menial things right and I'm a fat piece of trash who's only utility is to clean up other peoples trash in a job I hate. I sit on my ass all day watching my hair fall out, playing vidyeoe geems ( but I suck at those too usually), masturbating, and browsing a Tuvan genealogy forum.
I autism a lot in front of the LA Jew community, esp. Persians. I'm the town fool even though I'm handsome and intelligent. I just do stupid and immature things and I have a speech impediment that makes me mumble sometimes so I have to really work to enunciate my words
Please pray to Hashem Elokei Yisrael for me as I surely pray for all of you
That's sad. But objectively we are some individuals among billions of other and ephemeral beings. So the feeling of sadness is done by the fat you are a subjective personn. But, to be a failure is not a bad thing finally.
>>29605761
As long as you get back up one more time than you've fallen you will have at least some dignity. Indeed, someone who has managed to pull themselves together after falling apart over and over is more respectable than someone who has known only success in some ways.
>>29605761
Fired from my job over stupid shit. I really liked that fucking job and had built up this whole fantasy idea in my head I was going to stay there a lot longer and turn it into a serious career. Feeling like I have no role in the world and questioning who I am. Feel like I should've done more with life but not sure what.
>>29605761
Earlier this morning, while listening to Pandora, a song came up that almost instantly reminded me of the fact that people are irredeemably, inherently flawed, and I will never love a real person because they all suck, and that my ideals will forever remain a fantasy. Cried a lot.
Related songand I'm crying again
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=SYM-RJwSGQ8
>>29608609
What was the said stupid shit?
>>29608666
Once every so often they drug test everyone for no reason. I do weed and nothing else. First plan is subbing and if that doesnt work I had avoided smoking for a couple weeks in advance as a backup. For the first time I managed to screw up both. Test positive, immediate fire. In a weed legal state for fucks sake. I should've known I couldn't have kept going like that.
I didn't cry, but this song really gave me the feels.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=soL8JK6kALc&index=14&list=PLYjaa9h0s4AaBuqejnJkFu3xj8su0U4CC
