ITT: Fucked up shit you've done.
>be my freshman year of high school
>in gifted classes
>starting to suffer from "i don't give a shit" syndrome
>grades starting to drop
>become fairly antisocial
>not depressed though, keep this in mind
>know a guy in the gifted class, i'll call him C
>used to be really good friends throughout middle school
>he became a jock freshman year and barely talked to me
>legit made fun of me at this point, like he forgot that we were friends for two years
>one day he comes up to me to ask me for help
>he looks genuinely fucked up, kind of a numb and broken look
>don't care, he'd been fucking with me this entire year
>told him to fuck off
>he stops talking, slowly nods and walks away
>a week later we have to do a group project in the gifted class
>he seems pretty happy, first time he seemed like that since i told him to fuck off
>teacher pairs me with him for the project for whatever reason
>he's...really nice to me for some reason, it's like we were back in middle school
>asks me if i ever played red faction: guerrilla
>say no, TPS isn't my kind of thing
>he shrugs and we do our project
>i never talk to him again
>i move like two months later to a school 4 hours away
>on the way back from a band game i get a text from an old friend
>"hey not sure if he was your friend, but C killed himself today. he shot himself with his dad's gun"
>realize just how fucked up this is
>realize that the day he came to me he probably wanted my help with whatever he was going through
>realize that i told him to fuck off when he needed my help
>realize that i may very well have been a big part in him committing suicide
>sink into depression afterwards
At least twice a year Iplay through Red Faction: Guerrilla to honor his memoryI don't even like the gameI cry every time I play itIt's been five years
I would cry too, it's a shit game
>>29600240
eh i like the open world destruction aspect but that's it
>>29600205
that really sucks.
I feel like i really wouldnt give a shit in your situation.
>>29600359
I would agree with this, but only because I've become jaded and at this point I'm not sure I'd cry if my family died.
That said, this is a sad story. What issues do you think the guy was having?
>>29600205
We cant blame ourselves for these things OP.
you have no reason to feel bad about this, you were never an asshole to him while he was being nice to you
I have a fourfer for ya.
1.
>Used to love specific off-brand Lego pieces in first grade, were exactly what I needed to make a spaceship
>Limited supply and everyone used to use them/break my shit
>Start smuggling the Lego home in my underwear since my pockets were too small for it all. Nobody took my spaceship.
2.
>Go to work, retail, meet this guy there who is a failed normie. Often tries to assimilate but is declined.
>Talk with him once, nice enough, a bit slow
>Get this odd feeling that he's going to kill himself, and that he's depressed as shit
>Look at him one day in the break room, just on his phone
>"He's gonna die soon, I should speak up or something, but it is just a hunch.
>TFW I could have prevented a person's suicide. It shook up everyone there.
3.
>Girl I knew for years, basically a sister; her Dad goes off and has an affair.
>She's getting yelled at, her mother is fighting over the phone with her Dad to come back
>I comment on how great my Mum and Dad are, and how we got some cool new family stuff
>I keep going up there and visiting, even once when she was crying her eyes out.
>I was just a kid, I had no idea.
>Fast forward to a year or two later, my parents split, and we move.
>I never gave her, or her family a proper goodbye.
4.
>Long story short, a 'friend' of mine has wronged me, and I have never really received compensation.
>This has been for 3 fucking years coming.
>I have a mental folder of EVERYTHING I can get dirt-wise on them. And even stalker-level info.
>I have compiled a method of burning them into ash if they ever pull anything too drastic on me again.
>I even know things that will shock them psychologically, maybe even make them go PTSD.
>I have set up a situation where it's now everybody vs them slowly.
>I will have done nothing truly wrong in the eyes of most people apparently.
>But I'm still an evil asshole, and the morality is in the negative either way.
>The Man Who Sold The World kinda shit.
If he made fun out of you and shit, I don't blame you. You reap what you sow, and while it's sad that he committed suicide, your apathy was a result of his actions.
>>29600205
>jock bully kills himself
Sounds like this is a feelsgood thread to me
