Nothing terrible even happened to me. I was not molested or abused. There was no great tragedy of my childhood. I have a good mother. I am of a relatively privelaged lower middle class family. My father left me at 10, but I hold no ill feelings towards him as compared to mine his life was one of orphanage, neglect and heartbreak.
Im just pure human trash. Afforded opportunities i have wholly squandered, born with the genes of a loser.
>>29599771
r u a virgin? and how old r u?
>>29599782
19. I am kv.
>my father left me at 10
That's not a minor thing.
you were probably formula fed. it's not your fault
>>29599771
You seem fairly logical and accepting OP.
You have hope. Consider eating better and hitting the gym; it really puts focus into your life and can inspire you to better yourself.
GL
>>29599809
I hardly even remember it. My siblings are both pissed and avoidant of him. I just dont really care.
He played catch with me, took me on walks. I don't think it would've changed me. Many people grew up perfectly normie in a one parent household.
>>29599816
I eat very healthy, as it's important to me, and though im not huge, (i dont want to be) i am /fit/. It hasn't changed how worthless i feel.
>>29599853
>I don't think it would've changed me. Many people grew up perfectly normie in a one parent household.
you're rationalizing. you should get some psychiatric help immediately before you do something you regret.
>>29599853
I told myself I didn't care, but now I know my father leaving severely fucked me up.
I've pushed it aside for half my life (22 now, happened when I was 11), but the reality is that is the event that set off my depression and exacerbated my anxiety/constant worrying.
Not saying everything would be perfect if that hadn't happen, but I've been steadily trending downward since I lost contact with him.
Fear of rejection, sense of abandonment, fear of forming any kind of relationship, fear of intimacy. All these things started when he left.
>>29599908
Do you go to the gym or how do you get your exercise in?
>>29599771
I feel the same way. Sometimes I think I'm just not strong enough for the world
>>29599771
As soon as I read "good mother" I knew you were a child of divorce. There's your great tragedy. That's why you're so unhappy.
>>29599970
I'm the farthest thing from violent, and im too cowardly to kill or cut myself.
>>29599972
I excersize at home with minimal equipment, using compound weighted calisthenics.
>>29600144
You should consider developing a routine at the gym. Home exercise is great but setting aside a specific time to do specific things on certain days has done wonders for me. It has increased my discipline, makes my goals and wants / need much more clear in life.
GL OP. I hope you make it brah.
>>29600195
I already went the fit path. It's a good distraction, but it doesnt change how i feel. Im just a fit bot.
>>29600269
Word. Just trying to help. The gym has really changed my life.
Also, I have lead a very similar life OP. I know the feels. I am not going to say it gets easier but I will say it CAN get better.
